It was dark when he came out of the foundation, and it was rare to reunite, and Joskin's family lived not far away, so he invited Chen Wengang home for a light meal.

Joskin has a deep silhouette, looks like a typical mixed-race child, his nationality is actually British, his father is British, and his mother, who is Chinese, is surnamed Qiao, so his Chinese name is similar to his English name.

Chen Wengang and his family used to attend an international school, and one of the most memorable scenes was that every Sunday, a group of boys listened to a sermon in the auditorium, and the superintendent sprinkled on the stage to boost morale.

But in all fairness, a man is a good person.

At that time, the superintendent often invited students to visit his home in batches and times, caring about everyone's learning and living conditions, and could be worthy of a sentence of conscientiousness. Especially for a highly sensitive student like Chen Wengang, he will be given special attention to his emotional state.

Chen Wengang and Zheng Yucheng have been together several times, and this time when they entered the door again, they suddenly felt that they were back in their student days.

The wife had already cooked at home, and Joskin brought slippers for Chen Wengang. They have two very cute children, both in elementary school, the elder brother is in the upper grade, and the younger sister is in the lower grade, and they are taught politely by their parents and run out to greet the guests.

Joskin and his wife also adopted a somewhat disabled child, and with a thumbs up, handed Chen Wengang a picture book.

Chen Wengang squatted down, grabbed his little hand in his hand, and teased him with a smile: "Let me see, whose picture book is this?" ”

The child smiled shyly, but he was not very good at speaking, and it was obvious that his development was a little delayed.

In his previous life, Chen Wengang participated in many children's rescue projects, and he actually dealt with all kinds of children, and there were many who established deep relationships, but he never thought of adopting one himself.

He knew that he couldn't take on the responsibilities of a guardian in that state, and he never thought about being a father.

He can take care of them as a responsibility and a career, but starting a family, it's completely different.

Family, family, are concepts that are far away from him.

When he didn't break up with Zheng Yu, he still fantasized about it, and after Huo Niansheng died, he completely knew that there would be no more.

Joskin stroked the child's curly hair: "He likes you, and he usually doesn't let his books touch." ”

Chen Wengang picked him up: "Is this the case?" ”

The child shyly hugged his neck and really liked him.

After eating, Chen Wengang played with the children at his house for a while. When Dad finished washing the bowl, he also joined in wearing slippers.

Joskin played games for them as referees, and the older brother and sister behaved well and knew how to take care of the youngest brother.

Being able to teach them to fully accept this new member of the family, Chen Wengang also knows that it will not be an easy lesson.

The family was harmonious, and he smiled and was a little distracted.

To tell the truth, he admires people like Joskin, relying on faith, unswervingly practicing the principles of a good husband, a good father, and a good teacher, and taking all the responsibilities that can be taken up, which is simply two extremes of two directions with Huo Niansheng's character.

There are indeed such people and such families in the world.

At nine o'clock, the children were coaxed to bed.

Qiao Si King and Chen Wengang had a chance to be alone, and chatted for a while: "How are you?" Have you been struggling lately? ”

He made a cup of cereal for Chen Wengang, and the two of them held the cups and sat on the edge of the balcony talking.

Joskin's question came naturally, exactly the same as when he had talked to the students before. Whether it's as a superintendent or as a psychological counselor, I'm afraid it's a professional habit.

Chen Wengang also has a sense of trust in him and shared with him: "I'm okay. But sometimes I feel like there's a lot of anxiety. ”

Joskin said: "For example, what? ”

Chen Wengang said: "It seems that there are some important things, the more you want to do them well, the more afraid you are, and you are always afraid of making the wrong choice." ”

Joskin expressed understanding: "Each of us has to accept that we are imperfect and will definitely go down a fork in the road. I'm the same, but it's normal. You have to be able to accept yourself first, and you can accept your imperfections. As long as you have a big goal in mind, establish principles and bottom lines, and correct the wrong choice, the sky will not fall. ”

Chen Wengang hesitated: "There are still ...... Relationship problems. He said, "For example, there is a person, the more I want to deal with him well, the more I want to escape when I am stressed, and even I seem to be actively destroying the relationship with the other person, intentionally or unintentionally." ”

"What is this person's attitude towards you? What do you think the purpose of escaping is for? ”

"He's actually quite friendly. It's just that I may subconsciously feel unworthy. ”

"How can you feel unworthy?"

"Because ......" Chen Wengang is stuck.

"If we have the idea of 'unworthy', it is often really because of 'indebtedness'." "For example, I feel that I don't deserve to be comforted, probably because I know that I have done something bad and owe virtue. I don't deserve a reward because I know that I haven't reached the level I deserve. Or maybe my children don't think they deserve to get the little safflower because they know that they haven't done their homework well today and owe their parents and mom what they wanted. But you know, that doesn't mean you're bad. ”

Chen Wengang was stunned for a moment, and then said, "...... You're right. ”

He took a sip of cereal, which was already a little cold. Chen Wengang put down his cup.

But something vaguely seemed to become clearer in my mind.

He finally smiled bitterly: "That's the word, indeed. Probably I always feel that I owe something to the other party in my heart, and there is no way to make up for it. It's not a question of whether I'm good or not. I've been sad. ”

He was inadvertently exposed by his old teacher who didn't want to look at it directly.

No matter how time goes back, only for himself, the memory of what happened, it is impossible to treat it as if it never happened.

He couldn't imagine what Huo Niansheng was in his previous life before the cruise ship crashed

In what mood did you write that suicide note to him.

Now he has a chance to make amends. But that Huo Niansheng was forever owed in his memory.

。

Is a debt that is no longer remembered a debt?

