The reason why she appeared at John's Mansion was why she became Charlie's teacher.

It's all for a reason.

The reason is that she has to find a way to get acquainted with John and have a good relationship with Charlie.

At the necessary moment, seducing John, and finally finding a good time, to fall in love and get engaged to John, this was Philip VI's plan.

Blanche never imagined that Xu Siling would ask this sentence.

"How. What's wrong? ”

"No, I'm curious."

Xu Siling is indeed simply curious, from a historical point of view, Blanche, who was once engaged to John, has a good impression of John.

Before, he thought that with the temperament of Blanche and John, the two would not have many opportunities to contact each other in history.

But now that Blanche frequently appears in the outside world, Xu Siling doesn't know if it was the butterfly effect caused by his appearance, or if history should be like this.

Maybe even if he didn't show up, Blanche would have become Charlie's teacher, and she got along well with John in the mansion?

Xu Siling didn't know, so he was curious.

"John is, a very good knight, a good man, not like you anyway."

"Which one am I?"

"Everyone says you're the perfect knight, but I know you're a hypocritical bad guy, John is more like the perfect knight than John, but in terms of strength, he's not as good as you."

Xu Siling was not angry, and nodded affirmatively: "You are right." ”

Blanche didn't speak again, she didn't know what Xu Siling's purpose was when she mentioned John.

And Xu Siling saw that Blanche didn't speak, thinking that he didn't want to deal with him, so he took the initiative to speak.

"Seeing you're okay, then I'll go first."

As soon as these words came out, Blanche panicked.

"Nope."

"Huh? What's wrong. ”

Blanche's subconscious words made her even more flustered.

She simply wanted to stay by Xu Siling's side, and never thought of leaving Xu Siling by her side for any reason.

My brain was turning urgently, and I was embarrassed to ask.

"What about you. So what do you think of me? ”

"Huh?" Xu Siling was stunned.

Blanche blushed and hurriedly waved his hand: "I mean, what kind of person do you think I am, I am curious, in your eyes, what kind of person I am." ”

"Oh."

Xu Siling was a little curious about Blanche's strange appearance, but she didn't think deeply.

"Blanche, my answer may not be good, are you sure you want to listen?"

Blanche squirmed, she had never cared so much about what a person thought of herself.

"Is it the truth or the truth?"

"Well, let's be honest. Telling the truth in front of you, there's no point in it. ”

"Then you say, I'll take it all."

Xu Siling looked at Blanche, who was nervously waiting for evaluation, and he began to think about sorting out his words.

Then he said slowly.

"I feel confused, pressured, and deceived in you."

Blanche was stunned, especially when she heard Xu Siling say the word 'deception', her heart beat fiercely.

"Xu, what do you mean, I don't understand."

"Blanche, from the first time we met in this pavilion, I felt from you that you are a 'sensible' person."

Xu Siling explained slowly.

"This sensible is not a compliment, but a derogatory."

"Sensible, understand other people's affairs, understand other people's suffering, often doubt themselves, and even when they have conflicts with others, they will naturally obey the will of others and sacrifice their own interests for others, as if all this is taken for granted."

Blanche hurriedly shook her head, she didn't want to admit that in front of Xu Siling, she was such a person, which seemed that she had no self-esteem, she was very inferior.

Although she knew that Xu Siling was right, her heart was beating violently.

"No, I'm not."

"People are all the same, most of them only do three things in their lives: deceive others, deceive themselves, and be bullied."

Xu Siling blinked: "You are a princess of the royal family, but in the face of any conflict, you will choose to wronged yourself." For example. When you are in the book house, you can get angry, but you don't, you choose to bear it yourself. Including the previous one, my words make you feel uncomfortable, if it were someone else, you should have raised it to refute it, or poured out your emotions, but you didn't, you still choose to bear it and obey the words of others. ”

"No, no, I don't." Blanche still denied it, but his tone was slightly weak.

"You subconsciously feel that you shouldn't be in conflict with people. When you are in the book house, you can take care of Chrissy's identity and relationship, but between us, there is no need to take these into account, let alone that your identity is higher than mine, and you choose to accept my words as a matter of course. ”

"You're very sensible, and you're too sensible."

"This sensible makes you under great psychological pressure."

"Blanche, people can like something and not know the fact of it, they can like a book and not remember every page, because to like is to like, to like a thing or a thing, or a person, there should be no pressure."

"In the same way, hate is the same, and hate shouldn't be stressful."

"I don't know if your appearance at John's Mansion and becoming Charlie's teacher has anything to do with your thoughts."

