This year's winter in Luwesland is exceptionally cold, although it has been a while here, I am still very uncomfortable, except for work is nested in a small western-style building, I never thought that people like me have gradually developed the habit of two points and one line.

It was in such a boring life that Zhaoyi brought me the news that Jiang Nan was pregnant.

At this time in China, it is the height of summer.

My heart became unconscious in such a cold place, and I don't know if I still love him.

I like last week's Zheng'an, it was the first day of high school.

I don't know if it's lucky, but he and I were in the same class, and the moment he stood on the podium and introduced himself, I liked him.

I can't tell you what it was like, but I caught a glimpse of him and never looked away.

He caught a glimpse of me, too, but his gaze never lingered on me.

At the beginning, it may be more about not admitting defeat, at that time, I was a little arrogant, I always felt that I had a crush on you, how could you not like me?

Then I tried my best to get close to him, to get close to him, for that little bit of arrogance that would not admit defeat.

Because of this, I completely put myself in.

Zhou Zhengan is sparse and polite to everyone, except for his friends and brothers, in order to get close to him, I made a very bad decision, that is, to get close to Shen Qingfeng.

He's a little silly, and he's the easiest of those boys to talk to.

Shen Qingfeng seems to think I'm pretty good.

Because of Zhou Zhengan, I am a little unconfident in my beauty.

Later, Shen Qingfeng often asked me out, sometimes to play alone with him, sometimes with a large group of them.

I declined all the invitations to hang out with him alone.

I could feel that this silly boy really liked me, so I didn't dare to go out alone with him, I didn't want him to like me, because I didn't like him.

I like Zhou Zhengan, I like it very much.

But he would only talk to me more when everyone was sitting together.

In order to blend in with him, I turned myself into a big girl, and I became "brothers" with the boys, and we stayed together all day.

I know that some people envy me behind my back, and I know that some people are scolding me, but none of that is anything to me.

I was in high school and didn't have any fun with good girls.

The only turning point that is not a turning point is the Yan Dump Cup in the third year of high school.

In fact, I wasn't very interested in the theme of that year, and I was very heavy in my third year of high school, so I didn't plan to participate, but it happened that Shen Qingfeng gave me a whole box of starry sky lollipops that were particularly popular that year.

I had that delicious candy in my mouth that night and suddenly wanted to write this article.

This article of mine is not very noble, I am writing about the night scene full of stars twinkling in the sky.

That article, did not win an award.

The winner is actually a junior high school girl, I don't know the girl, but I have only met once, she is very delicate, and she is not very noticeable.

Before I knew the news, there were so many people who came to congratulate me that I didn't dare to tell everyone for a long time after I learned the news.

It's so humiliating.

Later, probably because of the uneasiness in my heart, I was afraid that the little girl would expose this lie, and I was afraid that I would become a joke, so I planned to take the initiative to say it, so that I could end up open.

As a result, at this time, Zhou Zhengan took the initiative to talk to me.

This time is different from every previous time.

It was when they were playing basketball in PE class, and I sat on the table and watched them as usual, with my physics textbook lying quietly on my lap.

Then, I saw Zhou Zhengan walking towards me.

He and Qian Sun waved their hands and raised: "Drink saliva." ”

I looked around and saw his bottle of water sitting quietly next to me.

I pretended to be calm and picked up the water bottle and handed it to him.

In the past, Zhou Zhengan would only say thank you to me after receiving the water, but that day, he looked at me more.

There was not much meaning in that eye, looking and thinking.

I always felt that he stared at me for a long time, and then realized that it was really just a glance.

He opened his mouth and said the second sentence: "I saw your article, it is very well written. ”

That's a very sincere compliment.

I had an empty mind for a moment and said, "What? ”

He stood in front of me, blocking out most of the sun for me, and now he stood straight, with a loose body, and I just kept staring at him, forgetting to react to anything else.

Zhou Zhengan probably also found that his words were a little abrupt, and he explained: "It's the one that pours the cup, the theme of Xingyue." ”

The words were short, and they poked at my heart word by word, neither light nor heavy.

The truth that came to my lips was stuck in my throat and never said again.

Actually, I didn't think much about it that day, I just thought it was very good to be able to talk to him like this, and I didn't think about whether the truth would be punctured by that little girl later.

Zhou Zhengan didn't hear my voice, so he naturally thought that this topic was over, he took a sip of water, then quickly twisted the cap of the bottle, bent over and put the water bottle in the position just now and was about to leave.

