9:30 p.m. on July 9, 2018.

When Pang Yi and Feng Yuan had a tryst in the grove, eight-year-old Pang Qianjin was walking with He Ranran on the mountain, the walk was just an excuse, He Ranran wanted to educate Pang Qianjin in a place far away from the crowd. She told Pang Jinjin that Yangyang and Feifei's academic performance was better than him, especially Yangyang, who not only ranked first in learning, but also excelled in extracurricular development, calligraphy, painting, and piano.

"I think you just don't work hard enough, you're just playful and lazy, and you're unsettled." He Ranran's words drilled into Pang Jinjin's ears like a cannon, "Your father is just a good worker, and he doesn't want to make progress, after you are born, I specially asked the master to give you this name, just to think that you are different from him, enterprising, don't let me down." ”

Pang Jinjin walked while tearing the grass blades at will, and after tearing them off, he held them in his hands hard, squeezing out the light green liquid, and he looked at the palm of his hand gradually turning from white to green, revealing a silent smile.

"Did you hear that?!" He Ranran shook Pang Jinjin's body and shook off the leaves in his hand.

"Mom, I've worked hard, but I can't learn." Pang Jinjin raised his head, he was already wearing glasses at that time, he looked at his mother with slightly nervous eyes, hoping to get his mother's understanding and support, and even more hope to get his mother's encouragement and affirmation. He didn't know what was going on with him, maybe just like the kids in the class said, he was born stupid, but he didn't dare to say it, he knew that he would be beaten if he said it, his mother never let him say anything like he was stupid, in his mother's eyes, he was always the smartest one.

"Nonsense!" He Ranran half-squatted on the ground, holding Pang Jinjin's shoulders with both hands, trying to transfer her spiritual power to Pang Jinjin, "It's not that you can't learn, it's just that you haven't found a way for the time being, you are not worse than them, even better than them, you are the best, the smartest, the most talented, you have to believe in yourself, you can rest assured, I will help you, and I will find someone else to help you, we will definitely surpass them." ”

Pang Jinjin felt a heavy feeling of pressure on his shoulders, which made his legs weak.

"Do you understand?!" He Ranran shook Pang Jinjin vigorously, almost shaking off his glasses.

"Got it, I'm going to work hard, hard." Pang Jinjin straightened the frame with a serious face.

"That's right." He Ranran laughed, "Come, read it to me again, be aggressive, and work hard!" ”

"Mom, I want to pee." Pang enterprising said.

He Ranran got up and looked around, and pointed to the right: "Go there, there is more grass there, I'm waiting for you here." ”

Pang Jinjin trotted over and deliberately walked farther away, he didn't really want to pee, he just didn't want to listen to his mother anymore, he took off his pants and pretended to pee, when he heard a swishing sound from outside the grass, before he could lift his pants, he saw Yangyang, Yangyang also saw him, Yangyang turned to walk towards him.

"What are you doing?" Yang Yang asked.

"Pee." Pang Jinjin lifted his pants and saw Yang Yang holding a smooth wicker in his hand.

"I just saw your dad in there, gnawing on Feifei's mother's face." Yang Yang pointed back.

"You're talking nonsense." Pang Jinjin stepped forward, snatched the wicker, and pumped it in the air with a whooshing sound.

"Give me back." Yang Yang stretched out his hand, "This is what I found with great difficulty." ”

"No, it won't." Pang Jinjin rarely bullies others, but is often bullied by older children in school, but at this moment, facing Yang Yang, who is one year younger than him, looking at the stubborn expression on Yang Yang's face, he suddenly felt an inexplicable anger, he clenched the wicker, declared sovereignty and said, "This is mine." ”

"Why?" Yang Yang was a little incomprehensible, "Why are you robbing my things?" ”

"Whoever told you to be better than me in everything." When Pang Jinjin said this, he first felt a burst of sadness, he didn't know that it was inferiority, and then he felt a burst of resentment, he didn't know that it was jealousy, but he didn't put inferiority and jealousy into action, he took the wicker like a weak heart, turned around and ran.

Yang Yang was in hot pursuit, Pang Jin lost his way and ran to the other side, the grass became denser and higher, he accidentally fell, Yang Yang immediately caught up and took away the wicker. Seeing Yang Yang turn to leave, at this time, Pang Jinjin burst out of a strong counterattack emotion in his heart, he took advantage of Yang Yang's unpreparedness, both hands pushed Yang Yang hard, Yang Yang turned around before falling to the ground, grabbed his shirt collar, his neck shrugged forward with Yang Yang, but Yang Yang quickly let go, and then, he saw Yang Yang's lower body disappear, Yang Yang was hanging on a small pit, both hands grabbed the edge, he immediately reached out to pull Yang Yang, who knew that when Yang Yang's hand was holding Pang Jinjin's hand, the edge of the pit suddenly fell, Yang Yang fell. Pang Jinjin shouted twice on the side and didn't hear a response, he was frightened, turned around and ran back, wanting to call his mother to help.

