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Chapter 20

◎As long as you hold the authority in your hand, you will harden your heart. His love is not worth much, but it is also worth it. ◎

He couldn't remember how long it had been since he had seen Song Langying like this.

Those scenes of living quietly and quietly with my mother have been so far away that they are gradually blurred in their memories, like staring at the sun at the height of the noon sun, and slowly losing focus after their eyes are full of light.

What she really remembered was Song Rongying's tired and sick face, supporting her body and looking at her softly.

For a moment, she was so short of breath that she didn't dare to speak.

In the previous life, she was detained by the Moon Snatching Fang very suddenly, and she never had such a chance to take a look at Song Rongying again.

Song Langying embroidered the handkerchief, put it aside, rubbed the corners of his forehead tiredly, and only then did he see the chi, he laughed and beckoned to her, his voice was hoarse, but his tone was soft: "What are you doing there?" Come on, it's time for the tea to cool. ”

Zhichi raised his head slightly, swallowed back his tears quietly, and then sat down next to Song Rongying.

Song Rongying poured tea for her, and she drank it, and the two of them were speechless for a while.

After a while, he spoke: "He has been here." ”

It was a positive tone, and Song Rongying didn't intend to hide it from her, so she nodded and responded: "I came very diligently some time ago, and I wandered outside the door for a while before leaving." Later, Xu was afraid that the county lord would be sad, so he didn't come much. ”

She was out of breath, and she spoke very slowly, and she only listened quietly.

"Earlier this day, it was rare to get in."

He also hesitated in front of the door for an hour.

"What did he say?"

Song Rongying smiled, "Say I'm sorry for our mother and daughter?" I'm not in good spirits, and I can't hear a word. ”

She smiled very lightly, I don't know if she remembered the day when she had just embroidered tiger head shoes for the child who was about to be born in her belly in the suburb of Beijing, and the county lord led someone to smash the door open and break in.

The bleakness of that day had already scabbed over in her memory, and it was no longer a blur of flesh and blood.

There was a lot of noise, abuse, and crying, and she was pulled by the hair by the strong servant and whipped to the ground. Even if he was trying to protect his stomach, he still saw red.

In the midst of the intense pain, she saw the richly dressed bride fall to the ground, like a flower that had just bloomed.

Her month looks a little younger than her.

Everything happened so fast, so fast that Song Rongying didn't have time to hate her, but she just felt that they were all pitiful.

Later, she had nowhere to go, and she took the chichi with her, so she could only obediently step on the boat to Jiangnan.

When the Chi family's old mansion was suffering in the open and secret, the little Chichi's eyes were red, and she asked her ignorantly why she was said to be a cheap seed that her father didn't want, and she suddenly understood that she was more pitiful in the end.

It's not that she doesn't want to go, but she can't.

Perhaps many years ago, she accidentally left a handkerchief before going on stage in the dance workshop, but the moment she was picked up by Chi Licheng, who was high-spirited at that time, she fell into the net laid for her.

The handkerchief was snow-white, and only one corner was embroidered with orchids, which she embroidered by herself.

Since then, she has been trapped in this square scarf.

And her girl.

Since entering Beijing, she has felt her restlessness and restlessness – like a freshly caught bird trapped in a cage.

"Nannan, my mother said, don't worry too much, just go, go forward, go out."

Zhichi lowered his eyes, didn't answer her words, and asked himself, "Mother, ...... you Do you still love him? ”

Song Rongying shook her head, and she raised her head again: "That's hating him?" ”

Song Rongying just smiled, and stretched out her hand to straighten her clothes, "Hating someone is as difficult as loving someone." ”

Rank Chi frowned, "I don't understand. ”

She hated the Chi family, and she also resented Shen Che, resentment and hatred supported her, so she had enough strength to deal with them.

"It's okay if you don't understand. You just have to remember that you don't have to force yourself to love anyone, and you don't have to control who you hate all the time. Down, loosen it. ”

After a few words were said intermittently, Song Rongying showed fatigue, afraid that he would not have the energy to talk anymore, so he had to ask directly: "Okay, Nannan, you really think about it, do you want to go no matter what?" ”

Chi Chi was stunned, not knowing how much Chi Licheng had said to her, so he didn't dare to respond for a while.

