"Mr. Siling, I often doubt myself, wonder if I shouldn't know you, wonder if I shouldn't like you, and fall in love with you."

The linen white scarf around Farina's neck has long been removed, and she is wearing a corset, and her figure is prominent.

Xu Siling subconsciously took her in his arms, looking at the young and infatuated face of the girl Farina, and didn't know how to react.

"If it was to hate someone, it would be much easier, and if I hated Mr. Silling, I would have known what to do. Hatred is simple and straightforward, not muddy, not like love."

"Farina"

Xu Siling's thin lips opened slightly, but she was lightly pressed on it by Farina's index finger, and her mint green eyes were flashing with tears.

"Mr. Silling, you don't have to rush to divide your gentleness with your bravery, for Falina is a very greedy girl, and I never need things that seem to be lacking, and I need you."

"Perhaps in the eyes of Mr. Silling, Falina is a person who seeks happiness and is a greedy person. At least that's how she sees me, and I know what I mean in her eyes. ”

"Mr. Siling, Falina often wonders, what is happiness?"

"Why do people always feel that they are unlucky? Including myself, I never felt unfortunate before I met Mr. Siling, and my aunt took care of me. Until I met Mr. Silling, I thought it was Farina's happiness and Farina's luck, but I found out that it was not the original Mr. Silling's misfortune that was Farina's misfortune. ”

Xu Siling heard that he wanted to interrupt the explanation again, but the thin lips were held down by his index finger again, and Falina's face was crossed with tears, and she said slowly with a crying voice: "Mr. Siling, you listen to Falina first, okay." ”

"Slowly, these days Falina got an answer, that is, if people's hearts are like a cup-like container, then happiness is water, and before she met Mr. Siling, the cup in Falina's heart happened to have a little bit of water and a little bit of happiness, in the eyes of outsiders, Falina is unfortunate, but the water in this cup is also a happiness worth cherishing."

"However, when too much happiness pours into the cup, Falina can carry only one cup at most, and the cup in my heart will not grow bigger because it is filled with happiness. So, on the contrary, Falina did not feel happy. How many people in the world will be content? Will Miss Raya be content? Will Ella be content? ”

Falina shook her head in Xu Siling's arms: "I don't think they will." ”

"Most people say that discontentment is due to human greed, and some people say that people should be greedy. Falina doesn't know which statement is true, but I know that I am the kind of person who even has a whole cup of happiness, but still reluctantly, regretfully, and painfully for the happiness that has passed away because I can't bear it. ”

"Ella thinks I'm a greedy person, but Falina doesn't think so, I'm not greedy, I just feel that those happiness that I can't bear is not originally falling from the sky for no reason, it's like. Mr. Sharp poured the happiness of his cup into my cup, but the happiness overflowed out of the cup and soaked my hands. ”

"That's my feeling, it's called guilt, it's called condemnation. I often blame myself, what right do I have to taste my full cup of happiness? The happiness in my cup should be cherished, and the happiness that flows out of the cup because I can't bear it, I shouldn't cherish it? Am I not responsible for the happiness that others have lost because of me? ”

"The life after meeting Mr. Siling is the happiest and happiest day for Farina, because Mr. Silling is very good to Farina, I don't know how to repay Mr. Silling's kindness, I don't know how to repay Mr. Silling's cup of happiness."

"Until I have a full cup of happiness, Farina is more reluctant, regretful, and painful for the happiness that overflows the cup."

"Mr. Silling, Falina really doesn't think she's a greedy person."

"If you carry this painful feeling to your heart, it's a kind of greed.

"Then Farina really wants to be a greedy person."

Farina's mint-colored eyes, tears slipped down more and more, and anyone who saw that pitiful face couldn't help but be moved, not to mention Xu Siling, who had already had love for Farina.

Falina looked like a timid girl looking forward to a handout, her eyebrows slightly wrinkled and red; The green eyes were already silently full of tears sliding down, soaking Xu Siling's fingers.

If love is just a feeling, then when it is challenged, such as the grinding and smoothing of time, or the hindrance of others, then this feeling will quickly disappear.

Not to mention that it's easy for people to get this feeling in different people, so the most common thing to say in empathy is 'I don't have feelings for you anymore'.

