Before leaving for Iceland, Chi Qingtai went for a psychological consultation. The weather was fine that afternoon, but the temperature was below zero, but the sun was very strong, and it was warm on the skin.

Ji Qingtai walked into the clinic wearing a dark gray coat.

"Long time no see, Meng Shu smiled and spoke, and saw his hands without gloves at a glance, it seems that your treatment has been working well recently."

Chi Qingtai nodded, then stretched out his right hand to shake her hand.

Meng Shu was really shocked, and only after half of the ring did he say in surprise: "You can already shake hands with people?" ”

Chi Qingtai withdrew his hand, his expression was quite calm: "A handshake for normal social interaction is okay." ”

"That's great," Meng Shu breathed a sigh of relief, "I'm really happy for you, although I didn't help much in the process." ”

"How so?" Chi Qingtai shook his head, and sat down opposite her, "If you can't help, I won't come back to you." ”

Meng Shu raised his eyes: "Is there something else bothering you?" ”

Ji Qingtai fell silent.

After a few minutes like this, Meng Shu thought that he would avoid this question, but Chi Qingtai suddenly spoke: "I can't understand him." ”

Meng Shu was stunned for a moment, and then he reacted: "You mean the person who cooperated with your treatment?" ”

Chi Qingtai was noncommittal, and then asked her: "Dr. Meng, why did you become a psychiatrist?" ”

Meng Shu: "I like psychology on the one hand, but the most direct thing is, of course, you pay me for my consultation, and I make a living from it." ”

"Here's the problem," Chi Qingtai frowned, as if he was a little confused, "but he cooperated with my treatment, but he didn't want anything." ”

"Are you sure he doesn't want anything?" Meng Shu asked, "Or does he actually have a need to express it, but you don't realize it, or you don't think it's a need." After all, not everyone uses money as a unit of measurement. ”

Ji Qingtai recalled the previous conversation and said, "His only request is for me to complete the treatment. ”

Completely altruistic and does not ask for anything in return, in the field of psychology, Meng Shu's first reaction is White Knight syndrome.

People with White Knight syndrome have a desperate desire to "save" or "shelter" others, especially those who are emotionally traumatized or in distress.

But she soon realizes that it is not rigorous to define a stranger by one word alone.

Meng Shu asked again: "How is the relationship between the other party and you?" ”

Chi Qingtai: "He is my husband in law. ”

That should have nothing to do with the White Knight Syndrome, Meng Shu enlightened him: "You have a close relationship, he may just want to help you, and husband and wife don't need to calculate so clearly." ”

"We just got married on a blind date, and we didn't have much affection," Chi Qingtai shook his head, "but he took good care of me in life and cooperated with me very actively." He respects me very much, never loses his temper, takes the initiative to reconcile with the Cold War, and basically does not refute my point of view. ”

Meng Shu smiled: "I thought this was the married life that most people longed for." ”

"Sorry, it sounds like it's showing off, but I'm really bothered." Chi Qingtai lowered his eyes, "I don't understand why he is so good to me, and even beyond the scope of normal collaborators." ”

"I understand that everyone has their own set of habitual patterns of behavior, and the other person's behavior sounds good, but it causes distress to you

Disturb. ”

Meng Shu asked again, "Then have you tried to tell him that you don't want him to be so good to you?" ”

Chi Qingtai thought for a while and shook his head: "No, I'm worried that I will hurt him after I say it." ”

Meng Shu: "Then you can try to make yourself accept the other party's kindness." ”

"No, I'll be under a lot of pressure in this way," Chi Qingtai was even more unacceptable, "I don't want to owe favors, and I can't help but be better to him." ”

"The feelings are mutual," Meng Shu was puzzled, "You are husband and wife, isn't it better to do this?" ”

"It's not good," Chi Qingtai shook his head, "We're just married, and sooner or later we'll separate." ”

Meng Shu: "So you don't want you to be too close during your marriage?" ”

Chi Qingtai: "That's right. ”

"Before discussing this issue, I would like to understand your thoughts in more detail," Meng Shu took out a tablet, "Mind taking another psychological test?" ”

Chi Qingtai did not refuse, he spent nearly ten minutes to complete the test, and returned the laptop to Meng Shu.