The wicker lay in the grass beside it, and the blue button on Pang Jinjin's collar.

After Pang Jinjin found his mother, he panicked and told him what had just happened.

He Ranran, under the leadership of Pang Jinjin, returned to the grass to look for it, but the panicked Pang Jinjin couldn't find the location of the pothole, and only identified the place where he peed, but the place where he peed was still a little far from the pothole.

At this time, the shouts of Liang Zhe and Meng Xiaoyao came from not far away, and it was Yangyang who shouted.

"Enterprising, you remember for me, from now on, no matter who asks you, you have to say that you have never seen Yangyang and have never been here, understand?" He Ranran squatted on the ground and solemnly said to his son, "This is a very important matter, you must keep it in mind, and repeat it to me now." ”

"Is it more important than studying?" Pang Jinjin asked blankly.

"That's the number one thing." He Ranran was very serious, "Quick, repeat." ”

"Mom...... Am I hurting Yangyang? Pang Jinjin's voice was full of tears.

"Don't think about it, this has nothing to do with you." He Ran raised his voice, "Repeat!" ”

Under He Ranran's urging, Pang Jinjin repeated it three times, and the two of them made the itinerary again, and then left.

Subsequently, He Ranran saw Liang Zhe and Meng Xiaoyao, and learned that Yang Yang was gone, she eagerly helped to find it, mainly around Pang Jinjin peeing, and in the end, she found the wicker, but she didn't see the button, and then she found the small pit next to the wicker, she first wiped the wicker with a wet paper towel, and then cleaned up the traces around the pit before shouting: "Found here!" ”

At this time, Liang Zhe had already called the police, and the police were on their way.

After He Ranran found the hole, everyone came one after another, Deng Zhongquan and Liang Zhe got into it one after another, and Feng Yuan was looking for something around, Feng Yuan had already felt that something was wrong at that time, she clearly heard He Ranran and Pang Jinjin's voices in the grove, why did they say that they were not here, Feng Yuan did not debunk their lies, because it was unnecessary, and she and Pang Yi would be involved. Feng Yuan found the blue button near the pit and confirmed that it was on Pang Jinjin's shirt. After the first night of searching, Feng Yuan found a reason to ask Pang Yi to steal Pang Jinjin's Mickey Mouse shirt and give it to her. She kept the buttons along with the shirt to this day.

He Ranran didn't tell anyone about Pang Jinjin pushing Yangyang, including Pang Yi, if Pang Yi knew in advance, he wouldn't have stolen the shirt to Feng Yuan, after the shirt was gone, He Ranran was suspicious for several days, although Pang Yi repeatedly stated that he threw it because the shirt was too dirty, but this matter has been hanging in her heart and has become a heart disease, and it is precisely because of this that when Feng Yuan said the button, she would be stunned in an instant. After that, she could only let Feng Yuan handle it, even if her husband's adultery with Feng Yuan was true, she was unwilling, humiliated, and could only endure it.

After Pang Jinjin finished speaking, Liang Zhe fell into a long silence.

Five years ago, when the police searched, they judged that Yang Yang had fallen into the pothole, thinking that Yang Yang accidentally fell into it, but he didn't expect that he was pushed down by Pang Jinjin, and he didn't expect He Ranran to hide this matter in order to protect Pang Jinjin, if they had said it earlier, maybe they would have been able to find Yangyang on the spot.

Liang Zhe clenched his fists, he felt angry and even more disappointed.

"Actually, it's just an accident,......" He Ranran behind him spoke at this time, "We quickly found the pothole, and after entering, we found that Yangyang was not there, and the police also went in and searched it several times, the height of the pothole was less than two meters, if it just fell down, it would basically not be injured, he obviously had something else." ”

"Shut up!" Liang Zhe turned his head and roared angrily, the back of his hand turned blue, and the switchblade vibrated up and down.

Pang Jin on the sofa breathed a long sigh of relief, he was still very nervous when he first spoke, he swallowed and vomited for a while, and only relaxed after speaking, the string in his heart was loosened, and his body could relax. When the accident happened five years ago, he had just turned eight years old, and he was in the kind of stage where he knew things but couldn't tell right from wrong. In the past five years, as he grew up, he had a comprehensive understanding of that incident, and gradually understood that he had made a huge mistake. Often, he would dream of Yangyang, and Yangyang would ask him covered in blood: Why did you harm me? After waking up from the dream, he would have a burning sensation of ten thousand ants devouring his heart, like the ghost of Yang Yang tormenting him, and he felt that he was a sinner.

