135. The worldview has been reshaped
"It turns out that there are women in the world who do not regard children as tools and burdens, but as treasures that renew their lives."
Jun Chengsong's voice was full of hardship, but it was mixed with relief.
It is not himself who struggles to be so cherished.
He was relieved that he was not treated like this because he was born with such a fate, everything was just the suffering that Lu and his mother inflicted on him.
Lu and his mother are dead, and in the future, there will be no more such suffering.
Jun Chengsong, what else are you afraid of?
He looked at Shen Qingluan steadily, and his heart was unprecedentedly agitated.
"When you asked me to save him, you already knew that you would be criticized for it, didn't you?"
Shen Qingluan did not deny it.
In fact, she said so little tonight.
It's completely inconsistent with her previous character of being a good teacher.
Jun Chengsong didn't notice this, he was already deeply immersed in the confession he had never had before.
"Mrs. Zhu Shao can not even want her life for the sake of her children, and you dare to risk the world's condemnation for the sake of a strange life."
He paused, and said slowly and hard: "It turns out that my birth is not a sin, it turns out that I just didn't meet you......"
His words were very messy and clueless.
But Shen Qingluan understood it in an instant.
It turns out that his strength and ruthlessness all come from the guilt of his birth.
It's like a pretentious child, holding a machete to protect his panicked self.
And his occasional momentary vulnerability and hesitation are presented in those letters.
He was his only confidant.
"Qingluan," Jun Chengsong looked at her with difficulty but relief, word by word:
"I really know that I am wrong, you can save his life at the cost of fame for the sake of a child who met in Pingshui, but I pushed you into the deep pit of the Jun family because of a momentary prejudice.
I'm wrong for more than ruining your future, I ...... I am not qualified to decide your fate. ”
As he spoke, he hung his head deeply, like a pitiful puppy who had been abandoned.
Shen Qingluan looked at him deeply and didn't speak for a long time.
No, maybe there are some things that need not be said, and both of them can understand it.
Jun Chengsong was indeed right to bear the guilt of Jing Cheng, because he knew that Shen Qingluan was not a person who measured narrowness.
She can be soft-hearted and helpful to strangers, and she will only be more generous when she treats herself.
And Shen Qingluan really didn't disappoint him, and after being silent for a long time, he finally said slowly: "Knowing that mistakes can be corrected, good is great." ”
Shen Qingluan slowly got up and walked in front of Jun Chengsong in his expectant and nervous gaze.
Looking down condescendingly, it is like the light of the gods and Buddhas.
"Now that you know the preciousness of life, you should love yourself even more in the future."
She gently lifted Jun Chengsong up, and when the lights were turning, she saw that his body was covered with scars that overlapped the old and the new, and her heart couldn't help but feel more pity.
"There is no need to mention the past, and it will be more cherished in the future."
"Qingluan."
Jun Cheng's throat rolled, and his eyes were overflowing with all kinds of friendship.
Shen Qingluan's hand parted with a touch, and his gaze quickly glanced elsewhere.
After stepping back, he slowly turned around, "Don't call me like this in the future, I have nothing to do with the Jun family now, and in the future, I will only have the identity of the daughter of the Shen family." ”
"And the daughter of the Shen family," Shen Qingluan looked at the bright moon outside the window, and said in a low and firm voice:
"I will never have anything to do with the Marquis of Zhenyuan Mansion again."
Behind him, Jun Chengsong looked up in amazement, his face full of emptiness.
He also thought that Shen Qingluan's change of attitude towards him meant that he was willing to accept it.
"I don't agree."
He subconsciously shouted.
Shen Qingluan turned around abruptly and frowned at him, "Be quiet, do you want to call everyone over?" ”
Jun Chengsong rushed straight in front of her, the heat on his body was as hot as fire, sweeping the air around Shen Qingluan's body into the air.
"I don't agree, if you don't want to be involved with the Zhenyuan Marquis Mansion, it's a big deal, I'll be your outer room."
He was tall, but the words he said were extremely aggrieved, which made Shen Qingluan feel red-faced.
Also, what nonsense is this! He can also say it with a blank face, is there any shame?
Shen Qingluan's eyes swept around in a panic, but he couldn't find a suitable place to put it aside, and finally had to hang down and barely land on the waistband of his trousers.
……
It doesn't seem to be appropriate.
Shen Qingluan forcibly endured his face and said: "What if you don't agree, the matter of men and women is not decided by wishful thinking. ”
Jun Chengsong just stared at her condescendingly, as if the status between her and Shen Qingluan had been reversed in an instant.
"I'm certainly not wishful thinking."
Jun Chengsong's voice was full of uncontrollable excitement, "Since you said to forgive me, you can't be separated from me by past grievances." ”
"So what," Shen Qingluan couldn't help but retort, "I don't blame you, and it doesn't mean that I have to like you." ”
Jun Chengsong's eyes deepened, "You don't like me, then you write me so many letters." ”
Shen Qingluan: ......
She admits that she is just a little bit of a good teacher, and likes to show off a little bit.
She never admitted that she was curious and inquisitive about Shangjun Chengsong, and she couldn't help but say a little more, a little more......
Shen Qingluan pursed her lips and did not answer.
Jun Chengsong's tone became smug again, "Besides, if you don't marry me, who else can you marry?" ”
Shen Qingluan said angrily: "I won't marry again." ”
Jun Chengsong answered very quickly: "So I said, it's okay if I don't want a name." ”
Shen Qingluan: ......
Why can't you tell?
No, how can you talk about marrying or not marrying?
Shen Qingluan took a deep breath, and his face suddenly turned cold.
"Haven't you come to plead guilty? Or do you despise me by the excuse of the guilt of the first and the rest of the night? ”
When she has a cold face, she is very capable of bluffing.
At least Jun Chengsong was habitually bluffed, and he couldn't help but shrink his neck and take a few steps back.
Shen Qingluan felt that the air was not so stuffy, and stood up straight, his black and white eyes glowing with a moist cold light.
"Get out."
She can see it, facing Jun Chengsong, if you show a flaw, he will immediately bite like a dog that smells meat.
It has to be invincible to make him retreat.
So Shen Qingluan had to let his eyes be cold again and again, staring at Jun Chengsong, watching him hesitate step by step, and slowly retreat out.
Just as he completely retreated to the door, and the next step was to leave, he suddenly glanced at Shen Qingluan quickly.
"Whatever you say, I only have one sentence, if you want to marry someone, you can only marry me in this life and the next life."
With that, he strode away.
In the back, there is an unprecedented firmness and freedom.