Maybe it's a little unnatural to be stared at by me, Shu Ke was a little embarrassed and said, "Why are you staring at me all the time?" ”

I smirked and said, "I haven't been in a relationship for three years, and suddenly I don't know how to talk about it." ”

In fact, I think this identity changed a little too quickly, and I didn't expect it, and we became boyfriend and girlfriend after just a few contacts, which made me a little overwhelmed.

Shu Ke smiled and said, "If you want to say that, I've never talked about it." ”

"It's okay, you'll find out when you talk."

"I don't even know how to describe how I'm feeling right now, I'm excited and a little nervous."

"Don't be nervous, I'm not a tiger who won't eat you."

Shu Ke smiled and said, "Actually, I have a lot of things I want to say to you, but suddenly I don't know what to say." ”

"Then don't say it, just say whatever you want in the future."

"Hmm." She nodded heavily.

I was afraid that she would feel embarrassed if she was silent, so I took the initiative to find something to say: "I don't know when I will be discharged from the hospital, I miss the bed at home." ”

"I should be able to be discharged from the hospital tomorrow, anyway, you can't do this again in the future, it's really dangerous, it didn't scare you."

"Well, I got it, and it gave me a wake-up call this time."

"Then you have a good rest, talk less, I'm next to me, you can call me anything."

"It's okay, I'm better now, but you don't have to be here with me all the time."

"I'm your girlfriend now, I'm not here, where else can I go?"

We looked at each other and smiled, but I still hadn't changed yet, and I still felt a little strange.

Maybe I haven't gotten used to it yet, after all, it's been three and a half years, and I haven't completely forgotten that relationship.

It's not that I don't want to forget, but I can't forget it, because the memory is too deep, and it has gone deep into the bone marrow.

I don't want to talk about this relationship with Shu Ke with such a mentality, which is irresponsible for her and irresponsible for this new relationship.

So, I'm going to confess to her that I don't want anything to be hidden in this relationship.

"Shuke, I want to talk to you about something."

Seeing that I suddenly became serious, Shu Ke also adjusted his sitting posture, looked at me with a calm face, and nodded for me to speak.

"I remember telling you I had a relationship when I was in college, right?"

"As I said, you've been talking for five years, and you've been separated for more than three years."

"Well, that was my first love, and I had a great time with her for five years...... I don't want to hide it from you, but what I want to tell you is that I haven't actually come out for more than three years. ”

"And now?" Shu Ke asked very sensibly.

"Let me tell you something, three months ago, I suddenly received a letter from her, in which she told me that she was in Lhasa, which meant that I should go to her."

"Did you go? Did you find it? Shu Ke asked curiously.

I shook my head and continued, "Listen to me, I went, but when I arrived in Lhasa, I found nothing for three days, and they told me that there was no place in Lhasa. ”

Shu Ke frowned: "She lied to you, or she didn't want you to find her at all." ”

I smiled wryly: "I thought so at first, but then I realized that it was all a prank of a friend of mine, and she wrote and sent those letters, which means that my ex-girlfriend has never written to me in three years." ”

Shu Kede's brows furrowed a little deeper, and she asked a little puzzled, "Why did that friend of yours do this?" ”

"Until the truth comes, I should actually thank her, in that lowest part of my life, it was she who gave me light and hope in this way, so that I came out of despair, faced my life, and began to work hard to save money to buy a house......"

"Then this friend is worth making, male or female?"

"Woman, you've seen the girl in my ward in the afternoon."

"Oh." Shu Ke responded with a complicated expression.

I was afraid that she would think too much, so I said again: "I have a childhood relationship with her, and I have always treated her as my sister, and I will never have any feelings for her." ”

Shu Ke nodded as if understanding: "It's good to have such a friend in this life." ”

I smiled and continued, "So what I want to tell you is that since I knew she hadn't written to me in those three years, I didn't remember it anymore. But ......"

I paused deliberately and continued: "But what I also want to tell you is that this relationship has had a great impact on me, so, so ......"

"So you're not completely forgetting, are you?" Shu Ke answered.

I nodded and said truthfully, "Yes, I don't want to lie to you, and I don't want to cause suspicion in this relationship that hasn't even begun." ”

After Shu Ke suddenly fell silent, he didn't know what she was thinking.

After a while, she spoke again: "Then I ask you, if, I said, what would you do if she suddenly appeared in front of you one day?" ”

I was stunned for a moment and replied: "I don't want to lie to you about this, I have thought about the scene of her coming back countless times, but I can tell you responsibly, even if she appears in front of me now, I will smile and say to her: Long time no see." That's all, there is no follow-up. ”

Hearing my answer, I don't know if Shu is satisfied or dissatisfied, she just smiled and said to me: "Okay, you are very sincere, I am relieved on this point." ”

Seeing her say that, I smiled too.

But when I was about to speak, Shu Ke said: "However, I still hope that you will adjust and we will talk again, although I know that you will not remember the past again, but as a woman, I am still very worried...... Do you understand what I mean? ”

I didn't know whether to nod or shake my head, but I just looked at Shu Ke with some blankness.

She continued: "I don't mean anything else, it's that I might be a bit selfish as a person, I want you to completely forget about her, and let's start again, okay?" ”

I was a little confused, thinking she didn't mind, but it turned out to be like this.

But I can understand her, and if she is me, I may also be a little uncomfortable if she is me and has not completely forgotten the last relationship.

In my silence, Shu Ke said to me again: "Gao Chang, I really don't mean anything else, don't think too much, I just don't want my boyfriend to think about others, I may be a little selfish." ”

"It's okay, I understand."

"Actually, I think we're too fast, maybe you feel that way too, but it doesn't feel real, right?"

I nodded, and Shu Ke continued: "It's because we're developing too fast, everything is unexpected, I don't want a relationship to be together suddenly when nothing is uncertain, and break up inexplicably, which is not good for anyone." ”

Shu Ke was right, I nodded approvingly, and smiled: "Okay, I think so too." ”

She smiled at me again and said softly: "Gao Chang, I have another thing to tell you: for a woman, the first man taught her to be sorrowful, and the last man gave her eternity." Therefore, the most cherished woman is the last man. ”

"Do you know what I mean?"

I nodded heavily, of course I understood, and I also felt that a relationship could not just start and end inexplicably.

None of us are children and must be responsible for every choice we make.