The bulletin board was crowded, and a small wall was enclosed.

"Alas! Didn't get on again! After reading the list, a few people in front of him shook their heads and sighed and left.

"Excuse me, borrow it." Lin Yushan found a breakthrough with few people, and finally squeezed through the crowd and slowly squeezed to the front.

"Department of Geology...... Department of Geology......"

She whispered a whisper to her mouth, holding out her finger into the air and scribbling her way down the list.

Yes!

Got it!

Department of Geology: Lin Yushan

Really rated!

Lin Yushan felt a surge of blood rush to his brain, and his eyes became hot. She immediately clenched her fists, and her body was already trembling with excitement.

She's always wanted to prove herself. To be precise, I want to give a concrete explanation of my efforts over the past three years.

Since she started college, she has had to work her studies due to a lack of social skills. She never misses a class when others are skipping class to sleep; When her classmates were enjoying campus love, she was alone in the library desperately reviewing and preparing for the exam. The national scholarship is a great affirmation for her, and now it all has a concrete proof.

A strong sense of well-being madness floods the brain. Lin Yushan immediately took out his mobile phone and took a photo of the list posted on the bulletin board. habitually open WeChat and click on the top chat, ready to send it to Xu Mengzhou.

The finger stopped before hitting send. The smile gradually disappeared from the corner of her mouth, and she thought for a moment, but still did not let it out.

She was shocked to realize that now she didn't even have someone around her to share her thoughts.

Only the hesitant fingertips reminded herself that her dependence on Xu Mengzhou has never changed.

Her mother died early, and her father died unexpectedly when she was thirteen years old, and she no longer has any relatives in this world. The death of a loved one made her feel like she had become a shell. If it weren't for Xu Mengzhou temporarily acting as her guardian and accompanying her through her student days safely and smoothly, she might be like a rootless duckweed floating in the water.

For a long time, whether it is junior high school or high school, whether it is in study or life, as long as she encounters a problem that she can't solve, she will ask Xu Mengzhou for help.

Lin Yushan relied on him to answer questions seriously for himself, and his rational analysis of the situation; And she was honored and honored, and he was proud of her.

Countless images flashback like a marquee. Only these real memories convinced her that there was such a person in this world who could be influenced and driven by her actions. Every time she gets along with Xu Mengzhou and every interaction she interacts, she can really feel that she is not a walking corpse, but a living person.

It's just that now, she is no longer the little girl who can share with Xu Mengzhou generously no matter what she does.

Lin Yushan put the phone back in his pocket and slowly squeezed it out along the edge of the crowd. Bumped into a familiar figure head-on.

Lin Yushan recognized it as his classmate, Ding Xiao.

"Congratulations! is worthy of our Sister Lin, admire. Ding Xiao raised his chin towards the bulletin board, and said in a frivolous tone, "It's finally the first this year, and you can't invite all of us to have a meal after the scholarship is issued?" ”

Her understanding of Ding Xiao is limited to the top of her academic performance and her social circle. Other than that, there was no contact.

Lin Yushan hadn't spoken a few words to him, and he hadn't been able to tease each other. Although he knew that Ding Xiao said that it was just a joke to ask her to invite her to dinner, it was not easy to agree.

In Lin Yushan's impression, Ding Xiao's dress and style of acting have a sense of sophistication that does not match his age.

Ding Xiao has always been an active member in the school, belonging to the type that is very comfortable in front of his classmates and teachers, and he grasps both academics and social interactions. In his sophomore year last year, he won the national scholarship of the Department of Geology.

Competition has always existed since birth, including academic performance.

From the small class to the grade level and even the whole school. Every time the results are announced, it means that the phased results of the competition are released; When everyone stands on the podium in turn according to the ranking, if someone recalls the entanglement process of chasing me on the list, it will make the atmosphere more subtle.

Lin Yushan knows this, but he is not interested in competition.

"Thank you." Lin Yushan was not familiar with him, so he searched his mind and didn't find a few words, and smiled politely at him. "I still have something to do, so I'll go first."

Lin Yushan returned to the dormitory for a lunch break, took his books and went out to the classroom. The sycamore flowers were sprinkled all over the school path, the sun was shining warmly on her back, and she walked comfortably over the soft petals, feeling that her steps were lighter.

Getting a scholarship is a good start, and the next step is to settle down and continue to prepare for graduate school.

The weather was so nice, she thought.

This spring, something good will happen.

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Jingzhou Central Hospital.

Xu Mengzhou stood in front of the self-service reporting machine and pressed the print button, and the three reports slowly slid out of the exit in turn.

"Bang bang—"

"Enter."

He pushed the door open and walked into the exam room, sat down, and handed the report to the doctor opposite. The doctor took the report, lifted his glasses, swept his eyes over the data on the report, and handed it back to him.

"The results of the report show that everything is in order. There are no problems with all three indicators. ”

Hearing the result, Xu Mengzhou's heart was a little fixed. The doctor saw that he still had questions and asked, "By the way, has your wife been checked?" ”

"I checked it during the marriage inspection six years ago, and the indicators of both of them were normal." Xu Mengzhou replied.

