When Xu Linmiao returned home, the lights in the house were off.

He was surprised not to see the usual light in his father's room.

After returning to his room, Xu Linhao opened his mobile phone and saw a new message from He Shuli in WeChat.

"Your dad went to Hangzhou to supervise his new exhibition, you are at home by yourself for half a month, pay attention to safety."

After reading it, Xu Linmiao typed and replied, "Got it, Mom." ”

He held his phone and leaned back into his chair, and his nerves that had been tense for a day were finally able to relax for a moment.

Xu Linmiao lowered his eyes, and after replying to other information on WeChat, he subconsciously opened the "melt core".

The list that had been silent for days popped up with a new reminder the moment he opened it.

Xu Linmao's fingers paused for a moment, and then clicked away.

On the page is a blue-green planet, slowly filling the entire screen, and then turning into a stack of small bubbles, which fall smoothly in the center, layer upon layer of barriers.

The bubble at the top is the one that just came out.

"—I should have understood that there has always been a huge gully between us."

"It's not like I haven't made an effort to cross it."

"But whenever I try to understand her, I find that she doesn't intend to understand me."

On the other side, the quarrel between Chen Yuanzhi and Huang Ye finally ended with Chen Yuanzhi opening the car door and going upstairs, which can be called an unhappy breakup.

Chen Yuanzhi walked straight through the hall back to his room and slammed the door shut.

She stood in front of the door, her arms hanging down a little weakly over her school uniform jacket.

She didn't know how long she stood facing the door before she slowly moved to the edge of her desk and sat down.

Chen Yuanzhi is not easy to get angry.

It's not that she's generous and uncaring, but she feels that there are few things that can stir her up.

Most of the time, she agrees with the principle that there is no way to conspire with each other, and feels that arguing is inefficient and useless. As the saying goes, only compete with your peers, not with fools.

Time is the most precious, and wasting time and arguing with people who are not worthy of it is the real loss.

But every time—she could easily be affected by her mother's words every time, and whenever she felt that she could control her emotions and not be affected by anyone's words, Huang Ye would always be that exception.

There is a sea in her heart, and this sea is stable and free from waves on weekdays, and her mother's presence is like an unpredictable wind, as soon as it appears, the sea like a mirror of the sky will be covered with chaotic ripples in an instant.

Chen Yuanzhi was depressed, his fingers unconsciously poked at the screen, and a pair of eyes were shrouded in the shadows of the stage lights falling through his hair.

After venting in the molten nugget, Chen Yuanzhi threw down his mobile phone, curled up in the seat, and began to close himself.

But it didn't take long for the phone lying on the desk to suddenly vibrate and the screen lit up.

Chen Yuanzhi saw the notification icon displayed on the screen, and his originally lazy body slowly straightened up.

She picked up her phone and swiped the screen lock.

Lian: "Did you quarrel with your mother again?" ”

The glow of the mobile phone screen hit Chen Yuanzhi's face, and in a blurred light, she typed silently, "Hmm." ”

A few seconds later, a new message came.

Lian: "What is the reason for this time?" Grades? ”

Chen Yuanzhi replied, "No. We don't have exams yet. ”

She looked at the screen and added, "It's all back and forth." ”

Chen Yuanzhi looked at the dialog box, and it took a long time before a message came from there.

Lian, "If you don't mind, you can say it to me." ”

It was just a short sentence, but Chen Yuanzhi felt that the sea in his heart was gently smoothed out of the ripples, and in the blink of an eye, it became quiet and peaceful again.

…… Obviously, he didn't say anything.

It's weird.

Chen Yuanzhi looked at the phone screen steadily, letting the white light shine into her originally dark eyes.

Slowly, word by word, she filled in the input box, "If you really say everything from the beginning, I'm afraid you'll be disappointed in me." Because you'll find that I haven't grown much since you knew me. ”

She waited for a moment, and there was a slight vibration in her hand.

Lian, "I won't. ”

Chen Yuanzhi inexplicably felt the sincerity of the person on the other side when he typed these words.

Xu Linmao held the phone and waited for a reply on the other end, his slender fingers tapping lightly on the table.

After a few seconds, a new bubble popped up on the other side of the dialog.

Kiyoyuki: "Actually, I'm used to talking to her when I'm always not on the same channel. After seeing that nothing can be changed, I don't feel as sad as I used to. ”

"I thought, I just...... I hate my weakness. ”

Yes, weakness.

It is as if the floodgates have opened the floodgates, and all the words poured out from it without concealment, so naturally it seems that it should be.

