Zhao Ji was desperate - so desperate that he was like falling into a bottomless bubbling pool...... Apathy.

He didn't know what to do in exchange for Li Shi's change of heart - he made countless phone calls and sent countless text messages to Li Shi and Li Heng one after another, but there was no response.

Called, but it was turned off - both of them were turned off.

None of the text messages sent were replied to......

A determined thought immediately popped into his mind - to find them quickly, he would go to them at any cost, and kneel in front of Li Shi to beg for her forgiveness.

He immediately became stronger—it was certainly not for him to blindly submit to such an outcome if he was to withstand such a sudden and unexpected blow.

But where to find it?

Zhao Ji went to ask Mrs. Lily, but she also shook her head and said, "I have never been to the place where Li Heng and the others lived. I don't know! ”

He regretted that he had not asked for their detailed addresses. It is only known that they live in City D. And D City has a population of seven or eight hundred thousand, and finding them is tantamount to looking for a needle in a haystack.

……

He returned to the inn in discouragement, and just as he was packing his luggage and leaving, he suddenly received a message from Li Shi - he hurriedly opened it to see, but it was like this-

"Zhao Ji, I didn't want to send you this message, but I still couldn't help it. This is the last time I'm messaging you – we're going to say goodbye forever, and we won't see each other again in this world in this life. If there is still fate in the next life, then wait for the next life to see you again! ”

"Why?" Zhao Ji hurriedly went back.

"We missed each other, and I left you, not because of my inferiority complex and willfulness, on the contrary, because of my self-confidence and pride—no, I can't help but do it......"

"Li Shi, I love you, come back soon, I'll wait for you, okay?"

"But it's too late for you to say the words 'I love you.'" Yesterday afternoon, when I knelt before you and wept, if you said these three words to me! I'll stay and never leave you. ”

"But, Li Shi, have you thought about it, I have my concerns......"

"Isn't it because of your poor self-esteem? Isn't it because you've always looked down on me from the bottom of your heart? Isn't it because you're hesitant to marry me? ”

"No, it's not...... Listen to me......"

"I don't want to hear it, you didn't say those three words at the time. You've trampled on my self-esteem - the self-esteem of an innocent girl, you know? ”

"Li Shi, I love you......"

"Don't do that...... I'm dead...... It can be seen that it is still so good...... Farewell. ”

"I'm coming to you—"

"Please don't come to me, even if you do, it's in vain."

"No, I'm coming to you, please tell me your address—"

……

Later, there was no news.

Zhao Ji called the phone, and it was all the sound of turning off the phone.

Alas......

"I love you!" This sentence, Zhao Ji repeated with tears in his eyes last night and shouted dozens of times - no, at least hundreds of times......

He shouted that sentence in vain in the face of Xiao Xiao's autumn wind, and he shouted that sentence again and again in the face of the small river like a belt......

However, he did not have the courage and courage to shout it in front of her, but hid this sentence in his heart.

He regretted it—

He regretted not telling her - he was in love with her...... And he likes her in his heart, and he is willing to marry her.

However, at that time, he hesitated and did not say this.

In that room, destined to have a sense of foreboding, he met her, and he did not clearly realize in his heart that his love had already happened......

Even when he was sitting with her brother Li Heng boring, sullen and relatively speechless, he didn't realize that his love had already happened......

It's just that after about ten minutes, Li Shi has not been seen to come back......

He was frightened, frightened, and distraught at the prospect of an unfortunate accident...... He began to look for her everywhere, while calling her name like a madman on the shore—

Only then did he realize that his love burst out from the bottom of his heart with that unstoppable and irrepressible force......

He did love her—

However, by this time it was too late - Li Shi would no longer buy his account......

"It's impossible!"

Years later, when he talked about the relationship with his friends, his friends wouldn't believe it.

"How is that possible? That Li Shi is really a weird girl...... Rare in the world. ”

He hesitated again when others said that...... He didn't know if it was possible or impossible.

But whether others believe it or not, he knows it's true.

Although these emotional events between him and Li Shi were only so short and less than ten days, they did happen to him and affected his life......

Afterwards, he was thinking-

If Li Shi has even a little shadow of being pretty, scratching her head, and showing off her amorousness, if her social status is not an illegitimate daughter but a girl from a normal family, Zhao Ji thinks that Li Shi will not leave him.

This is because Li Shi is paranoid and willful, and her self-esteem is extremely strong, and she can't stand what any other normal girl can endure.

At that time, as a young Zhao Ji, although he had already had a failed marriage, he did not sum up his experience, so he did not understand the mystery of this.

When Zhao Ji stood outside the door that night and saw Li Heng for the last time, if there was no hesitation in his mind, he didn't stop him from confessing what was in his heart......

That situation will be different again, then Li Shi will stay and may marry him.

