Lu Zheng'an has always liked Lu Yingchun, a ghost girl, and when he saw her running over, he handed over the dragon beard candy and honey that he bought for her.

"Well, I'm talking a lot, let's go eat."

Lu Yingchun took the paper bag with a smile, turned his head to look at the envious friends under the tree, and said to Lu Zhengan with a proud face: "I happened to be thirsty when I was playing, so I just went home and drank some water." ”

As far as Lu Yingchun is concerned, Lu Zhengan can't see it. He rubbed her head dotingly and led her all the way home.

When Lu Zhengan and Lu Yingchun returned home together, Lu Yang was sitting in the courtyard giving the family's sheep and grass, and when he saw Lu Zhengan coming, he hurriedly put down his work and stood up from a small stool.

"Zheng'an is here?" Lu Yang saw the things in Lu Zhengan's hand and the sugar residue on Lu Yingchun's mouth, and said angrily: "Why did you buy candy for this girl to eat again?" Be careful, no one will suffer for you when the toothache comes. ”

After that, he pointed at Lu Zhengan again and complained: "You grandfathers are used to this dead girl, and sooner or later you will spoil her." ”

Lu Zhengan and Lu Yingchun looked at each other, wrinkled their noses, and beckoned Lu Yingchun to send things into the hall. Lu Zheng'an returned to the courtyard and squatted down to help Lu Yang's while currying, while explaining: "Last time, I promised Yingchun to bring her good food, but I can't talk as a brother, right?" And I'm going to be a partner tonight, too, and if I don't say it, I'll be embarrassed to come back next time. ”

Hearing this, Lu Yang glared at Lu Zhengan, "Look at what you say, it's like I won't let you in if you don't take something." ”

However, Lu Yang also knew that Lu Zheng'an had nothing to do and did not go to the Three Treasures Palace, so he was afraid that there was something to do when he came over to eat, so he asked them to help.

"Yingchun, go to your fourth uncle's house and call your father back, just say that there is something at home to find him."

When Lu Changgen returned, Lu Zhengan had already helped Lu Yang feed the sheep in the pen. Lu Changgen saw that his hands were stained with dust, so he hurriedly asked Lu Yingchun, who was holding the sheepfold door next to him to watch the excitement, to fetch water for Lu Zhengan and wash his hands.

When Lu Zhengan packed up and entered the house, Lu Yang had almost prepared dinner. asked Lu Yingchun to help clean up the table, and then brought the meal.

Lu Changgen looked at the plates of meat dishes on the table and couldn't help frowning. "It's not like there's no food to eat at home, it's okay, don't waste this money anymore."

Knowing that the village chief and his wife were all for their own good, Lu Zhengan smiled and didn't take it to heart. nodded and agreed: "I know, it's not a big deal Uncle Changgen and his aunt have to work hard to help Zhang Luo, I can't let you work hard in vain." ”

As soon as he heard that Lu Zhengan had something to help, Lu Changgen put down his chopsticks, "What's the matter, you just need to say anything, can we not stretch out our hands?" ”

"I saw that the eighth day of the fifth month of May was good, and I want to ask Uncle Changgen for you and your aunt to help you go to Song's house for a trip to the next one. Mrs. Jiang also said that I would go with me the day after tomorrow. ”

Lu Zhengan had already greeted Lu Changgen before, so he was not too surprised by Lu Zhengan's words at this time.

"Okay, we'll wait for you at the bottom of the mountain the day after tomorrow." As he spoke, Lu Changgen put a piece of braised pork with chopsticks and put it in his mouth, and then continued to ask: "Are all the things you want to send ready?" ”

"I'm almost ready, but I'm still missing two big red roosters, and there's nothing particularly good in town, so I want to ask my aunt to help me find them."

Lu Yang is also the wife of the village chief, but whenever he goes out, others still have to give some face. Generally speaking, this kind of red rooster is a festive event to buy, and the price is not low, as long as the family has a supporter, it will not hold it and refuse to sell it.

"Okay, I'll let your aunt go out and inquire later. It is not a trivial matter to make up our minds, and on that day we must pay attention to a little measure in our words and actions, and we will not seek to be more brilliant in our work, but just do things in a proper manner. ”

Hearing this, Lu Zhengan nodded obediently, and silently poured a glass of wine for Lu Changgen.

……

Hualong Town, Song Family

After knowing that Lu Zhengan was going to come over the day after tomorrow to make a decision, Song Xiren was worried about it in his heart. waited until it was about to get dark, and then ordered Xiao Chen to close the shop and go home.

