I was given a period of freedom, during which I didn't have to think about the situation in northern Myanmar, I didn't need to think about the psychology of the east, I could completely let myself go, and I could think whatever I wanted.

Like, I've thought about the phrase 'people are old and loose, what are you doing' is probably not 'people don't use their muscles and bones as their ability', but 'I'm old and too lazy to fight with you, if admitting cowardice can make me quiet for a while, then admit it'.

I also thought that it is not necessarily a good thing to be young and old and have few scheming, this is likely to be a double-edged sword, while it can achieve you, it may also cause all your research results to be picked as fruits, and there will be a situation where the people in power know that you have the ability, just because you are still young and do not reuse you. At that time, how could there be any happiness, I was afraid that I would not get a chance for you, and I only thought about rebelling.

If my cranky thoughts are all true, Wang Mang, who has always been questioned as a traverser, will there really be a factor of being young and depressed when he rebels?

Look, I thought about everything, I dared to think about everything, but I didn't think about Wa State, I didn't think about these people around me.

Because, I don't want to think about it.

I have a feeling that I don't want to stay in my original unit for a minute when the thought of 'resigning' comes to mind, even if people all over the world say that as long as I leave eastern Myanmar, the building will collapse, then I want to leave.

When the dark matter in my body is completely incinerated, power, money, and lust can no longer cause any attraction to me, and I will begin to grow older and more homesick, like many middle-aged men.

It's not even a feeling, it's a 'request' that comes out of the bottom of my heart.

It's just that as the king of eastern Burma, I can't shout out, I have to do it through various means.

"Master?"

"Master Xu!"

"After the turmoil in East Shan State, we applied for our Wa State to intervene in the political situation and help them clean up the current law and order situation that cannot be dealt with in time.

"I said it all, you can't wake up our master like this, didn't Anne bring that psychiatrist to say, our master is not sick, but completely refuses to communicate with the outside world......"

When the chaotic sound rings in my ears, I am annoyed, and the 'crowding' and 'valued' that I used to think of as treasures are now disturbing my purity like a burden.

I just want to be quiet for a while, isn't that okay?

"Master?"

"Grandpa......"

"The boss has decided to allow you to go back, look at this!"

When this voice came to my ears......

Swish.

It was as if the three souls and seven spirits had returned to their places, and there was light converging in front of me, followed by the uncomfortable blindness of the light, and when I squinted my eyes slightly to adjust to the light, I found that I was lying in a hospital room at this moment.

Turning my head again, I saw Anne holding her phone and shaking it at me.

……

It was a sunny morning, I was reborn in the real world, I saw a picture of a man with glasses on Anne's phone, and then the camera pushed to his face, which became a 3D animation, and after the scalpel cut and filled his face, the kid's appearance changed.

Wait a minute!

Isn't that me?

Isn't that nonsense!

I was about to open my mouth to speak, but my body didn't seem to be ready and I immediately coughed.

Ahem!

cough ~ cough cough...... Phew!

And retching.

"Master, you're awake!"

"Doctor!"

"Doctor! Xu Ye woke up! ”

When I rolled over and retched, Anne slapped her on the back, and I quickly raised my hand to stop her, and said with great difficulty: "Next time, remember when others retched and vomited...... Don't shoot. ”

I didn't vomit anything, and I was helped back to the hospital bed by Anne.

Then the sound of footsteps in the hallway was heard, and the doctor came to me with a flashlight to shine on my eyes, and then several green-skinned soldiers entered the room and carried me from the bed to another bed where I could move, and I was pushed back and forth between the various examination instruments in the hospital all day.

However, this is the end of my feelings, because after thinking about it in bed for so many days without doing anything, the whole spiritual world is exhausted, and I tilt my head and fall asleep.

It's like ...... When I turned off the lights and watched a movie in the villa's video room, I just in time for a power outage. I mean, I'm not a movie guy in the studio, I'm in the dark.

It's like a power outage.

……

Call~

Call~

I'm X fucking you!

……

I regained consciousness again, and I was awakened by the dream words I uttered.

I forgot about the dream I had, anyway, I was in a very dangerous environment with someone, and then I opened my mouth to curse like this.

After scolding, I heard my own voice, and when I turned over, I heard my own snoring.

But after lying on my stomach for a while, when I opened my eyes again, I saw a starry sky outside the window......

I finally woke up completely on this night, as if I had never slept so much in my life, and when I woke up, I didn't want to close my eyes again.

"Brother!"

"Brother!!"

I saw Bjea with hair like a chicken coop beside the bed, and I don't know how long he guarded me, and the boy's whole face was oily.

As soon as I woke up, this kid almost didn't give me any anger: "Brother, why do you hurt?" ”

He cared about me, and he didn't take much care of the patient for fear that I would be unwell, but it sounded like pulling out the wooden thorns on my hand in the mountains, which was so uncomfortable.

