He remembers everything.

I just don't understand.

But although he didn't understand, when Gu Huaiyu recovered, Gu Huaiyu still relied on his own study and exploration to find out the meaning of his existence.

When he was young, he was just very confused and didn't understand why the first four brothers and sisters didn't need to go to the hospital, the fifth brother has been in the hospital, and he goes to the hospital regularly.

He was also curious, did the older brothers and sisters in front of him need to lie on that cold platform often and be punctured in the spine?

He didn't understand why his parents didn't hug those four brothers and sisters, but he was the only one who had to experience pain once a while.

He didn't like the smell of the hospital.

……

Shen Qing's hand on Gu Huaiyu's neck moved tremblingly, and his fingertips gently touched the other party's spine.

Because of the thinness, even through a shirt and suit, you can easily feel the bumps there.

Shen Qing's fingertips suddenly trembled even more violently.

He had not had his spinal cord drawn.

But he'd heard it really hurts to do that.

And...... And 20 years ago, medical conditions were very different from what they are now...... He really couldn't imagine the pain Gu Huaiyu suffered at that time......

"Does it hurt?"

I couldn't speak for a long time, and when I could say it, I only said this sentence.

The usually bright and affectionate apricot kernel eyes became red, and Shen Qing didn't know when, his eyes were full of tears.

Gu Huaiyu raised his hand to gently wipe the tears of the young man, and said distressedly: "I know that you will definitely feel distressed when you talk about this, but I didn't tell you before." ”

He promised him that he would tell him everything when he was healed.

But in the end, he felt that these things were all in the past, and there was no need to tell them to young people.

Because when twenty years later, the day he was notified by the hospital that he was cured again, they were already in love.

After the rain, he has his own sunshine, and the haze of the past is completely gone.

He thought that the youth might cry for him.

His heart rejoiced, and his heart burned because the youth loved him.

But he was reluctant.

Gu Huaiyu comforted his lover in a low voice.

Shen Qing asked very persistently: "Did it hurt at that time?" ”

Gu Huaiyu was stunned and replied truthfully: "Fortunately, when I was a child, it was easy to heal the scar and forget the pain, but I remember that every time I go to the hospital and come back, I have to be weak for a long time." ”

Compared to the sharp pain that was only for a short time, Gu Huaiyu didn't like the feeling of weakness that he couldn't control his body.

Looking at the young man's rare eyes full of sadness, Gu Huaiyu's heart moved, and said: "But later, I heard what people said, if the spinal cord is pumped too much, you will get myelitis and paralysis." So from the age of seven all the way to my teens, even knowing that my spinal cord could regenerate and not paralyze me, I always felt like I would need to be in a wheelchair one day. ”

Gu Huaiyu, who said this, was thinking about enlivening the atmosphere.

However, it is clear that he has never played the role of enlivening the atmosphere, and he has failed.

Shen Qing...... It's even more distressing!

hugged each other one step closer, as if he didn't know how to get closer to each other and give him warmth, Shen Qing couldn't do anything, so he could only hug him and cry silently.

Because I always feel like I'm going to be in a wheelchair one day.

So in the two years when Mr. Gu gave up struggling and was ready to die, he really started and didn't leave the wheelchair.

In a trance, Shen Qing felt that this was the reason why Gu Huai had to stay in a wheelchair even if he was not lame.

In the small living room, Shen Qing stood between his long legs and hugged each other tightly.

The people who hugged each other were silent and silent.

"What about Gu Huaiyu? You saved his life. Shen Qing couldn't let go of this matter in his heart, so he asked again.

Although Gu Huaiyu didn't say it, he also roughly guessed that in the Gu family's growth environment, even the favored Fifth Young Master should be crooked.

After all, when Gu Huaiyu grew up, he was still very jealous of Gu Huaiyu.

"There is fierce competition within the Gu family." Gu Huaiyu said.

Although Gu Huaiyu is favored by his parents, he is also favored too much, which causes the dissatisfaction of other siblings.

What's more, during the long treatment period of more than six years, the former partners who were like glue were already physically and mentally exhausted - in the second year after Gu Huaiyu's recovery, Ms. Su and Gu Yuan divorced instead.

After the divorce, Ms. Su and Gu Yu'an both reorganized their new families, and even in the Gu family, Gu Huaiyu had two more sisters.

Regarding this point, Gu Huaiyu once commented disdainfully: No matter how much I liked it, it can also be said that I will change people.

Shen Qing also felt very embarrassed and ironic - since Gu Huaiyu was favored because he was the crystallization of their love, he loved them so much that they wanted to create a life that deliberately provided the spinal cord for the fifth young master; They even didn't want to hug the child because they were worried that it would be unfair to the fifth young master......

But such a rock-solid love is gone.

Leaving only a mess in one place, and children who were dragged and brought to this world for no reason.

How ironic.

After Gu Yu'an divorced his second wife and changed his wife, Gu Huaiyu was no longer the crystallization of love, and his life in the Gu family was not so good.

