The bloody breath seemed to still linger in his nasal cavity, and Xu Nanxing's chest was full of vomiting, as if he closed his eyes and was the scene of that day. She never imagined that her mother would leave her in such a resolute way.

It wasn't until I finished the funeral and went home to pack my mother's belongings that I found the suicide note left by my mother in the closet.

It turned out that the mother already knew that her time was running out and didn't want to drag them down anymore.

But Xu Nanxing knew that if it weren't for himself, his mother would not have been so decisive.

No one can know the guilt and pain in her heart, it is the irreparable remorse and pain that she has done wrong, and such tangled emotions torment her day and night.

In the days when her mother had just passed away, she often looked out the window at the lights of thousands of homes, thinking back to her childhood and growing up, as if this family had been shrouded in misery since she was born.

Her birth coincided with the death of her father and the cripple of her sister's body;

When she returned to Jingzhou, her mother became ill.

Now because of her thoughts, her mother left her and her sister early......

With tears in her eyes, she asked herself if it was the family's misfortune that she was alive.

The thought of closing her eyes and wanting to jump down circled countless times in her heart, until she finally gave up, but was stopped by a cry from her sister, and she turned around in a hurry and saw her sister's desperate eyes......

Xu Nanxing can't think back to such a sad day now, and I don't know how I got through. My sister often said that she was optimistic by nature, and maybe, otherwise, no one else would have been able to face these things that happened in the past.

She sniffed, trying to push back the unbearable memories in her mind.

The first twenty years of life were really too hard. After that, she just wanted sweetness.

The water in the bathtub was gushing, and she pulled away from her memories and took off her wet clothes and stepped in. The warm water wrapped around her body, and she felt that she had come to life.

The scalded arm stinged again when it touched the hot water, and she remembered Gu Huaizhi's advice before she went out, and she was slightly distracted.

In fact, in addition to the initial relationship, Gu Huaizhi is a relatively gentle person to her.

In those days when Gu Yufei returned late from class, she could always unexpectedly meet him who wanted to go out, and it happened to be a place near her house.

She always needs to help Yu Fei correct her fingering from time to time when she is in class, bending over and hanging her head, she is actually very tired after a class, especially in the days when she comes out of class during the menstrual period, she feels like her waist is about to break. But when I went back after a few classes, I found that Yu Fei's piano bench had been replaced by a double, and even the piano had been replaced by Zhujiang's.

It was just her favorite piano brand that she casually mentioned when she chatted with Yu Fei during a break in class.

Each of these inadvertent little things seemed to be stepping on her heart, and every time it happened, it made her even more unable to restrain her desire for him.

Everything that happened that night was actually not all because of the transaction with Shen Ruzhen, she once asked herself, if it wasn't for Shen Ruzhen, would she still be so proactive?

The answer is yes.

It was a longing for Gu Huaizhi for a long time, and it was the primitive impulse to perceive that the person he liked was also happy with him.

Therefore, what Gu Huaizhi said was right, and she was selfish.

That's why she felt so guilty after her mother's accident.

Tears welled up again.

She is selfish, she wants love, and she wants affection, but all the good things in this world don't come in pairs.

She's too greedy.

So, God took away her mother and her love.

Xu Nanxing lowered his head, looked at the water surface close at hand, and thought to himself if he sank like this, would he not have to think about anything, would he not have to live so hard?

Did my mother think the same way when she left?

At this moment, she wondered what was going on in her mind at the moment of death.

The tip of her nose rippled in the water, there was water flowing on her face, she closed her eyes, let herself sink slowly, warm water poured from her nose into her mouth, and quickly flowed to her chest, suffocating as if it was about to explode, her consciousness gradually blurred, she heard someone outside the door shouting her name,

It's Gu Huaizhi.

She wanted to sit up but didn't have the strength.

There was no fear in his mind, but he wanted to laugh, laughing that he should be the first person who wanted to experience the feeling of suicide but was killed, and I don't know if I would make him unhappy again.

Before consciousness vanished, she heard him cry out through gritted teeth,

"Xu Nanxing!"

The moment Gu Huaizhi twisted open the bathroom door, his heart tightened.

The person who had just beaten and scolded him like a shrew didn't say anything in the bathtub, he called her name, but no one responded, only the occasional bubble in the bathtub floated on the water, and her clothes were scattered around the bathtub.

He rushed over in a few steps to fish the person out of the water, and hit her back vigorously, a burst of water flowed from the corner of her mouth, but the person still did not react, and the porcelain white body leaned limply on him.

He pulled the towel over the side and put it on the ground, laid the person flat, and folded his hands on her chest for CPR. During the interval, he reached out to probe the pulse in her neck, which was faint and small, he lowered his head and sealed her lips for artificial respiration, and then continued cardiopulmonary resuscitation, back and forth I don't know how long it took, the person under him finally tilted his head and spit out a mouthful of water, and then a small voice overflowed from her mouth,

"Hurt ......"