But this time I didn't scold him, I stretched out my hand to him like a brother and patted him on the face.

Only then did he react, and he got up and was about to shout outside the door, but I directly opened my mouth and interrupted: "Hey! ”

Only then did Bjea look at me......

I explained, "Let me take a break, I don't want to be pushed around the hospital anymore for check-ups." ”

I spoke, and I didn't cough, and I was in a very full state of mind, except for the feeling that I had lost all my strength.

Bjea was speechless, his eyes looked at me for a while, and then at the door, as if he was thinking about whether he should listen to me.

I changed the subject: "How many days have you been guarding me?" ”

Bjea held out four fingers.

I looked up and saw the nutrient solution hanging from the hanging bottle, and then I understood why I didn't wake up for so many days, and I still didn't feel hungry.

I've seen this thing, and when I went to see a big brother in society who was stabbed with a knife and couldn't eat, this thing was hung on people's hospital beds, and it was said that it was hung when enteral nutrition could not meet nutritional needs, which seemed to include glucose, trace elements, amino acids, fat milk, vitamins or something.

"And how long have I been in such a coma?"

Bjea sat down slowly, first stretched out a full slap for the number 'five', then stretched out the two fingers of the other hand, and finally, the two hands came together.

I made him laugh angrily and scolded, "Are you dumb? ”

Only then did Bjea open his mouth and said: "Yang Rong said that I have a loud voice, let me try not to talk in the ward, and I can't quarrel with you." ”

This stinky boy......

Suddenly, my eyes heated.

"Sit, sit there."

I wiped a handful of my eyes on the sockets by rubbing my face with my hands, and I didn't know if my eyelashes were wet or not, and if people would see it.

"How's Wa doing?"

When I asked this question, I had long since lost my previous importance, but this worry has become a habit of mine.

"Brother, Wa State hasn't changed much, after you got sick, Yang Rong withdrew from the front line, and Banbula also returned to Bangkang from Meng Bo, and the two of them plus a Zhang Wenhe are now in Bangkang."

"After you wake up during the day, we will talk on the phone, Zhang Wenhe said, so that you don't have to worry about the current situation, these forces around you make you afraid, you are sick here, and the northern and southern Shan states are all in a state of tension, for fear that you will attack them."

"By the way, there is also Kokang, Li Ge is now cleaning up the Kokang stragglers with the troops, originally I took these people by the way when I led the troops to attack the county seat, but as soon as you get sick, I don't have the heart to fight......"

Bjea bowed his head as he spoke.

I laughed and scolded: "It's a big man, you're all set up a door, what are you doing." ”

Bjea looked at me and said, "Brother, I'm left with you and Yang Rong." ”

"Go!"

"Go, go, go!"

"You kid, why do you seem to be coming to my wake?"

My scolding finally gave Bjea some energy, and he quickly defended and said, "Then blame me? You don't even know how scary it is to be in a hospital bed! ”

"You can't hear our people when they are so hoarse that they can blink and breathe, like a living dead."

"Do you know how scared I was at that moment......"

Bjea doesn't lie, and he doesn't need to lie, he has become a division commander and lives on his own, and he doesn't even need to let others see his vulnerability.

I looked at those eyes full of sincerity, I didn't know how to express my emotions, whether it was my father, Huo Laosan, or Lao Qiao, they all taught me a lot of things, but they didn't teach me to express themselves.

All of us inherit the character of being ashamed to express ourselves under the unified tradition, as if 'what to pee, hold it back' is orthodox, as if 'what are you crying about' can reflect masculinity......

But what I want to say at this moment is, "Thank you." ”

I was surprised.

I was surprised that I could say these two words, and I was surprised that I was expressing my emotions.

Bjea was stunned.

raised his head and looked at me, his eyes were slightly red, and he said, "Brother, what are you talking about?" ”

I quickly turned my head: "I'm thanking God for letting me have a brother like you." ”

I don't know why I was so shy in Bjea's inquiry that I had to ramble after saying this.

Bjea slowly looked away and said, "Brother, you are a little different today than usual. "He's talking about the same me in the past, but I never believed in God.

Oh, yes.

It's not quite the same anymore.

In the past, I never feared ghosts and gods, only cared about people's hearts, and I didn't understand what the right way of heaven was, and I was an obvious vested interest.

In my eyes, interests are greater than human life, greater than family affection, and greater than everything, so I am the king.

But when I let go of all this, I completely decided in my heart to let go of all this, as if I had closed the valve that kept pumping venom into my body.

After I burned my body that had been poisoned to the point of purple......

It turned out that I had come back to life like this, or rather, the illusions that I used to see in the reflection of the glass, so dead! (End of chapter)