"Jiajia, I hope you're doing well." He said softly, "Every time you get sick, you have to comfort us when you are so uncomfortable, and you always feel guilty......

He didn't want her to feel guilty like that, it wasn't her fault.

At some point, his hand rested on her lower abdomen, and when she reacted, he pressed her tightly with a slight force.

He whispered, "Jiajia, actually, I didn't want to have a child. ”

Gu Yijia was stunned.

She looked at him with a look of incredulity on her face and muttered, "What do you mean?" ”

Feng Rin looked at the emptiness on her face, and her heart felt as if something had screwed it down, and it hurt slightly. He held her face and said seriously: "Let's not have children in the future, just the two of us, okay?" ”

Gu Yijia was already unresponsive, looking at him blankly and shockedly, and suddenly doubted the era he was in.

In those years, there was no family planning, and the emphasis was on the strength of the large number of people, and the people could give birth with great strength, and it was normal to give birth, and no family would have less than two children, and very few would have one or no child.

Not having children is simply wonderful, it is impossible, and it will be mentioned and ridiculed again and again, Fang Meixia is an example.

Gu Yijia couldn't help but look at him, his expression was weird, and he suddenly suspected the brain circuit of the head of the Feng regiment, he was so fashionable, he wanted to dink with her?

Seeing her reaction, Feng Rin couldn't help but laugh, "Isn't it weird?" ”

"It's weird." Gu Yijia muttered, "How could you have such an idea? You ......" Suddenly, she thought of something, her face stiffened slightly, and she asked sneeringly, "Yes, is it because I can't give birth?" I ......"

At this time, Gu Yijia didn't know how to react, as if he had been struck by a thunderbolt, his mind was blank, and he sat there in despair.

"Did you already know that I was not in good health and might not be able to have children......

In fact, she had long suspected that this body was so bad, not to mention having children before, and even getting married was very suspenseful, and no one would want to marry a girl who might need to have a funeral at any time.

Later, after her body was well conditioned, she looked much more normal, but her hands and feet were cold all the year round, and her menstrual period was extremely abnormal.

Seeing Qian Juanjuan and Fang Meixia pregnant one after another, it was impossible for her heart not to be touched.

She knows the concept of people in this era, and she is in the middle of this era, and after a long time, she will definitely face something that will be born. She can withstand the pressure for a year, two years, three years, but can she withstand it for five or ten years?

In fact, she doesn't care what people outside say, what she cares about is the opinion from her relatives and the opinion of the person next to her pillow.

What if he wanted children? Will he ......

When the time comes, their marriage will come to an end, right?

The recent tantrum she had with him was not so much caused by him forcing her to get up early for a morning jog, but rather because the last time she was sick, she had been accumulating something unknown in her heart, and she wanted to vent it on it.

But she didn't expect that he was still so indulgent to her, tolerated all her tempers, and now even told her that he didn't want children.

Finding that her eyes were red and she looked like she was about to cry, Feng Rin felt more and more uncomfortable, and at the same time felt a little regretful.

He should have told her earlier.

He kissed the corners of her reddened eyes and coaxed, "Don't cry, I should have told you about this a long time ago!" In fact, as early as when I decided to marry you, I had already decided that we would not have children in the future...... I have a lot of children in my family, my eldest brother, second sister and third brother, and it doesn't matter if we don't have children, my parents won't care......"

The tears condensed in Gu Yijia's eyes finally fell.

In fact, she didn't want to cry, but she was emotionally unstable and uncomfortable, and she couldn't control it.

Hearing his words, the breath she was holding in her heart suddenly dissipated, and the whole person leaned on his arms as if she had lost her strength, crying and laughing.

She said incoherently, "How is it possible not to have children? The future is so long, what if you regret it in the future? In case someone laughs at you with this, or your family urges you to ......"

At the end of the day, she still didn't quite believe his words, and she couldn't believe that he really thought so.

Even if she is usually confident and carefree, when she attaches too much importance to this marriage, to the relationship between them, and to him...... She didn't dare to gamble.

The two had just been married for less than a year, and it was the time when they were in love, and they could not think of the separation in the future.

As long as she thought that the two might end in divorce, she felt very uncomfortable.

Feng Rin stroked her back and calmly retorted one by one.

"I don't regret it, there are not many things in this world that can make me regret it! Not now, not in the future! If someone I know laughs at me about this in the future, it proves that this person cannot be acquainted, just ignore it, and a few words from an irrelevant person will not affect my decision. ”

"My family won't rush me, they all have their own jobs, their own families, they won't stretch their hands that long, and they don't have the time to care if I have children or not, we won't live with them; As for my parents, you don't have to worry, my mother said that she has dedicated herself to the country in this life, and she has no time to help with her grandchildren, and it is up to us to give birth or not, as long as we are responsible for our own lives......"

Gu Yijia leaned on his shoulder, listened to his mellow and deep voice, and said methodically, and his originally impetuous heart gradually precipitated.

The calm and powerful voice was like a spring breeze, blowing away the gloom and uneasiness in her heart.

After he finished speaking, he turned his head to look at the girl who leaned his face on his shoulder, "Jiajia, don't envy others for having children, if you want to raise a child, I can go and hold one for you to raise, and we won't have children." ”

Gu Yijia subconsciously said: "I don't want to raise it, it's very hard to raise children." ”

It is not just about feeding him, but also about educating him, accompanying him, and raising him as a man, and caring about his work, marriage, and future generations in the future...... It can be said that I have been worried about it since I was a child, and I have spent unimaginable energy and time, and I can't do it if I don't have firm faith and love.

