Osamu Dazai had hated the pigeons at home for being too noisy countless times. Because of the demand for magic shows, Nishinomiya Tsurukage raised a flock of pigeons, but he couldn't take them all with him, and when there was no special performance demand, all the birds were kept here in Tokyo. He and Nishinomiya Yueyu were extremely relaxed about the birds, and did not arrange cages, but specially arranged a room for them to rest.

And Nishigong Yueyu likes all kinds of stuffed animals, including cats, rabbits, and hamsters...... Most creatures don't have a very good IQ, and only cats are allowed to mess around in the house.

They don't seem to be worried at all that the cats will catch the pigeons, so that the little animals can get along with each other.

These little guys didn't disappoint, they were extremely human, very obedient when they should be, and barely caused trouble - except when Osamu Dazai deliberately teased them. Of all the people who have been with small animals, the only one who doesn't like them very much is probably Osamu Dazai. This person seems to have a natural hostile position with the pets at home, although he will also feed, but he always feeds and feeds, and the chickens fly and the dogs jump.

He especially doesn't like to get along with Xigong Yueyu alone, suitable for a cat to pop out, or a few pigeons that come over to beg for food.

Just imagine, when he quietly closed the door, his mind was spurring, ready to stick together to do something unspeakable, but the door was suddenly scratched. There will be a sharp crunching sound, followed by an even more violent pulling sound. Cats are too smart when they don't need to, and when no one opens the door, they jump up and open the doorknob.

It rushed into Nishinomiya Yueyu's arms like a white cannonball, and completely ignored Osamu Dazai, and collapsed into a cat cake in Nishinomiya Yueyu's arms. If Osamu Dazai expresses his reluctant opinion, Nishinomiya Tsukiyu will say, "Dazai-kun, what are you talking about with a cat?" ”

He also tried to lock the doors and windows, but the seemingly stupid fat cat would join the pigeons in making trouble for him, either pounced on the window and pecked at the glass, or scratched the doorway.

The most outrageous time was when the pigeons dug out the spare key to the bedroom from the corner of the house and rushed straight in.

Osamu Dazai always felt that these animals were deliberately interrupting his relationship with Nishinomiya Yueyu, but he had no evidence. On other occasions, they are indeed as simple and silly as normal small animals, every day in addition to wandering around is to eat, sleep and sleep, one by one by Xigong Yueyu raised fat balls, fluffy, people who come to visit will always can't help but go over to stroke two.

Only in front of him, these little things no longer look like pets at home, but like a group of uncles, who have nothing to do, and rush up to fight when they don't like him.

The war between him and them was protracted, and Osamu Dazai got used to it.

In the past few days, everyone has been so busy that their feet do not touch the ground, and no one has time to take care of this group of small animals. No one knew where the inactive pigeons had gone, and in the midst of all the grief, no one noticed this little anomaly.

Now Osamu Dazai knows.

After the accident of Xigong Heying, there were so many pigeons that never came out of the nest again, did not eat or drink, and no one managed them for several days, so they slowly starved themselves to death.

Starve. Even Osamu Dazai, a suicidal maniac, didn't think about dying.

This way of dying is too slow, too painful, a moment of despair is infinitely extended, and while the consciousness is still awake, the brain has to endure the pain from the body infinitely, not so violent that it is unbearable, but it is definitely more torturous than the pain.

The desire to die often lasts only for a while, and then, the pain gives birth to countless feelings of regret that eat away at that firmness.

Under the instinctive will to survive, several

No one can starve to death when there is enough food.

Perhaps this is the purity peculiar to animals.

He didn't dare to imagine that the stupid and bad white doves would go on a hunger strike, and with this consciousness alone, their determination should have defeated the vast majority of humans. He had heard of loyal dogs waiting until they starved to death after their owners had left, and there were news reports of teenage parrots starting to mutilate themselves because they had lost their owners. But he never thought that this kind of thing would happen to him.

Osamu Dazai didn't expect their relationship with Nishinomiya Tsurukage to be so deep.

He stood in the deserted room, counted the remaining little ones, and soon knew who the dead ones were.

If it was an ordinary pigeon, maybe he couldn't tell it, but the few pigeons that died of hunger strike happened to be the leader of the whole flock, one of which had pure white feathers, without a little variegation, Xigong Yueyu named it "Gugu", and the other had a very special gray feather on its wings, named "pigeon pigeon".

He is often targeted by these two birds, so Osamu Dazai calls these two "idiots" and "idiots" behind his back.

Now, and in the future, there will probably never be that kind of targeting.

Osamu Dazai was not happy.

He fed the animals as usual, stayed a little longer, looked at the room, and felt that there should be no more hunger strikers, and then left—he had thought that if a pet refused to eat, he would feed it even if he broke its mouth and forced it to be plugged.

He felt that Xigong Yueyu could no longer experience death.

Even if Xigong Yueyu still looks normal now, as the person who should be sad the most, he even has the energy to comfort others so that others don't be occupied by sadness. Anyone who looks at him thinks he's too strong. is obviously a child who has just come of age, but he is forced to endure so much.

Osamu Dazai knew that Nishinomiya Yueyu was very good at disguise, and he wasn't sure if the current situation was played by Nishinomiya Yueyu. Or maybe it's just that the reflex arc of grief is too long, and sometimes, when the reality shock is too strong, it does make people start to run away and refuse to feel any pain for a short time.

— until the self accepts the facts.

Either way, it's not good for mental state. Osamu Dazai is afraid that any event that upsets the balance now will affect Nishinomiya Yueyu, and if he can't bear it, he finally admits that only by accepting death can he end his suffering......

- There must not be that possibility.

……

Nishinomiya Yueyu had no way to explain to Osamu Dazai, he was really sad, but he was really not that sad. At least there is absolutely no category that is fragile enough to seek death.

Seeing that Osamu Dazai's misunderstanding of him was getting deeper and deeper, and his attitude towards him was like treating a glass flower that was about to break, Nishinomiya Yueyu had a headache.

A week passed, and his cold was finally almost better. Nishinomiya sat on the bed, and after waiting for a while, he didn't see Osamu Dazai come in, so he could roughly guess that he must have gone to see the pigeons. He felt that Osamu Dazai was also a little arrogant, and he looked down on each other with the pigeons before, but now that something happened, he was the first to come forward and care.

It was all his pot, and perhaps he had been ill the week before, completely forgetting that he still had some pigeon vests to deal with. By the time they reacted, Gollum and Pigeon were already unsavable.

If he had remembered earlier, he might have been able to save the lives of a few plant pigeons.

Now so,

Osamu Dazai will see him through the fate of the pigeon.

The bedroom door was finally pushed open, and Osamu Dazai slid in silently. In the past few days, he has just been a dutiful pillow on the bed, and several times Nishinomiya Yueyu woke up in the middle of the night, and he could see Osamu Dazai awake, or he was awakened at the same time, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

He leaned over, probably just wanting to hug Nishinomiya Yueyu and then stuff himself into the quilt, but Nishigong Yueyu suddenly reached out and pressed his shoulder, stood up and dragged Osamu Dazai into a long kiss.

The emotions of the two people are very different, but they are both surging, and they stumble a few times before falling into it.

When he was almost out of breath, Xigong Yueyu let go and lay back with little strength—his face was completely red, and his skin was too pale to hide the crimson that had come up.

"Dazai-kun, don't make yourself too tired." Nishinomiya Yueyu's gaze didn't fall directly on Osamu Dazai's face, he shifted a little, trying to stuff himself into the quilt and hide it, "Let's put down thinking once in a while." ”