Song Rongying sighed, "The palace is not comparable to the next place." ”

As soon as these words fell, Chi Chi guessed how Chi Licheng said it to her.

After all, there is also a Si Le Si in the palace, and if you can earn a piece of the world in Si Lesi, if you are lucky, you may be able to make a female official, which is not envied by many people.

Zhichi knew it in his heart, and then answered: "I think about it." Mother, I want to give it a go. ”

Song Langying knows her temperament best, and she picks up her words so quickly, it can be seen that she can't be easily resisted. So she didn't say anything more, only picked up the two-sided embroidered handkerchief on the small table next to her, and looked solemn for no reason: "You should be able to recognize my stitches." This veil is only two sides, and one corner is embroidered with orchids, which is exactly the same. ”

After saying this, she couldn't get up in one breath, and she gasped for a while.

Zhichi immediately stretched out his hand to smooth her breath, probably understanding what she meant.

In the end, the mother is more thoughtful - after she joined the "Si Le Si", it is difficult to have the opportunity to return to the Chi family, and the two of them may have the opportunity to communicate with scattered letters on weekdays, but if something happens to either party, relying only on letters, caring is chaotic, and it is too easy for people to take advantage of loopholes. For example, in the previous life - in the previous life, she and her mother had never had the opportunity to see this side, and they told their mother that they had sent themselves to the academy. Obviously, compared to the palace, the academy's rhetoric can make Song Rongying feel more at ease.

And this veil was to be used as a token.

Zhichi took a handkerchief and put it away properly, "I understand that if something really happens, I will definitely ask someone to send the handkerchief to my mother." ”

Song Langying dragged her sick body and said for so long, she was in a very bad state, so she helped her to the bed, took off her coat for her, untied her sideburns, and stood by the couch, waiting for her to sleep.

He blew out the lights in the room for her, walked out the door, and looked back at her deeply.

She didn't say anything "don't worry" Yunyun - could it be that Song Rongying really didn't worry about her?

All she could do was to break the game as soon as possible and come back to pick her up.

Take her out of the veil and go out.

When I returned to my room, it was already dark. The north wind is howling, and the snow is about to fall.

This year's autumn is extraordinarily long, and it is almost the wax moon, and I have never seen half a piece of snow.

Only Mingyue and Qingdai are left, and she hasn't arranged them yet-Mingyue is not under her control, but Mingyue has accompanied her out of the door, and when she leaves, Mingyue returns to the county lord, and she will not show up again until she comes out of the East Palace.

She deliberately never showed up in front of people with Qingdai, for this time. She had already agreed with Chi Licheng to arrange Qingdai back to the kitchen, and when she came back, she asked Qingdai to come to her to serve. Chi Licheng only thought that she wanted to keep a thought, and agreed.

Qing Dai went back to the kitchen, naturally she couldn't do rough work anymore, and she took care of it for her, and asked her to go out to buy with her - not only the work was brisk, but there were also many people in contact, and she would never be ignorant of what was going on in the Chi family. And in this way, they will have the opportunity to meet outside.

Carefully calculated, Qing Dai followed the pond for more than a month. Although the time is not long, she only listens to the words of the title, and she is ordered by the ear every day, and her growth speed is fast.

This night was almost the moment when the moon opened in the pond branch, and she understood—she was chosen by the young lady and brought to her side, for this moment.

Qing Dai clenched her fists excitedly and asked expectantly, "What do you have to say?" Even if you go up the knife mountain and go down to the sea of fire, the slave and maid won't blink an eye! ”

Solid eyes.

Zhichi silently pinched the corners of his forehead, couldn't help laughing, and then slowly told her the arrangement.

The title pool spoke in detail, afraid that she would not be able to figure it out - even who she should pay attention to on weekdays, what she should be careful of, and how she should have the opportunity to see herself, she explained everything in detail.

Qing Dai silently remembered in her heart. No one told her what her young lady was going to do, but no matter how slow she was, she could feel that it would not be easy.

