Chapter 23: To please yourself
When Wei Chi Sheng returned from H City in a leisurely and comfortable and slow train, he found out with a rough and careful feeling that during the seven days he was out, he didn't miss Murong Lian so strongly.
He couldn't help muttering to himself—
"Humph! This shows that my feelings for Murong Lian are not as deep as I imagined. On the day of departure, this rich woman hinted to me with her face that I was poor and lowly and should not think of her as a rich woman. ”
I looked at her face, which was neither yin nor yang, and I couldn't understand that she was expressing a meaning, and she regretted letting me hold her hand and put my arm around her shoulder. However, her hands are so beautiful, so fair; Her shaved shoulders are so soft that I really can't put them down and can't extricate myself. ”
This time, although he did not have material gains, but he did have ideological gains - after he had a discussion with Sun Yuan about running a school and getting rich, Wei Chisheng's brain became easier to reason, as long as he seized market opportunities, he could also change from a poor person to a rich man - he no longer fell into an inferiority complex brought about by poverty all the time.
This kind of inferiority complex has caused him to be unable to think normally and to be cautious, cowering, soft and weak...... And now, he felt that he could fly high in the sky like an eagle to look down on the poor, and even the poor whom he called rich.
This change in thinking made his heart feel lighter and no longer feel heavy. Even he himself was amazed to find that he was completely different from his previous thinking.
In the seven days that Wei Chisheng went out, Murong Lian was bored, time seemed to be stretched, every second seemed extraordinarily long, and everything was a kind of ordeal for her.
Eventually, she fell ill – like soot blown away by the wind, and the feeling of vanishing was with her.
Cao Pu is still very busy in business, where can he care about Murong Lian? And they have been married for more than nine years, and their children are already eight years old, and the relationship between husband and wife has long turned into family affection. Marriage is as plain as water, Cao Pu held Murong Lian's hand like his left hand holding his right hand, it was a feeling of no ...... This made Murong Lian even more lost, leaving her lonely heart with nowhere to put it.
However, when she saw that Yu Chisheng had returned, her condition seemed to be better than half of her, and she was going to have a long talk with Yu Chisheng that night.
Kan Ying saw it and said to Murong Lian: "Don't sit in the garden and chat tonight, the humid air at night will make your condition worse." If you want to chat, you can go to the tea room on the third floor and sit and chat casually, you can drink tea and chat, isn't it? ”
Who knows, Murong Lian not only did not agree, but also dressed up carefully.
Murong Lian thought like this:
"If you sit in the tea room and play, the indoor lights are bright, and Wei Chisheng doesn't dare to touch my hands, let alone hug me."
"It's different under the yellow cypress tree in the garden, the lights are dim at night, and others can't see him making small movements such as touching his hands and hugging, even if Kan Ying sits next to him."
"Now that Wei Chisheng is back, I can't be passively sad, but take the initiative to attack......"
She thought of this, so she put on an extremely sexy and fashionable outfit that she had just bought online - a flesh-colored tight-fitting dress underneath and an open-breasted outfit on top.
From the outside, the open-breasted outfit naturally exposes the firm and round breasts, as if they were naked without clothes inside, so sexy that men think about it when they see it.
Kan Ying suddenly understood-like a light bulb that turned on in an instant, and understood the mystery.
"This best friend of mine, Xiaolian, has so many eyes in her heart, and she wears so little exposure, she is really not afraid of catching a cold...... Ah, it turns out that she is in love with Yu Chisheng - this, is it appropriate? She couldn't help but whisper in her heart.
Kan Ying originally planned to persuade Murong Lian, but after thinking about it:
"If I try to persuade her, I will make her relationship with Wei Chisheng clear, and it will make her uncomfortable in front of me—because she doesn't know that I've seen it, and thinks I don't know anything......
"And...... She may have misunderstood me and thought that I meant that to Yu Chisheng! She might even be jealous and turn her face with me...... Forget it, don't persuade it! ”
"Besides...... Now rich women, especially young women with a little money, want to find a lover outside other than their husbands, which is just a game and may not destroy the family's ......"
Therefore, Kan Ying did not persuade her, but just observed it coldly.
When Murong Lian saw Yu Chisheng again, she looked at him affectionately, staring into his eyes, her eyes were full of tenderness and love, and she couldn't help but be shy—her eyes were full of anticipation for Yu Chisheng.
"Teacher Wei Chi, are you planning to leave me when you go out this time?" Murong Lian asked.
"Who said that?" Wei Chisheng asked rhetorically lightly.
Although he had considered the question raised by Murong Lian, he had not yet made up his mind...... Although before parting, Sun Yuan asked him to think twice, if he decided to come after thinking clearly, Sun Yuan would welcome him to cooperate in running the school at any time.
"I guessed!" Murong Lian pretended to be relaxed and said.
"Well, you guessed half right."
Wei Chisheng neither affirmed nor negative, and his answer was vague. Murong Lian was very confused in the face of his vague answer, and she was completely confused.
At first, Murong Lian's shy face was so red, like shy red leaves falling on the ground in the park. Later, it slowly turned pale, like a piece of paper that was so white that it had lost a trace of blood.
She really couldn't stand Wei Chisheng's ambiguous attitude - she felt unable to control her emotions, as if tears would pour out from her eyes at any time.
However, she had to try her best to control herself, and she must not cry casually, for fear that she would become annoying in front of him, so she had to have the courage to ask Yu Chisheng repeatedly:
"Are you really going to leave me and make a living somewhere else?"
Her expectant eyes and trembling voice resonated with Wei Chisheng...... He felt the pain and intolerance in his heart, which was a testament to his soft and compassionate heart.
"This rich woman may really love me, she is reluctant to let me leave, and I am reluctant to leave her! …… But after all, she is a married woman, and I do that, right? ”
He struggled inside, as if occupied by two very different voices, one telling him that he should do it, and the other telling him that he couldn't.
He couldn't help but think cranky—
"Whether my feelings for her are right or not...... However, if her tenderness for me at this moment had moved me so quickly, it would have been immediately rebuked by my fragile self-esteem. ”
"If she stopped worrying about whether I left her, then as a rich man, she would revert to her haughty and contemptuous mentality—I was just going to hang her appetite so that she couldn't figure out my cards."
After a thorough analysis of the relationship between each other, like seeing the moon through the clouds, Wei Chisheng said:
"I'm definitely reluctant to leave you...... Still, maybe that's all it can be...... But I didn't think it through, and I didn't know how to do it, so I could only take it one step at a time! ”
When Murong Lian heard these vague and specious words, her heart was about to break—like a flooding river, unable to find a proper end, she could only let this unbridled flood erode her heart.