Chen Wengang had realized that unconsciously, his dependence on Huo Niansheng exceeded a necessary limit.

Not only materially, but also in life, and even spiritually, Huo Niansheng has gradually become the only life-saving straw he can grasp. Originally, he was alone, and it seemed that he could find the courage to survive if he made do, but now, he was not sure.

He was like a mass of gray paint, and the other was another bright color, constantly seeping into him, and probably melting him into a new color. However, no one can guarantee that the result will be good, and in the end, it will only be a mess of black and black that is inexplicable.

Huo Niansheng rescued him and helped him. Needless to say, everything is worthy of Chen Wengang's gratitude to this nobleman. The next question is, how long is a person's patience and kindness enough? When will he lose interest in this matter?

Chen Wengang retracted his gaze, while Huo Niansheng was still looking at him. The gaze was burning on his back, and it was impossible to ignore. Chen Wengang stood in place, not moving. He waited silently, feeling the breath of the man behind him approaching, and two arms embraced him into his arms.

Huo Niansheng slowly reached under his Adam's apple, unbuttoned it, and kissed Chen Wengang's ear, the meaning was self-evident.

Chen Wengang let out a sigh.

He reached out and turned off the switch on the wall, and the room suddenly fell into the darkness of the evening. It's not pitch black, but I can't see clearly. Only then did he turn around and raise his head to reach Huo Niansheng's lips.

Chen Wengang was carried to the bed, and he fumbled and grabbed Huo Niansheng's hand. The hand was slender and powerful, with a thin cocoon on the knuckles. He put his five fingers between the other's fingers, and suddenly the two hands clenched, tightly twisted into each other. After a long time, my vision slowly adapted to the darkness and began to recognize outlines and shadows. In the silence, Huo Niansheng bent one leg and kissed his body of Khan Ijin Ijin.

Chen Wengang thought that his life as a monk for a day was not a long-term solution after all.

I have thought about it many times, but in the end human inertia is too great. In the end, he not only relied on Huo Niansheng's care, but even wanted to ask for more. He needs a place to shelter from the wind and rain, Huo Niansheng will give it to him, he needs food, clothing, shelter and transportation, Huo Niansheng will solve it for him.

As well as spiritual comfort and physical pleasure, what he received from the other person was beyond the normal scope. It began to rain outside the window, and the spring rain was pouring down, knocking on the glass. Chen Wengang hugged Huo Niansheng, and he rested his chin on Huo Niansheng's shoulder.

For his sudden and active intimacy, Huo Niansheng seemed to be used, put one arm around his waist, and touched his hair again. Chen Wengang snuggled in the crook of his arm, as if soaking in warm water, and for a moment, he couldn't think of anything.

br /> what Zheng family, what Zheng Yucheng, what trial and prison, betrayal, fear, shame, and hurt, all seem to be far away from him.

What Chen Wengang can remember in his mind is the face of his mother he saw in the photo album, and the back of his father taking him to the primary school on the first day and then leaving the school gate. The teacher organized them to line up in two columns, and he looked nervously left and right in the unfamiliar line.

He suddenly found Fa Xiao Lu Chenlong in the team next door, and the other party grinned at him, and Chen Wengang suddenly breathed a sigh of relief. Then, suddenly, more than ten years passed like the wind, leaving no trace.

He stepped over to the present and fell into reality.

Chen Wengang thought about it, and he suddenly asked Huo Niansheng-

Do you remember when we first met?

Huo Niansheng said: "Yes, of course I do."

He asked, "Do you remember it yourself?"

"I remember you wore a black bow tie," he said.

Huo Niansheng said: "Then your memory is okay. Why, I'm still giving you a head, and you haven't thought of me?"

Chen Wengang leaned on his arm: I'm sorry, I was ignorant at that time, and I didn't know how to accept your feelings.

