As soon as the words fell, Chi Qingtai's lips were fiercely sealed. This kiss was hot and hot, making Chi Qingtai's waist completely soft.

After a few minutes, the man in front of him let go of him, put his forehead against him and asked, "Are the guests still satisfied with my service?" ”

The people of Chi Qingtai were all stunned, but they were still hard-mouthed: "General." ”

The man narrowed his eyes: "Could it be that the guests have tasted better?" ”

Chi Qingtai acted casually: "Of course I tasted it." ”

The man's eyes darkened for a moment.

Chi Qingtai added: "My husband's skills are better than yours. ”

"Your husband?" The man in front of him suddenly laughed, not the gentle and polite smile he usually had, but a somewhat bad and dangerous smile. He leaned his knees against the wall and parted Chi Qingtai's legs, and asked in the tone of a stripper, "Then may I ask, does your husband know that we are cheating?" ”

"Do you want to tell my husband?" Chi Qingtai untied his neckline, and his fingers went down his collarbone, "Tell me I bought a duck outside." ”

The man's breath was short for a moment: "I'm not a duck." ”

"Huh?" Chi Qingtai raised his eyes to look at him, "Could it be that you usually work in the hospital and go to the sea at night to be the top brand?" ”

The man's eyes darkened: "I only sell it to you." ”

"I don't necessarily have to pay," Chi Qingtai withdrew his hand, as if he was a queen on top, "If you want to make money, show your skills and please me." ”

With that, he pushed the man in front of him out of the bathroom.

After a few minutes, Chi Qingtai opened the door and came out, glancing sideways.

Xie Shuyun has been punished for standing for so long, but there is no sign of subsiding at all. When they saw him go out, they immediately came up and grabbed him by the wrist.

Chi Qingtai glanced up at him and said lightly, "Go home first." ”

Xie Shuyi: "Don't continue?" ”

"No," Chi Qingtai calmly analyzed, "Lu Niandong's villa has been empty for a year, although it was cleaned for a party, there must be health problems." And I don't like to do this kind of thing in a crowded place. ”

"So skilled?" Xie Shuyun didn't know what to think, and held his hand against the wall, "You've participated in this kind of party before?" ”

Chi Qingtai: "Yes." ”

Xie Shuyan: "When?" ”

Ji Qingtai didn't hide it from him: "When I was in high school, I was invited by my classmates to his house to play. ”

At that time, he had just entered school, and when he was invited to play at home by his tablemates, he thought he had made a friend. Unexpectedly, it turned out to be a meat party, so frightened that he ran back overnight and had nightmares for weeks.

Anyway, since then, he has had an inexplicable rejection of this kind of thing, and even brought disgust.

It wasn't until he met Xie Shuyun later that he gradually faced up to his needs......

Chi Qingtai stopped talking: "It's all over, let's go home first." ”

Xie Shuyi turned around and went downstairs, and also said, "I understand, I don't like to do this kind of thing either." ”

Chi Qingtai wanted to laugh a little: "I don't know who said it, I have a strong need." ”

Xie Shuyun: "That's because I met you." ”

Chi Qingtai: "......"

Xie Shuyun: "Whether you believe it or not, you made me like this." ”

Chi Qingtai: "......? ”

Xie Shuyun is a skipping grade, and his peers entered puberty earlier than him.

When he was twelve or thirteen years old, he was still ignorant, and suddenly found that the boys in his class had changed their personalities. Like a wild animal in the African savannah that has entered its breeding season, when the rainy season comes, the former child quickly matures, becomes reckless and impulsive, showing its body like an animal, marking wantonly.

I don't know if it's because of my physique, Xie Shuyun hadn't opened up yet, but he was the best developed of all boys.

Once he was relieved, a group of adolescent boys surrounded him with excitement.

At that time, Xie Shulaan was careless, but he also knew the ill intentions of these people. He fought with them so hard that he became so famous that no one dared to provoke him again.

But even if he is aggressive, he can't stop this change.

It was as if a spring rain had fallen, the seeds in the ground had sprouted, and couples had grown in the school.

After-school classrooms, abandoned gymnasiums, locked toilets...... The school has become their playground, and Xie Shuyu will bump into it from time to time, and at first he will feel disgusted, and after seeing too much, he will gradually scoff at it.