Looking at Song Huaishu, who had been smiling all the time, at the dinner table, Song Xiren felt mixed in his heart. Finally, after dinner was over, watching Song Huaishu go back to his room to rest, Song Xiren sighed heavily in front of his wife.

Song Lan looked at her husband who suddenly changed his face, and couldn't help but feel strange, so he asked, "What's wrong?" What kind of sigh do you have? ”

"Lu Zheng'an went to the shop to find me today."

Song Xiren's voice fell, and Song Lanshi said, "What is he going to do in the shop to find you?" What's the matter? ”

Song Xiren nodded, "Discuss with me, saying that you want to come over the day after tomorrow to make a decision." ”

Hearing this, Song Lan's heart couldn't help but be overjoyed. But after looking at the expression on Song Xiren's face, he understood his concerns, and the smile on his face fell.

"Tell me, what do you think?"

Song Xiren sighed and said: "The affairs of Huaishu will be said sooner or later, and it will be embarrassing to everyone at that time, so it is better to explain everything before making a marriage." How to choose when the time comes, it all depends on Lu Zhengan's own choice. ”

After that, Song Xiren slapped his forehead heavily, "It's also to blame that I was soft-hearted and couldn't explain it to him earlier, you said that if the kid surnamed Lu can't accept it at that time, how can we Huaishu be good when the time comes......"

Song Lanshi looked at Song Xiren, who was full of remorse, and felt a little worried in his heart, but he still pretended to be tough and said: "Then you go to Lujia Village tomorrow and explain the situation of Huaishu to Lu Zhengan." If he can accept it, he will make up his mind with joy, and if he can't, then he will stop there. As for Huai Shu......"

Speaking of this, Song Lanshi hesitated, "If Lu Zhengan can't accept it, we can't force others." It's a big deal, let's leave Hualong Town, as long as the distance is far away, and after a long time, no matter how sad things are, we can always let go. ”

However, when the old couple of the Song family were looking at each other in the house without saying a word, Song Huaishu, who should have been resting, was trembling under the window lattice outside the house.

The ease and joy of being with Lu Zhengan these days made him forget the fact that he was disabled. Originally, he still fantasized about spending the rest of his life happily with Lu Zheng'an, but now thinking of the other party's disgusted and disdainful eyes after knowing his secret, Song Huaishu only felt that the whole person was like falling into an ice cave......

The old couple of the Song family had no sleep all night, and wanted to wait until dawn to go to Hualongshan for a trip.

However, when Song Xiren got up and wanted to inform Song Huaishu that he was going out, he couldn't knock on Song Huaishu's door.

Song Xiren suddenly felt that something was wrong, and hurriedly called his wife out, and the two pushed open the door of Song Huaishu's room, only to find that the bedding on the bed was neat, and it did not look like someone had slept before.

Seeing this, Song Lanshi suddenly staggered, grabbed Song Xiren's arm with his right hand, and said tremblingly: "Quick, go quickly, Lujia Village!" Huaishu, that kid must have heard us last night! ”

CHAPTER XXXIV

Because he drank a little too much soup at night, Song Huaishu suddenly felt a little anxious before going to bed. As soon as I walked to my parents' window, I heard them mention Lu Zhengan's name. Song Huaishu's heart moved to hear what his parents would say, so he stopped his tracks.

When he heard his father say that Lu Zhengan wanted to come over the day after tomorrow to make a decision, Song Huaishu was stunned for a moment. Although it was strange why Lu Zhengan came here so early to make a decision, it could not be denied that his joy almost overflowed from his heart after hearing the news.

Just when Song Huaishu was full of joy thinking about what clothes to wear the day after tomorrow. When he made himself look worthy of Lu Zheng'an and prepared what dishes to entertain the guests who came to make a decision, he suddenly heard his parents talking about his disability, and Song Huaishu seemed to be poured a basin of ice water on his head in an instant.

After being with Lu Zhengan for so long, Song Huaishu never confessed his secret to him. Even, in front of Lu Zhengan, he has forgotten the fact that he is disabled......

Song Huaishu didn't dare to imagine what kind of expression Lu Zheng'an would have after learning his secret, perhaps it was sarcasm, maybe it was disgust, maybe it was disgust ......, but these should not be borne and faced by his father for him.

But he really likes Lu Zhengan, cares about him as a person, and really wants to live with him for the rest of his life. Song Huaishu didn't dare to imagine how Lu Zheng'an, who didn't know about it, would react when he found out his secret after the two of them had completely 'treated each other sincerely.'

I'm afraid it's going to be a hundred times more embarrassing than it is now......