Gu Huaizhi heard her cry out of pain, and the anger in his heart rose inch by inch, and he cursed in a low voice.

The sweat on his forehead flowed down his cheeks to his neckline, and he put his hand on the side of Xu Nanxing's neck, where the pulse was no longer as weak as it was just now, so he got up and went to the cabinet to find another bath towel.

He returned and wrapped Xu Nanxing tightly and carried him out of the bathroom.

Xu Nanxing vomited a few more mouthfuls of water in the bump, all of which were spit on Gu Huaizhi's chest, she was worried that he would be angry, so she glanced at him carefully, but saw that he did not have any impatient expression.

Placing the person on the bed, Gu Huaizhi took the phone and went to the balcony.

Xu Nanxing shrank on the bed, his chest ached as if he had been beaten by someone, his hair was wet and sticking to his back, and he was indescribably uncomfortable. She sat up, looked worriedly at her wet pillow, lifted the quilt and lowered it to the ground.

As soon as his foot touched the ground, he was frightened and shrank back at a scolding.

"Do you want to die?"

When I looked up, I saw Gu Huaizhi striding towards her with a gloomy face.

She hung her head and didn't dare to squeak, the water in her hair was dripping on her body, and the air conditioning was on in the house, which was tantamount to making things worse for her at the moment.

She shuddered.

Gu Huaizhi glanced at her, turned around and left.

Xu Nanxing thought that he was really self-defeating tonight, and he thought about it well when he came, but as soon as he saw Gu Huaizhi, everything changed.

Ay......

She sighed in her heart, her tenacious temperament was really unpleasant.

The footsteps sounded again, and she looked over, Gu Huaizhi came back with a hair dryer in his hand.

"Sit down."

Xu Nanxing sat down obediently, the warm and dry wind fell overhead, and it was warm after a while.

She wanted to say something, but when she opened her mouth, she realized that her voice was hoarse, "I didn't mean to." ”

Gu Huaizhi didn't respond, his fingers shuttled between her hair, and he focused on blowing her hair.

Xu Nanxing's gaze swept over his chest, which was wet, in addition to the water stains, there should be something she had just vomited, which had already swept down the fabric on his chest to his waist and stuck to his body, revealing the faint complexion inside.

She thought, how could a person of his temperament endure it, and she must have been extremely disgusted in her heart.

The wind overhead stopped, and Gu Huaizhi's low voice sounded,

"What did you just say?"

Xu Nanxing looked up at him and whispered, "I accidentally slipped in." ”

After speaking, she saw that the back of his hand was still red and swollen, probably because of what rescue measures she had done for her temporary situation just now, and at this moment there was already a crystal blister, she stretched out her hand from the hem of the bath towel and wanted to touch it, but was dodged by Gu Huaizhi.

Xu Nanxing withdrew his hand in disdain, thinking that he would ignore himself, but heard him say,

"I know."

Gu Huaizhi pulled his neckline, sat on the low couch opposite Xu Nanxing, and said as if he was explaining to her, "You are not a person with a weak personality, it is impossible for me to not think about it because of a few words." ”

"So," Gu Huaizhi raised his eyebrows and asked, "I'm curious, if I didn't find your abnormality just now, how would you save yourself?" ”

"I ......"

Gu Huaizhi's words stopped her, when she just sank, she really wanted to know what kind of thoughts people would have at the moment of death, and what they would think of in their hearts. But when the water poured into the body, the human instinct for survival frightened her, but the scattered consciousness could no longer mobilize the body to do any remedy, and she could only struggle in vain.

If Gu Huaizhi hadn't discovered her at that time, it is estimated that even if she didn't die in it after a while, she would have become a fool because of the lack of oxygen in her brain.

"What? I'm sure I'll go in and find you, that's why you're doing that? Gu Huaizhi's eyebrows gradually frowned, "Do you think that if you are like this, I will be soft-hearted and feel guilty that I am too cruel to you?" ”

Xu Nanxing looked away, not daring to look into his eyes.

Gu Huaizhi was right, she thought so the moment she sank, she wanted to know if Gu Huaizhi would be soft-hearted if she saw her like this, and whether she would be a little scared.

Fear of losing her.

From this point of view, he was really quite good, and he almost killed himself, but looking at Gu Huaizhi's expression at the moment, he probably made him unhappy again.

She hadn't forgotten what she was here for tonight.

Glancing at Gu Huaizhi's face, she softened her expression and said in a dumb voice, "You're right, I just want to know if you will be soft-hearted and will save me." ”

Gu Huaizhi narrowed his eyes and looked at Xu Nanxing through the warm light.

After being silent for a few seconds, he chuckled lightly and said to Xu Nanxing, "You are not such a person!" Alright, don't beat around the bush. Tell me, what the hell are you trying to do when you come to me tonight? ”

After speaking, he glanced sideways at the wall clock, "I just contacted the family doctor to come and check on you, and you still have half an hour before he comes." ”

"This time, I'm going to hear the truth! Otherwise, I'll throw you out of Nanshan Villa immediately!" ”