Today is September 26, 1978 at half past nine o'clock in the morning, the sky is high and the clouds are light, the wind is clear, eighteen-year-old Ling Fuhai and his mother Ding Ruo together in the county bus station to the countryside hometown of the bus, the hometown is in this county, but 40 kilometers away, the western mountainous area of the southeast of Nalu Huangtun Commune Zhaozhuang only 100 households in the small mountain village.

Today, I am returning to my hometown as a young man returning to my hometown, and my mood is naturally very different from when I went back to my hometown to visit relatives.

"Hey," my mother poked me on the arm and asked, "Li'er (my nickname), what are you staring out the window all the time?" How many times have I watched it, but I haven't seen enough! "She thinks I'm very abnormal today, like a dumb person all the way, barely talking, as if I've changed a person, which is completely inconsistent with our hearty and funny character." Oh," I said, turning my head and looking dumbfounded, "oh, just look at it." ”

"Hee-hee, silly boy." Seeing that I was a little confused, my mother covered her mouth and laughed, it was rare to see me like this, strange and funny, and then sighed, "Alas~~ I'm going back to my hometown to be a farmer, it's normal to have a little idea!" As she spoke, she grabbed my right hand with her left hand and clasped it tightly, patting it gently, and feeling that my mother's hand was still as smooth and gentle as before, and she had not held my hand like this for a long time.

"Oh," I said, sitting upright and putting my left hand on my mother's hand, "it's impossible to have no ideas, Mom." "It's really a mother-son connection, my mother saw through my mind at a glance, and I couldn't hide anything from her from childhood to adulthood, no wonder my mother always said that I knew what shit I was when I pouted my ass.

Thinking about it, I can't help laughing out loud, I haven't laughed like this for a long time, so to speak, since I failed the college entrance examination in the summer, I have hardly laughed much, I am depressed and aggrieved all day long, do you think, can you laugh? It's only three points away from the college entrance examination admission score line! These three points decided my fate and sent me mercilessly to the crossroads of my life, with the threshold of the university on the left and the yellow earth on the right. Now I can only pass by the university, step into the loess pit with one foot, go down (return) to the countryside to be a farmer, and say that it is a good sound to be an educated youth, but in fact it is not the same thing, and they all deal with the soil. I thought that after graduating from high school this year, I would be able to successfully pass the college entrance examination, and I would be able to step directly from middle school to the university gate in one step, which would save more trouble, but who knew that the luck was not good, and I was unwilling. Although I chose to return to my hometown because I wanted to have more time to review, retake the exam next year, and make a comeback, after all, I have to face the loess and "repair the earth" for a while to be a cropper, and I always feel that I can't get over my face, and who knows what will happen to the college entrance examination next year. Now returning to his hometown is no longer the "young master" who was pampered in the city in the past and was treated favorably by his fellow villagers, and his sense of superiority was buried in the dirt pit. If you are admitted to university and then go back to your hometown, what kind of mood is it, what kind of feeling, designating the glory of the ancestors, raising your eyebrows!

"What are you laughing at?" My mother asked, grabbing my hand. With a smile in my eyes, I was relieved to finally see me smile.

"Oh, I didn't expect it, I never dreamed of it." I grabbed the backrest of the front seat with both hands and said, "I can be a farmer in my life, but I came too suddenly, and I didn't have any mental preparation. ”

"Life is impermanent, the world is unpredictable, people should be good at facing different lives, meet challenges, and survive the fittest." My mother put her left hand on my shoulder and said earnestly, feeling like she was giving a report in the Women's Federation (my mother is the director of the County Women's Federation, although her education level is not very high, she is still in junior high school, but she has a stomach, her export is full of chapters, her mouth is like a hanging river, she is eloquent, and she is very appealing and infectious). I even heard a beautiful girl next to me who seemed to be in the city laughing and scolding me for being neurotic, in fact, she stared at me as soon as she got in the car, eighty percent saw that we were handsome, we are still quite confident in this, the person is tall and one meter eighty-four tall, the Chinese character face is bearded, thick eyebrows and big eyes, and the face is white and red (others describe it this way, it is said that this is used on the face of a lady, but I acquiesced). If you want to catch up with the usual, I have already interacted with her, just idle and have nothing to do to make fun of her to relieve boredom and laugh, this can only be blamed for her not catching up with our good mood, it is estimated that she is very aggrieved in her heart, we are so beautiful, why can't we exchange this kid for a smiling face, or even a straight eye?

"Oops," my mother said, shaking my arm and looking around, "be serious, and watch out for the impact!" ”

"Mom, you haven't taught me a lesson for a long time, I like to listen to my mother's speech, and I have benefited a lot from a set!" I glanced back and forth, left and right, deliberately dismissive of which girl (I felt her eager gaze), and then whispered to my mother.

"Go, go, go! Poor again. My mother poked me on the head and tried to hold back a laugh.

The bus suddenly shook to the left, throwing me onto my mother, almost squeezing her out of the seat, no wonder, my mother's more than 100-pound body could withstand the impact of our 160-pound heavy body.

Just now the bus that flickered enough to be afraid, the driver in order to avoid a small donkey cart, to the left slammed the steering wheel, so dangerous, at the moment is in the most precipitous "Huilongguan" (the main peak of the Huilongguan mountain range more than 400 meters, the section of the mountain high road is dangerous and steep) road section, the left side of the road is the abyss, the passenger car is slightly deviated, the consequences are unimaginable. Looking at the bottomless valley, I gasped and couldn't help but laugh at myself quietly, hehe, I almost "died before I got out of school".

"Bah, bah, why did you die before you got out of the school, nonsense, unlucky!" No, my mother gently patted me on the back with a look of resentment.

Mother is too sensitive, I shook my head and smiled, "Hehe, Mom, I'm talking about fun." ”

My mother patted me on the arm and said, "I can't play it!" A lot of things can be faked, and sometimes it's not good if you don't have superstition. ”

"Okay, okay, let's not talk about it!" I hugged my mother's arm and said, "Mom, in the future, I can just say good things and auspicious words." ”

My mother scratched my nose with her fingers and laughed, "Hee-hee, this is a good boy for mother!" ”

"Mom, I'm eighteen, an adult! He also treated me like a child. "I said that, but I was happy in my heart, and I liked that my mother treated me like I did when I was a child.

"How old are you, you're a mother's child too!" My mother grabbed my hand and said. I believe and love that.

At this moment, looking at the colorful autumn scenery outside the window, my mood has become much better, unconsciously leaning my head on my mother's shoulder and smiling slightly, my mother put one hand around my shoulder and patted my hand rhythmically and hummed the children's rhyme when I was a child, I listened and closed my eyes, I was so sleepy, I didn't sleep well last night, I had to catch up with the usual, near my hometown, it was my most excited, passion burning moment. Images of childhood kept coming back to me in my dreams.