"He's not my boyfriend." Lin Yushan hurriedly explained, still afraid that they wouldn't believe it. "Not really, I only met that person."

Jiang Wenjun lifted the curtain and showed an unbelievable expression on his face, "It's really fake, I don't believe it." Gao Yuan of our design department, many girls in the school chase him, and he is a rich second generation. You only know such a famous person. ”

Lin Yushan closed the curtain and lay down, he did his own thing every day, his ears didn't hear what was going on outside the window, there were so many people in the school, and it was normal to not know who was who. She can only comfort herself that it is just as normal for her roommate not to understand her personality.

"When did he fall in love with you, why didn't he show any signs at all." Jiang Wenjun continued to sit on the edge of the bed and analyzed it with his head down: "I see that he usually has a lot of friends, maybe he has too many contacts, and he is suddenly interested in people like you who don't talk much." ”

Lin Yushan turned over, and silently complained in his heart: You are so curious, why don't you just ask him yourself, but he still remains polite.

"He really doesn't have anything to do with me. Okay, let's go to sleep, and I'm going to class in the afternoon. ”

Jiang Wenjun felt bored, and finally quieted down and played the TV series in a low voice on the tablet. Lin Yushan thought about it, couldn't sleep, took out his mobile phone to open the album, and flipped to the photos taken at the door of the hotel that day.

Shouldn't I have the courage to wade into this troubled water?

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Lin Yushan began to become aware of the subtle emotions of whether she was "in love with someone" when she was fifteen years old.

That year, she was just a freshman in high school and had just owned the first smartphone in her life, which Xu Mengzhou bought for her.

When her father was still alive, he disciplined her harshly.

Lin Yushan's peers bought mobile phones when they were in elementary school, but her father did not allow her to own them. At that time, she was just an emotionally outgoing child, and when she saw that everyone else had it but she didn't, she would naturally make a lot of noise. But my father, who is a university professor, refused to buy it, saying that buying a smartphone would delay his studies.

There are only a few people in a class who don't have smartphones, and she is one of them. Obviously, the conditions of the family are very good, but he uses the full keyboard and button mobile phone that his father bought for him that is several generations behind. Gradually, she naturally became the "different" person in the class.

Lin Yushan looked back when he grew up, although now he thinks it was just a trivial matter. But I think that I can't fit in with the public, and I am afraid that this is the time when it starts.

After her father's death, she was taken home by Xu Mengzhou. When the time came to the third year of junior high school, she thought that she would be admitted to the best high school in the city where Xu Mengzhou was teaching - Jingzhou No. 1 Middle School. I didn't expect to lose on the spot, and I missed the school I wanted.

On the day the results were announced, fifteen-year-old Lin Yushan glanced at the scores on the screen and silently closed the webpage. nervously asked Xu Mengzhou if he needed to repeat it.

She was ready to face a downfall, although Xu Mengzhou was obviously much gentler with her education than her father.

However, she was not greeted by criticism and accountability. Xu Mengzhou put down his backpack, took out a beautiful packaging box from it, and put it in front of her.

Lin Yushan was puzzled, she looked at this exquisitely packaged box, and was faintly curious in her heart.

"I know you want this, your classmates have it." Xu Mengzhou, who was twenty-six years old at the time, carefully held the box and handed it to her.

"But...... Mr. Xu, I didn't get in. Lin Yushan lowered his head and didn't dare to look at him, for fear that he would find that his face was full of frustration.

Why? In her usual logic, rewards are only eligible for doing something well.

"It's a gift for you to be a high school student, and it doesn't matter what high school you go to." The corners of Xu Mengzhou's lips raised a beautiful arc, and his voice was as soft as a feather. "For you."

"Is that okay?"

"Hmm."

Lin Yushan hesitantly raised his hand, carefully pulled out the ribbon on the box, and what caught his eye was a brand-new smartphone.

The moment she got it in her hand, she suddenly felt that this item she had been longing for for a long time was not as excited as she imagined when she actually got it in her hands. But she was still very happy, not because she bought a new mobile phone, but because Xu Mengzhou's eyes were full of tenderness and encouragement when she looked at her.

When she grew up, she realized that what she desperately wanted was not a smartphone, but a person who was willing to always affirm herself unconditionally.

I still remember that on the first day of high school, Xu Mengzhou put her on the bus as usual.

The car door closed, and after the car started for a while, she realized that her new mobile phone seemed to have accidentally fallen on Xu Mengzhou.

Never mind. She thought to herself, it's okay if she doesn't bring her phone, anyway, she rarely took out the button phone in front of her classmates before for others to see.

There is a lot of traffic on the road in the morning rush hour, almost all of them drive for a while and stop for a while, and only after driving for half a day do they pass three bus stops.