"But I feel like you haven't done anything for yourself, you haven't done anything for yourself, and you may not even understand what you want."

"I'm sorry Blanche, my words may be hurtful, but I don't think we should hide words between us."

"I will feel that maybe your sensible and virtuous nature will hurt yourself, and even to some extent, it is more resistant and disgusting than robbing and killing thieves."

"Because this kind of sensibility will ruin a person's life, and it is also a denial of a person's fate."

"Honestly, Blanche, I'm a hypocritical man, you know it very well, and you know me too."

"But it's hard to be hypocritical, I need to know exactly what I want, what the other person wants, and then pretend to be the same as everyone else."

"But sincerity is different, sincerity is not about saying all your thoughts, but about expressing the moment, expressing only yourself, only what you think and feel."

Xu Siling looked at Blanche, whose face was pale and weak again, he couldn't bear it, but he still said slowly.

"I remember that we were here before, and you told the difference between telling the truth and telling the truth."

"But it seems like you haven't said the truth a few times since that day, right? Or should I say, you have never been sincere, at least now I am hypocritical, but I am much more sincere than you. ”

"And I still feel confused in you, maybe you yourself are aware that you don't know if what you are doing is right."

"You're a conflicted person, and because we know each other, I don't want you to get into this self-draining situation."

"Sometimes, you should ask yourself what exactly you want."

Xu Siling stopped, and Blanche was already holding her forehead under her blonde hair with one hand, powerlessly supporting her body.

Once people get used to the fact that they always have a life that they can't want, over time, they will gradually become confused about what they really need.

Blanche knew very well that Xu Siling was right.

She also sometimes hated herself, hated herself for being too sensible.

Why take into account the state of the royal family, why take into account the thoughts of Philip VI, why take into account so much trouble.

But at the end of the day, it just is.

There is no freedom without ability, and freedom is not the result of choice, but of ability.

She is not free.

She is incapable.

She's a useless person.

It's an endless loop.

She can't get away from being a member of the royal family, and she will always have to be the princess of the kingdom's beautiful and intelligent existence.

Not only Philip VI and others needed her, but even the nobles and the Holy See needed her like this.

If she is outside the world, it will only add a lot of uncertainty to France.

The nobility and the Holy See could not afford to be tossed, especially after the defeat at the Battle of Cressy.

But Xu Siling is right, what do you want?

Blanche felt like her head was empty, and she really couldn't think of what she wanted at this point.

Even if she does break away from the royal family, what can she do?

Flowing out of the outside world, won't she change from a tool of the royal family to a tool of other people?

And just like Xu Siling said, she is sensible. In fact, it is even more disgusting than robbing and thieves.

Because of this kind of over-understanding, she denied everything she was born to be.

Xu Siling is very sincere, and he is willing to express his views directly without any objective embellishment.

Blanche is very happy, because Xu Siling is sincere and not hypocritical.

But it's also very uncomfortable, as Xu Siling said, but she became the very beginning, and she has been scolding hypocrites.

Oh, yes.

The difference between the truth and the truth is that the word 'heart' in the middle is missing, and this heart is selfish, so the truth must be right, it will not be wrong, it is the truth, it is the truth, it is the principle, it is the responsibility.

But the truth may not be, with selfishness, the former can be said, but the latter cannot be said.

The former will do it if you don't want to, and the latter won't do it if you want to, and then explain it simply, the truth is for you, and the truth is for myself.

But now Xu Siling is willing to say his true words.

Blanche was content, but powerless.

Xu Siling looked at Blanche, who was gloomy, and couldn't help but sigh lightly: "What I said is just objective, first of all, you have to be clear that no one can decide your life, you have to live your own life first, at least at least make yourself happy first." ”

"At least. Let me be happy first? ”

Blanche's brown eyes became a little angry, and she looked at Xu Siling tightly, like grasping a life-saving straw.

"yes, at least make yourself happy first."

Xu Siling looked left and right, feeling that he had been here for about the same time, and he had said so many inappropriate words, which was probably enough to make Blanche uncomfortable for a while.

Let her be alone for a while.

"I'll leave first, you think about it."

However, Xu Siling just turned around and wanted to leave, but found that the corners of his clothes were being pulled.

He turned his head to look.

Blanche's pale-skinned hand, slender fingers, seemingly weak, firmly grasped the corner of his coat, and its owner did not want him to leave.

"You"

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. But I often have a mentally retarded feeling that I'm not good at chatting but still want to cling to people."

(End of chapter)