The night splashed ink heavily smeared the clouds, and Yun Ye and Qin Yan came to the rooftop of this building.

Standing on the other side of the river, the high-rise buildings are lit up with many lights, and the sparks are shining at a glance, and looking down is a scene of busy traffic, the red tail lights are neatly sorted, the neon lights on the street are also flashing, and the congestion on the viaduct is still serious.

They quietly enjoyed the scenery for a while, and the topic didn't know where to start for a while, there were too many questions between the two, like a tangled thread, and they didn't know how to untie it from the beginning.

The boy's slender fingers rested on the guardrail, and his fingertips slowly moved to the side as he looked into the distance. With a bit of cautious temptation.

"Talk to me." Yun Ye took the initiative to hook his little thumb and spied on Qin Yan's expression, "Of course I want to know about you, but I'm just worried that you don't want to talk about it, so I don't dare to ask." "

"I really don't want to say it."

Yun Ye's eyes froze slightly, and he didn't think that he would have the next sentence: "But that's for others." Qin Yan turned around, leaned against the guardrail, and closed his eyes.

The past is unbearable, and the memories are like movie clips that have been watched keep flashing through his mind, and those that have long been sealed by him are like Pandora's boxes, once opened, I don't know what kind of chain reaction will be induced.

So he never wanted to remember, and lived recklessly every day, as if he hadn't experienced it. Qin Yan himself understood that it was difficult for him to say this, but if he didn't say it, Yun Ye would never understand him. The atmosphere was silent for a long time, and Qin Yan slowly opened his mouth.

"My mother is the chief of a song and dance theater, she and my dad were a model of wealthy marriages in that era, the two of them were childhood sweethearts, and the relationship has always been very good, and then they naturally walked together, and the relationship after marriage is also very good, in the eyes of outsiders, they rarely quarrel, and the marriage is harmonious, but before they conceived me."

Opening his eyes, Qin Yan lowered his gaze, and his voice was lowered a little: "My mother induced epilepsy when she was pregnant with me, and she also had gestational hypertension, her original plan was to have only two children, because she desperately wanted a daughter, even if she was unexpectedly pregnant, she was not willing to beat it, in order to give birth to me, she suffered a lot, got sick, her body was out of shape, and her physique deteriorated, not to mention this, what made her collapse the most was that my father cheated in the process and fell in love with a newcomer in her theater, more than ten years younger than her, my mother knew it when she was confined, I had a mental breakdown, suffered from depression, and wanted to divorce my dad. "

Yun Ye twisted his eyebrows and listened to him say this, he had already expected what was behind him, he felt very cruel, how could he ruthlessly uncover the scar that a person had finally healed, and let it spread out bloodily in front of his eyes?

"Qin Yan......

The hand covered the back of his hand, and Yun Ye said, "I can understand you, I really didn't blame you just now, but I was a little sad when I heard it."

"Well, you listen to me first." Qin Yan held his hand, and the noise seemed to be filled with sand, "My dad didn't agree, and the family persuaded my mom to forgive him, and then the two of them will just pass like this, but my mom has always felt like a thorn in her heart, and because of her advanced age and pregnancy, she can no longer go back to the theater to dance, and then she transferred all the resentment to me......"

"I can feel that my mother loves me very much, but sometimes she is emotional and can't help herself, she is still being good to me one second, and the next second she yells at me, scolding me that I shouldn't have been born, saying that I ruined her life, if I didn't conceive me, she would still live a glamorous life, and my dad may not be taken advantage of, it can be said that she can't accept my life after I was born, and she has always been immersed in her shining days."

A fine pain welled up in his heart, the flesh and blood of his whole body seemed to be ruthlessly cut, his hand instinctively grabbed the corner of his clothes, Yun Ye was unaware, his reddened eyes gradually filled with tears, and tears slipped down his cheeks one by one, and they had fallen down.

"My mother suffered from severe depression and mania in the two years after I was born, although over time, slowly improved, but also often self-harmed, always pick me when I was present, the palm knife cut on her body, she said she liked to see the feeling of blood coming out, I was only five or six years old at the time, and I would ask her stupidly if it hurts...."