Huo Niansheng didn't know what to think, a muffled laugh came out of his chest, but he didn't speak. The two seemed to be capturing the situation from their memories, but neither of them said it. Suddenly, Huo Niansheng leaned out of the bed and stretched out his hand to turn on the bedside lamp.

My eyes lit up.

He withdrew his hand and slowly patted Chen Wengang's back again and again. Chen Wengang blocked the light in front of him, the light of the table lamp was not strong, because of the angle, it still stabbed his eyes.

But he smiled: "As for now, I must know that I miss you now. But if you react and think I'm a nuisance, just tell me. When the time comes, everyone will go their own way, and it won't be too ugly. You tell me?

After Huo Niansheng listened, his movements paused, and before he could speak, there was a rolling thunder outside.

The thunder had passed, but the rain was still pouring down. Huo Niansheng patted him again: "It's okay, it's not troublesome. I didn't bother. ”

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No matter how good it looks or ugly, life is to be lived.

From Huo Niansheng's point of view, he may not be able to fully understand what the fact of severing relations with the Zheng family means to Chen Wengang. In the final analysis, man is a social animal and is a family unit

Carry out survival. At the age of nine, Chen Wengang lost the one he formed with his father, and he tried to fit in with the other, and he was once recognized and accepted.

Now this layer of identity has been stripped away again and again. At the end of the day, he was the only one left.

After a period of time, Chen Wengang felt a sense of loss and humiliation. But more than that, he felt that it wasn't sad, it just didn't know where he belonged.

Like the nanny Aunt Meng, her family structure is clear and stable. She nagged every day, talking about the family situation of each child - two grandchildren, one should go to kindergarten and the other should go to primary school, but the borrowing fee is too expensive, and her son and daughter-in-law always complain. In addition, her daughter is also pregnant, and she is still a bunch of twins. She also accidentally slipped her mouth, revealing that when her grandson was born, she would consider whether to go back to her hometown to help take care of the child. After she finished speaking, she reacted, Chen Wengang smiled, pretending not to hear.

Not to mention Huo Niansheng, there are many rumors about his origin, but at least no one will deny that he is the young master of the Huo family. During the New Year's holidays, he would return to his old mansion, where his uncle and cousins were enshrined in the ancestral hall of his ancestors. He may not be interested in it, or he may be disgusted with some of his relatives. But no matter what, they are always a family that is related by blood.

Naturally, in terms of blood, Chen Wengang thought of his uncle Chen Zeng.

The uncle and the aunt are philistines by nature, and when you were good and I were good in the past, they were naturally very affectionate. It's just that now he has become a burden, and Chen Wengang also knows that the other party is afraid that he would rather not show up again. My cousin is married and undoubtedly has her own family to take care of.

Winter goes to spring, and I see that it is getting warmer day by day.

The damp and cold weather passed, and in March, the most comfortable day of the year, red clouds appeared on the trees in the downstairs road. Chen Wengang habitually marked the time on the desk calendar every day, rowing and rowing, and found that Qingming was coming.

This habit was not there last year, but it was developed since the Chinese New Year this year - the supermarket cashier gave him a dusty desk calendar, and he was about to have surgery at the time, so he used it to record the operation schedule. I remember a lot, and then I simply used it as a note.

He went back and forth in the hospital, carrying just two things with him, a notebook for drawing and a desk calendar for note-taking.

I didn't want it to be very convenient to use, so I opened it from the beginning, and under the corresponding date of each month, Chen Wengang wrote down in small print what tests he was going to do and what medicines he took. Although the date is printed on every page of the medical record, all the documents and reports have added up to now, and it takes half a day to turn over them. It's always easier to have an intuitive memo.

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sp; After the recovery period of plastic surgery, Chen Wengang observed in the mirror that the deformity of his right ear had indeed been reduced a lot. face

The scar is still bumpy and requires skin grafting, and the first surgery will be scheduled for another two months. He didn't care, at least he was more accepting of his appearance. Chen Wengang even took the initiative to go out a little more.

