Section 5
There was no entertainment today, but Chang Qiu did not stay in the studio after work, but walked on the street alone, and he almost did not take a good walk since the opening of Autumn to enjoy the beautiful night view of the city. A lot of beautiful scenery has slowly become a kind of memory. From the moment he walked out of his building, he deliberately slowed down his pace, wandering around the street alone without a goal. There is no place in this city that he needs to keep in mind at all times, just walking and moving casually. But the ghost didn't know what was going on, and when he walked to the place where he had his last memories, he stopped. A very strong desire made his feet move in the bar.
Perhaps because of the short cut of his hair, the waiter at the door did not react much other than the "welcome". It's still early, and the bar, which isn't very lively, looks as deserted as before. Chang Qiu still chose the original position, still ordered the kind of wine he had drunk, and still poured a glass and lit a cigarette and sat quietly. The layout of the store has not changed at all, it is still exactly the same as the last time I came, maybe even the customers have not changed, only Changqiu is no longer the Changqiu before.
The proprietress Tang Ying is also in the store today, sitting in the bar and the lady in the bar don't know what they are chatting about, this is a memory that will never be erased for Chang Qiu, but for the "Qingqing" bar, maybe his story is played out every day, and he has long been forgotten to the point that he doesn't know that time and space. For this, the feeling in his heart is very great, so many stories actually end in this place, and then begin. Although it was not a long time in the past, for him, it was as if it was already a kind of old man's inner memory of youth.
Just when Chang Qiu was immersed in a kind of nostalgia for the past, a voice rushed into his ears, so familiar, so familiar that his first reaction knew who it was, and it had not changed a little after a few years, and it still could hit the depths of his heart. It's her, that's right, it's her.
"Sister Tang, hello!"
"It's Qingqing, why are you here so early today?"
"I miss you, Sister Tang!"
"Poor mouth, sit down!" Tang Ying walked out of the bar counter as he spoke, and sat in a window seat with Ye Ziqing in his arms.
It seems that Song Ziqing often comes here, and he has a good relationship with Tang Ying. Both had very relaxed and pleasant smiles on their faces. Where is Chang Qiu's whole person, although sometimes he thinks that he may meet Ye Ziqing, but today's meeting makes Chang Qiu seem at a loss. Where is he alone, and even his eyes are glazed, how to do it? I don't know! What to do? I don't know? It's just that he asked again and again in his heart, over and over again, but there was no answer. It wasn't until the waiter gently reminded him that the ashes of the cigarette were about to fall that he came to his senses. Extinguishing the cigarette, Chang Qiu picked up the cup on the table and drank it in one gulp, and his mood stabilized slightly. What else can I do at this time? can only sit and watch, because he himself doesn't know how to deal with the relationship between Song Ziqing, and he doesn't even know how to face it, the only thing he can do may be the best to sit like this. He adjusted his already inconspicuous position, tried to hide himself as much as possible, and cut his hair short, believing that as long as he didn't pay special attention, he wouldn't be seen by her. He let his eyes be on the close position of the wall and the table, and lowered his head slightly.
From the corner of his eye, he couldn't see that Song Ziqing had changed much, if there was, it was more dignified than before, and he could see at a glance that it was a noble lady, and his voice, movements, and posture were almost the same as before. Why is she still in the city? Didn't she come to this city in the first place to predestined herself to leave sooner or later? Why is it still there? Has anything changed in recent years? Why did she and Tang Ying look so familiar? He couldn't give himself a proper answer, because everything seemed to be disconnected to him, and he couldn't find the way to those connections.
He drank today's wine very slowly, not because he came here today to relax, but because Song Ziqing was still here, he wasn't sure if he could escape her eyes, he was afraid of that kind of eventuality, afraid of the embarrassment after the eventuality, and really didn't know how to deal with it. Although in fact, there are still many, many emotions in his heart, but after all, it has been a long time in the past, and the heartache that Ziqing brought to himself is still in his heart and cannot be relieved. The only thing that can be done now is to control your current pace, control your mood, stay here, and everything you see with your eyes today is just a dream.
Time passed minute by minute, for Chang Qiu, he didn't know what kind of mood it was at all, the corner of his eye was always paying attention to Ye Ziqing's every move, although Song Ziqing was not sitting in his direction, but he was worried about being seen by Ye Ziqing, and his mood was entangled in contradictions. Finally Ye Ziqing left, and Tang Ying returned to the bar. Chang Qiu turned back to his slightly stiff neck, and exhaled softly but long. Raising his hand, he called the waiter to settle the bill, and he was ready to leave. But just as he walked past the bar, Tang Ying didn't know whether he said intentionally or unintentionally: "Why embarrass yourself?" ”
Chang Qiu paused, but did not look back, and continued to walk in the direction of the door, returning to the street that was already full of night in the sound of the doorman's welcome to the next visit. Could it be that Tang Ying knew it was himself early on? So did she tell Ziqing? Or did Ziqing recognize herself and tell Tang Ying again? These are all possible, and behind these possibilities there is actually nothing happening, and some may just be a change in one's mood. "Why embarrass yourself?" Are you embarrassed? What did Tang Ying's words mean?
Today's night has disappeared like a cloud in Changqiu's eyes, and the beautiful night of this city does not belong to today's Changqiu. Sometimes he really doesn't understand, what is all this for, Song Ziqing's appearance has completely changed his whole life and is already different from his original self, whether it is his mood or the way of life. originally thought that after the accident, Ziqing would no longer affect his life. But today, there is still no way to really calm down and face these things, could it be that he owed Ziqing a lot in his previous life, and he has to make himself double in this life? But why not give him this chance to repay it properly? Why do you have to give birth to so many things? Since he is not allowed to repay it, it will be better to repay it in the next life, but why let him meet it, so that those emotions that he thought could be forgotten can be eliminated.
Today's life, although it is no longer the way it used to be, but for himself, he can finally arrange his own life well, and finally he can no longer be entangled by any feelings. But he couldn't suppress Ziqing's fluttering figure, why is this?
His mood was in a trance like the chaos of the night......