Yun Ye was so distressed that he was about to suffocate, and he didn't have the courage to listen to it anymore, and as soon as he imagined in his mind, the young Qin Yan was standing there watching his mother hurt himself, and he didn't know how to react, he just wanted to rush to that time and space to hug him.

Tears were like a river bursting its embankment, flowing unstoppably, and Yun Ye clasped Qin Yan's fingers hard and held him tightly.

finally understood why he never mentioned his mother in his previous life, such a trauma from the original family will always be buried deep in a corner of your heart, unwilling to touch, once you think about it, you can remember the kind of heart-wrenching sadness, and it is difficult for anyone to talk about it.

"A month before my mother died, I had a big fight with her, I said that since you don't love me, why did you give birth to me and let me be tortured, she was already very uncomfortable at that time, and she just had two cuts on her arm, but I was not sensible at that time, and I also stimulated her and pushed her to a desperate ......"

Qin Yan's eyebrows were filled with strong remorse, and the fact that he was able to say this kind of thing lightly today showed that he had tortured himself thousands of times in his heart.

It had been a long time since Yun Ye had felt such a violent emotion, and he only felt that his ears were buzzing, and the things around him seemed to have lost their sound.

He cried and hugged

Staying in Qin Yan, he buried his face in his chest, wanted to say but couldn't say a word, he could only call his name, "Qin Yan ......"

At that time, Qin Yan had experienced ups and downs, and he had already seen through the vicissitudes of the world, he was able to restrain his emotions well, and there would be nothing that could make him ripple.

And now Qin Yan is different, he is strong-blooded, impulsive, irrational, and desperate, and he will also have the idea of finding someone to vent on many things.

Being able to hear him say this in person, Yun Ye understood how difficult it was.

Qin Yan was so arrogant and invincible in his eyes, he never thought that he would go through this.

At this moment, he felt all his fragility, helplessness, sensitivity and hesitation.

"It's fine." Qin Yan's generous palm stroked the back of Yun Ye's head, and it was extremely gentle.

"At my mother's funeral, I cried the most sadly, and even thought about whether I would have followed her or not, I shouldn't have come to this world anyway."

"But Yunye, do you know? Others think I'm sad, they may guess that I have no mother because of my mother's death, only I know that I am most sad that I will have to bear a sense of guilt from now on, and I will also feel that her death was caused by me indirectly, so I have not stopped looking for the cause of my mother's death over the years, I have told others, and even deceived myself

I'm because I love my mother, but in fact, I just want to excuse myself!

"No, it's not like that!" Yun Ye pushed him away and retorted loudly.

Every word of his was like an inch on the tip of his heart, tearing his soul to pieces.

"Qin Yan, why are you talking about yourself so badly? I can tell in your words how much you love your mother, why do you want to erase this fact?

Yun Ye's eyes were full of tears, he couldn't see the person in front of him clearly at all, but his voice was still unwavering, "Who said you shouldn't come to this world?" How would I live without you? Qin Yan, do you know how much I love you? Don't describe yourself as worthless, in my heart you are better than all the other weights, do you understand?!

By the end, Yun Ye's voice was already hoarse. He was even more agitated than he was.

Qin Yan pursed his lips silently, and the opening where his heart was torn seemed to have been sewn up, and there was no longer a cold swishing wind pouring into it. Yun Ye wiped his tears with his arm while crying, but the person in front of him didn't react, and he pushed his chest. In the future, you are not allowed to deny yourself like this, as long as I am still loving you in this world, then you are not

There is a white ...... This sentence directly poked Qin Yan's most fragile nerves, and the encirclement built in his heart collapsed violently.

Before the words fell, the person had already been taken by him.

His tears soaked his shirt, and the dampness that came from him made his body stiffen, and his throat choked like that, and he couldn't speak. Qin Yan looked down at his eyes that were red from crying, and gently wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes with his fingertips.

"Qin Yan, I know that for you at this stage, marriage is like a besieged city, you don't want it to trap you, I respect your thoughts and wishes. But I believe that one day, you will be willing to stay in this city with me, and stay in peace and mind.