After seeing the test results, Meng Shu was silent for a moment.

Sure enough, Ji Qingtai's attachment type is avoidant.

In fact, physical contact phobia is largely accompanied by a dissociated personality, and it is easier to develop avoidant attachment in intimate relationships.

Avoidant attachment is caused mainly by childhood, and for various reasons, normal intimate relationships are not developed.

Such people do not see abnormalities in their daily lives, they may be good leaders, reliable friends, and because they are rational and calm enough not to fall into a relationship that is not good enough, or even better than most people.

However, when they get involved in intimacy, all the hidden contradictions will erupt. Because they are afraid of losing, they will subconsciously keep their distance from people and refuse to get too close to people.

Now Chi Qingtai is in a cautious wait-and-see position, he may not have realized his evasion, but his instinct is already beginning to doubt, and even makes him vigilant, ready to withdraw and flee at any time.

Seeing Meng Shu's bad expression, Chi Qingtai asked her, "What's wrong?" Bad test results? ”

"It's nothing, I just want to know about your treatment," Meng Shu put away the computer and brought the topic over. She didn't want to raise new questions at this critical juncture, which would likely undo previous treatments. She said to Chi Qingtai, "At present, it seems that your physical contact phobia has been reduced a lot. ”

A correct nonsense, Ji Qingtai did not answer.

Meng Shu asked again, "Do you have any plans for the future?" ”

Chi Qingtai paused, and said with some trouble: "I want to go to Iceland with him, saying that it is a staged reward for my treatment." ”

"Iceland is beautiful, I've always wanted to go," Meng Shu laughed, "Do you want to go?" ”

Chi Qingtai didn't have any expression: "It's okay." ”

Meng Shu: "......"

She had already understood that this was an awkward and reserved consulter, and Ji Qingtai's "okay" was "very good", and "average" was "okay", and now it seemed that he should be looking forward to this trip.

Meng Shu: "Then you can relax." ”

Ji Qingtai pursed his lips, not quite satisfied with this answer.

He had come to Meng Shu for something else, and Meng Shu hadn't told him the solution yet.

"I know how troubled you are,"

Meng Shu said slowly, "The reason why you resist is that you feel that interpersonal communication is very troublesome, you don't want to expose yourself, and you don't want to fall into such a deep interpersonal relationship." ”

"But you know what? The so-called knot of the heart is born from contact with others. And the change we crave can only be achieved by getting along with others. Meng Shu looked into his eyes, and his tone was gentle and encouraging, "Maybe this is the 'other' who changes you." ”

Chi Qingtai raised his eyes suddenly, his gaze sharpened, as if he was guarding against something.

"It's not the kind of relationship you imagined," Meng Shu shook his head with a smile, "I give you psychological counseling, and to a certain extent, it is also to change your 'others'." And in the process of chatting with you, I am also being changed by you. ”

Chi Qingtai was a little surprised: "You were also changed by me?" ”

He first became interested in this psychotherapist.

"Oops, I didn't expect time to pass so quickly today, this is over, let's talk about it when we have a chance later." Meng Shu got up from the sofa and said with a smile, "You have my WeChat, if you have any questions, you can also communicate with me, not limited to consultation time." Of course, this is also counted as part of the consultation, and I will keep it confidential throughout the whole process. ”

As soon as he piqued his interest, he said that it was over, and Chi Qingtai was a little dissatisfied.

"Well, let's make an agreement," Meng Shu turned back, "If you can tell the secret you've been hiding next time, then I'll tell you my heart knot too." ”

……

It was late afternoon when Chi Qingtai left the treatment room, and the red sunset hung in the sky, dyeing the streets orange and yellow. Chi Qingtai walked down the steps with his coat on, and a crescent moon was rising above his head.

He sat in the parking lot and was silent for a long time in the sunset.

It was then that he realized that he still owed Xie Shulan an apology.

But pride and pride controlled him, and the apology was unspoken until he boarded a flight to Iceland.

