Lin Yushan's speed of speech became slower and slower, and his volume became smaller and lower. She slowly lifted her eyelids, reading his face with her gaze.

Xu Mengzhou's pupils were covered with a layer of mist, making it impossible to figure out what he was thinking in his heart.

Seeing that he still didn't speak, Lin Yushan added with a wicked taste: "Are you thinking now, because I kissed you that day, it means that I will always like you in the future." So I'll never fall in love with someone else? will never have a ...... with others."

Lin Yushan suddenly paused, and forcibly swallowed the word "open a room" that had not yet been fully said back into his stomach.

She frowned in disgust, closed her eyelids, and lowered her head deeply.

How could he say such naïve and casual things in front of Xu Mengzhou?

I really want to smoke myself with a big mouth.

But she just wasn't reconciled.

She couldn't.

Since he kissed Xu Mengzhou in the garage that day, his mind has been full of him. She really couldn't accept Xu Mengzhou's attitude that nothing had happened now.

The more Xu Mengzhou escapes, the more she comes.

Mention it, and mention it, until he is willing to face it.

But I almost forgot that Xu Mengzhou was still married. Not only is it pointless to vent his emotions, but it will surely push him further and further.

Lin Yushan's palm gently rubbed the fine fluff on the sofa, waiting for Xu Mengzhou's reaction.

"Come on." Xu Mengzhou picked up a strawberry with a fork and put it in her hand, "I know you don't mean that, I'll talk about it when you calm down." ”

"I think you're misleading." Xu Mengzhou was not angry, but guided her emotions step by step as before, and waited for her to calm down before saying: "I asked like that just now, just to find out how you spent your three years in college." ”

His eyes were sincere, "I will talk to you about that matter last time." But before I do that, I want to understand what you're facing. If you want, I'll work with you to solve the problem. Otherwise I'm not at ease. ”

Xu Mengzhou paused again, and his voice suddenly became a little quieter: "Of course you can fall in love freely, but the premise is to cherish yourself." Moreover, I don't want to see you deliberately do something extreme in order to provoke me, I don't want to see you lose your basic judgment and give up your responsibility for yourself......"

His earlobes were flushed, "You're going to really like someone in the future." You'll feel safe that you're in control of yourself, and you don't have to worry about losing yourself because you like someone. Under this premise, it is worth your giving..."

His voice grew quieter and quieter, and at last he almost struggled to get a word out of his teeth.

After Xu Mengzhou finished speaking, he noticed that the corners of his forehead began to sweat, and his throat was also dry. He simply took off his trench coat and hung it at the door, there happened to be a glass of ice water on the coffee table, and he picked up the glass and took a few sips.

He stood tall beside the coffee table, his Adam's apple rolling around his neck, as if he wanted to swallow the ice water along with his rapidly increasing heart rate.

As an ordinary man, he shouldn't have spoken.

And as a person who has taken care of Lin Yushan for five years, the sense of responsibility forced Xu Mengzhou to tell her this unspeakable truth thoroughly.

His care for Lin Yushan has reached the limit of his ability, except for the emotional aspect.

The awkward relationship between them, as well as the restrictions on the identities of men and women, made Xu Mengzhou never take the initiative to ask Lin Yushan about his feelings.

He also didn't know whether Lin Yushan's parents had educated her about the relationship between men and women when they were there.

Lin Yushan will one day talk about falling in love or even getting married, as long as the other party has a rich family background and reliable character. As for who this man is, it has nothing to do with himself.

Xu Mengzhou was just very afraid, afraid that Lin Yushan would be confused, and afraid that if she twitched her head before this day came, she would suffer.

He thought of his marriage to Huang Ying.

That failed, child's play, only hypocrisy and exploitation, a ridiculous marriage without a soul.

He suddenly felt that he was not qualified to stand in front of her and preach in front of her.

Lin Yushan kept staring at the reddened ear on the side of Xu Mengzhou's face, forgetting that his cheeks seemed to be a little hot.

She is so envious of Huang Ying.

Obviously, I met him first.

Seriously. Until now, Lin Yushan has not been able to simply and rudely regard Xu Mengzhou as an "elder" who is older than himself.

I remember the first time we met, Lin Yushan stood beside his father and observed him carefully. At that time, Xu Mengzhou, who was 24 years old and still in graduate school, called himself an uncle. Even his father, who had always been unsmiling, couldn't help but laugh at him, and asked him to call him brother instead.

Time has been kind to him. Xu Mengzhou's appearance and figure are almost no different from what they looked like when they first met. If there is any change, it should be more calm.

