Sometimes he really wanted to kill Shen Qingji, but every time he was so angry that he wanted to do it, he couldn't do it again.

He was reluctant after all.

Gu Dingzhi looked at her delicate neck, and gently raised his hand to hold it, as long as she used some strength, she would not survive.

Seeing her white neck and half-open clothes because of struggle, Gu Dingzhi's eyes changed.

It's too cheap for her to die.

Why did she die?

His purpose was never to have her die, but to get her.

"Gu Dingzhi! What are you doing? ”

Gu Dingzhi took her to the bed and immediately covered her.

"What? What do you say? ”

Gu Dingxin thought, why did you tell her to bow her head? What if he doesn't bow his head? It's not that you can only be pinched in your own hands, everything can only be at your own mercy.

As long as you get what you want, you're fine, isn't it?

"Gu Dingzhi, get out! You're disgusting! ”

The more excited she was, the more she struggled, the more excited Gu Dingzhi felt, his love for Shen Qingzhi had become unrecognizable, and now he was only paranoid and possessive.

became what he is now, and Shen Qingzhen forced him to be.

He got Shen Qingzhen as he wished, and the unsatisfactory vacancies in his heart seemed to be filled a little, and his paranoid desire for her became higher and higher.

He is no longer satisfied with the occasional meeting, he wants Shen Qingjian to take him with him, and he wants to have Shen Qingjian completely.

He hugged Shen Qingjian tightly and whispered in her earlobe, "Follow me out of the palace!" Follow me! ”

His words are not greetings, but decisions.

Shen Qingji, who was still in a half-dream, was awakened by his words, and she said angrily: "Don't think about it! ”

"I'm sorry for you!"

He wants it, and he wants it.

It's just that when I took her out of the palace that day, there was a slight accident.

When he gave Shen Qingji the fake death medicine, because during the dispute, Shen Qingji vomited blood.

Blood stained his robe, and it troubled him.

Gu Dingzhi helped her to call the imperial doctor, and asked her very unhappily: "Are you so unwilling to follow me?" ”

He thought that he had treated her well enough, even if she always treated him coldly and always spoke ill of him, he endured it.

The only thing he didn't treat her well was that when he first started in the cold palace, he lowered her food and clothing level, but now her treatment in the cold palace is comparable to that of the palace concubines.

However, Shen Qingzhen still didn't look down on himself.

"You're so disgusted with me?"

I was so disgusted that I vomited blood in anger.

"Let's live a good life in the future, don't we make trouble, okay? We have forgotten all the things that were before. ”

He had already lowered his head, but Shen Qingzhen still ignored him.

Gu Dingzhi stopped talking, even if she didn't agree, he had a way to take her with him.

Gu Dingzhi only felt that she was so excited, but it wasn't until the imperial doctor came and diagnosed a terminal illness.

Gu Dingzhi didn't believe it: "You see again!" ”

It's too doctor's diagnosis, but the answer is still the same.

Gu Dingzhi still doesn't believe it, it's all fine before.

Gu Dingzhi found several doctors to diagnose, but the answer was the same.

"How could it be ......"

How could it be a terminal illness?

Seeing that he was about to be happy, but God made such a joke with him.

What a injustice to God! Some people can easily get it, but he has to work hard, but when he gets it with great effort, God will take it back.

Why? Why?

He didn't want Shen Qingzhen to die, he still transferred Shen Qingzhen out of the palace for secret treatment.

However, Shen Qingji's body still began to decay day by day.

Watching his beloved slowly move towards death, Gu Ding's heart was also very uncomfortable.

Shen Qingzhen still treats himself coldly, and now he is not easy to get angry or punish her.

"Shen Qingji, can't you treat me better? What do you want from me? ”

What does she have to do to make her look at herself?

Even if he is in deep love, her eyes are cold, without a trace of warmth.

At that time, he realized that what he had been missing was the past.

He misses the former Shen Qingjian who was full of his own eyes, and he wants to get Shen Qingjian, but he just wants to be in the past.

But how is it possible for a man to get what he once was?

Even himself, now he is unrecognizable, what Shen Qingzhen likes, I'm afraid it has always been those innocent young men, right? And now he is only full of calculations.

Thinking about all this, he began to imitate his former self, even if it was only the last time, he wanted to spend it with Shen Qingji.

Shen Qingzhen also seemed to have noticed a change in himself, and his cold eyes looked at him and frowned slightly.

"What's wrong?" Gu Dingzhi asked her.

Shen Qingji looked at himself and said, "You make me look uncomfortable!" ”

Gu Dingzhi smiled, it was rare for her to talk to herself, so he asked, "Where does Qingzhi look unpleasant?" I'll change! ”

Shen Qingzhi took a deep breath and said, "Gu Dingzhi, don't pretend in front of me, no matter how much you pretend to be, you can't be the same you used to be." ”

No matter how similar they are, all this has happened, and their moods are different, and it is impossible for them to be the same as before.

Only at that specific age and at a specific moment will there be liking and admiration, as long as there is a little deviation, it is impossible to like it.

Just like Shen Qingzhi in the past, if she saw Gu Dingzhi now, even if she was beautiful and successful, she would not like it.

The smile on Gu Dingzhi's face dissipated, and he understood what Shen Qingzhi meant.

But why?

Why doesn't Shen Qingzhen like himself?

Whether it was before or now, he hasn't changed, what he likes has always been her.

And what about her! Change is what you say.

"Gu Dingzhi, in the past, I was sorry for you, but now, we don't owe each other, if you still have a little conscience, let me go!"

"I won't let go!"

Gu Dingzhi replied stiffly.

Even if you die, you won't let go.

Even if Shen Qingzhen doesn't like him, he wants to be with her.

"Qingji, where is there anything that is not indebted? As soon as you provoked me, you couldn't get rid of me. ”

"So I regret it."

Gu Ding froze.

"What do you regret?"

He asked many times, asking her if she regretted not choosing herself in the first place.

Now when I hear her say that I regret it, I feel a little nervous, but when I turn my head and think about it, I feel that it is wrong.

"Don't talk about it!"

He didn't want to hear it.

But Shen Qingzhen wanted to say: "I regret meeting you at that time, I regret provoking you, if it weren't for this, there would not be such a connection between us, and you would not hate me so much." ”

"Nope! I don't regret it! Shen Qingji, you take this back for me! ”

How can Shen Qingzhen say that he regrets it? He didn't regret it!

Sure enough, she never said what she wanted to hear.

What do you want to hear?

I want to hear her affectionately call herself: Dingzhi.

I want to hear her always chatter about what happened to her.