Others said ambiguously, when you reach your age, you will know how happy you are. Xie Shuyan didn't care, and his brain automatically divided the people around him into animals.

The tall boy on the sports team is a stallion, the short man with glasses is a teddy, and the people around him are no longer people, but a bunch of creatures with cows, horses, pigs, and sheep heads.

At that time, Xie Shu arrogantly thought that he would draw a line with this group of people.

It wasn't until soon after that he finally reached puberty as well.

Only then did he realize that the program written into the human gene was even more stubborn than he imagined.

Especially when he was a teenager, he already had exaggerated things, and that thing was even more long when he entered puberty, Xie Shuyan was distressed for a long time, what pants to wear to cover it completely.

Many people of the same sex envied him, and there were many people of the same sex and the opposite sex who offered themselves to the pillow, but he refused all of them mercilessly, and was bored with it.

Controlled by hormones and hormones, it's just a low-level human desire. If he is driven by this desire to find random people to pass the time, it will make him look down on himself very much.

After a brief period of chaos, he quickly found balance in his life. He vents his energy while exercising, while reading boring philosophies to keep his mind calm, and at the same time living the life of a physical monster and an ascetic, making him a monster for the whole middle school.

Xie didn't care about the strange eyes of others, because he quickly entered high school with excellent grades, and completed his studies a year later and applied to a well-known university.

Studying in college was easier than expected, and Xie Shula, who had nowhere to vent his physical strength, chose to join the rugby team. With his tall physique and superior technique, he stood out in the white pile and became a sought-after sports star, even having professional teams invite him to compete.

Everyone thought he was going to soar and make his mark to the Super Bowl.

But it didn't take long for Xie Shuyun to apply for withdrawal by himself.

He gradually felt the terrifying monster lurking inside him.

Rugby is a sport full of conflict and violence, and if he continues to play, his teammates may be more than that

It's as simple as injury...... ()

Xie Shuyun began to control himself again.

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As small as drinking a few glasses of water a day, as big as solving it yourself once a week.

He always has a precise grip on his life.

In the midst of these terrible routines, he gradually found balance in his life.

And when he enters this stage, he is even less interested in intimacy.

The so-called love or impulse is just a product of the brain, and it is all hormones that control the human body. If a stimulation device is installed in the brain of a mouse, the mouse can always be high... tide until death.

But he's human and he doesn't want to be hormone-driven creatures.

Xie Shuxian was almost paranoid about setting a series of rules for himself, and he strictly controlled his life, including everything that came around him.

Gradually, he began to enjoy the joy of being in control, and he felt a deep sense of pleasure in seeing things go the way he had predicted.

For him, the joy of life is not indulgence, but control.

He grasped the meaning of life in control.

Everything went according to his plan, until he later met Ji Qingtai, and when he saw Ji Qingtai wearing gloves and walking coldly through the crowd at the airport, his proud self-control shattered.

The heavy rain that enlightened thousands of teenagers finally landed on him across time and space more than ten years later.

Love, accompanied by the desire that has been silent for many years, vigorously envelops him, turning him into an adolescent boy, turning him into an animal on the grassland that has entered the breeding period, and making him eager to possess everything in Chiqingtai anytime and anywhere.

He had tried to completely control Chi Qingtai countless times, but in the end he controlled them all. The interweaving of decades of self-control and the desire for indulgence has turned him into a monstrous man who is sometimes a gentleman who is ascetic, sometimes greedy.

If it weren't for Chi Qingtai, he wouldn't have become what he is today.

Xie Shuyi walked down the stairs, and a romantic female voice came from the stereo on the first floor.

"Twist me lightly, and roll me up again

Hold me close to your lips

Let my breath fill your lungs

Then exhale me slowly, and float in the wind."

Hearing this, Xie Shuyun stopped at the staircase.

Chi Qingtai: "What's wrong?" ”

At this time, the living room was already deserted, and people found their playmates and hid in the corner to kiss.

But there were also people who raised their heads and looked at Chi Qingtai on the stairs with anticipation.

Xie Shu's eyes swept over one by one and saw many men who were eager to try.