Everyone may have great regrets in their lives, but they can't get over this hurdle by themselves.

Joskin didn't judge, or dig him again, but suddenly sniffed his nose: "It's so fragrant." ”

It was my wife who baked cookies in the kitchen.

It's their homemade fortune cookie, a small piece of paper with a Bible on it cut out and sandwiched into a pocket-like cookie. In the past, when they were studying, they all ate it. Josking got up, and Chen Wengang went to the kitchen with him.

A lot of baked biscuits were left to dry in trays, and my wife told them to eat them as they pleased.

Joskin kissed her on the cheek, picked and chosen, broke one, and unfolded his note first: "'If you have the power to do good in your hand, do not shirk it, and do it to the one who deserves it.'" 'Wengang, this one is good, I can give it to you. ”

Chen Wengang smiled, picked one too, and broke it carefully.

He slowly unfolded the note in his hand and saw that it read: "There is no fear in love; When love is perfect, it takes away fear. For fear has punishment in it, and he who fears is not made perfect in love. ”

*

Qiao Si Jin patted Chen Wengang on the shoulder when he sent him out: "There will be many opportunities to work together in the future, and I will come to the house to play when I have time." ”

When Chen Wengang returned home, he originally put the two lucky notes in the middle of his wallet and pasted them casually in front of the bed.

Even if it is a comfort in the soul, at least in his place, he really slowly gains some stable strength.

Passing by every day, many times, it seems that it is really some kind of luck and inspiration, reminding him what to do.

And there are actually a lot of things waiting for him to do, and he has to keep sharing the sadness and sorrow, and he feels sorry for himself.

He is accustomed to controlling life with precise rationality, and one thing after another is something he needs to face-

Not to mention the final exams, which are full of sorrow, and the summer vacation is the real busy season. As a cousin, he has to care about Chen Xiangling's academic progress, go through the procedures to find a place to live for her, and be responsible for the recruitment of special education schools with other colleagues. Until then, Chen Wengang plans to prepare his own graduation thesis first, as well as contact his supervisor in advance for the research project he will apply for in advance.

So for another person, at this time, Qi Tongzhou found out that he couldn't make an appointment with Chen Wengang.

Every time I send a message, the other party is either busy with this or that.

After many times, of course he doubted whether Chen Wengang deliberately avoided himself. But when I asked Zheng Maoxun, Zheng Maoxun confirmed that Chen Wengang really went out early and returned late, at three o'clock, in addition to being able to see him in the company, sometimes he couldn't even catch his shadow in Zheng's house.

However, before the end of the semester, the school has an important event, the graduation ceremony.

When Qi Tongzhou arrived at the school, the process in the auditorium had already ended.

It's bustling everywhere, with graduation gowns and caps in every corner of the campus, as well as graduates taking photos with friends and family.

Although Chen Wengang and the others still have one year to graduate, they also have seniors who want to say goodbye to the last session, and they are all here out of favor.

Qi Tongzhou just took advantage of this loophole, and as soon as he found someone, he stuck to it, taking advantage of the lively atmosphere and rubbing several group photos.

He also met You Ying, who went to the welfare home together last time. She asked, "Would you like to take a separate picture of you?" ”

Qi Tongzhou happily hugged Chen Wengang's shoulder: "Yes!" ”

Freeze the picture with a click.

Turning his head, You Ying added Qi Tongzhou's friend and sent him a photo.

Qi Tongzhou is satisfied and dissatisfied with the effect of the comparison, the more Chen Wengang looks at the picture, the more gentle and elegant he becomes, but the more he looks at it, the more stupid he becomes, at this time he heard You Ying joke: "If you come back at the graduation ceremony next year, maybe the representative of the graduates who will speak is still your senior." ”

"Really? It's already decided now? ”

"It's not decided yet, there are several candidates." You Ying relied on her identity as the president of the student union to know a little bit of the insider, "What I said was 'maybe'. But I personally think that there is a lot of hope, and when the time comes, you might as well ask Chen Wengang yourself. ”

Qi Tongzhou's heart was rippling, and just imagining the appearance of him speaking on the stage, he felt that he couldn't take his eyes off.

As soon as he turned his face, Chen Wengang finished taking a photo with his acquaintance in the playground, and then planned to leave again.

Qi Tongzhou hurriedly caught up: "By the way, Wengang, I didn't say before that I wanted to consult how to volunteer......

Chen Wengang stopped and listened to him patiently, but his face turned red: "I mean I want to sign up." Just the place you went to. ”

Chen Wengang thought about it and agreed: "Welcome, I'll give you Dean Liu's phone number later." She remembers you. ”

He promised to be distracted, and Qi Tongzhou said goodbye to him slowly: "Then you are going to the company now?" ”

Running back and forth, it was a pity that it took less than an hour to meet.

A graduate who had just become acquainted with him divided Chen Wengang from the bouquet, a red and gorgeous one, and he held it in his hand for a while.

Look left and right, and see a statue of Shakespeare next to you. Chen Wengang's heart suddenly became playful.

He leaned over, stretched out his arms, and tiptoed the flower into the writer's palm.

Shakespeare held a red flower in his hand, the cold and hard stone statue had a touch of lively temperature, and Qi Tongzhou hid his mobile phone like a thief. He couldn't help it, secretly filming this scene from behind, and when Chen Wengang said goodbye to him, he laughed twice in a concealed way, and his hands were clenched tightly.

At this moment, he felt that he had fallen completely.

Although I knew that the resistance was long, I also suffered from gains and losses for a while. He learned from the pain, and it was never possible to give up like this.

Without sincerity, how can the gold and stone be opened. Qi Tongzhou figured it out.