Chapter 89: Have a Drink with Me (Communication)

A low and dark voice sounded behind him:

"Have a drink with me."

Ning Qi raised his head, met the slightly tired eyes, remembered his morning situation and spoke:

"You'd better not drink right now."

"Don't drink much."

The big war is coming, Yan Yunzhou will not joke with his body at this juncture, there will be no problem with two glasses of wine, Ning Ji paused for a moment or walked back and sat down.

He didn't let people go up to the north to burn knives, but just served a mild drink, which was about the same as rice wine.

The wine was placed on the small stove and warmed, Yan Yunzhou raised his hand and poured a glass for Ning Ji, because there was still some embarrassment between the two of them in the previous incident, Ning Ji didn't put the wine here in his eyes at all, and directly drank a glass into it, all to ease the atmosphere.

Not to mention anything else, let's just say that Yan Yunzhou will go on the expedition the day after tomorrow, and the two of them are also going to separate, and it is impossible for Ning to deceive himself and say that he is really not worried, he insisted on following Yan Yunzhou on the expedition before, and the most important reason is that he is not worried about his body.

Yan Yunzhou held the cup in his hand, his eyebrows drooped slightly, in fact, he had thought a lot after the morning, the world described by Ning Qi was too different from the present, it was more advanced and peaceful than them, it was a very beautiful world.

He actually felt the sense of alienated burnout in Ning Ji's body, which scared him and made him feel that Ning Ji had no nostalgia for this world.

He must have been so disappointed in himself that he could say things that they didn't fit in the morning.

Yan Yunzhou drank the wine in the cup, paused for a moment and asked tentatively:

"Can you tell me what it's like for the two of you to be together?"

Ning Ji noticed the caution in his words, and felt a little sad, and after a while, he lowered his head and smiled:

"Actually, the two of them have everything when they're together, and I haven't talked about it there, so I don't have any personal experience to talk about."

Yan Yunzhou looked at him, and stopped talking, but Ning Ji saw what he wanted to ask, he turned around and faced Yan Yunzhou, so that it was not good for anyone in the clouds, he decided to make it clear:

"Have you ever led your troops to war and encountered a time when you were alone?"

Yan Yunzhou nodded:

"What would you do?"

The man's voice is not loud, but it is tough and powerful:

"If there is no reinforcement, you can only fight to the end and fight for your life with the sky."

Ning Qi smiled lightly and toasted him with a glass of wine:

"What if you are alone in the quagmire, jumping and not being able to jump, sinking and sinking?"

Yan Yunzhou's gaze darkened for a moment:

"You're not happy here, are you?"

So he thinks it's a quagmire around him? Ning Ji shook his head slightly and shook the wine in the cup:

"No, in this era, I have been unwilling and indignant, but after such a long time, I have also found my value here, the same healing and saving people, no difference.

If we are always as we first met, you are the prince who appreciates me, I am the doctor who can help you treat your illness, and with your trust I can apply what I have learned in the barracks, we will be mutually beneficial, and it will be a very perfect situation.

But the result is that I can't refuse your attraction to me, I can't refuse your feelings, I can't control my affection for you, and we become a different kind of relationship, a relationship that we call a couple.

So I started to want to be emotionally equal, but suddenly one day I realized that everything I have here depends on you, and if we have the same purpose, everything I do will be smooth, but if we don't agree, then I will have no room for resistance.

There was no one behind me, but I knew I had done so much. ”

Ning Qi's voice was not high-pitched, not even intense, peaceful and indifferent, and eloquent, but every word smashed on Yan Yunzhou's heart.

He suddenly realized how important the question Ning had asked him in the morning was.

"What will happen to you if I insist on going with the army?"

His silence and answer at that time undoubtedly shattered the last trace of expectation in Ning Qi's heart.

Yes, Ning Ji came here alone, with no relatives or friends, and he seemed to be forever for others.

He saved him, saved so many soldiers, made medicine alone until late at night, and buried his head in the wounded barracks all night to treat the wounded, he thought that he could be respected here, but he became the one who hurt him the most.

Yan Yunzhou was suddenly a little speechless, he even felt that all his words were too pale now, and he instantly understood why Ning Qi felt that they were inappropriate.

For so long, he knew that Ning Yi was a very assertive person, never bowed his head, and from his words, he also knew how good he was in the former world.

"I think I'm sorry, these words are pretty useless."

Yan Yunzhou was a little silent after speaking, just like the atmosphere in this room, just like the atmosphere in this room, his sentence "There is no one behind me" made him deeply feel the suffocating powerlessness.

Ning Qi didn't say anything, he was not the kind of weak person, and he didn't want Yan Yunzhou's apology when he said this, but some things were better than holding them in his heart.

He also raised his cup and touched it with Yan Yunzhou, and the two of them drank it all.

Yan Yunzhou raised his hand and poured wine for both of them, and Ning Yi raised his eyes:

"Don't drink another drink."

Yan Yunzhou's smile was a little bitter and he said:

"I owe this wine first, and when this battle is over, I will accompany you to have a good drink."

This sentence suddenly made Ning Yao's heart open up for a moment, helplessness, grievance, and even the feeling of suffocation faded by two points.

He and Yan Yunzhou saluted from afar, both of them drank the wine in their glasses, Ning Yi nodded slightly, and Yan Yunzhou raised his hand to fill it for him.

Yan Yunzhou wanted to say something but didn't know where to speak, he watched Ning Qi cup after cup, and was silent for a long time before he spoke:

"The first time I went to war was when I was 15 years old, when my father and brother were still there, and because of the family motto, I was even looking forward to the real battlefield.