The corners of Yun Ye's lips curled, "The two of us accompany each other step by step, isn't it good to think about it like this." The boy laughed with tears in his eyes, encouraging him to love the world.

Pressing down on the pain in his heart, his fingertips slowly lifted his chin, and the bulge was particularly noticeable due to the excessive force on his wrist.

Qin Yan had the momentum of a strong kiss, but the force that fell on his lips was as soft as a feather.

The bottom of his heart was like a warm sun, and the wind on the rooftop was very cold, but he felt that he was in a warm spring day. Yun Ye's hand was on his shoulder, entrusting the weight of his body to him, and such an innocent kiss made people blush and heartbeat even more.

From a long distance, behind the glass door, Han Yu stuck his mobile phone on the door, trying to expand the focus, trying to capture this scene of kissing clearly.

"What a broken phone pixel, it's too rubbish."

He complained while looking at it, and Chen Rui shrunk his neck next to him, Don't be discovered by Brother Yan, I'm afraid he will beat people.

"He is embarrassed to kiss in public, which shows that he is not afraid of being seen at all."

Han Yu put away his phone, a wicked smile hooked on the corner of his mouth, "You said the two of them wouldn't just do it in such an open-air setting, right?" Can't you?" Chen Rui frowned, doesn't Brother Yan have a habit of cleanliness?

"The arrow is ready to fly, how can you take care of so much." As soon as Han Yu finished speaking, Qin Yan let go of Yunye. Seeing that the two of them were coming over, Han Yu hurriedly pulled Chen Ruishan.

"Tsk, how can you fall in love with a high school student, it's over after kissing." This shows that Brother Yan is a good man, and he talks to others with sincerity, not just to meet his physical needs.

"You quite understand."

Speaking of this, Han Yu remembered something, "I have stored a bottle of fine foreign wine here before, and the effect is comparable to Wei. Brother, let's pour him a few cups later, and see if he is still reserved tonight.

"I'll go." Chen Rui's eyes widened, Brother Yu, why do you save this kind of wine? Is it not functional?

"You're only ......" Han Yu waved his hand, too lazy to break with him, Someone else gave it to him, saying that it could strengthen his body, and I was reluctant to give it to him in ordinary people.

"What is the specific reaction after drinking it?"

"Don't talk about it. Is the brother the same role?" Han Yu scratched his ears, "Of course, it may be bragged by others, maybe it is a medicinal wine that tonifies the kidneys."

........." Chen Rui silently handed him a look of self-pleading, "I didn't hear anything, I took a step first."

Han Yu was speechless.

No one can count on the critical moment.

When Yun Ye and Qin Yan returned to the box, everyone was waiting for them to cut the cake.

Tang Jingze, as today's protagonist, wore a cute birthday hat, shook his head and said: "You two are back, Han Yu and Chen Rui didn't find it after looking around just now.

Hearing this, Han Yu and Chen Rui looked at each other silently, and each hid his heart.

"Alright, let's cut the cake quickly." Han Yu urged, "I'm going to catch up with the next one."

Qin Yan pulled Yun Ye to sit down next to him.

Han Yu pretended to naturally pour a glass of wine and put it in front of Qin Yan, Here, Brother Yan. As a friend, he only harmed Qin Yan, and he would not attack Yun Ye.

But whether Qin Yan will do anything to Yun Ye after drinking is not up to him.

He's only responsible for igniting the fire anyway.

Qin Yan naturally didn't suspect anything, he raised his head and took a sip, feeling that the taste was not right.

"Which brand of wine is this?"

Han Yu brought a wine bottle, the play is first-class, foreign wine, I can't speak English well, I can't understand it.

"The alcohol content is very low." Qin Yan drank half of it again, and then touched Yun Ye's shoulder, Do you want to have some? It's delicious. Yun Ye was watching Tang Jingze light the candle, and subconsciously nodded, Okay. Qin Yan poured him a cup, Yun Ye had just said so many words on the rooftop, he was just thirsty, and poured a big sip.

Yu Han, ......

He couldn't be blamed for that.

and Chen Rui secretly observed, and the two silently exchanged glances when clinking glasses. Tonight, there's a good show to watch.

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