It's early autumn, and the road is steaming with humid heat. Lin Yushan was upset by a hot and humid wind outside the window, and the driver stepped on the brakes frequently, which made her want to vomit. If you stop and go like this, you will probably be late for school.

"The car hasn't arrived at the station yet, so you can't open the door!" The bus stopped suddenly, and the driver's impatient voice came from ahead.

She was caught by the sound and looked up to see the driver saying something to the right door.

After a while, "Forget it." The driver seemed to be moved by someone outside, waved his hand and pressed the door button, "Hurry up, the car in front should drive in a while." ”

The car door opened, and suddenly a man came up.

It's Xu Mengzhou.

He got into the car in three steps and two steps, his bangs on his forehead soaked with sweat, and the chest of the white shirt he was wearing was also wet. The Adam's apple swirls around the neck, and the chest rises and falls with rapid breathing. He looked around the carriage for a moment and found her.

"Take it." Xu Mengzhou strode up to Lin Yushan, gasped slightly and handed the phone to her. "Almost didn't catch up."

When she saw Xu Mengzhou suddenly appear, her whole person was in a state of confusion.

Lin Yushan's eyes widened, and he took the phone from his hand, "Teacher Xu...... Did you come running? ”

"Hmm. Fortunately, there was a traffic jam in front of me and I couldn't drive fast, so I was able to catch up. He wiped the beads of sweat from his forehead with his hand, and the smile in his eyes was about to burst out, and the beads of sweat slowly dripped down his eyelashes, lining his pupils to be exceptionally clear and bright.

He rubbed her hair vigorously, "In the future, you must pay attention to the mobile phone at all times, so as not to lose contact." I'll go first, the first day of high school life, do your best. With that, he turned around and got out of the car.

The shadow of a tall tree whistled past outside the car window, and a leaf drifted into the car window and fell into Lin Yushan's palm.

She looked at the leaves and lost her mind.

In fact, not carrying a mobile phone for a day will not affect her at all. But he actually ran three stops, just to give himself something he accidentally left behind.

Time passed little by little. Later, when she went to college, she relied on the money she earned as a tutor to get a new mobile phone, and still kept the old mobile phone that Xu Mengzhou bought for her. As soon as she opened the drawer and saw it, she would recall the hot, humid and sticky wind of that morning, as if it was slowly blowing into her unspeakable dreams.

Xu Mengzhou...... Xu Mengzhou ......"

Lin Yushan's brows tightened, and he moved his lips and whispered.

When I opened my sleepy eyes, there was no Xu Mengzhou in front of me, only a pale ceiling.

Cold sweat runs down the temples and soaks into the hair-damp pillows. She glanced at the date on her phone and confirmed that she was in her college dorm room, waking up from her dream.

There's no way to wait.

Even if it is impossible for herself and him, even if the much-anticipated birthday comes to naught, she must tell him about Huang Ying's cheating.

"Get up! Hurry up and go to class! Roommate Jiang Wenjun opened the bed curtain and stretched half of her head in, she rested her chin on the bed frame curiously, "Yushan, you were talking in a dream just now!" Why, lately, you have always looked like you are in a state of disgrace. Who are you calling? You've definitely got a situation. ”

When a few people in the freshman dormitory first met, everyone would chat with each other in depth, and later Lin Yushan found that every time he chatted, he told his own situation, but his roommate almost never shared anything about himself with her.

Gradually, she became aware of this asymmetry, and later often reminded herself not to say anything more to them. It's just that the roommate is still the same, and he still likes to inquire about her privacy.

"Nothing." Lin Yushan smiled casually. "Let's go, let's go to class."

She knew that her roommate had become more alienated from her because she had become more withdrawn. But it doesn't matter, there is still more than a year, just spend it quietly, she doesn't want to conflict with anyone. When it's time for graduate school, you can re-assign to a dormitory.

The teaching building where the design department is located is far away from their dormitory, so Jiang Wenjun went out first.

Lin Yushan took out his mobile phone after seeing her leave, and solemnly sent a message to Xu Mengzhou.

[Mr. Xu, I have something to tell you, is it convenient for you to get off work today?] ]

It didn't take long for a new message to pop up on the phone.

[What's the matter, can't you say it on WeChat?] ]

Lin Yushan thought about it, it seemed that his fingers were better and he could already type, and he replied quite quickly.

[Yes, it's a very important thing that concerns you.] It's not clear on WeChat, let's meet and say. ]

This time, it took a full ten minutes for the phone to receive the message.

[Let's go home and talk about it.] When do you get out of class, I'll pick you up after work, and the family happens to have a meal together. ]

When Lin Yushan heard the word "family", a nameless fire rose in his heart. Her fingers poked heavily at the screen, and she typed faster.

[No need to go to your house.] It's really important to say that it's inconvenient to say in a crowded place. ]