At this time, do you still have to worry about others? How soft is Xu Chen's heart......

"Didn't you fall asleep?" I was speechless for a long time. In the end, all I can say is the pale "Didn't you fall asleep?" I looked at my empty hands with some embarrassment, and I was in a hurry, and I didn't have anything with me except my phone. I asked, "Are you hungry, I'll go out and buy you something to eat." ”

Xu Chen shook his head: "I've used the meal." ”

"So, fruit?"

"There's a lot of fruit here." When I looked, the bedside table was piled up with all kinds of fruits.

"Zhang Jifan bought it."

I came late, and I didn't meet other colleagues who sent Xu Chen to the hospital, but I met Zhang Jifan at the door. He was still in a hurry to deal with business, and he was relieved to see me coming. He briefly described Xu Chen's condition to me, and the doctor said that he had to be hospitalized and operated on as soon as possible. Zhang Jifan was a little resentful and a little self-blamed: "Xu Chen doesn't cherish himself too much, he is obviously unwell, and he insists on coming to work every day, and he has never been left behind." I don't know anything......"

Xu Chen is like this. Always thinking a lot, worrying a lot, I'd rather suffer myself than cause trouble to others.

...... "I suddenly felt guilty of sin.

Zhang Jifan sighed heavily: "May God bless our family Xu Chen." ”

I don't usually believe in ghosts and gods, but at this time, I followed Zhang Jifan and closed my eyes and prayed.

In order to resolve my helplessness and embarrassment, Xu Chen got up with difficulty, pulled the chair next to him, and invited me to sit down: "You can sit here." Talk to me. Actually, I'm so happy to see you. ”

I faithfully fulfilled my duty as a chatter, and began to dig my mind to find a topic. His potion seemed to make people sleepy, and after a while, his eyelids began to close as he sat on the head of the bed, but for some reason, he just didn't want to lie down, and kept trying to hold on.

"I'll help you lie down."

Hearing my suggestion, he suddenly opened his eyes and tried to clear himself. His movements seemed to involve something, and he frowned and closed his eyes, as if he was in pain. After a moment, he shook his head and refused: "No need." ”

I suddenly felt a heartache: "Are you ...... Can't you lie down? ”

He curled his lips and his gaze fell on my face: "No. It's reluctant to go to sleep. I'm afraid I'll fall asleep and you'll go. ”

This, what bullshit justification......

I immediately got up, rocked the head of his bed, and helped him lie down, and I acted quite aggressively: "Sleep is the best tonic." Go to sleep. ”

Xu Chen: "Are you leaving?" ”

I was embarrassed, and after a pause, I said, "You sleep, I won't leave for a while." ”

"Really?" Xu Chen held my hand. I couldn't ignore the unusually bright light in his eyes.

"Hmm." I immediately pulled out my hand to straighten the quilt for him.

Perhaps because of the red light on his body, Xu Chen's expression became straightforward from the previous subtle Huo Ran. His mind is as revealing as this, and I can't hypocritically pretend to ask: What is Xu Chen thinking...... It is precisely because I know that I feel embarrassed.

Xu Chen emphasized: "When I woke up, there was ...... I feel so relieved that my friends are around. ”

"Sleep."

Xu Chen finally closed his eyes, and within a moment, he fell asleep very deeply. I really don't know how he managed to survive just now.

"Number 36?" The nurse walked in with the folder in her hand.

"He slept." I got up and explained.

"The family of bed 36 is right?" The nurse glanced at me, pulled a slip from the folder and handed it to me, "Take this to the front desk to get something." ”

I took the order, which was to receive necessities such as water cards in the ward. Turning his head, he saw that Xu Chen was sleeping soundly, and it was just right to go and use it at this time. I asked the nurse for directions to the front desk, and I rushed over immediately with the list. Unexpectedly, the queue was winding and long, and the end of the line had reached the stairwell, and I ran to the end of the line, and it was finally my turn.

I just got my stuff out and was about to go back. Seeing Xu Chen standing alone in the corridor, he looked confused, looking around, the whole person looked panicked, as if he had lost some important treasure.

"Xu Chen." I called out to him.

He hurried back, his eyes eagerly searching until they met mine. He was slightly stunned, looking at me from afar, with a distracted expression. I thought he didn't hear and called out to him again. His dull eyes suddenly rolled, his frowning brow loosened, and then he staggered and rushed towards me.

Me: "What's going on?" ”

He held my shoulders and looked at me carefully from beginning to end, and I saw grievances and grievances on his face.

"Are you alright......"

Before I finished speaking, Xu Chen hugged me violently. I was startled, and subconsciously wanted to break free from his embrace. Xu Chen hugged him tighter, and his voice was sad: "I thought you were gone." ”

I couldn't bear to refuse, and I patted him on the back to soothe him.

With the necessary items for hospitalization, I helped him back to his room. Only then did I know that Xu Chen had pulled out the needle on his hand in order to go out. His disregard for the rules inevitably leads to criticism. The nurse admonished angrily, and Xu Chen listened obediently. As soon as the nurse left, he immediately became sunny and smiled lightly, looking in a good mood.