She has always been very knowledgeable and will not be curious about what Miss does not let her know, but at this moment, she can't help but ask: "Miss...... Do you have to go? ”

The pond is taking out the money bag - it is her savings after entering Beijing, not too much but not a lot, it is useless for her to keep it, it is better to give it to Qingdai, and there are more places for her family to use money. Hearing this, he was stunned, and immediately laughed, and forced the money bag into Qing Dai's hand, before clapping his hands: "Well, I want to go." ”

After everything was settled, she was very calm, used a pear soup, got up and looked at the things in the house again.

There are very few things that really belong to her, and there is nothing to pack.

On the third night when the pond officially moved into the Moon Trapping Workshop, it snowed for the first time in the winter of Zhenghe 22.

She lived on the second floor, and there was little movement at night, and she didn't know that the snow had fallen all night. When I opened the window in the morning, the snow on the ground was two inches thick. The snow on the window lattice shook and fell right in front of a pair of royal blue boots.

Ji Chi raised his eyes and saw that Mei Niang was only wearing a jacket and skirt - the skirt was not well worn, and most of Hongmei's left shoulder was exposed, standing in the snow to meet the scene.

After only one more look, he shivered and hugged her arms—she shouldn't have been so afraid of the cold. She has been learning dance with Song Rongying since she was a child, and she dances for a few hours, and her body bones have been practiced early, but she looks thin and soft, but in fact, every part of her body is full of just the right sense of strength.

In the previous life, it was probably because of the change of water and soil, but later she gradually adapted a lot.

Now it has become even more cold, perhaps because of the cold and miserable back lake of the Zhenguo Mansion.

"I practice dancing in the house like this every day, and I'm not afraid of getting bored." Mei Niang beckoned her to come down, "You grew up in the south, isn't it common for you to see such a big snow?" It's good to come down and take a breath and step on the snow. ”

Mei Niang was smiling on her face, but she took a sip in her heart - early in the morning, she saw the cronies around the prince waiting outside her door, she thought something was wrong, and she was frightened to go out and hear it, it was just a night of snow yesterday, and the prince thought about it, and let her take the chichi to breathe a sigh of relief.

He didn't come by himself, but gave her more trouble.

If you really care so much about people, why did you send her here?

He answered, took a scarlet cloak and wrapped himself tightly before going downstairs.

The snow that had just fallen was soft to step on, but when it was solid back and forth, it began to slip. The pond walked very attentively and did not speak, Mei Niang glanced at it a few times, and found that her quiet was not in a bad mood or depressed, but like a ...... Waiting for something to happen.

The little girl has her own stability in her heart, which is as heavy as a thousand pounds, and others can't shake it. This is a little bit of a thing that makes her look up. Thinking of this, Mei Niang tried her: "You were thrown in like this, do you complain?" ”

Zhichi turned his head to look at her sideways, and seemed to be a little puzzled: "Why don't you complain?" ”

Mei Niang didn't expect her to answer so directly, and she couldn't help but laugh out loud, "I don't see you hanging your head when you complain, it can be seen that you are not ruthless." ”

After saying that, she remembered that the prince had told her several times to take care of the person in front of her, so she skillfully persuaded her like comforting other dancing girls under her hand a few times: "But that person is affectionate to you, you really don't have to be too resentful - just get through it." ”

Rank Chi frowned. Her resentment against Shen Che, if you look at it carefully, has nothing to do with love - it is just a resentment that has been deceived and used, and if you dig deeper, it may be a resentment of betrayal.

This is the difference between her treatment of Shen Che and the Chi family. In her previous life, she never believed in the Chi family, but she believed in Shen Che. Believe through and through, and lose completely.

Therefore, she didn't want to bother to think about whether Shen Che had the word "love" for her, and if so, how many points would she get.

Realizing that Mei Niang was waiting for her reaction, the words rolled through her throat, and she only chuckled at the end, as if laughing at herself: "I'm standing here at the moment, how can I be considered affectionate?" ”

Because of this sentence, Mei Niang's good impression of her fell a little, but her face was still smiling, and she poked her finger lightly: "You, I still don't understand." A person, especially a man, hardens his heart as long as he has authority in his hands. His love is not worth much, but it is also worth it. ”

"No exceptions."

A lone sparrow flew up to the beam of the room, facing a pair of eyes hidden behind the beam, tilted its head in confusion and jumped twice, and was startled by the murderous aura that the man revealed in an instant.