Iceland, despite its high latitude, is not in the Polar Circle and also has a few hours of sunshine in winter.

Unfortunately, the day they arrived was cloudy, the air was foggy, the visibility was low, and it was very Icelandic.

As soon as I got off the plane, the cold air at the high latitudes rushed to my face, and I only took a breath, and it was cold from the inside out. Chi Qingtai wrapped his down jacket tightly and went to the parking spot near the airport with Xie Shuyun.

Xie Shuyun has a friend in Iceland who will lend them a modified off-road 4WD and help them complete a five-day road trip.

It didn't take long for them to get their hands on the car, a modified Hummer H2 with a very tall chassis and a very large body, made for this extremely cold environment.

The owner of the car was a native of Iceland, and he introduced them to many lesser-known attractions, and then he reluctantly left.

Xie Shuyun said goodbye to the other party, and was a little emotional, but he didn't expect Xie Shuyun to have such a wide range of connections, and he had acquaintances in this kind of place.

"A patient from before," Xie explained to Kamiike Qingtai's curious gaze, "and I have been in touch since we had a work cooperation." ”

Chi Qingtai sat in the co-pilot a little drowsy, and said "um" without much energy.

For this trip, he has been busy for the past few days, dealing with work on the plane, and after landing in Iceland, he was blown by the cold wind, but he didn't expect to catch a cold.

On the first day, Chi Qingtai was at the hotel

slept in the dark, Xie Shuyan also accompanied him in the hotel, and he didn't go to any of the scheduled attractions. ()

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Iceland is worthy of being the first hometown of Chinese, and there are a large number of Chinese people in every attraction. Chi Qingtai was wrapped in a thick down jacket and placed in it, the scenery was indeed beautiful, but he faintly felt that this was not the same as he imagined. But he couldn't say what was the difference.

Fortunately, the next three days were arranged by car, and they found a local guide to see the ice cave, and then they had to go on a glacier hike.

The ice caves are so remote that the nearest town used to be a long drive away, and they had to drive from the Icelandic capital to the town through a vast expanse of wilderness

。

Because they had to drive in the snow, they also specially reinforced the car and added tire chains before departure.

Unfortunately, the weather forecast predicted that a snowstorm would arrive tomorrow. It happened to be the time when they arrived in the town, and Xie Shuyan was a little uneasy: "The road will be more dangerous, if you are afraid, we can change the itinerary." ”

Chi Qingtai didn't want to give up, he didn't see anything in Iceland this time, the next self-drive was the itinerary he was most looking forward to, and it was said that that town was a good aurora observation point, and Chi Qingtai didn't want to miss it.

"The storm won't arrive until tomorrow, and we should have arrived in town by then." Thinking that Xie Shuyun felt that it was too hard, he added, "We can change the car on the road." ”

"It's fine." Xie Shu shook his head lazily and didn't mention the cancellation of the trip.

The buggy drove through the vast expanse of snow and ice towards a far-flung destination.

As they move deeper into the heart of Iceland, the true face of this faraway country is finally revealed to them.

The frozen land stretches as far as the eye can see, the sky ends with towering snow-capped mountains, and a red hut sits beside the road, like a scene from a fairy tale.

In winter, Iceland has short days, and it doesn't take long for this mysterious land to be covered in twilight and become lonely and gentle.

Outside the window, the wind was also strong, the wheel chains creaked against the snow, and visibility was so low that they could only follow the weak GPS navigation.

The sky was full of wind and snow, and they were the only ones left in the vast world, lonely and small. It is only now that Ji Qingtai has truly felt the true charm of this country. It was an immersive scene that he couldn't experience no matter how much he watched travel videos.

Suddenly, there was a sudden braking, and Chi Qingtai's body moved forward due to inertia, and was pulled back by the seat belt.

"What's wrong?" He looked up a little dazedly.

Xie Shuyan unbuckled his seat belt and got out of the car: "I'll go down and have a look." ”

It's easy to have accidents when driving in snow, and Ji Qingtai also got out of the car. As soon as the car door opened, a strong wind suddenly hit him, blowing his cheeks and his eyes couldn't open.