The possessiveness in his heart resurfaced, and the competitive instinct of the male animal controlled him. Xie Shu raised his eyes lazily, and after two seconds of silence, he slowly asked, "Do you have to go home?" ”

Chi Qingtai was a little surprised: "You still want to play?" ”

Xie Shuyun just looked at him.

At this point, the lyrics in the stereo became:

"Let me blur the line between you and me, and cross your bottom line

It's going to be something you won't regret for the rest of your life."

The atmosphere was too ambiguous, and Chi Qingtai vaguely sensed something, and tried to ask, "You want to continue here?" ”

Xie Shuyun: "They are all looking at you."

() ”

Chi Qingtai explained: "Because I was wearing a suit. ”

He also knew that this reason was too suffocating, and even he couldn't convince himself.

Chi Qingtai paused and slowed down his voice: "Then what do you want to do?" ”

Xie Shuyun: "I want them to know that you are mine." ”

Chi Qingtai thought for a moment and walked down to him: "Then kiss it?" ”

As soon as the words fell, he was pushed onto the handrail of the stairs by Xie Shuyu and kissed him fiercely. Xie Shuyan's strength was amazing, and Chi Qingtai felt that his waist was about to be broken.

There were still so many people around watching, Chi Qingtai had never done such a thing outside, and his ears turned red in an instant.

"I will take you to the Moon Palace Wonderland and back to this vast world

Or sit in the back seat of my Cadillac

Start enjoying it slowly, then pick up the pace"

The music added fuel to the fire, eroding his already shaky self-control.

Xie Shuyi ......" Chi Qingtai was about to hold on, he grabbed the man's arm and began to whisper for mercy.

Xie Shuyi picked him up, then strode to the second floor, kicked open the door of the room and walked in.

Chi Qingtai was startled, and hurriedly got up from the bed and walked out, but was grabbed back by Xie Shu's wrist and pressed on the bed.

"Xie Shuyun, are you crazy?" Chi Qingtai's eyes widened, and his beautiful eyes were full of disbelief, "You want to be here?" ”

"It's not dirty," Xie said.

I'll give you a cushion in my coat. ”

"It's not a problem at all," Ji Qingtai said in a serious tone, "It's that I don't want to do it here." ”

Xie Shuyun: "Why? ”

Chi Qingtai casually found a reason: "No equipment." ”

Xie Shuyun took out things from his pocket, and everything was complete.

Chi Qingtai: "......"

It turns out that this person has been planning for a long time?

He added, "It will stain the clothes." ”

Xie Shuyun: "I will be very careful. ”

After two seconds of silence, Ji Qingtai confessed: "I don't like this environment, it will make me feel insecure." ”

In his opinion, intimacy should take place in an intimate environment, comfortably and safely.

Although he is willing to cooperate with Xie Shuyan's various behaviors, he is still a conservative person at heart, and he is unwilling to show his privacy in public.

After being silent for a long time, Xie Shu let go of his hand: "I understand." ”

Chi Qingtai straightened up with his suit and turned around to ask people to leave, only to find Xie Shu sitting on the bed with a sad expression.

Chi Qingtai wondered: "Are you still leaving?" ”

Xie Shu didn't speak, and sat on the bed alone and sulked.

"Then I'll go first." Chi Qingtai walked to the door, and when he saw that Xie Shuyan still ignored him, he closed the door and walked out.

The song just happens:

"I will take you to the paradise of your dreams

Take a sip, close your eyes, and let your thoughts drift into the distance

I know the beautiful fantasies in your mind at this time."

At the end of this section, Chi Qingtai opened the door and re-entered the room, and Xie Shu, who was on the bed, raised his head and his eyes were already red.

“……”

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Qingtai strode over: "What's wrong with you?" ()”

Xie Shu lowered his eyes lazily, as if he had been greatly wronged: "You don't have to worry about me, I'm fine, I'll be fine soon." ()_[()]?『 See the latest chapter. Complete Chapter'()"

Chi Qingtai glanced at the time, and his tone became serious: "Give you thirty seconds to say it." ”

Xie Shuyun seemed to have finally made up his mind, and said slowly: "I just want to make up for the regrets of my childhood." ”

"What childhood regrets?" Chi Qingtai frowned, "Your childhood regret is to do it with me in this kind of place?" ”

Xie Shuyan was silent for a long time, and then said slowly: "I also participated in my classmates' party in high school, but I didn't understand anything at that time, and I was ridiculed by my classmates. ”

Adolescent boys, in addition to trying in every possible way to attract the opposite sex, will also suppress the same sex who are not manly.