This continued until I stood on the battlefield, the deafening sound of drums in my ears, and the ground under my feet seemed to vibrate.

The rolling yellow sand flew up and fascinated my eyes, and there were constantly long spears and short swords attacking me around me, and the swords were deadly, and I thought I was extremely skilled in marksmanship, but I could only parry.

I felt scared for the first time, and the spear in my hand became heavier and heavier, until I could no longer avoid the halberd that split my head.

I thought I wouldn't be able to escape that time, but the next moment the head of the halberd-wielding man was cut off by my father, and blood sprayed my face, and when I opened my eyes, I saw only the headless corpse in front of my eyes. ”

Ning Qi was still holding the wine glass in his hand, and the bloody and cruel battlefield seemed to be like a picture scroll spread out in front of his eyes with Yan Yunzhou's voice.

He knew that Yan Yunzhou's words were to explain to him the reason why he was unwilling to let him go to the battlefield with him, and he was silent.

Yan Yunzhou lowered his head slightly, looked at the wine glass, and glanced at Ning Qi again:

"Can I have another drink?"

Ning Ji was silent for a while, but still raised his hand to fill it for him.

Yan Yunzhou even looked at the wine in front of him with some cherishment, and it took a long time to speak:

"Yu'an, it's my fault to make decisions for you without authorization, it's me who is self-righteous, I apologize to you again, I will tell you my thoughts in the future, and let you make a choice, okay?

If, if you really feel that you feel uncomfortable being together now, I, I want to respect you, but I don't want to give up, and I will never give up. ”

The voice of a person who has always been decisive in killing is so hesitant for the first time, he can feel that Ning Yao's emotions are suppressed, and he can also feel the helplessness and grievance of being alone.

So he didn't want to force him anymore, he was willing to make changes, he was willing to retreat behind the safety line, and he was willing to wait until Ning was still willing to accept him.

Ning Qi's fingers clenched the cup, his fingertips were white, and Yan Yunzhou's words also made him think rationally.

Yan Yunzhou really had enough reason not to let him go through everything he had experienced on the battlefield before, if he changed places, would he make the same decision as Yan Yunzhou?

He underestimated the ferocity of the battlefield, or overestimated his own ability to bear it, Yan Yunzhou was willing to confess to him that his thoughts were the sincerity he could see, and he was apologizing for the fact that he had helped him make decisions without permission in the past, except for this matter, Yan Yunzhou was not wrong.

Identity and class are the original sin, but it is the general environment and premise that this world cannot bypass, and it is not even transferred by Yan Yunzhou's will, Ning Yi closed his eyes and suddenly laughed.

It's really not his style to walk the way to a dead end, is he willing to turn people away because the door is not right?

This seemed to be a little more cowardly, he raised his hand and picked up the wine glass and touched it with Yan Yunzhou:

"I accept your apology, am I too cowardly? Put the suffocation that my status and rank have brought to you? ”

Ning Yi laughed at himself a little, Yan Yunzhou's eyebrows and eyes stretched a little, and the undisguised appreciation in his eyes was affirmative:

"If you are cowardly, then I am afraid there is no strong person, in the same situation, no one can do better than you, you are the best healer I have ever met.

There is no soldier who you don't know how many seriously injured soldiers will die, in fact, you are not empty behind you, there are soldiers you have saved behind you, there are the parents, wives and children of those soldiers, they will be grateful for meeting you. ”

Yan Yunzhou didn't exaggerate, he had seen the poor days of those lonely widows and children who died on the battlefield, and knew how sad those people would be because they had no sons, husbands, and fathers, and Ning Ji didn't know how many such families he saved.

Ning Yao's eyes suddenly became a little hot, as if the grateful eyes in the wounded barracks flashed in front of him, and the eyes full of hope that looked at him under the serious injury seemed to be blind.

In this era, there will never be his so-called fairness, he is not an ignorant princess who came out of fairy tales, and forcing the times and class reversals will only lead him to a dead end.

Yan Yunzhou's subordinates could never put him first, and the meaning of his existence was not to compete with Yan Yunzhou for the first position in the hearts of those subordinates.

In other words, Yan Yunzhou was able to become the one who those people swore to follow, and it was not by virtue of the name of Prince Nayan.

Yan Yunzhou has a group of people who swear to follow him with his ability, and he would rather become the irreplaceable person in the hearts of many people, and the two may not conflict with each other.

He raised his glass and smiled:

"I finally felt the need for communication tonight."

Yan Yunzhou was stunned for a moment, some didn't understand his words, but his fingers pinched the cup, until Ning Ji said:

"Let's try again."

One sentence would make Yan Yunzhou's heart seem to let go, and Ning Yi raised his hand and touched his wine glass:

"I can't say anything more."

"Okay."

Yan Yunzhou drank all the wine in his cup.

Ning Qi sat aside alone and poured another glass, after drinking so much, he began to feel a little drunk, Yan Yunzhou looked at him and asked:

"Do you still want to go with me now? I respect your choice. ”

Yan Yunzhou hadn't forgotten the main disagreement in this dispute, and Ning Ji shook his head:

"I started to think about going mostly because I didn't worry about you, I was afraid that you wouldn't wait for the war to end and go directly to Hades to report.

But now it seems that I went but it was a drag, I should explain Yang Sheng, I have explained, along the way, you listen to Yang Sheng's words, he is really injured, he can't deal with it, and immediately send someone back to tell me. ”

Yan Yunzhou nodded, and Ning Qi drank half a pot of wine alone before he could put down the cup.