True love must not be an instantaneous touch, but a permanent commitment, so permanent that sometimes when you stop and look back, you can directly see the place of love from many memories in the past.

Xu Siling didn't respond to Farina, he just took Farina tightly into his arms again, and he could only use his actions to tell her his feelings and his guilt.

When a girl is in front of you, express her love with her actions, hoping that you will give back something she once had.

How could I reply to her lightly? Why.

Xu Siling couldn't reply, what he had to do was very simple, that is, to tell Falina about his actions.

Tell her about her guilt, her mistakes, and . What she said, he will always remember.

Her snort was full of damp tears on Farina's body, and her slender body also carried the pressure and love that many people couldn't feel, and she also had what she really wanted.

After Falina's heartfelt words, in Xu Siling's arms, she finally gradually quieted down.

Xu Siling took a wet towel to wipe Farina's face, and now calm down, Farina's mental state is obviously not good, and she didn't rest well last night, after a whole day of running and tired, coupled with emotional fluctuations, her big eyes are full of red silk after tears, and her eyelids are slightly sunken.

Xu Siling sat on the bed, while Falina sat on his lap with two legs, facing him, holding his neck with both hands, the girl's green and cute face was pressed against her chest, as if smelling the smell of Xu Siling could make her mood gradually relax.

Xu Siling gently hugged Farina's weak soft waist, looked at the melon seeds in her head, and her eyes were full of softness.

He listened carefully, and could hear some noisy sounds of the mountain world outside the window.

And inside and outside the house, now it is like two worlds, which makes Xu Siling a little trance-like.

"I'm a hopeless person, and I think about it in my dreams every once in a while." Falina pressed her face tightly, she hugged Xu Siling, as if she was shy, feeling each other's tenderness: "It would be good if Falina could be by Siling's side for the rest of her life."

"Then we'll be together for the rest of our lives, if you don't hate it."

Falina broke away from her embrace and looked at Xu Siling incredulously, her eyes full of surprise.

"What you say is true? Mr. Silling, you didn't lie to me? ”

Xu Siling just shook his head gently: "When did I lie to you." ”

Farina's eyes were red again, and her words gradually cried: "Mr. Siling, I'm talking about a lifetime!" It's a lifetime! ”

"I know."

"It's a lifetime difference of a year, a month, a day, even if it's a minute or a second. It can't be counted as a lifetime! ”

Falina cried again, her eyes couldn't stop, Xu Siling was at a loss when she saw it on the side, so she could only keep wiping it with her hands.

Xu Siling didn't expect that just the phrase 'together' would make Falina cry again.

How much does this desire to 'be together' weigh in her heart?

Just when Xu Siling gently wiped Farina's tears with her hand, she didn't expect Farina's next words to make him stunned directly.

"That's it! Even if you and Ella are completely married in the future, you can't push me out of you."

"You" Xu Siling was stunned and didn't know how to speak, "Why do you say this." ”

Because it stands to reason that in this case, what Falina asks for is not her identity as a wife?

Shouldn't she, at this time, bring it up to be with him?

Isn't Farina jealous of Ella, isn't she unwilling?

Why did he give up willingly, but instead accept him and Ella's company, and voluntarily bow his head?

"As I said, Farina is not a greedy person, not always has been." Farina seemed relieved, but didn't: "I had a deal with Ella. ”

"What the hell did you agree on?"

"Ella allowed me to stay in the main house all the time, allowed me to stay with you. But I need to accompany Ella on this trip, help her block the way, prevent Miss Raya from probing her problems, and more importantly, at home in the future, I need to pass the word to the family on her behalf and order that this is my deal with her. ”

"How could you agree to such an agreement?"

"My aunt once said that a lover is stealing, and a wife is robbing. But Falina doesn't want to steal, she doesn't want to rob Falina, she just wants to be by Mr. Spirit's side, and I don't want anything. ”

Falina stopped crying, and the calmness of her heart made her smile.

"I know Mr. Sharp must be curious as to why I don't fight Ella for the status of wife. Falina may not be that smart, but she's not that stupid either. ”

"Mr. Siling, I know that I don't understand the world, but no matter how much I like you, no matter how much I don't want others to get you, I also know that I am not the best, maybe I can be selfish to anyone, but I can't have selfish thoughts about Mr. Siling."