My heart froze, and my brain shouted uncontrollably: "Zhou Zheng'an." ”

He turned his head to look at me and looked at me as usual.

I felt my heart beating fast, and even the physics book in my hand was probably in a cold sweat, and I tried my best to make my voice sound natural and light: "I went to ask Mr. Zhao for advice during class just now, and he said that I can ask you if I don't understand, after all, our seats are quite close, and you are so good at physics." ”

Mr. Zhao is their physics teacher.

I made up a new lie so naturally.

"Is that okay?" I raised the physics book in my hand with a smile on my face.

Within a few seconds, Zhou Zhengan nodded at me, his face was calm and natural, and he said to me, "Yes." Then he turned and walked onto the field.

I actually knew that he would say that to anyone, but I made up for it myself.

Since then, I often go to him with my books, sometimes it may not be physics but something else, he will teach me, Jiang Ningyuan often makes room for me, and he also jokes, saying: "Does Gu Daba also need to ask questions?" Or is there a drunkard who doesn't mean to drink? ”

I smiled on my lips, pretending to raise the book to hit him, but he avoided it, and then I pretended to look at Zhou Zheng'an casually, his face was as usual, and he was still staring at the question, his subordinates had already moved, and his words on the scratch paper were elegant and beautiful.

He didn't pay attention to us who were playing, not even a look.

He wrote down the detailed steps, and then handed me the scratch paper and the book, and said in a flat tone: "You see, if you don't understand, ask me again." ”

Jiang Ningyuan raised his eyebrows at this time, and then walked away.

At this moment, my heart seemed to be poured with a basin of ice water, which ran through my bones.

Maybe that's what I started to understand from here, he may never like me, Zhou Zhengan doesn't mean anything to me at all, but I like him.

That's why I still get close to him from time to time.

Maybe it's because there are few girls around Zhou Zhengan, and he rarely talks so much to girls, so everyone thinks he likes me too.

They all ignored that the active party of the relationship was always me.

Zhou Zhengan will never explain these things, and I will not be selfish.

Later, after the college entrance examination, I was admitted to the same university as him.

I knew he loved astronomy, and I knew that only the stars and the moon in the sky could put me with him.

So, I read a lot of books about astronomy during that time, and I even knew what the star was called, which was really difficult for me, because it was much more boring for me than physical chemistry.

Shen Qingfeng told me that I shouldn't do this, and he said that I lost myself for Zhou Zheng'an.

I thought about his words seriously, so later I still applied for my favorite major and did not study astronomy.

In the future, when I think of this incident again, I am very grateful to Shen Qingfeng.

However, because I pretended to be interested in astronomy, Zhou Zhengan and I had more topics, which is also a good thing.

After going to college, there are more newcomers than old people, in their eyes, I am Zhou Zhengan's girlfriend, and Jiang Ningyuan often makes jokes about me and Zhou Zhengan.

For college students, it is normal to fall in love.

Jiang Ningyuan and Jinyue are also in love.

So I sometimes say to Zhou Zheng'an, since everyone is spreading our scandal, then let's just forget it together, anyway, we don't have anyone we like.

He may or may not know that I am tempting.

Maybe dating was a compulsory course in college, and maybe the rumors caught his attention, so he finally agreed to me.

Our love affair began in a daze under my expectations.

At first, I was really happy, I thought this was the beginning of our life, but I didn't expect that this was the end of our fate.

As a boyfriend, he's really good and does better than everybody.

As long as I speak, he is willing to accompany me to class, hang out with me, and do whatever I want.

But he won't do anything for me but that.

The premise of everything is that I open my mouth.

Even as soon as I mentioned breaking up, he would not hesitate to say yes.

I threw myself like a hot furnace on an ice cube, and I was not chilled by him, but burned by my own fire.

Jiang Ningyuan and Jinyue's love is more like a huge basin of cold water for me, because the refraction of me and Zhou Zhengan from them is ridiculous.

Our love seems to be passionate, but it is so bland that it can't even stir up a splash.

When we were together for half a year, I noticed that Zhou Zhengan wanted to break up with me, and love seemed dispensable to him, but he also knew that our relationship was different from a healthy couple relationship, so he wanted to break up with me, he thought it was a relief for our relationship, he thought that we could return to the original relationship of ordinary friends after we broke up, and he thought that I didn't love him either.

For the sake of my own face, I often pretend not to care, which is also what he sees me, so he didn't expect to hurt me.

If I hadn't behaved like that, he would have broken up with me in the first month of our relationship.

Perhaps, he tried to like me, but it didn't work.