"I thought my heart was strong enough to stop being shaken by anything inconsequential, to shield myself from outside doubts and distractions. But every time I faced her, I was easily beaten back to my original form. ”

"I found that I wasn't as invincible as I thought I was. No matter what kind of armor and indifference I arm myself with, my heart is still as weak as ever, and this seems to have never changed. ”

Chen Yuanzhi looked at that paragraph, and for the first time felt a sense of relief.

It was the first time she had spoken these words to others.

Before this, only she had a diary from childhood to adulthood, and she knew all her vulnerability.

She has been literate since she was a child, preceded her peers, has the patience to read, and loves to read. Probably because of this, her sensibilities were cultivated from a very young age, before she was even aware of it.

So that when she grows up, she can always feel everything in the world very easily, she has a rich sense of the world, she is sharp and sharp, but delicate and sensitive.

As she grew up, she read all the things and the darkness of the world in the story, and also saw the warmth and coldness of people and the cold of the world in reality. She thought that her heart would be as calm as stagnant water, and she thought that as long as she was unwilling, no one or anything would be able to move her and make her lose her temper.

But she seemed wrong.

Now Chen Yuanzhi suddenly turned around, only to find that he had not changed from beginning to end, and he was still the delicate, sensitive and silent little girl when he was a child.

…… But she really, really hated that weak self.

The prompt sounded, and Chen Yuanzhi's consciousness surfaced from the sea of memories and looked at the screen.

Lian, "I see. You are unwilling. ”

"You are not willing to work hard for so long, and you are still the same as before, and you are disappointed that you have not become what you expected."

Chen Yuanzhi said silently in his heart: Yes.

New information popped up again, but this time it made Chen Yuanzhi a little surprised.

Lian, "But have you ever thought that maybe that's the real you." ”

"The true self is something that should be accepted, not rejected or hated. That's your innate talent, and from another point of view, weakness can sometimes be called kindness and kindness. ”

"You have a very pure and sincere heart, so it makes you look vulnerable."

"But that's a good thing, isn't it? It's actually precious. Many people in this world are mediocre and insensitive, and none of them have such a heart. ”

Such a heart of gold.

Chen Yuanzhi looked at these words, and the sea in his heart, rolling up huge waves from the distant shore, slapping fiercely on the reef on the shore, at that moment, it was unprecedentedly magnificent.

The first time Chen Yuanzhi felt that something buried deep in the sea was about to gush out with the indescribable throbbing feeling in his heart.

It's hot, it's hot, it's tearful.

Chen Yuanzhi opened her mouth, she subconsciously wanted to speak, and after coming back to her senses, she really wanted to type something in response to Lian...... But her mind went blank right now.

Until the ripple on the other end suddenly sent a new message.

Lian, "Qingzhi, have you been convenient for receiving couriers recently?" ”

"There's a book that I think will fit you well, and I want you to read it."

Chen Yuanzhi slowly opened his eyes wide, and his heart, which was hanging from a thin thread, slowly fell back to his chest. She pursed her lips slightly, and there was an indescribable ironing sensation in her heart, as if the sun had just passed.

She said, "Okay. ”

……

That night, Chen Yuanzhi and Lian tacitly didn't make it clear, but Chen Yuanzhi knew that they were closer to each other.

Just thinking about this, she felt that even the low temperature of six o'clock in the morning and the unclear sky of the streets became exciting.

When Chen Yuanzhi came to the class, there were still not many people, as usual, it was always a few students who were very interested in studying in their seats, or listening to English, or reading textbooks.

At a glance, she saw Jiang Weaving, who was sitting in her place studying, and the place next to her was empty.

Sun Luo is not there.

Chen Yuanzhi thought to himself, it seems that he didn't hold on.

However, it is difficult for a person's mental outlook and habits to be completely changed because of one or two things.

Chen Yuanzhi put down the schoolbag, Jiang Zhixu also noticed her, and her eyes lit up suddenly.

Jiang Zhixu secretly sat down in Li Yulian's position, took Chen Yuanzhi's hand, and asked in a low voice, "Zhizhi, did you see the message I sent you last night?" ”

Chen Yuanzhi just put breakfast on the table, "Look." ”

It was very late when she finished chatting with Lian last night, and although she opened WeChat before going to bed and read a bunch of messages sent to her by Jiang Zhixu, she thought that Jiang Zhixu should have fallen asleep, so Chen Yuanzhi didn't reply.

