At this moment, it is four o'clock in the morning.

In a low-cost apartment originally rented for college students in Mapo-gu, Seoul, a young man lying on the bed suddenly shuddered, then woke up from a nightmare, opened his eyes suddenly, and opened his mouth desperately to breathe in the cold air that was not very fresh.

It wasn't until his heart's beating rate returned to normal that he sat up from the bed with a dejected face.

"How many times have I killed someone?!"

Jiang Yan, a native of Tongliang, a mountain city, just celebrated his 17th birthday in Seoul in April this year.

In this new century when the Korean Wave is becoming more and more rampant, he successfully passed the open selection of S.M in China as a junior high school student in the summer of 2012 and obtained the qualification to enter the company as an idol trainee.

Then, after a long talk with his family and careful discussion of the subsequent pros and cons, he successfully got the support of his parents, left his hometown and came to South Korea alone, and worked hard for his debut as the lowest trainee in a strange foreign country, dedicating himself to this ideal of either blessing or disaster.

Although it is undeniable that the appearance of "I want all his information" is an important weapon for Jiang Yan to fight his way out of the encirclement in the selection, his own talent is also extremely superior.

Breath, range, control, timbre, pitch, explosiveness and even emotional rendering...

All aspects of the voice hardware talent is excellent.

The net height of 187 is slightly outstanding among Kpop male idols with an average height of 175-180, but thanks to its excellent body coordination, body flexibility and acquired core strength, it has not affected the dance presentation.

On the contrary, the dance frame of the long hands and long feet is larger, giving people a more eye-catching visual effect.

As for Rap, he didn't put much effort into it.

After all, there is a saying that says...

In the Kpop field, those who sing well should be the lead singer or lead singer, and those who dance well should be the lead dancer or lead dancer.

What if you can't sing or dance?

Then act as the rap in the team!

After all, in a Kpop idol group, rapping is a position that doesn't require much talent, and can reach the debut standard just by repeated practice.

Of course, there are also a small number of people who really love this position and are improving their rap ability every day.

For example, Jiang Yan occasionally went to a few rap improvement classes with a few of his good friends to learn rap-related music theory knowledge, which was used to fill his shortcomings and make himself more versatile.

It's an ongoing process that accumulates over time.

Therefore, with the combined effect of his superior talent and hard work, Jiang Yan has divine help on the road to becoming a Kpop idol.

It's a pity that there are unforeseen circumstances...

At first, he didn't control the restless irritability of adolescence, and had a verbal altercation with several South Koreans who harassed female trainees with the identity of his predecessors in the company's practice room, and finally got into a fight.

Then when I went out shopping to relax on a rest day, I encountered a brain problem, most likely a shrimp-headed Puxin girl with paranoia of victimization.

The incident took place in a crowded subway.

When Jiang Yan was playing with her mobile phone, a woman suddenly yelled like crazy, insisted that Jiang Yan touched her buttocks, and secretly filmed her with her mobile phone.

After some arguments, the two sides insisted on their own words, although in the end because this shrimp-headed girl could not find substantive evidence, Jiang Yan still felt very depressed, should a good person be pointed at a gun?

Obviously, he didn't do anything, so he was slandered in front of the public for no reason.

And before leaving, the mentally ill woman said that she had remembered his face, and she wanted Jiang Yan to wait and see.

So what happened next was magical...

She took the initiative to expose this matter on the Internet, and successfully instigated the emotions of the little fairy through one small essay after another to carry out cyberbullying against him in an attempt to make him die.

In order to better tap the Chinese market, the company originally wanted to come forward to protect the natural choice of the new men's group debut reserve internally, but the follow-up development of things obviously exceeded their expectations.

I have to say that the female spring in this period still has a certain lethality on the South Korean Internet.

In the case of such a hot event, the cost of public relations is too great.

And there are so many trainees in the company waiting for this debut opportunity, although Jiang Yan's appearance and strength are outstanding, he is not the only one that cannot be replaced.

In their view, idols are just commercial products that are stably manufactured on an assembly line.

"Obedience" is far more important than "talent".

So under this inexplicable "combined punishment for several crimes", Jiang Yan obtained a termination contract originally worth hundreds of thousands of Chinese dollars for free to return his free body.

And a hypothetical...

"If it weren't for this incident, your talent and practice attitude would definitely be worthy of this debut position, and if you still have the idea of continuing to work hard as a trainee, the company can help find a next home that is willing to accept you."

Jiang Yan didn't have to think about it to know that S.M couldn't recommend the good seedlings they thought were worth cultivating to the giants at the same level as them, and it was very likely that he would be sent to an unknown idol company to continue to be a trainee.

But that's not what Jiang Yan really wants.

So of course he will not accept this "kindness".

Not to mention that what the company did made him feel disgusting, even he felt confused about his future at that time, and he didn't know whether to continue on the single-plank bridge where the idol's pay and gain were not proportional.

In just half a month, he changed from a promising S.M new boy group scheduled to debut reserve to a foreign unemployed vagrant with no education, no income and no background.

If someone with a bad mentality came over and experienced his ups and downs of fucking experience, I'm afraid I'd have been hiding in a dark rental house by now...

But Jiang Yan won't.

He felt that he was still optimistic.

If he is destined to be unable to go on the road of singing and dancing idols, then he will go another way!

Lu Han, Huang Zitao, Zhang Yixing, these predecessors have returned to China one after another to develop, and there are so many successful cases in front of him, he has no reason not to follow suit and try.

He's still young anyway, and there's plenty of time left.

So...

In the past few days, he has actually been researching which flight back to China is cheaper.

Ideals are beautiful.

It is rational to stop losses in time.