"You can still laugh?"

Xu Chen's breath became lively: "It turns out that disobedience is this feeling...... There is a little, subtle pleasure. ”

Listening to his description, it was as if he had gained some kind of new experience.

"Don't do that again. It's healthy and can't be joked. "I'm solemn.

"Okay." He said, complemented by a well-behaved nod.

Time flies, and in the blink of an eye, it's almost time to visit the patient. While the management of the hospital's inpatient department hadn't come to rush people away, I finally said something that I had been thinking about for a long time: "Xu Chen, about your illness, don't you plan to tell Xiao Yu about it?" ”

If Xiao Yu knew, he would definitely stay by his side every step of the way. Xu Chen's significance to her is no less than life. If she knew, she would never be invisible.

"She will definitely take care of you." I gave a reason.

"I'm causing you trouble?" Xu Chen's expression froze, and he became anxious, "...... I was able to take care of myself. No, there are also professional caregivers here and I can be well taken care of. Believe me, Star, I won't trouble you. ”

"That's not what I meant......" This is the mentality of the sick person. I am afraid that I will become a burden to others and annoy others. I have also experienced the feeling of denying my own panic. I took his hand and said, "What I think is—"

Before I could finish speaking, Xu Chen interrupted me: "Xiao Yu has her own life. At the moment, he looked serious and resolute.

"You're afraid she's worried, aren't you? However, if she knew that you were sick and hid it from her, she would be sad, and she would not be able to understand your painstaking ......"

"Not really!" Xu Chen looked at me deeply, and he confessed self-deprecatingly, "I'm not as kind as you say, I'm just warning myself not to repeat the mistakes of the past." There's an endless loop between me and her. I can't make this loop an infinite loop. That's why I didn't tell her. ”

I don't understand the meaning behind his words. However, I can hear that there is a deep bond between them.

"You can't hide it. You'd better tell Xiao Yu earlier. ”

Finally, at the end, I said this sentence anyway.

It's visitor time, I'm going home. Xu Chen hesitated and asked me, "Are you here on the day of my operation?" ”

"Come on." I say.

On the way home. I stopped and bought something. Suddenly, a chill poured from the neck into the back, it turned out that there was water pouring down upstairs, and the perpetrator hurriedly came down to apologize, saying that the child was unintentional, and repeated that the water was clean.

I waved my hand blankly.

I want to make sense of all the complications, but why do I feel that all my actions are in vain? Forward or backward is a treacherous path full of thorns.

As soon as I entered the house, I turned around and went to the kitchen first.

Turn on the kitchen lights in turn, and under the bright lights, I arrive at an empty kitchen. Yes, it's late at night, how can there be people in the kitchen, how can there still be Ritsu Zhaochuan?

The cooking table and dining table are all clean. The bowl of noodles that I didn't finish had already been cleaned up, and even the big bowl of noodles was gone. It's as if the bowl of noodles before never existed.

Somehow, a strong sense of loss welled up in my heart.

I was about to turn off the kitchen lights and go back to my room. Suddenly, I noticed something left on the kitchen floor, and I walked over to take a look. It was the sack that Ritsu Zhaochuan gave me before, and now it was lying alone on the ground, maintaining the appearance of the last time I discarded it.

The one who left it behind was me.

I carefully took the sack in my arms, took it back to my room, cut the twine with scissors, and pulled out the contents. It turned out that the inconspicuous sack hid this pillow-sized "big milk candy", which had to be held with both hands to barely hold it steady.

Is it because I told him the story of toffee before?

I carefully opened a large piece of candy wrapper on the outside, and inside was a hard-shell plastic package. The splintering sound I heard earlier was that this package shell was cracking......

I stroked the crack on it, blaming myself slightly. Holding the candy and looking out of the window, the window of Ritsu Zhaochuan's room was bright and transparent, and the night breeze stirred the white curtains, as if beckoning. He hadn't slept yet. Thinking like this, I immediately picked up the things I bought and went to Ritsu Zhaochuan. As usual, instead of ringing his doorbell, I stood in front of his floor-to-ceiling window. Looking through the fluttering curtains, I saw him sitting in a single leather chair, his head propped up and flipping through the magazines on his lap.

Even when he was reading, his eyebrows were slightly twisted, and his expression was indescribably sharp. I don't know which message provoked him, and there was a bad aura around him.

I gently knocked on the window with my fingers.

"Tuk. Sincere. Sincere. ”

Lu Zhaochuan's head moved slightly, and he stopped turning the book in an instant, but he didn't look back.

I stood silently in front of his window for a few more moments. Ritsu Zhaochuan slammed the book on his knee and threw it aside......

It was a sign that he was angry. He knew I was outside, so he didn't want to turn back.

I thought about it, put the gift on his windowsill, and turned back to my room.

As soon as I entered the house, the lights in Ritsu Terukawa's room went out, and with them, the spotlights in the courtyard.

The world outside the window was completely dark, and I stared at the darkness and wondered why the winter in the north came so early and was so cold.