Since the death of her husband Tang Kui, Zhen Yan has begun to go crazy. She always shouted Tang Kui's name in her mouth, and kept blaming her for killing her husband......

Tang Shu couldn't persuade him no matter how he persuaded him - he had no choice but to send his mother to a psychiatric hospital for treatment.

After dealing with all these things, Tang Shu returned to study at E-City Medical University...... During this period, due to nervousness and busyness, Tang Shu almost forgot the name Song Jie.

……

Five years passed quickly.

After graduating from university, Tang Shu stayed at E-City People's Hospital as an internist through recruitment.

One night, he went to a supermarket to buy something, but unexpectedly met Shen Pu.

Shen Pu is already married and has children, and now works in a company in E City.

However, after not seeing Shen Pu for a few years, Tang Shu saw him now, but he didn't find anything different about Shen Pu.

Shen Pu was still the same as before - tall, with a thin face, small and dull eyes, and unusually long black hair...... Sometimes elated, sometimes depressed.

"Oh, Tang Shu, I didn't expect to meet you here." Shen Pu said to Tang Shu, "Let me tell you this - Song Jie is also in E City, you must be a little surprised to hear this, right?" ”

"Song Jie? ......" Tang Shu hesitated for a moment, feeling that the name was both familiar and unfamiliar.

"Have you forgotten? is the beautiful woman in the past, and Song Jie, whom we have all been infatuated with and you have also loved...... You must remember - she lives in E-City now. ”

"Oh, I remember—is she married?"

"Of course!"

"Where does she live in City E? Do you have her phone? ”

"No, I don't, but I know her address, I know her husband's phone number. I'll send it to your phone – what's your number? ”

"Oh......" Tang Shu and Shen Pu exchanged phone numbers.

"Since your father's death, she had fled to City G—she had only come to City E the other day, and she intended to settle here...... E City is a livable city that you don't want to leave......"

"Is her husband nice to her? What kind of man is he? Tang Shu asked with concern.

"Song Jie's husband is a very good person, handsome, and rich...... You say it's a coincidence or not, I work in the same company as him...... He's a colleague of mine, and I've heard he's been nice to her. ”

Shen Pu glanced at Tang Shu, smiled meaningfully, and continued-

"However, though, it seems that Song Jie doesn't love him very much, you know...... Song Jie, a woman, is actually quite ambitious, and it is not easy for her to find a suitable husband for herself......

"Oh, really?"

"yes...... The result...... With her beauty and intelligence, of course, everything is not a problem, and wherever she goes, there will definitely be many men who pursue her. Shen Pu said contemptuously.

"Hmm......" Tang Shu didn't know what to say for a while, and stood there a little embarrassed.

"Do you want to see her? I don't know how overjoyed she would be if she saw you, she was even more beautiful than before. ”

……

Shen Pu sent Tang Shu an address on his mobile phone and the phone number of Song Jie's husband - Tang Shu saw that Song Jie lived in the high-tech zone, which was quite far away from where he lived.

originally wanted to call Song Jie's husband in advance, but he didn't dare to be rash, for fear of causing family conflicts if he couldn't say it clearly, so he just gave up...... However, the memories of the past came to Tang Shu's heart again, vividly, as if it were yesterday...... He planned to visit his former "lover" the next day.

However, it happened that there were various academic seminars in the hospital to rescue patients, and the pre-planned date to visit Song Jie was delayed......

So a week passed, and another week passed...... Everything missed the fate of meeting.

In the end, he finally waited for a little leisure time, he asked for leave to drive to the high-tech zone, and looked for the address given by Shen Pu, and after several twists and turns, he met Song Jie's husband Wang Yuan.

Wang Yuan is a middle-aged man about forty years old, with slightly well-defined facial features, a high nose bridge, especially straight, beautiful male lips, thick and shiny hair, neatly combed, looking clean and generous, which left a deep impression on Tang Shu.

After talking to Wang Yuan, Tang Shu learned that Song Jie and Liu Li had died in a car accident ten days earlier — almost suddenly in an accidental car accident.

When Tang Shu heard the news, suddenly, it seemed that something was hitting his heart, and he couldn't accept this fact for a while.

He thought that he could have seen her, but he made a mistake and missed it...... I can't see her anymore, and I'll never see her again this time-

This extremely painful thought that Tang Shu was about to die, with indefensible self-blame and guilt, pierced his heart extremely violently like countless needle.

"She's dead! She's really dead! I won't be able to see her again in my life! ”

Tang Shu repeated over and over again, he looked at Wang Yuan with a dull gaze, he had no extra words to say to Wang Yuan - he had to shake Wang Yuan's hand and say goodbye, and slowly walked to the car and sat for a long time.