Gu Yijia felt that he couldn't do it.

She wasn't mentally prepared to be a good mother.

Chapter 153

Feng Rin said, "Well, then we won't raise it." ”

"Really?" Gu Yijia looked up at him, her eyes were still a little red, and her dark eyes were like a clear spring, which was a little pitiful and cute.

He patted her back gently, "Of course it's true, if you want to raise us, you can adopt a child, if you don't want to raise it, then the two of us will be pure."

Although he has never raised children, he also knows how terrible the noise of children can be sometimes, and it takes a lot of energy, and it is impossible to feed and clothe them.

She is not in good health, but she is afraid that she does not have the energy to raise children, and his work does not allow him to accompany them every day and share it for her.

Not to mention that her body can't stand the noise, and the slightest noise will cause headaches.

Gu Yijia was still hesitating, "But, when you are older in the future, will you feel lonely? Do you want to be like other people's old men, with children and grandchildren? ”

"I won't be alone, I'll have you with me." Feng Rin lowered his head against her forehead, his eyes staring at her deeply, "It's enough to have you, I don't think I will feel lonely as long as I have you."

She has a very lively temperament, always likes to tease herself, and always has a thousand strange ideas, and when she is with her, he does not feel lonely, and his life has never been so lively.

The corners of Gu Yijia's mouth curled up, and he pressed it down again, and hummed deliberately: "Are you saying I'm too noisy?" ”

"Nope." Head Feng said with a great desire to survive, "In fact, the concept of having children in the world is more about raising children to prevent old age, and in the future, if there is a country to support us, what does it matter if we have children or not?" ”

He will dedicate his life to the country, and when they are old, the country will support them.

They don't have to have children, but that's the reason for that.

Gu Yijia's eyes blinked, and he praised sincerely: "Brother Rin, you know a lot, you are so open-minded!" ”

It would not be strange for her to say such things to a later generation, but as a man living in this age, she would find it very strange for her to say such things.

Feng Rin smiled, "What's this?" Isn't that normal? There are many people who have no children and no daughters in this world, look at Grandpa Hu and Uncle Guan, aren't they still living well? ”

There were people she didn't know, who weren't even married or had children.

There are many choices in this world, and it is not necessary to follow the requirements of the world, and when you get married, you must have children.

Gu Yijia thought that although Hu Lao had no children, he had many students and trained countless excellent doctors for the country.

Those students were also very filial to him, although they couldn't accompany him because they were busy with work, they often sent him things, called him to care about him, and even Feng Rin, who lived nearby, often visited him, and would not let him be lonely.

Uncle Rong is the same.

Although he did not have as many students as Hu Lao, he had a nephew, and the nephew and his niece-in-law also had children, so they did not live together, but the nephews and nieces and daughters-in-law would still bring their children to visit him when they were free.

And them, Feng Rin was fed by him at the beginning, and they would often go to see him.

Feng Rin said: "You see, none of them have children, and they don't need to raise children to prevent old age. He cupped her face and kissed the reddish eyeliers again with pity, "So, we don't need children either!" As long as you ...... well."

Gu Yijia was stunned and asked in a low voice, "You really don't regret it?" ”

"No regrets!"

His voice was calm and powerful, revealing the strength and faith that are unique to a soldier, and he was unwavering.

Gu Yijia's body softened, threw herself into his arms, and hugged his neck tightly.

She was finally relieved, and at the moment she was extremely relaxed, buried her face in his neck, let his breath envelop her, and said sullenly: "Do you know? When I was sick last month, I thought, "I'm in such bad health, will you regret marrying me......?"

"No regrets!" He said in a deep voice, "I never regret it!" ”

Gu Yijia said: "Listen to me! ”

"Good ......"

"I know that you will not regret it, and if you have such a strong sense of responsibility and principle, you will move forward without regret when you decide what you have decided."

Hearing this, the corners of his lips curled slightly, and he sat there, holding the girl in his arms tightly in his arms.

She understands him.

"But I'm uncomfortable, I feel like I'm dragging you down......"

"No ......"

"Listen to me!" Gu Yijia patted him and continued, "Actually, at that time, I realized that my body may not be suitable for pregnancy, and I will not be able to give birth to children......

It's one thing for her not to want to give birth, but it's another thing for her to not have a choice because she can't give birth because of her health.

In addition, she really likes him and does not want to divorce him at the moment, she is afraid that this marriage will not be sustainable.

Therefore, she felt more and more uncomfortable in her heart, and even couldn't help but greedily think that if it was her body in her previous life, then her health would not drag everyone down......

Of course, these are all delusions.

In reality, she is facing this sick and weak body, and no matter how hard she tries, she will still be sick, making everyone worry about her.

She felt guilty and uncomfortable that their marriage might come to an end......

Feng Rin listened quietly, and as she spoke, a little sad look appeared on her face.

"It's my fault." He said softly, gently patting her thin shoulder, "When I got married, I should have told you this in advance, but I'm afraid you'll be uncomfortable......"

He once heard from his comrades-in-arms that women aspire to be mothers after they get married, and he thought she would do the same.

At that time, he decided to wait until they got married to talk to her about it slowly, and try not to upset her. Now they haven't been married for more than a year, and it's still early to talk about children or something, so he didn't mention it.

It wasn't until she was sick that he realized that she had something on her mind, especially after Qian Juanjuan and Fang Meixia became pregnant one after another, and he was even more keenly aware that her heart was pressed deeper.

It's just that she refuses to say anything, and even tries to treat herself as if nothing has happened.

Gu Yijia was a little stunned, and said, "You found out?" ”