"Why should I?" I muttered.

Lin Xuanyan put on a relaxed and happy look, and almost gritted her teeth and said: "Then how do I know, I only know that you are a sinister villain, and you have tried your best to let me, let Lu Zhaochuan, and let everyone bear the charge for your 'death'!" ”

It was a sunny day.

But I experienced the chill of winter in advance, from the soles of my feet to my head.

"Do you know why Lu Zhenyu can't face you? I fled in a hurry......"

"Lin Xuanyan!"

There was a loud shout from Xu Chen's ears. I saw him running towards us.

He grabbed me by the wrist and tried to hide me behind him, as if he wanted to shield me from all attacks.

"You don't talk nonsense here!" Maybe it was because of the sprint, Xu Chen's breath was panicked.

Lin Xuanyan: "If you don't let me say it, it doesn't mean that the facts don't exist. You were there at the time, and you came to tell her, if what I said was true! ”

I looked sideways at Xu Chen.

His face was bloody, and his eyes were pale.

Lin Xuanyan became more and more excited: "There is also Lu Zhenyu, Lu Zhenyu is also present, what's the matter, didn't she tell you?" You can ask her......"

"Have you said enough!" I broke Xu Chen's hand, walked up to Lin Xuanyan, and asked her with a smile, "Lin Xuanyan, what are you proud of and what are you expecting?" Do you want to see me cry or run away with my face covered? Do you think I will believe what you say? ”

Lin Xuanyan was stunned and looked at me in surprise.

I clenched my fist and swung it at her nose, and she screamed and crouched on the ground......

The fist stopped two centimeters above her nose.

"Run away when you see me in the future, don't let me see you again, I dare to beat you once you dare to show up." I let go of my fist, touched the bridge of her nose that was straight and straight, almost perfect, and reminded her kindly, "Your nose has cost a lot of money, and it's not easy to fix if it's crooked." ”

She was terrified and unwilling: "Don't be arrogant, I will never be afraid of you anymore!" ”

I raised my fists high and made a real fight.

Lin Xuanyan jumped back in shock.

She clutched her nose and slipped away quickly.

In order to maintain her arrogance, the precious prosthesis on the bridge of her nose disappeared immediately.

Xu Chen stood still and looked at me stunned.

Knowing that he was there, I decided to ask.

"She said...... 'I' disappearance was not an accident, but a suicide." I repeat Lin Xuanyan's words.

"No......" Xu Chen's voice stopped me from continuing.

I pressed, "Is that so?" ”

Xu Chen's expression was sad and guilty: "I'm sorry...... I don't know, I happened to be not with you at the time of the incident. I knew it too late. ”

"Was there anything unusual about 'me' before that?"

Xu Chen wanted to speak and stopped, he was silent for a long time, and he seemed to have made up his mind: "Before you disappeared, we ...... There was a quarrel. ”

Night.

I sat alone under the red maple in the atrium, taking a sip of beer.

Exposed skin clearly appreciates the autumn mood.

It's cold.

I couldn't appreciate the good of the beer, but I swallowed it one after the other, almost mechanically, and the cold bitter wine passed through my throat, and my body gradually became hot.

People say that drinking alcohol can keep out the cold.

Yes, but it shouldn't be this degree or this amount of beer.

After drinking, the heat brought by the wine was dissipated after a while. So I drank again, and drank again...... By the time I came to my senses, I had turned on my third beer.

After meeting Lin Xuanyan, I wanted to ask for leave, but Zhang Jifan never came back, so I had to give up. I noticed that after he called Xiao Ye away, he and Xiao Ye never appeared again, and the other clerks didn't know where they went.

Although I remained at my post, maintaining a calm appearance, and trying to finish my work today, I was extremely uneasy inside. During this time, every word Lin Xuanyan said lingered and echoed in the depths of my cerebral cortex. Even, I vaguely felt in my heart that what she said was true. In this way, there is a reasonable explanation for the people around me who are trying to hide my past. Are they afraid that I will repeat the mistakes of the past?

However, if you don't want to face it, is it the solution to the problem once and for all?

Even if I'm not sure, I'm convinced that it's definitely not a good idea!

I desperately need someone to talk to, someone to listen to. I searched my mind for objects, and I found that I had no one to talk to. In the end, I could only carry a few beers and sit alone in the dark atrium to drink and chew beans after everyone had fallen asleep, and "enjoy" the cool night.

At this time, Ritsu Zhaochuan's room suddenly lit up.

Ritsu Zhaochuan is at home!

I got up and rubbed my eyes.

The floor-to-ceiling windows of the entire wall are reflected in the light, like a huge lighthouse suddenly appearing in a sea of smoke.

By the time I came to my senses, I was standing under his window.

I looked through the window, through the branches of the tree, and determined the location of the Ritsu River. He was standing quietly at his desk, flipping through something. Silent for a while, I was like a woodpecker looking for food, tapping the glass with my index knuckle regularly.