He actually didn't go far away, Chen Wengang rummaged through his wallet, he originally had a library card from the municipal library, but he couldn't find it, but it wasn't a big deal, he went to the staff again, and spent five yuan to make up for it, but it was only a matter of two minutes.

The main library is on the city side, a bit far away, but fortunately there is a branch library near the apartment. Chen Wengang went to borrow a book to read.

The books he brought home were large tomes, stacked firmly on the sofa and coffee table, and they were heavy. Aunt Meng's education is not high, so she naturally has a curiosity about them. When she was cleaning, she often asked Chen Wengang what he was looking at.

Chen Wengang explained to her that she nodded thoughtfully, but she still didn't understand, and then asked for the next one.

In fact, the books he reads are very miscellaneous, and he doesn't pick them, this one is about physics, and the next one may be philosophy, most of them are very academic, the titles are crooked, and many of them are purely foreign. Aunt Meng sighed with emotion and praised him for being knowledgeable in an exaggerated tone.

Chen Wengang can't actually read everything, but it's true that these books are easy to kill time. In fact, he also flipped through the popular ones, just ten lines at a glance, and he could finish them on the spot in the library.

After reading a few books, he memorized the names of the protagonists in several books, and the plot was wonderful, but the excitement was over, and they ended up in the same place. He threw himself into that world of pleasure and revenge, and by the end of the day, it seemed that everything was complete, and it seemed that he had gained nothing.

Chen Wengang gradually lost interest, he would rather be stunned by the philosophical myths of his predecessors.

He was also very quiet when he was reading, sitting by the window, and he could stay alone for an afternoon, changing his position at most. Aunt Meng was even envious, saying that her grandson really didn't like to read, and hoped that when he grew up sensible, he could learn better. Chen Wengang smiled and said that people have different personalities, and it is okay to grow up healthily.

Aunt Meng looked at him and changed her words, which is also the truth.

Huo Niansheng went home and saw these books, but he just told Chen Wengang not to look at them badly.

However, this seemed to make him realize that Chen Wengang was bored staying at home, and Huo Niansheng increased the frequency of taking him out.

Not only do they eat in restaurants, but when they have time, they also go to museums to see exhibitions, go to theaters to attend concerts, and watch premiere movies. Between them, perhaps from the physical relationship, or from the daily relationship, an almost warm relationship has developed.

At least for now, Huo Niansheng has not shown signs of getting tired of this relationship. Chen Wengang sometimes linked

Thinking of him dating Zheng Yucheng.

Not because of anything else, but after all, they had done the same thing at the time, like watching a movie — there shouldn't be a couple dating who had never seen a movie. But Huo Niansheng won't buy popcorn and Coke, he doesn't want to eat these sweet and greasy things like Zheng Yucheng.

Huo Niansheng doesn't eat fast food such as hamburgers, he always books a formal restaurant before the opening or after the show. On the contrary, Zheng Yucheng is not interested in those spring and snow concerts, and he may choose to go to the live football game. The comparison of these details seems to show the differences in the personalities of the two people, but Chen Wengang deliberately does not compare the two of them together. He thought less and less about Zheng Yucheng.

He hasn't met Zheng Yucheng again, but when he goes out more often, he still meets other people he knows. Once, Chen Wengang and Huo Niansheng went to have morning tea, and as soon as they arrived at the hall, they met a family of three coming over. The couple came over to greet Huo Niansheng, and they also brought a little boy in his teens and called Huo Niansheng uncle. Chen Wengang stood behind Huo Niansheng, and the other party didn't notice him at first.

Every time he goes out, Chen Wengang will wear a strict hat and a mask, trying his best to reduce his presence. Huo Niansheng was tall, blocking the eyes of both sides. In that family, the man was dressed in a casual suit and had the demeanor of a successful man, and he probably had just spent his vacation, and his skin was tanned and bronzened. He said a few words to Huo Niansheng, and his son pointed at Chen Wengang and cried out curiously.