The most valuable thing is that his innocent and clear eyes have not changed for many years. Lin Yushan had never seen a person's eyes so clear, so clear that it seemed that only in books existed.

I just scolded him with words, which was too much.

"I'm sorry Mr. Xu." Lin Yushan understood that he meant well, and scratched his ear embarrassedly, "I was too impulsive to speak just now, don't be angry." As for the opening of the house that the person said, it is not what you imagined..."

Where would Xu Mengzhou really be angry with her. He said in a serious tone: "You tell me, the boy who bullied you at noon, and your roommate." What the hell is going on between you today. ”

Xu Mengzhou's expression was real and sincere, so sincere that Lin Yushan couldn't see the slightest hint of disguised concern.

She is vigilant about everything, and only believes that Xu Mengzhou is the only person in the world who deserves her unconditional trust.

Even though she knew that the concern was only out of a sense of duty, she was satisfied. This is a tacit understanding between them for a long time.

Lin Yushan bit his lip and organized the language. From the beginning of his freshman year, he told Xu Mengzhou everything that had happened to him in the past three years.

And then he was a little stumbling, and he said little by little the habit of "opening an hourly room" that he had formed since his sophomore year.

When will you go, what will you do. She emphasized that she really just ate and watched TV in the hourly room, and at most took a shower.

I'm afraid this habit is a little too special. Lin Yushan was very worried, he didn't know Xu Mengzhou's reaction after he said it, and he didn't know what he would think of her and whether he would believe her.

She quickly glanced at Xu Mengzhou's expression. He didn't speak, but he didn't look puzzled, just his expression was serious.

"Teacher Xu......"

Xu Mengzhou: "Huh? ”

Lin Yushan whispered and asked, "I want to ask what you would think if it were you, that is... Is this habit of mine strange? ”

She understands that stereotypes, once formed, are easy to change. No matter what others think of her now, whether she pretends to be tall or has a chaotic private life, she doesn't want to care anymore.

Now, she just wanted to know what Xu Mengzhou thought of her.

Xu Mengzhou thought for a moment, picked up the water cup and rubbed the wall of the cup, and said in a deep voice: "Everyone will have their own way of solving problems when they have something on their minds, but yours is more special." But I really don't know......"

Lin Yushan said nervously: "Don't know what? ”

Xu Mengzhou's tone was a little heavy, "I don't know about you in the past three years... It turned out that I was so depressed that I came over. Then he said a little self-deprecatingly: "I was really happy when you first went to college." Jingda is a good university, and the major is also what you like. At that time, I thought my mission was accomplished..."

He hesitated and added, "For Professor Lin." ”

In fact, Lin Yushan never figured out why he was responsible for himself. Is it because he has a stronger sense of morality than everyone else?

Just like Father Xu said. After all, she is just his teacher's daughter, and she has done her best to take care of herself as an adult.

Leave aside these jumbled thoughts. Lin Yushan stubbornly told all the chain reactions caused by the act of opening a house.

Including how he and Gao Yuan met, how he intentionally or unintentionally revealed to himself that he had a bad reputation at school, and during this period, he found the rumor-mongering post on the school post bar, and finally how Gao Yuan took the initiative to invite himself to eat and relax, so that he gradually dispelled his vigilance.

Then there are some small conflicts between myself and my roommates. Lin Yushan didn't know if these things that his roommates got along with were worth talking about. It's almost all trivial things and personal feelings, but she always feels unhappy.

Xu Mengzhou held a cardboard box in his hand and kept a listening posture. When Lin Yushan was a little emotional, Xu Mengzhou took out a tissue and handed it to her.

Xu Mengzhou listened carefully, and occasionally asked her a few words to help her analyze the situation. It's just that when it comes to how to deal with the relationship between classmates in the future, the two have a little difference of opinion.

Lin Yushan thought that he had already torn his face today, so he simply cut off contact with his roommates completely, and wanted to report it to the school or post it on the Internet to expose the rumor-mongers. Xu Mengzhou believes that Lin Yushan's personal safety is more important. If others don't provoke her again, don't take any action just yet.

The leaves were rustling, and the wind was blowing outside. Xu Mengzhou gave Lin Yushan a thick blanket, then got up and went to the balcony to close the window, and took the milk to the microwave to heat it up. Lin Yushan wrapped himself in a blanket, holding the still steaming milk in his hand, and continued to pour out slowly. Two hours passed without realizing it.

Every time Lin Yushan said something, he magically felt that the weight on his body seemed to be lighter.

It turns out that confiding is one thing that is so necessary.

Lin Yushan hadn't confided in anyone for so long that he had almost forgotten this feeling.

Safe, down-to-earth, and unguarded.