"Mr. Silling, Falina dares to tell anyone that I am the person who loves you and understands you the most in the world."

"But Farina also knows that Ella is the person who knows how to love you and understand you the most in the rest of your life."

In Farina's words, there is only one word 'understand' between the former and the latter, which makes Xu Siling very puzzled.

"Why?"

"From the time I really got to know Ella, I slowly approached Ella, and I found that Ella is really smart, she can prepare for everything that may happen in the future, and make many possible plans and plans for Mr. Silling. And"

"And what?"

"And, that night, I hid in Mr. Silling's bed, and Ella already knew about it, didn't she?"

"You know everything?" Xu Siling was surprised.

"She didn't tell me, but I realized it, and the more I thought back to what Ella had said to you that night, the more I thought something was wrong with Lina, all the words were said to Mr. Silling, but all the words were directed at me, more like they were spoken to me." Falina smiled bitterly, "Especially when Mr. Siling didn't prepare to explain to Ella afterwards, and he didn't want to tell me about Ella's situation, Falina completely understood that Mr. Siling didn't tell me for my own good, because he wanted to protect me." ”

"Me"

"So I've always been clear that I'm not as good as her, I'm not reconciled, but I have to admit it." Farina's bitter smile trembled, "I can't be like her." Because empathy, suppose I'm Mr. Silling's wife, and Ella is me, and she's hiding under your covers, and after I find out, I can't be like her."

That's why I said that Ella is the person who knows how to love you and understand you the most in the rest of my life. I'm really inferior to her."

"Compared to Ella, compared to Miss Raya, Falina is nothing, I don't know what to win. And the only potion that could win was also lost by me, and Falina knew she couldn't make a mistake."

Xu Siling's heart is mixed, and the more Falina is like this, the more he has a kind of guilt in his heart that can't be suppressed.

Why should I be treated like this by Farina? Why?

Why does Falina have such feelings for herself.

can be so humble as to give up his own ideas to fulfill him and others, just to think that they can still be together in the future.

And Falina has never been a greedy and unwilling person in the true sense of the word

She is just an inferior, sensitive, and timid girl, she doesn't dare to steal or rob with others, she doesn't dare to force her feelings on the other party, she is afraid that her feelings will cause trouble to the people she cares about, she has low self-esteem and just wants to find a corner to hide around the people she cares about, and from time to time she looks at the people she cares about.

Xu Siling thought that he had neglected Falina for a while, but he had neglected everything about Falina.

Xu Siling couldn't describe his mood at this time, he was very heartbroken.

Because from Farina's point of view, she wasn't wrong.

Yes, she obviously has nothing, compared to anyone around her, compared to Ella, compared to Fei'er, what can she do to win this battle?

From the very beginning, Falina didn't want to fight anyone, she just wanted to give up everything to accomplish her goal that was too humble to be humble.

It can be said that the potion is her only struggle.

Xu Siling could fully understand the feeling when Falina had decided to give up, and when she knocked the potion to the ground, she completely gave up, and the pain at the bottom of the body.

I like it but I don't dare to force it, because she knows that there is no result, but she refuses to leave the person she likes, so she wants to be a guardian stupidly, and she feels that it is the greatest happiness to stay with the person she likes forever.

And at the bottom of my heart. I'm afraid and jealous and want to go crazy.

"I know what kind of being I am in your eyes, and even I know that when Falina says I love you, Mr. Sharp will not hesitate to reply to me sincerely, saying that you love me too."

"Falina understands everything, and even I understand what the difference between friendship and love is."

"Friendship is between two people and the world, and you are friendship to me, so in your eyes, I am forever separated from the world. And what about love? In other words, we are the world, and in other words, Mr. Silling is my world."

"As long as I can be by your side, even if you don't love me, for me, it's love."

Tears welled up in Farina's mint green eyes, and suddenly she smiled easily and slyly, like a naughty girl in an instant.

"Besides, doesn't Mr. Siling love me? So, Mr. Silling. ”

"Just let Farina forget everything tonight, okay?"

"Don't Be So Gentle with Me" (End of Chapter)