Lin Yushan skillfully took out his ID card and handed it to the front desk attendant of the hotel, and the front desk took it with a smile, and she was very familiar with it, "Is the hour room open today?" ”

"Hmm."

After Lin Yushan checked in, swiped the card and entered the door, he turned on all the lights in the room, and then turned on the TV and air conditioner, all in one go.

She tunes in to the channel she watches regularly, and in the afternoon there are some nature documentaries. Lin Yushan sat on the sofa and relaxed, nibbling on bread while watching, the warm current released by the air conditioner wrapped her whole body, compared to the cold and quiet of the dormitory, the bright and noisy hourly room was more like a short and warm haven for her.

She likes the feeling, it's a sense of security.

After the death of his father, Lin Yushan has lost the space that truly belongs to him.

Since moving to Xu Mengzhou's house, until now, she has never had a place where she can completely relax.

Her junior high school and high school are boarding schools, she has almost no private space of her own, even if she goes back to Xu Mengzhou's house on the weekend, she also has a sense of discomfort under the fence, not to mention Huang Ying.

As for the house that her father left for her, she didn't want to go back to live there, but she didn't dare. Every object in the old house brings back memories and overwhelms her with a greater sense of loneliness.

She has never said these thoughts to Xu Mengzhou or anyone else. Lin Yushan instinctively felt that empathy was difficult to achieve, and it was the same for others and himself.

The meaning of this small hourly room may be to give yourself a temporary place to rest if you can't find a sense of belonging.

Lin Yushan stared at the TV and watched it intently. After a documentary was played, she turned her head to look at the time on her phone, only to realize that she had missed the WeChat new message prompt.

It was Xu Mengzhou who replied to himself.

She bounced up from the sofa, put down the bread in her hand, and quickly swiped the screen, Xu Mengzhou only replied to her with a brief message:

[I'll call you back in a moment.] ]

In the past, they used to send text messages to each other, and the two tacitly rarely talked to each other. After the separation in the morning, Lin Yushan thought that he would not be able to hear Xu Mengzhou's voice for a long time.

She closed her eyes and let gravity pull her down on the bed. He held his phone tightly like a treasure with both hands and placed it on his chest with great reverence.

Expecting something that shouldn't happen is a mistake. The demon inside is slowly luring her into hell.

-----

It was dusk after work, Xu Mengzhou parked the car in his garage, opened the door, and found that Huang Ying went home before him, and she was lazily nestled in the sofa watching TV.

Huang Ying works in a power company, and compared to Xu Mengzhou, who needs to strictly follow school regulations to commute to work, she is much more relaxed.

Since her parents were high-level leaders of the power company, she became a nominal leader smoothly after graduation. There is no need to be bound by clocking in and out, and the time is very free.

"I'm back." Hearing the movement, Huang Ying greeted her husband lightly. His head was also slightly sideways in the direction of Xu Mengzhou, but his eyes did not look at him. Her eyes are being attracted by the TV plot at the moment, and she is reluctant to leave.

Xu Mengzhou said "um", took off his shoes and put them in the shoe cabinet.

Huang Ying has never been in the habit of tidying up things, so he put his wife's shoes outside together.

In order not to touch the wound as much as possible, he had to carefully and laboriously unload the backpack with both hands, Xu Mengzhou went to the water dispenser and took two glasses of water and put them on the coffee table, and sat down next to Huang Ying.

"You can also watch it together, this drama was just launched yesterday, the cast is very good, and they are all a few traffic stars who have been very popular recently." Huang Ying stared at the screen with relish, and his hands were not idle. She held the fruit bowl and forked the grapes one by one and put them into her mouth.

Xu Mengzhou looked at his wife's side face, and a complicated emotion rose in his heart.

On the way home from work, he couldn't help but think about the fight between the two students today.

The boy who had been beaten suddenly appeared in his mind.

His colorful face, the tears in the corners of his eyes and the blood in the corners of his mouth converged and blended into a distorted picture that haunted him like a ghost.

[Hold fast to your hearts, you who are married...... How innocent the child is......]

Fragments and words kept flashing back in his mind.

Xu Mengzhou suddenly wanted to hug his wife, he stretched out his arms and wrapped Huang Ying in his arms.

"What's wrong?" Huang Ying was startled by his sudden hug, she put her free hand to put the fruit plate on the coffee table, and then supported Xu Mengzhou's shoulders and pushed him away from herself, only to notice that both of his hands were wrapped in thick gauze.

"How did you get your hand, haven't you been at school all the time today, how did you get hurt?" Huang Ying's eyes widened. Her facial expression was quite startled, but her tone was unwavering.

Xu Mengzhou took his wife's hand and said softly, "Don't worry, I'm fine." In the morning, two students in the class got into a fight, and I was accidentally injured when I went to mediate. ”

Huang Ying raised his hand and fiddled at various angles. "It doesn't look serious."

After observing for a long time, he put down his hand and continued to pick up her fruit plate and eat, "There is no need to get involved in this kind of thing in the future, in the end, you just go to work, and you don't have to be so responsible for outsiders." ”

It's another conversation like a chicken and a duck.

Such a scene day after day, such a life, has lasted for nearly six years, but he still has a glimmer of hope for his wife.

"Huang Ying, do you really want children?"

"Yes, why don't you want to. Haven't we been actively preparing? Huang Ying replied very simply. Her eyes moved rapidly across the TV screen, and the speed of her speech unconsciously quickened.

"That's today."