Now that their parents are old, they have devoted their whole lives to themselves, and they cannot afford to be harmed by others again by their own momentary selfish desires.

Thinking that maybe he and Lu Zhengan were going to part ways, Song Huaishu only felt that his heart was like a knife. Listening to the plans of his parents in the room for his future, Song Huaishu in the dark suddenly had a bold thought in his heart.

He wants to go to Lu Zhengan once and tell him his secret!

If Lu Zhengan could not accept it, then he would leave Hualong Town in accordance with his parents' plan, and never see Lu Zhengan again.

Song Huaishu didn't know how long he stood under the window until the sound in the room faded away. Song Huaishu stiffened his hands and feet, and then walked to the door step by step, pulled the door latch and disappeared into the night step by step......

The distance from Hualong Town to Hualong Mountain, Song Huaishu's mind was full of thoughts, and it was not until he came to the door of Lu's house and looked at the closed door that the whole person reacted.

He raised his hand and wanted to knock on the door, but he remembered Lu Zheng'an's thoughtfulness and care in the past, but Song Huaishu's hand couldn't knock down.

In the end, he just gently pressed his palm against the heavy door panel and slowly sat down along the wooden door, waiting for the mountain breeze to blow across his cheeks, and when Song Huaishu wanted to straighten the hair that was blown by the wind on his face, he found that he had burst into tears at some point.

When Song Huaishu sat down against the door panel, the ducks in the chicken pen behind the west wing suddenly heard the sound of footsteps, and thought that the owner had gotten up to prepare food for them, and suddenly quacked happily.

Song Huaishu was startled when he heard the duck call, and hurriedly propped up the door panel and prepared to get up. found that after walking for so long, his legs and feet were already sore, and the whole person fell to the ground again.

And Lu Zheng'an, who heard the sound of ducks in the house, thought that he was a yellow skin on the mountain, and came down to steal fish. Before he could put on his clothes, he felt the wooden stick standing behind the door and opened the door of the hall and rushed out.

However, the moment he stepped out of the hall door, there was a sudden muffled noise at the entrance of the courtyard. Lu Zheng'an, who was carrying a wooden stick, thought that he was a thief, and suddenly his heart froze, and after hesitating, he replaced the wooden stick in his hand with an axe for chopping wood.

Although the thousands of catties of dried peaches at home have not been exchanged for silver money, if someone touches them, Lu Zhengan's hard work for so long will be all in vain. During this time, he hired people to pick peaches and handle peaches, but anyone who paid attention knew that he still had some savings in his hands. It is not impossible for someone who is waiting for the blind to have crooked thoughts and touch the door in the middle of the night.

By the time Lu Zhengan moved to the door step by step and touched the deadbolt, his whole person's already nervous breathing was about to stop. Gently pulling off the deadbolt blocking the door, Lu Zhengan slammed the door panel, and just as he was about to raise the axe in his hand, he saw a familiar figure standing in front of him in the dark night.

After Lu Zhengan saw clearly who the person opposite was, he was about to throw away the axe in his hand and strode out of the door.

"It's the middle of the night, why are you here?"

Lu Zhengan hurried to Song Huaishu's side and reached out to take his hand, but Song Huaishu abruptly dodged him.

Seeing Song Huaishu's evasive action, Lu Zhengan couldn't help but be stunned for a moment. With a move of his empty palm, Lu Zhengan ignored Song Huaishu's resistance, but still stepped forward and came to him.

"Huaishu, what's wrong with you? What the hell is going on? ”

Lu Zheng'an's deep voice was full of worry, and listening to Song Huaishu's ears made him can't help but have a sour nose.

"I heard from my father that you are going to my house the day after tomorrow to make a decision, right?"

Hearing this, Lu Zheng'an couldn't help but sink in his heart. "Yes, I wanted to wait until the cold dew had passed. But the cold dew is still some time away, and I can't wait for it. ”

Maybe it was because of the night, or because of Song Huaishu's sudden abnormal mood, Lu Zhengan bluntly announced the thoughts in his heart. Seeing that Song Huaishu on the other side did not react after listening to it, Lu Zhengan stared at Song Huaishu tightly and asked with difficulty: "You, don't you want to?" ”

Lu Zheng'an's words fell, and Song Huaishu was silent for a moment before slowly shaking his head.