The snow on the road was piled high, submerging most of the tires, and Xie Shulu squatted in front of the tires with a serious face.

"Stuck in a car?" Chi Qingtai put his hands in the pockets of his down jacket, and exhaled a burst of white mist with one mouth.

Xie Shu untied the scarf and put it around his neck, and then said, "It's a bit of an accident, you go back to the car first, it's windy outside." ”

Xie Shu's scarf was very warm, stained with his body temperature, and the smell of his body. Ji Qingtai couldn't tell what it was, but he thought it smelled good.

He is deep

() Take a breath,

Wrap the scarf around again,

completely covered his mouth and nose, revealing only a pair of Qing Lingling's eyes outside.

Since they were all stuck in the car, Chi Qingtai naturally wouldn't stay in the car to increase the difficulty, and he stood on the snow on the side of the road. watched Xie Shuyun return to the car and continue to light the fire.

It didn't take long for the modified SUV to roar in the dark, the wheels revving fast, but still unable to get out of the pit.

Then Xie Shulan got out of the car and walked towards him, his thick eyebrows tightened: "It's stuck, I'll call for rescue." ”

GPS showed that they were only a dozen kilometers away from the town, but due to heavy snow and the road was closed, rescue still did not arrive after an hour.

They sat in their cars waiting for the police, and the snow outside the window was getting heavier and the visibility was so low that it made people feel like they were in an apocalyptic world.

In order to save energy, Xie Shuyun turned off the built-in lights, leaving only the headlights and taillights illuminated, and the four beams of lights lit up, and soon disappeared into the dense wind and snow.

The dark sky pressed down, and Chi Qingtai in the car wrapped his down jacket tightly, and returned to the distant past in a trance.

It was also in such darkness that he was locked in a hut with hunger and cold, and prayed to the people outside the door over and over again, but received no response......

"Chi Qingtai, Chi Qingtai!" A voice came from far and near, and Chi Qingtai looked up and saw Xie Shu's anxious face.

He blinked, his expression a little dazed: "What's wrong with you?" ”

Xie Shu was stunned for a moment, and then said, "Seeing that you are distracted, I thought you were afraid of the dark." ”

"No," Ji Qingtai shook his head, "Thank you, I'm fine." ”

His tone was the same as usual, but his hands tucked under his down jacket tightened a little.

He is indeed not afraid of the dark, on the contrary, he has a nervous breakdown and is a little photophobic, and he has to sleep in a state of complete darkness.

He also knew that he had long since come out of the past, but now the cold and darkness were superimposed, magnifying the hidden emotions and making him temporarily in a trance.

Xie Shu glanced at him lazily, still a little uneasy. But Ji Qingtai was obviously reluctant to talk, and he didn't ask any more, just turned on the lights in the car again.

The warm yellow light propped up a small space in the blizzard, like a safe fortress.

Outside the window, the cold wind carried the ice and snow and smashed on the car, making a crackling sound, and occasionally a cat meow or two.

Mew?

Chi Qingtai poked his head out in confusion, but he couldn't hear anything.

Xie Shuyan: "What's wrong?" ”

Chi Qingtai asked him, "Did you hear a cat meow?" ”

Xie Shuyi: "Now it's icy and snowy, how can there be a cat barking?" ”

Chi Qingtai was stunned for a moment, and sat back again.

Yes, he's in Iceland now, and it's bitterly cold outside, how can a cat survive in such a place?

He should have known that no cat could survive in this environment.

Ji Qingtai closed his eyes and didn't speak again.

The blizzard was long ahead of schedule, but rescue was delayed. The heating in the car was sufficient, but Chi Qingtai was so cold that his limbs were cold.

"Xie Shuyun," he asked with a deep breath and a serious expression, "can you lend me your hand?" ”

Xie Shu stretched out his hand a little dazedly, and the next moment, Chi Qingtai grabbed him tightly.

The cold touch surprised him, and Xie Shu was dazed

frowned: "Why are your hands so cold?" ”

He even wore a down jacket.

Xie Shu's heart sank suddenly, and he hurriedly pulled Chi Qingtai over his hands and carefully checked it, and found that it was just that his hands were cold, and his body was not hypothermic, so he was finally relieved.