Xu Mengzhou once again grabbed his wife's waist. Like a wounded beast, he buried his head deep in her neck. The hand on his wife's waist tightened with the tingling pain, as if trying to grasp something.

He closed his eyes, his eyelashes fluttering slightly from too hard, and an unfamiliar kiss fell, moving up and down her neck.

Just when he was about to touch Huang Ying's lips, he realized that even if he closed his eyes and deceived himself, he still didn't feel anything for her.

Huang Ying neither pushed him away nor responded to him. His eyes were just staring at the TV and refusing to take them off, and he impatiently threw out a sentence: "Didn't we always make an appointment to count the day?" And I heard from the doctor that people nowadays have irregular lives, so it is generally not easy to get pregnant, not too many times. ”

After she finished speaking, she turned her head to look at Xu Mengzhou's face, and added: "But don't be discouraged." ”

The mobile phone screen on the coffee table lit up, and it was Huang Ying's.

With her eyes sweeping, she stood up suddenly, picked up her phone and quickly turned off the screen. "Well, I'll have a game with a friend later, and I'll call it now. Oh yes, I forgot to drive the car home today, your car is back, borrow it from me. ”

As she got up, Xu Mengzhou's hand slipped from her waist and hung heavily on the sofa.

"The car keys are in my bag." He replied blankly.

This marriage is a father's deal, he doesn't mind Huang Ying's past, he can even accept to cultivate a relationship with a person from scratch.

But six years have passed, and after all, it has backfired, and he has done his best. Xu Mengzhou, who was disturbed by memories just now, was a little relaxed at this moment.

"Huang Ying, why did you marry me in the first place?" He finally asked the question he had wanted to ask her since he got married.

Xu Mengzhou's elbows rested on his knees, and his gauze-wrapped hands laboriously supported his forehead. The veins in his temples flared up, and he wanted to ask his wife out loud why, but his upbringing forced him to suppress his emotions.

"I always thought that as long as you are willing to put your heart into it, even if two strangers have been together for a long time, your heart can be warmed. What about you. ”

His eyes were scarlet, and he looked back at his wife, who was about to leave at the door.

"Our home...... Am I the only one holding it on? I don't see any reason why you should continue to live with me. ”

Xu Mengzhou's words stabbed Huang Ying's highly sensitive nerves at the moment.

"Didn't your father single-handedly promote our marriage, what are you doing all this all of a sudden, do you want to turn over my old accounts?" Huang Ying didn't think about it, and almost blurted it out.

She regretted it before she finished speaking. After being stunned for a while, his tone softened suddenly.

"I married you because ...... Forget it, don't think about it, I think it's good like this now, isn't it good to live a plain life every day? By the way, there are anti-inflammatory drugs in the medicine box, I can't help you find something now, remember to take it yourself. ”

Huang Ying picked up the car keys, closed the door and left very fluently.

There was a "bang" in the ear, and in the empty room, only a reverberation hovered in the ear.

Xu Mengzhou leaned silently on the sofa, took out a cigarette, and lit it.

Time seemed to stand still, and he smoked one puff at a time, and after some time, the cigarette burned out. When he came back to his senses, he found that the sparks of the cigarette butts had burned the gauze on his fingers, leaving a striking charred black mark.

Go back to the study room and turn on the computer, and continue to prepare the materials for the project.

The text in front of me blurred into a blur. Is it really worth giving up everything you cherish in such a family?

-----

The dry air in the hotel flowed, and Lin Yushan finished watching another documentary.

Compared with the first part, this one is boring for her. During this period, she yawned countless times, and looked back at her phone screen from time to time, but the screen remained black and did not light up again.

Now she is like an addict who thinks she has quit drug addiction.

She couldn't wait to hear Xu Mengzhou's voice, but she was afraid that she would disturb him.

She deduced that at this point, Xu Mengzhou should have gotten off work. But he seems to be habitually staying at school for a while after work to lecture students on topics, and there is a high probability that he has not gone home yet.

Lin Yushan swiped his fingers up and down the screen randomly, and finally found the name at the top of the address book and dialed it.

The call is being connected.

She secretly thought to herself, if Xu Mengzhou hadn't answered the last sound of the prompt, she wouldn't call anymore.

"Tick...... Tick ......"

She silently counted in her heart, and as time went on, her emotions slowly fell to the bottom. She deflated and took the phone away from her ear.

Before the last beep sounded, a gentle and quiet voice came from the earpiece of the mobile phone.

"Rain Mountain?"

It was Xu Mengzhou's voice.

Lin Yushan's heart, which had fallen to the bottom just now, immediately raised his throat again. She coughed violently uncontrollably.

She now regrets why she went back to the funeral.

She has been addicted to it for three years, and the moment she reunites with Xu Mengzhou, all her efforts fell apart in an instant.

"Xu, Mr. Xu......" she tried to make her tone sound calmer.

The person on the other end of the phone heard her timid voice and smiled dumbly, "When I was waiting for a taxi last night, I talked to me a lot of tirades. It's only been a day, and now how the conversation has turned into a stammer. ”

Lin Yushan Nunu mouthed and sat up straight, "I saw that you sent me a message back, saying that you would call later." She lowered her head and twisted the quilt with her hands, "You haven't been calling since then, so I just want to ask if you're busy." ”

"Well, there was something before, and now I'm preparing materials for the research project. When I saw you calling, I remembered that I had said I would call you back. ”

Lin Yushan was a little disappointed when he heard that he almost forgot to call back. Calling him while he is preparing the materials will delay his work. She was speechless for a moment and didn't know how to continue talking.

"Why don't you speak?"