Everything in the past suddenly appeared in front of Tang Shu's eyes like a movie-

This is the final outcome of Song Jie's life, which is in her prime, vigorous, and like a flower, and this is the destination she is in a hurry and excited!

Tang Shu imagined so, he imagined the contoured and delicate face, the pair of eyes like a fire in the thorn bush, like a bundle of soft black silk gently fluttering these hairs-

Now she may be lying in a cramped and filthy coffin, buried in the damp, dark and filthy soil—buried here, perhaps not far from him who is still alive, and perhaps far from the place where his father Tang Kui's ashes are buried, the underworld is far away, but the underworld is close at hand......

Or Song Jie's bones have already been cremated in the crematorium, and her bones have already turned into a cloud of green smoke...... The green smoke merged with his father's bones and rose into the sky......

He tried his best to imagine all these illusory and desirable visions—he enriched his imagination and imagined it.

Song Jie's graceful and graceful figure, like a dancer dancing in the air, has been reverberating in his head...... How can it linger -

She was such a flawed girl, she was once indifferent and careless about anything, she seemed to have all the spiritual riches and treasures of this world in her heart, and even sorrow and troubles could make her happy, and sorrow and sorrow had never been before for her—so she was confident and decisive, self-righteous and quick to decisive.

She had said so confidently—you see, that she is the only one who can be so happy to exist in this world, that only she can live so carefree and so carefree......

Yet, the few days she had in this world were disappearing, uncountable, flowing, dying—everything in her was fading like a streamer, like a lit candle melting, like snow disappearing under the sun......

Perhaps the whole mystery of her beauty and ice and snow intelligence lies not in her ability to do anything she needs to do, but in her ability to imagine and do anything.

That is to say, it is because she can waste energy that she would not use anywhere else, because she does not have the whimsy to think that she is a waster, and she does not think that she has the right to say:

"Ah, I haven't wasted my time living in this world, I can do anything! Because once I loved, once I hated, I dared to love and hate. I dare to love the man I like. ”

Tang Shu sat in the car like this and thought silently...... When he just sent away his fleeting phantom of first love like the dawn with a sigh like a knife and a sad mood of tears, he actually couldn't expect anything, he actually couldn't wait for anything, and he couldn't predict what kind of bright future, although he had imagined countless times to stay in love with Song Jie for a lifetime......

However, all the good things he had hoped for, and all the boundless fantasies he had once had, had turned into a cloud of bubbles, like soap bubbles that could not be dispersed in the wind......

Now, when the shadow of Song Jie's death has begun to loom over and interfere with his life, like a black cloud crushing the city and wanting to destroy it, is there anything fresher and more precious for him than the memories of his first love of his youth that are rapidly disappearing?

However, he does not need to denigrate himself and belittle himself.

Moreover, in his frivolous and indulgent adolescent years of incriminating with the opposite sex, he did not deserve his deep sympathy and pity for the miserable voice of the bruises that cried out to him, and for the solemn and solemn faint voice that came to his ears from the cold grave.

……

Three days after Tang Shu learned the news of Song Jie's death, because he couldn't resist his desire to see how Song Jie died before he died, he witnessed the whole process of a beautiful woman's painful death in the hospital.

Although Tang Shu is a top student who graduated from a medical university, not all diseases can be cured by him - therefore, he feels powerless to deal with the beautiful woman who is terminally ill and can no longer be treated in the advanced stage.

The beautiful female patient was lying on a bed in the intensive care unit, with all kinds of tubes stuck in her body – oxygen delivery, cardiopulmonary monitor lines, rescue infusion tubes......

On her deathbed, she died a very difficult and painful death.

Tang Shu had heard of this beautiful female patient who was red-faced and life--a woman who was abandoned by her husband, and later she was terminally ill and had no financial resources to live, and spent every day in a life of pain and struggle.

This feeling of being abandoned by her husband and suffering from a terminal illness - she has neither known joy nor tasted happiness - in Tang Shu's view, death is a kind of relief and a kind of escape for her.

She doesn't seem to be elated, does she?

However, when her dying sick body was still struggling unyieldingly, when she was pressing her chest with her cold and bony hands and still lying in pain and helplessness, when she was still alive with her eyes open and still alive with all the strength that had finally burst out of her heart,—— this beautiful woman kept whispering in her heart: "I'm sorry, please forgive me for my mistakes......"

Moreover, the creepy and terrifying expression that slid off her eyes as she lay dying, only died when all the sparks of her nervous consciousness died in an instant......

It was on the occasion of such a doctor to the patient, in front of the bedside of this beautiful female patient, Tang Shu saw this scene, he remembered the deaths of Song Jie and Liu Li, he was afraid of their deaths,—— he prayed for Song Jie and Liu Li, for his father Tang Kui, and for himself.