Father Xu was furious and stood up with a slap on the table. Pointing at Xu Mengzhou, he yelled: "How many years have you been married to Huang Ying and you have no children?" As long as she is by your side for a day, you can't focus on your family! Even if her father is your teacher, and you have taken her in for a few years, and the great grace has been repaid, how long are you going to care about her? Is this fair to Huang Ying! ”

Xu Mengzhou was stunned.

Before Lin Yushan went to college, he just devoted himself to educating her, helping her with her homework and playing the role of an elder. Since he and Huang Ying got married, they have been working hard to get pregnant, but they have never been able to conceive. No matter how angry the father is, he shouldn't use the excuse of pregnancy.

But he has one thing that even he feels sorry for, that is, he really ignored Huang Ying emotionally.

At that time, Xu Mengzhou had just experienced that major blow that he didn't want to mention anymore, so he could only let his father arrange and marry the person his father fancied.

But a marriage that was interfered with by his parents, and a strange woman who was forced into his family and didn't understand it at all, how could he give his feelings.

When he first got married, he also tried to fall in love with Huang Ying through hard work. After all, she is now her own wife. Xu Mengzhou longed for a warm home, but Huang Ying had the same attitude as Xu's father, and they both sneered at his profession and research.

The two people in this marriage are never on the same channel.

"Whether there are children or not is a matter between me and Huang Ying, and it has nothing to do with Yushan. She's grown up and has the right to choose what she wants to do," he said slowly.

Huang Ying sobbed and stood up to support Xu's father. "Dad, don't blame Xu Mengzhou, even if we don't have children now, our relationship is very good, don't put too much pressure on him."

A cheating woman is playing the role of a victim; and the other, using his son's marriage and children as bargaining chips in exchange for benefits.

She knew exactly what the two were up to.

Although he has a heart for Xu Mengzhou, he has nothing to think about himself. As a wife, Huang Ying actually poured dirty water on her husband, she only hated herself for not taking evidence at that time to confirm Huang Ying's cheating.

Just because the other party was Xu Mengzhou's family, she tried her best to suppress the anger of being humiliated and did not defend herself.

"Lost company." Lin Yushan coldly shook off a sentence and strode away.

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At the end of March, the evening breeze swept through the streets, rolling up a chill.

When he went out, Lin Yushan took a car and was about to go back, but unexpectedly, one hand was suddenly clamped, it was Xu Mengzhou.

There was anxiety and apology in his eyes, "I know you didn't hold back from arguing with them just because of me, I'm sorry." ”

Lin Yushan knew that it was him, so he didn't look back, but said lightly: "It's okay." ”

“… Just now you said that you have a plan after graduation next year, can you tell me? Xu Mengzhou let go of the hand that was clamping her.

"Why do you suddenly ask this, do you want to know?" Lin Yushan's eyebrows moved slightly.

"Hmm."

"Next semester, the school organizes a field trip, and after that, there are no classes. I plan to join the exploration team after graduation. ”

The corners of Xu Mengzhou's mouth raised a real smile, "So confident? It seems that it is still beneficial for you to learn more about field research in advance, and now you can use it. "He doesn't usually like to laugh, but when he does, he looks very good.

"Well, in this year's midterm exam, I was the first in my class in my major." She replied proudly.

"How could you want to do this?" Xu Mengzhou's eyes flashed with a sense of longing, and he couldn't help but worry, "The exploration team is exposed to the wind and the sun, and few girls can stick to this job." ”

In fact, Lin Yushan had previously said that he would engage in geological exploration work after graduation, and Xu Mengzhou thought that she was just casually talking, but he didn't expect her to be serious.

"Why not? What I like, no matter how hard it is, I will stick to it. Lin Yushan turned his head to look at him, his eyes firm.

Xu Mengzhou was stunned, and suddenly didn't dare to look at her.

Lin Yushan and her father are too similar, and Xu Mengzhou didn't know whether to be happy or worried for a while.

"Anything else to say? I'll be leaving tomorrow. Lin Yushan pulled the broken hair on his sideburns behind his ears.

Xu Mengzhou hesitated again and again, and finally explained his intention, "Don't take my father's words to heart just now, my personal affairs with Huang Ying shouldn't involve you..."

Lin Yushan didn't wait for him to finish, "Actually, you have always understood in your heart that even if I don't appear, you and Huang Ying are not from the same world at all." ”

"This is a matter between me and Huang Ying, and it has nothing to do with you." I didn't expect her to be so direct, Xu Mengzhou's tone was a little colder.

"I know it's none of my business, stop stressing it!" She suddenly turned around and took a few steps closer, "You have to treat me like a child?" I can cooperate with you in front of outsiders. But now that I'm an adult, can't I talk to you on an equal footing? ”

"Mr. Xu, I know that you want to do a lot of things and have your own ideals, but you always can't do it." Lin Yushan's eyes dimmed, except for useless distress, she was not qualified to help him make any decisions.

"This is your life, if what you really want is a stable family, then what I can do for you and for myself is to stay away from you infinitely, the farther away the better..."Lin Yushan sighed and sat down on the stone steps next to the road, the street lamp gilding her silhouette with a pale golden halo.