The man quickly stopped his son.

He introduced himself as Huo Zhenfei, Huo Niansheng's cousin, and then shook hands with Chen Wengang quietly. Seats were reserved on both sides in advance, so they still sat separately, but Huo Zhenfei took the initiative to run to his cousin's table.

Chen Wengang heard that they had something to discuss, and the content was not particularly confidential, Huo Niansheng ordered, and they talked about the general election of the board of directors while eating, discussed the candidates who would be promoted, and the core business reform of the two subsidiaries.

Chen Wengang looked at his nose and nose, and only in the end did Huo Zhenfei turn to him again: "You live with Huo Niansheng now?"

Chen Wengang was not sure what answer to give him, and his chopsticks stopped in the air for half a beat. Huo Niansheng replied on his behalf, with a casual attitude: Yes, what's wrong?

Huo Zhenfei nodded to Chen Wengang: No offense, I have always known about your situation. When they were dining indoors, it was naturally inconvenient to wear masks and hats, so Huo Zhenfei took this opportunity to see Chen Wengang's face clearly.

He didn't make a fuss, but said very politely: "Niansheng has worried a lot about you, if I wasn't busy with work, I would have liked to visit you if I had the opportunity."

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It seemed that in order to dispel Chen Wengang's doubts, Huo Zhenfei immediately explained as if he had a sudden thought, because he was close to Huo Niansheng as a cousin, he knew about his existence, and as for the rest of the Huo family, they were actually not so clear.

Chen Wengang could see that Huo Niansheng did have a certain foundation of trust in him. Huo Niansheng would gag at the right time, but at least he didn't directly deny the other party's words. After eating this morning tea, Chen Wengang has been observing his words.

From his personal point of view, he would rather be overly vigilant against Huo Zhenfei. The other party is not bad and polite, but he is obviously a typical old man, who talks about three points and leaves seven points, and never explains it easily.

When you listen to him, you can't relax your nerves, and you have to guess for yourself what he means. Huo Zhenfei did not show disgust, disdain, or any reproach for Chen Wengang.

His wording was also as sincere as possible, but his meaning was clear, and he reminded that with Chen Wengang's identity and experience, it was inevitable that he would stay by Huo Niansheng's side like he was now, and he would go against him and attract gossip and criticism from others.

Especially the paparazzi, reporters, to say it ugly, I'm afraid it will be like a swarm of flies that smell fishy smell to join in the fun.

Huo Niansheng just sneered after hearing this: "What is a paparazzi, you know it the first day?" Huo Zhenfei said: "This time and that time. You can't always ignore what other people think. Huo Niansheng smiled: "What else?" Which others?"

Huo Zhenfei feigned anger, he talked for a while, stopped talking in moderation, and went back to the table of his wife and children to have morning tea. After Huo Zhenfei left, Chen Wengang almost knew it. He teased: "He wants to persuade me to be funny and leave by myself?" Huo Niansheng smiled: "How can you hear this meaning?"

Chen Wengang lowered his eyes, and the tips of his chopsticks were against the plate. There were some bones left in the saucer, and he frowned and simply put the chopsticks aside. Huo Niansheng's peach blossom eyes also smiled at him: "Oh, you have money now anyway, do you want to leave?" Chen Wengang looked up at him, but he was stunned for a moment, because the look in his eyes was soft.

Huo Niansheng asked again: Are you leaving? Where to? Are you going to leave me? Chen Wengang subconsciously hooked the corners of his lips, and he shook his head.

Huo Niansheng poured him tea: So he said his, you think who he is, what does he do. Chen Wengang said: "Isn't he your cousin?" Huo Niansheng said casually: "Yes, he is not my son."

But Chen Wengang's heart did not feel relaxed because of this, as if there were dark clouds accumulated overhead, and a bag of lightning and thunder was stored heavily.