117. Know your mistakes, but don't change them
He was tall, and when he stood upright, he looked like a sharp and murderous knife.
No one could have imagined that he would be so restrained in front of a woman.
As if he was going to rub himself and stuff it into a ball, for fear that the slightest thorn would stab Shen Qingluan.
Shen Qingluan raised his eyes to look at him, and happened to see his fierce eyes, the touch of anger, resentment, worry, and grievance.
It's actually a grievance.
Shen Qingluan was in a trance for a moment.
Immediately, he soon came to his senses again.
"What does it matter if you look down on me or not?"
She said something that made Jun Chengsong almost die in anger.
"Good, good, good!" Jun Chengsong laughed angrily, gritting his teeth and glaring at Shen Qingluan.
"It's me who is a villain in vain, and I think that if I help you sincerely, you can always see my goodness.
Unexpectedly, all you need in your heart is Jun Hongbai, that bastard! What is it about him that you like! ”
"What do I like?" Shen Qingluan groaned and repeated his question.
Immediately raised his eyes, his eyes were full of complexities that Jun Chengsong couldn't understand, and said word by word: "At least he never made his own decisions to meddle in my affairs." ”
Jun Chengsong was almost so angry that one Buddha was born and two Buddhas ascended to heaven!
"I'm here to help you."
At all times, this man is always clumsy.
It's like a stubborn child who will only repeat the deepest and most straightforward thoughts in his heart.
Many times, such stubbornness is so sincere that people's eyes are hot.
If so, who wouldn't want to have such a stubbornness that never seems to deviate?
It's a pity that all eternity in the world is just a meteor, fleeting.
If you hope to have it forever, you will only be hurt in the end.
Shen Qingluan rolled his eyes and looked fixedly at the empty darkness in the distance.
"Master Hou helped, I should have been thanked.
It's just that Hou Ye's attitude, doesn't it put me in the same position as Hou Ye, bullying, indifferent and cold, and fiddling with the fate of others at will? ”
In the end, Shen Qingluan turned his gaze back, his usually gentle eyes, which would roll a frightening darkness.
Jun Cheng's breath was suffocated, his brain seemed to be cut open by a sharp axe, and it was like a large bucket of ice that was so cold that it almost cracked in pain.
This sentence made him even more uncomfortable than killing him.
"Is that what you see of me?"
In the extreme pain and trance, he actually saw Shen Qingluan, who had always been calm, and there was a trace of pain in his eyes.
Jun Chengsong pulled the corners of his mouth self-deprecatingly.
It must be a delusion.
How could someone like her suffer because of someone she hated in the first place.
In the crimson vision, the emotions in Shen Qingluan's eyes flashed away, and he soon became clear.
"In any case, Master Hou did help me, and if I have the opportunity in the future, I will find a chance to repay me."
She didn't answer Jun Chengsong's words.
It's just that many times, avoiding it is already the best answer.
Jun Chengsong's heart felt like a piece of flesh had been stripped of him, and he was in bloody pain.
With her kindness, she will never say anything unpleasant.
Even if she really despised and despised her own despicability, questioning like Fang Cai was already the most ugly thing she could say.
She really hated herself.
It's not even hate, it's not that she ruined her marriage and life.
It's just disgust, disgust with one's own conduct and meanness.
This realization made him more uncomfortable than death.
He clenched his fists tightly, and his thick finger bones made a gurgling sound.
The funny thing is that even if he was extremely angry, he didn't dare to show anything in front of Shen Qingluan.
He even gave a pitiful, flattering smile.
Like a beggar looking at the good man who gave him alms, even if the smile used up all his strength:
"I know I'm doing something wrong."
Shen Qingluan's heart felt sour and uncomfortable.
She finally couldn't help it and glanced at Jun Chengsong quickly.
This person looks so fierce, so high and powerful.
Actually, it's so stupid.
She lived up to his kindness like this, and even poked a needle at the most sore spot in his heart.
Why is he not angry, not angry, not just gone.
Shen Qingluan turned around suddenly.
If not, I am afraid that the emotions flashing in her eyes will betray her heart.
But this thin and upright heart almost immediately aroused Jun Chengsong's deepest fear in the nightmare.
He suddenly reached out and grabbed Shen Qingluan's slender arm.
It's just a very simple touch, but like thunder, it makes the hearts of the two people tremble!
Jun Chengsong's palms are very large, and the fingertips are even rougher.
The temperature of the palm penetrated through the dress, and went up along the small piece of skin that had been touched, causing Shen Qingluan's cheeks to turn red.
"Don't be angry."
What came out was a grievance but a little flattering.
"In the future, I will ...... in the future"
His clumsy explanation slowly fell.
He knew that maybe he should give Shen Qingluan a promise that he would not do anything she didn't like in the future.
However, the Adam's apple rolled, and he couldn't say that kind of promise.
For a long time, the heat in the palm of his hand was almost hot to Shen Qingluan, and Jun Chengsong said in a low voice:
"I was indeed wrong, and on that day, I was bullying others."
What he said was that when Zhao Zangzhi wanted to leave and avoid the gambling contract that day, he forced Zhao to bow his head and admit defeat.
Looking at Shen Qingluan's side face that didn't seem so rusty and cold in the moonlight, Jun Hongbai's heart was both tormented and sweet.
"I confess my mistakes, and if you want to punish me, I will admit it. But next time, I, I can't change it. ”
After speaking, Jun Chengsong closed his eyes in pain.
Therefore, I didn't see Shen Qingluan's sideways gaze, casting a complicated and indescribable look.
"If I don't do this, do I want to watch you wronged?
On that day, you asked me if I could always be on top, always the one who played with others. ”
Jun Chengsong's voice is low and hoarse, revealing unspeakable desolation, but it also contains a silent and firm commitment:
"I really can't guarantee that I will always be the one in a position of power, and I can't let all the people in the world be unwronged, I can only promise you."
Jun Chengsong's eyes opened suddenly, and he happened to look at Shen Qingluan.
Shen Qingluan felt inexplicably weak for a while, and hurriedly lowered his eyelids.
"I promise you that as long as I live for one day, you will never be the one who has been wronged."
Shen Qingluan didn't speak for a long time.
If it was a teenager who said this, she would have laughed it off.
Because a man who has not yet seen the truth of this world does not understand the weight of the word promise.
But Jun Chengsong, he is not a teenager anymore.
Even, he has seen most of the cruelty and darkness in the world.
Why did he make such a promise, he and him obviously have nothing to do with him, right?
Shen Qingluan suddenly broke away from his hand.
The only source of heat at night disappeared, and the whole person seemed to be cold.