Chi Qingtai thought that Xie Shuyan had suffered from the campus bully... Ling's face sank suddenly: "Do you remember who bullied you at that time?" ”

Who can bully Xie Shuyan?

Even if he is two years younger than his peers, he can beat those people all over the place.

"I don't remember," Xie Shu shook his head with red eyes, "but I remember they said I ......"

Chi Qingtai: "What are you talking about?" ”

"Say that I don't even understand this kind of thing, and no one will like me, say that I will be lonely and old, and say that no one will ever love me." Xie Shu closed his eyes lazily, and hot and wet tears fell into his palm.

Xie Shuyan has always been calm and calm, and he is at ease, where has he ever shown such a fragile appearance in front of him?

Chi Qingtai's heart softened instantly, and he hugged the person into his arms, as if he was comforting the boy who was bullied many years ago.

Xie Shu hugged his back and said in a low voice: "Although I understood later, I will never go back to high school." I finally had this opportunity today, and I wanted to make up for my past regrets with you......"

Chi Qingtai was stunned: It turns out that Xie Shuyun thinks so?

"Forget it, if you don't like it, you won't do it," Xie Shu wiped away his tears, "I'm fine." ”

Xie Shuyi's face and this expression, Chi Qingtai really couldn't stand it, and compromised for a while: "It's not impossible." ”

"Is that okay?" The man in his arms suddenly raised his head with an expression of disbelief.

Chi Qingtai closed his eyes and said helplessly: "Yes, but you can't stain my clothes." ”

Xie Shuyun said okay, he helped take off his clothes, and said inch by inch: "Then can you play the way you looked in high school?" ”

Chi Qingtai was about to be laughed at by him: "You still made up the script?" ”

Xie Shu raised his eyes to look at him: "Can't you?" ”

The man's eyes were red, and his voice was aggrieved, like a male vixen.

Ji Qingtai took a deep breath and reminded him, "I was a minor in high school. ”

Xie Shuyan: "I am also a minor. ”

Chi Qingtai: "Then you still ......"

"I dreamed it." Xie Shuyun said.

Chi Qingtai was stunned: "What? ”

Xie Shuyun: "I dreamed that I fell in love at first sight with you at a party in high school, and then we made out in a room like this. ”

“……”

Chi Qingtai was speechless: "When I was in high school, I still had a phobia of physical contact, and it was not good for anyone to dare to approach me."

() Exit. ”

Xie Shuyan: "But don't you resist me?" ”

Chi Qingtai: "......"

Forget it (), just act, right? ()_[()]?『 Come []@看最新章节@完整章节'(), anyway, Xie Shuyun can't tell if he is acting or not.

Soon Xie Shulan started to act, obviously much more jerky and rude than before, which made him feel a little painful.

Chi Qingtai was a little angry: "Will you do it?" ”

"I didn't have any experience at the time," Mr. Xie said, "and you could think of me as I was in high school." ”

Chi Qingtai: "......"

Damn it.

When I was still in high school, why was I so ashamed.

But Xie was sparse in high school......

Chi Qingtai was aroused by curiosity, and then asked, "What were you like in high school?" ”

"I don't remember exactly," Xie said, "I only went to high school for one year, and I didn't have any friends, but I didn't need friends, because I only stayed in junior high school and high school for one year, and I went to college at the age of fifteen." ”

I went to college at the age of fifteen......

And Xie Shuyun is now playing him in high school, isn't that still a minor ......?

Although he knew that it was fake, Chi Qingtai was still frightened into a cold sweat: "Xie Shuyan, don't go too far, did you look like this when you were fifteen years old?" ”

"I don't know," Xie Shu said calmly, "Anyway, I'm the biggest in the school." ”

Chi Qingtai: "......"

Nothing else was clear, but he found that this fifteen-year-old Xie Shu was so lazy and disappointed. Like a stinky little boy, the kind that gets kicked on the road.