However, Zhao Ji pushed the hope of happiness to tomorrow, and slipped the last ray of hope and a straw that could have been grasped from his hands.

On the same day, when he packed his suitcase in the inn and was about to drive home, he saw Xiaowei, the waitress who had been abandoned by her fiancé in the "Tea Tasting Tea" teahouse.

She sat on the long chair where he and Li Shi had sat in the park on the shore, her face was pale and bloodless, but she did not look depressed, but full of life and vitality.

There was a tall, burly, handsome young man, who was standing next to the tall and beautiful Xiaowei, laughing with her, talking and laughing, and telling her something.

In a short period of time, Xiaowei came out of the shadow of broken love......

And on the other side of the sparkling, gurgling river, the statue of his ex-wife's eyes, which he was familiar with, still peeked out of the dark green of the old yellow cypress tree with such a sad face.

……

He returned home, and after resting for a few days, he went to City D to find Li Shi.

But in the huge D city, there is nowhere to be found...... He tried to find it to no avail.

He didn't want to die for a long time and fell in love with Li Shi's heart, and he still insisted on looking for it for a long time, and he was unwilling to give up-

However, after several years of searching, he finally had to give up hope of finding them.

Since then, Zhao Ji has never seen Li Heng and them - he has never seen Li Shi again.

Some inaccurate news about Li Shi reached Zhao Ji's ears from time to time - some said that she was dead, and some said that she was married......

But, to him, since he was separated from her, he had never seen her—she was gone forever.

He didn't even know, was she dead or alive?

But he goes to City D every year, hoping to meet him by chance...... And just like that, several more years passed.

Once, when he was in the carriage of a bullet train, he hurriedly saw a woman getting up to pack her luggage and preparing to get off the train, and the woman looked like Li Shi......

But he wasn't sure, so he didn't bother.

Li Shi's beautiful face reminded him clearly of the face that he would never forget, as if it was engraved in his mind......

However, he believed that perhaps it was a fortuitous resemblance that caused him to delusion.

In his memory, Li Shi has always been the girl he met during the most flawless, energetic, and frustrated period of his own life......

The impression she left on him will forever remain the way he looked when he last saw her in that little dark room.

……

However, then again, Zhao Ji should admit the fact that he didn't feel sad for too long because of the loss of her.

He was even lucky to feel that the god of fate did not let him combine with Li Shi, which might be the best marriage arrangement.

He often comforted his poor self with such strange thoughts—if he had such a willful and eccentric wife as hers, he would probably not be happy in this life.

At that time, he was still young, not yet thirty years old, and his future, this short, fleeting future, seemed to him to be indefinitely extended, and everything could be restarted.

Zhao Ji thought, those past things, including that unforgettable relationship, will never happen to him again, and it won't become better and more beautiful, right? …… It's only going to get worse and worse -

Later, he met other women, some of whom were more beautiful than her, and some of whom were uglier than her......

However, the exciting feelings that Li Shi inspired in his heart were the kind of fiery and unbearable, gentle and deep feelings, which may not happen again.

No! For Zhao Ji, a lonely man, no pair of beautiful and burning eyes can replace the pair of eyes that look at him with the light of love.

Li Shi's feelings in his mind have reached the ceiling, and no woman can surpass it.

No woman's heart leaning on his chest could echo his heart with such joyful, sweet and warm trembling!

Zhao Ji's fate in his life destined him to have no family, no wife and children, and he is still alone, alone, living a lonely and lonely life.

However, he kept the last message she sent him like a treasure, and even if he changed his phone, he would never dispose of it, and kept it under the box......

He kept the geranium flower that Li Shi had thrown to his brother from the window and then gave to him, which had long since dried up.

He took it out and sniffed it when he was free, and it still exudes a faint fragrance—

It's just that...... It's just Li Shi's little hands that are as cold as a dead man, the little hands that he was able to hold to his lips only once, and the little hands with which she wants to create the future with him—if she really died, she might have already rotted in the tomb......

And what about Zhao Ji himself - what about his own situation?

Over the years, he has been like a walking corpse, accomplishing nothing, lying in a comfortable nest and sleeping soundly.

From Zhao Ji, from those joyful and worrying days, from those winged hopes and pursuits, what is left?

- He did not leave anything worthy of nostalgia in life, as he said...... Not a single thing left.

He lives in an environment of virtual love for Li Shi, but he is not as good as a grass growing in the wild, which cannot but be said to be a pity.

A small grass, although insignificant, but it emits a faint fragrance of fragrance, even after the wind and rain, but it lasts longer than a person's self-satisfaction and ecstasy—it exists a little longer than a person's own joy, anger and sorrow.

The love between Zhao Ji and Li Shi ended like this......

It is undeniable that for ordinary people's love, such an end may be a new beginning.