"Uncle Liang...... I'm sorry. Pang Qianjin had tears in his eyes, and his head was buried deeply, "I have told you this sentence many times in my heart, and today I finally have the opportunity to tell you in person, I am sorry for you, I am sorry for Yangyang." ”

Liang Zhe stared at Pang Jinjin closely, his eyes did not blink.

"You...... Can you forgive me? Pang Jinjin asked worriedly.

"I can't." Liang Zhe spit out two words in a deep voice.

"But I've really told the truth." Pang Jinjin looked puzzled.

"Telling the truth is the basics." Liang Zhe looked directly at Pang Jinjin, and did not hide his disgust and hatred for Pang Jinjin, "If you said it at the time, you might be forgiven, but five years have passed, and you didn't say it, if I hadn't forced you to this point today, would you have said it?" So, you can't get forgiveness anymore. You have made a big mistake, maybe you have killed someone, why should I forgive you just because you are a child? I could have called the police right now and the police arrested you, and I didn't do it because I didn't trust you. ”

"You don't believe what I'm saying?" Pang Jinjin raised his hand nervously, "I swear what I said is true." ”

"Not only do I not trust you, I don't trust anyone, who knows if you have done anything else, but I will follow this clue and look down." Liang Zhe gritted his teeth, "When I find out the truth and find Yangyang, I will punish him as he wants." Liang Zhe looked back at He Ranran and Pang Yi: "I won't let any of you go." ”

"Okay, I've said it, I've apologized and apologized, what else do you want." He Ran couldn't bear it anymore, and stepped forward to pull Pang Jinjin, "Son, let's go, this matter has nothing to do with us." ”

As soon as he took two steps out, Liang Zhe suddenly got up, pressed He Ranran's shoulder, pushed He Ranran to the wall, raised the switchblade, and stabbed He Ranran violently, with a bang, the tip of the knife stabbed into the wall against He Ranran's ear. Liang Zhe glared at He Ranran, the flames of anger burning in his eyes. At this time, there was a tinkling sound from the mobile phone, and Liang Zhe took it out and glanced at it, it was a text sent by his wife: Let them go.

Liang Zhe hesitated for a moment, pulled out the switchblade, and shouted: "Get out!" ”

He Ranran didn't say much, and pulled Pang Qianjin to leave.

Liang Zhe suddenly remembered something, and half-turned around and said, "Leave the shirt and buttons." ”

He Ranran paused, but didn't look back, Liang Zhe held the switchblade tightly in his right hand and slowly approached. He Ranran nodded at Pang Yi, Pang Yi threw his shirt to the ground, He Ranran took out a light blue button from his pocket and threw it on his shirt, then opened the door and pulled Pang Jinjin away.

Before going out, Pang Jinjin glanced back at Liang Zhe, Liang Zhe's gaze stabbed at him like a knife, he avoided that gaze like pain, opened his mouth, as if he wanted to speak, but he couldn't say it after all.

Liang Zhe picked up the shirt and buttons on the ground, looked at them silently for a while, and walked out.

He climbed a floor up, squatting in the dark stairwell, his heart ached, he couldn't figure out why they would ignore Yang Yang's life for the slightest potential risk to themselves, they could have said it on the spot, if it was really an accident, even if Yang Yang had an accident, he would forgive them, and they would not be punished either. Even strangers would not be so cold-blooded and ruthless, not to mention that they were still his best friends, before Yangyang's disappearance, the three of them had many group gatherings, leaving a lot of good memories, he always felt that the relationship between the three of them would last forever, until the child grew up, and the friendship was comparable to blood relatives.

The friendship he once prided himself on was so vulnerable.

He looked at the light blue button, through the tiny holes, he seemed to see Yang Yang in vain before the fall, he vaguely heard Yang Yang's cry for help, this sound made his eyes wet with tears. I don't know how long later, the phone clanged, and his wife sent a text, only four words, but it contained the same emotions that he could not describe in words: I hate them. He took a deep breath, stood up against the wall, and in the darkness he said in a very low, but very firm voice, "I hate them too, but it's not over yet." ”

He dragged his tired body downstairs, came to the commissary, bought a bottle of liquor, he drank while walking home, halfway through, a bottle of liquor was drunk, he was drunk, the sorrow and pain in his head were gone, he began to laugh, when the street danced, sang loudly, his right hand kept outward, like pulling a child, he turned in a circle, while saying to his right hand: "Yangyang, Dad loves you very much, do you love Daddy?" He heard a crisp voice in the air answering him, "Daddy, I love you too, you are the best and best daddy in the world." He looked up and laughed, but the tears could not stop flowing down his mouth, salty and bitter.