He followed the sound and turned back to the window. When he saw that it was me outside the window, he was still a little stunned. Then he grabbed the black unscrewed handle and pushed it out: "What's the matter?" ”

"I suddenly disappeared because I wanted to kill myself, right?" I said the question in my heart directly, I don't care if this expression has no beginning or end, whether he can understand it.

I didn't believe anyone, but I wanted to ask him.

Lu Zhaochuan frowned: "You drank?" How much did you drink? ”

Instead of answering his question directly, I continued to ask, "You don't want to tell me the truth, because you're afraid that I'll repeat the same mistakes?" ”

Lu Zhaochuan's expression suddenly became solemn: "Who did you see today?" ”

I was drunk and pleaded, "Tell me, yes or no?" ”

"It's not." Ritsu Zhaochuan's tone was cold and firm.

"She said she saw it with her own eyes."

"She lied!"

Even if I don't mention names, he knows who I'm talking about.

"Xu Chen also said that ...... 'I' quarreled with him that day."

"What's the big deal about arguing, that day, you were still fighting with me." Lu Zhaochuan quickly replied.

Yes?

I'm wondering.

Ritsu Zhaochuan closed the window and came out of the main entrance.

He walked up to me and stretched out his hand to me: "Give me the wine." ”

At this time, I still had several cans of beer in my bag, and I took one out and handed it to him.

"All." He said.

I pursed my lips and hesitated to give it. After all, I've drunk more than I have drunk tonight.

Ritsu Zhaochuan took out all the wine in the bag, put it all on the ground, and opened it one after another.

I wondered what "ritual" he seemed to be doing, and suddenly, with a sweep of his arm, the jars were emptied, and the liquor gurgled through the cracks in the embalming wood and seeped into the dirt.

I jumped and slammed my fist into the back of Ritsu Terukawa's head.

"Ahh Ritsu Zhaochuan screamed in pain and lay to the ground.

I squatted down and quickly straightened the tanks, and my efforts barely saved some of the bottom of the tanks.

"Ritsu Zhaochuan, you have gone too far! Do you know you're doing something bad! Beer's heart hurts, they think they've done something wrong! ”

Ritsu Zhaochuan was still lying on the ground, covering the back of his head, and rolling in an exaggerated manner.

Still unfazed, I raised my hand to fight, but this time he caught my attack with a quick eye.

Lu Zhaochuan asked leisurely: "So, with your strength against me, will you commit suicide?" ”

Could it be because I drank too much alcohol? I was dizzy, as if my head was spinning at a lower rate. His words are like an esoteric riddle, rich in content and not easy to understand.

I seem to understand, and I don't seem to understand.

"Even if the sky falls, you're going to dig a hole in the ground first. Will you kill yourself? Hmph, Lin Xuanyan can fool others, but she can't fool me. ”

I recalled: "Didn't I always dream of struggling in the water, I wanted to save a little physical strength, I desperately held on to a piece of driftwood, I tried to survive, I wanted to live......"

Ritsu Zhaochuan was silent.

He rolled over and sat up straight, not getting up, but sitting directly on the ground. He picked up the jug and shook it, making sure there was still wine in it, and brought it to his lips to drink.

"Why did we fight?" What Ritsu Terukawa said just now completely piqued my interest.

Ritsu didn't answer, so I simply sat down next to him, dragged him, and continued to chase my answer.

"You're going to enjoy it, it's a nice day. There is a moon. He looked up at the sky.

"Why did we fight?" Seeing that he was about to change the subject, I hurriedly repeated the inquiry.

"I'll tell you another day. Another day, you invite wine, I drink beautifully, and I will tell you, as for today's ......" He put his arm around my shoulders, forcibly lifted my chin, and made me look up at the sky, "Today, let's look at the moon." ”

I shook his hand away and muttered, "Nonsense, there's no moon." ”

"The moon, outside the courtyard, outside the sky, in the heart."

"You haven't drunk much, why are you drunk more than me."

"Shh

He motioned for me to be quiet.

Under his influence, I looked up at the sky with bated breath.

I know there is a moon tonight, but the moon cannot be seen in the square courtyard. However, a few stars fell in sight, and thin clouds flew by, and the stars swayed in the wind, which was indeed a beautiful scenery.

I didn't have the heart to appreciate it before, and naturally I couldn't find the night charming. At this moment, under his guidance, I found that the moonlight in the city is also gentle, and the night can be so beautiful and so rich. After silently watching the night sky for a while, I quietly turned my face to look at him. I felt in a trance that it wasn't me but him who drank too much tonight. He is completely different from the past, and I actually feel that he is warm and safe at this moment.

I suddenly thought of something, I pushed him, anxious to determine the answer in my heart: "Ritsu Zhaochuan, are you comforting me?" ”

Lu Zhaochuan turned his head to look at me, and he raised his hand to rub the top of my head vigorously: "...... Am I not obvious enough, or are you not IQ enough? ”

"Definitely not my problem." I said immediately.

Ritsu raised his eyebrows, and then smiled very lightly.

Looking at his smile as light as the wind, my swaying panic disappeared in an instant.