This can be seen from the situation after he became a vegetative person - even Gu Yu'an rarely mentioned him again.

His mother, Ms. Su, loved him very much, not only took him abroad and accompanied him to recuperate, but also was responsible for keeping his marriage partner Xiao Yingdi firmly by his side.

Here Shen Qing is not like singing praises of maternal love, because Ms. Su's love did not give him the care of Mr. Gu.

…… Ms. Su can be eccentric and protect her shortcomings, so can she too!

In short, although Gu Huaiyu was still Gu Yu'an's favorite child at that time - he was finally saved, he still had feelings, and according to Mr. Gu, his favorite person would always be Ms. Su.

But after the third mother entered the door, Gu Huaiyu's status in the Gu family still regressed, and he should have been tricked and bullied by Gu Huaixiang and them.

——In terms of trickery and unreasonableness, the top three of the Gu family still have some ability.

Even if he still had Gu Yu'an's partiality and love at that time, he may still have a distorted heart.

And Gu Huaiyu was sick since he was a child, his body was thin and small, and when he grew up, he began to be jealous when he saw the handsome and outstanding Gu Huaiyu.

Perhaps influenced by his parents, he never regarded Gu Huaiyu as a brother.

He's just a mobile blood bank he's used to have.

It's a pity that more than ten years later, the tool man is not only outstanding in appearance, but also very capable...... Probably this is what makes Gu Huaiyu distorted.

After all, not only Gu Huaiyu, it is said that when Gu Huaiyu was in his early twenties, he became an existence that even the old Gu always admired and wanted to get a piece of the pie from him in turn.

- The last time Mr. Gu came to his house to make trouble, Shen Qing still heard it with his own ears, and Mr. Gu said that Mr. Gu was "selfish and narrow-minded".

Isn't that just not getting benefits from Mr. Gu, so he is angry?

Elders and fathers are still like this, no wonder the other brothers and sisters are all wronged, and they always feel that Mr. Gu owes them.

Gu Huaiyu's heart is not strong enough, and after a long time, it is entirely possible that he will also start to hate Gu Huaiyu.

Gu Huaiyu was noncommittal to Shen Qing's series of speculations, and the truth of the matter was indeed similar to what Shen Qing thought.

"That'...... That accident, Gu Huaiyu should have been going abroad with Emperor Xiao for a long time at that time, why are you on the same bus? ”

"He came back to me and went crazy."

"Oh?" Shen Qing: "What's the matter?" ”

Gu Huaiyu looked at the young man, and his pale lips showed some sarcasm again: "He said that Ms. Su was depressed and unhappy abroad, and she divorced his stepfather. …… It's because Ms. Su is starting to feel sorry for me. ”

Shen Qing: "............"

Damn, what are you doing!

So when the child was young, she didn't care or love, and when she got old, she suddenly looked back on what she had done and began to repent.

Knowing that it might cause the two sons to continue to be at odds???

"Gu Huaiyu's open-mindedness, just blow it up." Shen Qing said sadly.

"Indeed."

That car accident was Gu Huaiyu who returned to China angrily, squatted in Gu Huaiyu's company for three whole days, and then took advantage of Gu Huaiyu's car to go out in the car directly and violently.

Gu Huaiyu didn't want to bother with him, so he gave him some time to listen to what he wanted to say.

Gu Huaiyu was very angry and excited, and kept saying that he was just an accessory of him, without him Gu Huaiyu, his parents would not have given birth to Gu Huaiyu at all, but in the end, it was Gu Huaiyu who was in poor health and had to take medicine all year round.

Without a smart brain, an extraordinary IQ and a handsome appearance, it is him Gu Huaiyu!

Gu Huaiyu is nothing as good as Gu Huaiyu.

So much so that the person Gu Huaiyu liked finally liked Gu Huaiyu.

For Gu Huaiyu's mother, who couldn't even do with her life, finally began to miss Gu Huaiyu!

Then there was a car accident where the car was hit by a heavy truck that lost its brakes.

In the carriage where the glass was shattered, in the dust, Gu Huaiyu finally heard Gu Huaiyu say that he should not come to this world.

“…… And then you agree with his words? ”

Shen Qing, who was standing face-to-face, subconsciously touched the big guy's face.

In the past, Gu Huai touched him more often, and Mr. Gu's face was too pale, and it was also full of nobility, which would make people subconsciously avoid his edge.

Even though Shen Qing was already familiar with him so far, he had never taken the initiative to touch his face.

But now, it was as if a thick layer of shell on the other party's body had broken, so that Shen Qing subconsciously stroked his pale, bloodless skin, just like he had once comforted Dodo, or teased Baba Boy, the movements were very light but warm.

And when his fingertips swiped softly, Gu Huaiyu also raised his head a little more.

It's as if you're enjoying the breeze.

At the moment, his distinct facial features are relaxed and enjoyable, and it is rare that they are not so serious.

Gu Huaiyu said calmly: "It's not that I recognize him, it should be that I think so myself." ”

His voice was soft.