Chen Yuanzhi explained, lying a little, "I had a little dispute with my family at the time, and it was very late to deal with it, I thought you should have fallen asleep, so you didn't come back." ”

Jiang Zhixu immediately became worried, "What's the matter, is there a quarrel because of something?" It's okay, right? ”

Chen Yuanzhi smiled, "It's okay, don't worry too much." ”

She looked at Jiang Zhixu, "It's you, it should have been very smooth last night, I'll wish you a success in your school anniversary performance?" ”

The smile on Jiang Zhixu's face bloomed, "Hmm! Yesterday, everyone played very well, Sun Luo said that the senior sisters in the entertainment department she knew said that we danced very explosively! I met a lot of classmates who were candidates for other programs together, and I was praised by many people! ”

"I really had a good time last night! And ......"

Jiang Zhixu lowered his head, his ears were slightly red, "I have talked to the two of him for a while." ”

Chen Yuanzhi, "Oh? Be all ears. ”

Jiang Weaving hesitated, "He came over to me before he came on the court and asked me if he looked good in the sweater inside or in the sweater outside, and I said that it looked good...... Anyway, I was alone for a while. ”

"So it's fun."

Chen Yuanzhi looked at Jiang Zhixu's expression and was very pleased.

The two chatted for a while, and the number of people in the classroom gradually increased, and the quiet atmosphere was replaced by noisy voices.

The noisiest were Sun Luo and the others, who were laughing loudly in the back, as if they were talking about the interesting things they encountered at the primary selection venue last night.

Chen Yuanzhi vaguely heard someone ask Sun Luo, "Hey, it looks like our class program is going to be on it!" ”

Sun Luo's cheerful and smug voice sounded, "That's a must!" You don't know how good we were yesterday! I dare say that the jump on the field was the best one we've had in the past few days! ”

Zhang Xianzhang also smiled and said, "When did we start practicing?" After preparing for so long, it should be a good jump. ”

Zhou Jimin, "Come on, let's discuss where to eat at the celebration banquet?" ”

Because the voice was too loud, Chen Yuanzhi glanced behind him, and just saw Wang Laojian sitting in the back row with his legs on stilts, and he said in the opposite tone, "Hey, that's not accurate, don't be so fast." ”

Sun Luo was not happy to hear this, "Hey, how do you speak?" ”

Qi Minrui also smiled and said, "It's Wang Lao, is it because Sun Luo may not let you go on stage to offer flowers, and you are jealous?" ”

Wang Laojian jumped to his feet, "Made, don't call me Wang Laozi!" ”

The group of people in the back laughed, and the scolding was mixed in, sounding extremely noisy and energetic.

Chen Yuanzhi turned his head and asked Jiang Zhixi, "Xiaoxu, when will the final list be posted by the student union?" ”

Jiang weaving, "I'll post it this afternoon." ”

The two of them said a few more words, and the morning reading was about to begin, and the people in the class began to slowly sit back in their seats.

……

The morning class ended quickly.

When Chen Yuanzhi left the classroom in the morning, she still thought that when she came in the afternoon, she would help Jiang Zhixu take a look at the bulletin board downstairs, but when she came, she was thinking about something else, and she actually forgot about it.

After the first class in the afternoon, Chen Yuanzhi just wanted to go to Jiang Weaving, but found that Jiang Weaving and Sun Luo were not in their seats.

Chen Yuanzhi was a little puzzled, she walked to the corridor and went to the bathroom, but she didn't see any trace of Jiang Zhixu.

Where did this go?

Chen Yuan didn't know what to do, she walked slowly along the corridor, and suddenly found that there seemed to be a lot of people at the staircase on the first floor.

She suddenly remembered something, turned around, and just saw Jiang Zhixu, Sun Luo and Zhang Xianzhang walking up from downstairs together.

Chen Yuanzhi stepped forward, and before he could shout "Xiaoxu", he paused.

Jiang Zhixu pursed his lips, and the expression on his face was a little pale.

The three of them were together, and they had just come up from downstairs, all of them looked depressed and heavy, and their faces were not very good-looking.

Chen Yuanzhi vaguely guessed something.

She opened her mouth and shouted, "Little catkins." ”

Jiang Zhixu raised his head when he heard the sound, his movements were a little sluggish, as if he was immersed in some kind of blow, and he looked a little trance.

Jiang Zhixu naturally saw Chen Yuanzhi as well, she opened her lips and whispered, "Xiaozhi ......"

“…… The program of our class was unsuccessful. ”