"Generally speaking, if there is no problem at the beginning of the examination, even after a few years, as long as you have not experienced any serious illness during the period, your wife's fertility should be the same as yours, it is normal."

"If the results of the two examinations are normal, how is it possible..."Xu Mengzhou clenched his fists. His palms were slightly sweaty, and his fingers rubbed unconsciously.

The doctor's eyes darkened, and he leaned back in his chair with a light cough. After a while, he said in a side-knocking tone: "If you are sure that both of you are normal, it is not ruled out that contraception has been taken." ”

"Of course, don't stress too much, keep a good attitude. Maybe fate will come naturally. Out of the spirit of humanitarianism, the doctor added another sentence that he felt was quite redundant when he heard it.

Came out of the hospital with the report. The street lights and the sunset complement each other, Xu Mengzhou stepped on the accelerator and blended into the evening rush hour traffic.

The use of contraception is not excluded.

The words were like a rope in his throat, preventing him from breathing.

Yes, he should have thought of it, but he ignored this seemingly most absurd point.

This was followed by a chill down my spine, a deep despair, and complete numbness.

The red taillights in front of him lit up, stabbing Xu Mengzhou from opening his eyes, and he suddenly remembered the scene at the wedding six years ago.

The scene was grand and gorgeous, and everyone held up their goblets and smiled to bless the couple, without hesitating praise for them, praising them as talented and beautiful, a match made in heaven.

The parties to this marriage and the parents of both parties are the beneficiaries, and Xu Mengzhou is the only one who exists alone as a trading product.

Since that day, Xu Mengzhou no longer has a complete self.

He tried to meet the visions of all parties, trying to play the role of a balancer, but no one knew that the balancer had sacrificed the most.

He neither persevered to the death, nor did he let go completely.

Trying his best, but not knowing what he was sustaining, he spent his days in an extremely twisted way.

He suddenly thought of what Lin Yushan had said to himself on the night he attended his mother's funeral.

"No one has the right to make you give up what you're after."

On the day of Professor Lin's death, he seemed to have said the same thing to himself.

The old things kept flashing back like a marquee, Xu Mengzhou's eyes lit up, and he pulled over and stopped.

He took out his mobile phone and dialed Huang Ying's number.

The first time, there was no answer on the other side. It wasn't until the second time, after the beep rang many times, that the other side picked up the phone.

"Did you get off work?"

"Not yet, what's wrong?"

"It's six o'clock." Xu Mengzhou glanced at his watch, and his eyes returned to the front, "Are you working overtime?" ”

"No, it's me and a few colleagues who are still in the company, and we're going to eat together later, and I'm waiting for them." Huang Ying often goes out to eat and have fun with colleagues and friends, and she still maintains this habit after getting married.

"I'll wait for you when I'll be back."

"Huh? What is this for? Huang Ying was a little surprised, Xu Mengzhou had never asked like this in the past.

"I have something to tell you."

"I'll be late, what's the matter, I'll talk about it tomorrow."

"It must be said today."

Huang Ying was a little impatient by his sudden firm tone, "Then we'll say on the phone now, you don't have to wait for me at night." ”

"I want a divorce."

This time there was silence on the other side.

After a pause of a few seconds, Huang Ying's voice came again, with a noticeable tremble. "Are you serious?"

"I'm serious. If you're not available today, find some time to talk about it later. ”

Xu Mengzhou hung up the phone.

Back at home, Xu Mengzhou packed up his clothes and daily necessities, and finally confirmed that they were correct, locked the two suitcases and pulled them to the living room, and found that Huang Ying had come back at some point. She was sitting upright on the couch, her face was earthy, her body was covered with low pressure, and she stared at the TV without saying a word.

"Didn't you say you were going to play with your colleagues? I thought you didn't have time today. Xu Mengzhou took two glasses of water, handed one to Huang Ying first, and when he saw that she didn't take it, he didn't get angry, so he put it on the coffee table, and then sat down in the empty seat next to her.

Huang Ying's eyes were red, and she turned her head to look at him. She noticed that Xu Mengzhou's expression was unusually calm, and she felt even more bad in her heart.

She wrapped her hands around Xu Mengzhou's arms, rested her head on his shoulders, and her eyes did not forget to glance at his expression.

"Are you really going to divorce me?" Huang Ying softened her voice and said with teary eyes.

In the past, Huang Ying would hardly take the initiative to give him a hug, but he had already thought of it today, and subconsciously pulled out his arm.

"Yes."

Hearing his answer so simple and clear, Huang Ying first felt that her heart was pinched hard, and then she began to be angry, angry at Xu Mengzhou's straightforwardness and abnormality, which made her lose face.

"Why do you want to divorce suddenly, you always have to give me a reason, right? It's because I'm not good enough, I can change it, why can't I communicate first? Huang Ying took a breath and forced back her tears.

"The reason is that we are not suitable, and this marriage should not have started at all. Also, you may have some misunderstanding about communication, and it has always been your unilateral refusal to communicate. Xu Mengzhou leaned back on the sofa, without any waves, "While we don't have children yet, it's okay to divorce." ”