Immediately thinking that it was late at night, and that Lu Zhengan would not be able to see his movements, Song Huaishu clenched his fists hanging at his sides, plucked up his courage and said: "It's not that I don't want to, but in fact I have a secret that I have never told you." Now, I can't hide it from you anymore. ”

After hearing that Song Huaishu was not unwilling, Lu Zhengan let go of most of his heart. Seeing that the mountain wind at the door made Song Huaishu's clothes hunting, Lu Zhengan was worried that he was infected with the wind and cold, and wanted to lead him into the house. But thinking of Song Huaishu's evasion, Lu Zhengan was afraid of stimulating him, so he finally gave up.

"If there is something to come into the house, the mountain wind is cold, don't blow your body."

Song Huaishu entered the room accompanied by Lu Zhengan, and when Lu Zhengan wanted to go to the table to light the oil lamp, Song Huaishu immediately opened his mouth to stop him: "Don't light the lamp!" Don't light the lights, okay? ”

Listening to Song Huaishu's unconscious pleading, Lu Zhengan did not understand what was wrong with him, but he still followed his wishes.

"Okay, we don't light the lights. You should be tired after walking so far, so sit down and rest for a while, and I'll pour you a glass of water to drink. If there's anything, we'll talk about it when you're rested. With that, Lu Zhengan came to the table in the dark, picked up the teapot on the table and poured him a cup of herbal tea.

"You should take a sip to moisten your throat first." After Lu Zhengan finished speaking, he stuffed it into Song Huaishu's hand.

I don't know if it was blown by the wind, Song Huaishu's palms were cold, and the whole person seemed to be still trembling slightly. Lu Zhengan wanted to ask him what had happened, but when the words came to his lips, he was afraid of irritating him, so he could only swallow all the worries in his stomach.

After Song Huaishu drank the water, the whole person's mood slowly eased. He suddenly sighed in the dark, as if he had made up his mind, and finally spoke: "I have been different from ordinary people since I was born, I have what men should have, and I have all ...... men who don't."

Speaking of this, Song Huaishu couldn't help but choke up.

"Hermaphroditism, you know, it's Erjiazi, Yin and Yang people, I'm such a person. When I was born, Wen Po once suggested that my parents throw me away and give birth to a healthy one again. But my father and mother were reluctant, and even did not want any other children for the sake of my life. My father would have liked to come and talk to you himself. But this secret, I want to tell you personally. ”

At this time, Lu Zheng'an had already been smashed by Song Huaishu's secret, and he was a little unable to react, and he didn't know what to say for a while, so he could only remain silent and not speak.

Lu Zheng'an suddenly remembered Yuan Lingfeng, whom he had met by chance at the Xiaoman Meeting, and who had also said the same thing about Song Huaishu that day, but later he was taught a lesson by himself.

It's just hermaphroditism, or intersex, Lu Zhengan has always heard of it, but he has never seen it, let alone thought that Song Huaishu would have such a physique.

In this way, the reason why he has passed the age of a weak crown and whose family background is still so good, but he has never been married, is clear.

Because of his health, Song Huaishu could not marry a wife and have children like a normal person, and under pressure from the government, he could only find a man to form a contract. Now that he and Song Huaishu are in love, Song Huaishu is afraid that he will not be able to accept him as a hermaphrodite, so after hearing the news that he is going to make up his mind, he will not hesitate to confess to himself......

Song Huaishu saw that Lu Zhengan didn't react at all, and decided in his heart that Lu Zheng'an couldn't accept himself like this. In the dark, he smiled silently and continued: "I know that you must not be able to accept me like this. But it doesn't matter, I'm not one of those stalkers, and I won't pester you. However, I also pray that if you do not, even if we have never known each other, and that you will help me to keep this secret. ”

After Song Huaishu finished speaking, he got up from the stool and prepared to leave in the night. But before he could take a step, a hand grabbed his wrist.

"Aren't you going to leave without waiting for my answer? You haven't asked me yet, why are you so sure I can't accept you? Song Huaishu, can't you have a little confidence in yourself? ”

Hearing this, Song Huaishu couldn't help but smile bitterly, "Do you still need to wait for this answer?" How could a normal person accept someone like me? I know you're a good person, and you don't need to comfort me like that. I, I was actually mentally prepared when I came. ”

"What if I can accept it? The existence of this world is reasonable, and since God has created you like this, he naturally has his reasons. You are kind-hearted, filial, and never inferior to others. According to you, I may not be a normal person, and I don't think there's anything wrong with you doing this. What I love is you, so I can accept you no matter what kind of person you are. My previous silence did not mean that I disliked you and could not accept you. It's that I've never been in this situation with you, and I need time to digest what you're saying. ”

After that, Lu Zhengan paused, "So, you don't have to worry about it in front of me, believe me, and believe in yourself once." It's just that you're going to give me some time to brush it up. ”