He lifted his clothes and put Chi Qingtai's hands on his stomach.

Chi Qingtai was stunned for a moment, and subconsciously struggled.

"Don't move,"

Xie Shu's face was calm, and he stopped him in a serious tone, "Hypothermia is very dangerous in snowy days, and you don't want to be undressed and hugged by me to keep warm after falling ill, right?" ”

That picture couldn't be imagined, Chi Qingtai was silent for a moment, and obediently handed his hand to him.

Xie Shuxiang lifted his sweatshirt and stuffed his hand into it.

Ji Qingtai didn't wear gloves, and under his hands were the man's flexible abdominal muscles, and he could even feel the lines of his skin.

He turned his face away with some embarrassment, and his ears grew red.

But thanks to Xie Shula, his stiff hands gradually regained their heat.

Chi Qingtai withdrew his hands, a little embarrassed: "I'm sorry." ”

"It's not your fault," Xie Shuxian put down his sweatshirt and didn't take it to heart, "If you really want to talk about it, I arranged this route, and I was the one who drove it." ”

"It's not this thing, it's the ...... before" Chi Qingtai took a deep breath and looked up at him, "I said before that you crossed the line." ”

Xie Shuyi raised his head in surprise.

Chi Qingtai's head lowered again, I don't know if it was hot or embarrassed, and Qingxiu's cheeks were slightly red. He looked at the front of the car and said awkwardly, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that about you." ”

"So that's it," Xie Shu chuckled lightly, and pretended to be angry, "Where did someone delay until now to apologize." ”

Chi Qingtai really felt guilty: "I'm sorry ......"

Xie Shu laughed coyly: "Fortunately, I forgave you a long time ago, otherwise I would have been uncomfortable for more than ten days." ”

Chi Qingtai raised his head a little dazedly, somehow, he suddenly wasn't so afraid of this piece of wind and snow.

Two hours later, the rescue car finally arrived.

After another hour, the off-road vehicle finally brought them to the town.

The snowstorm lasted 32 hours, and on the third day the weather finally cleared up, and they were able to visit the ice cave and hike the icebergs. On the way, I met a lot of enthusiastic passers-by and took the initiative to help them take many photos.

The only regret is that I haven't seen the aurora and am about to go back. Back in Reykjavík, Iceland's capital, that night, Xie Shulazy drove through a white snowfield, and Chi Qingtai lay drowsy in the passenger seat.

Xie Shuyun on the side suddenly shouted at him.

Chi Qingtai had just finished his trip, and he lifted half of his eyelids sleepily: "What's the matter?" ”

"Look up."

Chi Qingtai looked up half-awake and half-asleep, originally a little dazed, until an aurora crashed into his eyes without warning.

The arch-like aurora stretched across the sky, like a flowing green wave. Majestic, mysterious and elegant, it doesn't seem like a scene that can occur on Earth.

Ji Qingtai has never been a person who longs for love.

He understood a long time ago that he could live alone without love.

But at this moment, when they drove across the straight highway and headed towards the emerald green ribbon of light, Chi Qingtai couldn't help but think: This is really romantic.

Chi Qingtai looked at the people around him and thanked him sincerely: "Thank you, thank you." ”

Although he didn't like Xie Shulan, he will always remember the night they chased the aurora in Iceland.

……

After the trip, Chi Qingtai updated his profile picture, which was a landscape photo taken by Xie Shuyun for him.

He stood in the snow in a black down jacket, with a large and towering glacier behind him, cold and dangerous.

Xie Shuyun also updated the back picture of the circle of friends, but it was a smiling face of Chi Qingtai.

It was their way to the Blue Ice Cave, and the guide took them on a long journey, across the river, up the glacier, and through the narrow ice cave, and finally saw the refreshing blue.

Chi Qingtai was attracted by the beautiful scenery in front of him and smiled heartily.

Xie Shuyun captured this scene in time.

The young man in the photo has crooked eyebrows and eyes, the tip of his nose is blown red by the wind, and the mountains and glaciers are also discolored.