"What about you?" Xie Shurong asked him, "What were you like in high school?" ”

Ji Qingtai remembered that when he attended a party abroad for the first time, he was so frightened that he ran away overnight.

He went to school at a normal age, and he had spent a fairly long period of adolescence, and he has many vivid memories of those days.

It was also at such a party that he was so frightened that he ran away in a panic, but accidentally broke into a room.

He saw two boys in his class lying on the bed, skin-to-skin, lingering and compassionate.

When he went back that night, Chi Qingtai had an unsightly dream and was so frightened that he cried.

Because of this, he learned about his sexuality for the first time.

Ji Qingtai closed his eyes, didn't want to mention that history anymore, and said casually: "I was very ordinary in high school, boarding at my mother's friend's house, and I didn't have anything else to do every day except studying. ”

"Boarding at my mother's friend's house?" Xie Shuyun asked again, "Are there any other peers in the family?" ”

Chi Qingtai: "I have an older brother. ”

"Brother?" Xie Shu snorted lazily, seeming to be a little displeased, "Is he very good to you?" Took good care of you? ”

"It's not what you think," Ji Qingtai shook his head, "We grew up in completely different environments, and we also had our own social circles, he didn't bully me, but he was indifferent to me, and only treated me as an ordinary boarder." ”

Chi Qingtai's tone was too ordinary, and Xie Shuyan asked with some distress: "What about friends?" ”

Chi Qingtai: "Originally, I had a good relationship with my tablemate, but he later invited me to a party and introduced me to a boy who pursued me, I rejected them, and then gradually no intersection. ”

After Chi Qingtai finished speaking, in front of him

() slowly stopped. But he could clearly feel the changes in Xiao Xie, as if he was as angry as Xie Shuyan himself, and he continued to expand.

He thought that Xie Shuyan was going to be jealous, but after being silent for a long time, the latter took him into his arms and said with distress: "I'm sorry, I wasn't by your side at that time." ”

"It's all over," Chi Qingtai shook his head, "and it wasn't all smooth sailing for you at the time." ”

Xie Shuyan became more and more silent, only his movements became more and more ferocious, as if he wanted to use this opportunity to make up for the countless days and nights that had been missing in the past.

Chi Qingtai felt his uneasiness, raised his hand and touched his head: "Don't worry, at least we are together now, and I am already very content." ”

Xie Shu's breathing suddenly became short: "Call me senior." ”

Chi Qingtai: "Are you still playing addicted?" ”

"Good, call me senior," Xie Shuyun pressed his thumb to his lower lip, his eyes were dull, "I want to hear you call me like that." ”

Chi Qingtai was a little speechless, it was one thing to call him a senior before, but calling him a senior at this time can give him an immersive feeling.

It seems that they are not in Lu Niandong's villa, but back to the chaotic adolescence more than ten years ago.

"Called." Xie Shuyun began to persecute him fiercely.

Chi Qingtai held back a muffled snort and begged for mercy: "Xie Shuxian, I can't call ......"

His voice was faintly crying, Xie Shu slowed down his movements, and asked in a low tone, "Why can't you speak?" ”

Ji Qingtai didn't want to go back to that time.

Others may have many reveries about adolescence, and they will beautify that memory when they become adults. But for Chi Qingtai, adolescence represents poverty, depression, wandering, and unfreedom.

At that time, he was living in a strange family with a meager living allowance.

He was an outsider to that country and the fourth member of the family. Whether it is in society, at home, or at school, he cannot fit in.

He couldn't find a place to put himself down roots.

can only pretend to be indifferent and be a bystander who disdains to interact with people.

Countless people long to return to adolescence, but for him, it is a nightmare that he just wants to escape.

Hearing this, Xie Shuyun almost saw the lonely and indifferent Chi Qingtai back then.

"I'm sorry," he buried his face in Chi Qingtai's neck and shoulder, sinking into deep self-reproach, "reminding you of a bad past." ”

"It's all gone, and I don't blame you." Chi Qingtai shook his head, "And ......"

"And what?"

"And I have you now," Chi Qingtai raised his hand to hug the back of his neck, raised his head and said in his ear, "Xie Shuyun, I don't want to glorify the past suffering, but if I have to go through that road to meet you, then I am willing." ”！