"You know, I've wanted to say these things to you a long time ago, nothing else." She looked at the flickering traffic light on the opposite side, "I don't want you to sacrifice your true self and maintain this hypocritical family happiness by suppressing your ideals." Do you know why I didn't refute a word at the dinner just now? Because I understand that this will only make your life harder. ”

"Mr. Xu, I don't know why you chose to be a teacher in the end, but I know that doing geological research is what you want to do the most, and no one is qualified to let you give up." Lin Yushan stood up and looked directly at the man in front of him without hesitation.

Word by word, it was loud and sound, and it gave him a great impact.

He was surprised for a moment, then panicked again.

Xu Mengzhou doesn't like to talk, he is used to suppressing all his emotions alone.

He was surprised by the change in Lin Yushan's personality, and even more surprised that this little girl, who used to be silent and well-behaved, actually understood every inch of his mind and every trace of trouble in countless days and nights of mutual company.

A rush of blood rushed to the brain, and it was quickly suppressed by the huge self-blame.

After a silent huge tsunami swept through, Xu Mengzhou said in a dumb voice: "Go home." ”

He just stood quietly under the streetlight, forever wearing a pair of rimless glasses, always accustomed to wearing a shirt and carrying the backpack that had followed him for so many years.

He's like a delicate doll, or a sculpture. There is no breath of people, there is not a trace of superfluous emotions, there is nothing.

Her words were like pebbles being thrown into a bottomless pool, and no response was received.

Lin Yushan's gaze turned from pity to incomprehension, and finally to helplessness.

She smiled as if she was self-deprecating: "Xu Mengzhou, do you know, you are really hopeless." ”

After a sigh, Lin Yushan put his hands on Xu Mengzhou's shoulders, turned him around, and pushed him forward. "Don't leave them there yet. I'll listen to you, go back and pack your things first. ”

The two didn't say anything, Xu Mengzhou just accompanied her and waited quietly on the side of the road.

Taxi arrived. The car picked her up and drove slowly into the night.

Back at Xu Mengzhou's house, his stomach rumbled, and Lin Yushan took out a chocolate cake from the refrigerator to fill his stomach. After tidying up everything again, he went back to his room and locked the door.

turned off the light, Lin Yushan lay on the bed that had accompanied him for five years and couldn't sleep, and gently stroked the bedside table that Xu Mengzhou took him to the home market to choose in the past.

I probably won't see you again.

She thought of Xu Mengzhou's handsome face again. The bits and pieces of getting along with each other came to mind, the one who would patiently tutor her homework in the middle of the night, who would ask for leave from her school and come to her to attend the parent-teacher conference, and who would run to the school to help her get justice for the boy bullying herself.

The thought was interrupted by the sound of unlocking, it was Xu Mengzhou and Huang Ying who came back.

The house is not soundproofed. Lin Yushan's room was next to the couple's room, and when she lived here before, she sometimes couldn't sleep well, because Xu Mengzhou and Huang Ying often quarreled.

When they first got married, the two of them would argue a few words each, and later it became Huang Ying's unilateral output to him, and the content was mostly pointing fingers at Xu Mengzhou's teacher work and academic research, Xu Mengzhou would be silent for a while and not argue with her most of the time. The next morning, when the two appeared in front of Lin Yushan, Huang Ying would put on a gentle and virtuous wife again, as if the two people who quarreled yesterday did not exist.

At this time, there was a conversation between the two outside the house.

It was Huang Ying's voice, "Husband, are you going to do it today?" ”

She's not so loud that it's hard not to think she's doing it on purpose.

The person on the other side was silent for a long time, as if he was startled by these words.

Xu Mengzhou said in a deep voice: "Go back to the house and say, this is the living room." ”

"But I'm ovulating today, let's do it today, if I don't do it according to the day, when will our baby come." Huang Ying's voice softened, but the volume did not decrease, and the delicate tone seemed to make people feel like they were in a honey pot.

Xu Mengzhou gradually became impatient, "I said go back to the house." Then he lowered his voice lower, "Yushan is at home, what are you talking about." ”

Huang Ying didn't care, and urged her husband with a smile, "I know, I'll go and help you get a change of clothes first, you can take a shower quickly, it's been a tired day." ”

The conversation ended, followed by incessant pacing.

Lin Yushan was already difficult to sleep, and the chaotic pacing made her even more irritable.

Ever since she reminded Huang Ying at the funeral, she didn't feel quite right. When she hadn't moved out of their house yet, Huang Ying was still relatively polite, she never cared about Lin Yushan, and she would not destroy the boundary between them.

Out of the keen intuition between women, she always felt that the conversation just now and the dinner in the evening were obviously aimed at her.

Could it be that Huang Ying found out so soon that she knew about her cheating, so she couldn't wait to get rid of her, and it was best to leave the city and never have anything to do with their family again.

Lin Yushan still couldn't muster up the courage to tell Xu Mengzhou the truth.

She really can't imagine what Xu Mengzhou, who has lost too much part of her life, will become if she loses the family she has worked so hard to maintain again.