The two-day commentary was quickly brought to an end in the red stains smudged by the touch of pen and paper.

The results of the final exam are coming out.

It's just that Chen Yuanzhi originally thought that all the answers and truths would not be revealed until at least the last day.

Until the penultimate day of the holiday, when she returned to the class on time for evening self-study, she happened to pass by the teacher's office.

Chen Yuanzhi inadvertently threw a glance inadvertently, and then his gaze froze.

The head teacher Wu Mingxu's desk was surrounded by a circle of students, at this time he was sitting at the table without love, the students made the sound of discussion from time to time, and more people were looking at the computer screen intently, their eyes unblinking.

When Chen Yuanzhi was standing at the door, there were just two girls who couldn't stand it, so they withdrew from the periphery of the crowd holding hands, muttered all the way to the door, and passed by Chen Yuanzhi:

"Help! There are too many people, so let's see it in the next self-study, right? ”

"Ah, really, what are you doing around, asking the class committee to copy the magnifying screen in the class, can't you all watch it?"

"It seems that the ranking has not yet been released......

The sound of the girls talking gradually faded away, Chen Yuanzhi stood at the door of the office for a while, the door frame was narrow and long, just enough to frame the noise in a corner, and there was a nameless impulse shouting to tempt her to step forward, but in the end Chen Yuanzhi put away his gaze and turned his head back to the classroom.

In the seat, Li Yulian turned his head and talked to the classmates in the back row: "...... That's right, it seems that all our grades have come out, and the teacher can see the summary. ”

"How can you not be nervous, if you don't do well in the New Year, you will be embarrassed in front of your relatives......"

Chen Yuanzhi sat down, and Li Yulian sensed her presence, so he cut off the conversation with his classmates in the back row and turned around, "Ah! I know you're here. ”

"Yuanzhi, have you seen your results?"

Chen Yuanzhi: "Isn't the mini program still unsearchable?" ”

Students at Dongjiang Middle School have a dedicated big exam score inquiry applet, which will record the students' scores in each subject, class ranking, grade ranking and total score ranking in detail. However, this mini program is admittedly slow to feedback, and often the transcripts of each subject have come down, and the academic affairs office has not updated the test data on the mini program.

Li Yulian touched her head embarrassedly and said with a smile: "I thought you went to the office to see the results." ”

In fact, in Dongjiang Middle School, on the evening of the exam, the answers of each subject will be sent down for students to correct the test papers.

Chen Yuanzhi had already completed the answers to the objective questions of all subjects at that time - there were no answers to the subjective questions because the scoring criteria for the subjective questions had not been announced, and she participated in the large-scale high school exam for the first time, and it was difficult to evaluate the score without experience.

After the nine papers were corrected, the result was futile and uneventful.

Her multiple-choice questions have not changed much from the last mid-term exam, and there are subjects that she performed better than last time, such as history, which has the least number of multiple-choice questions, and only two mistakes; There are also subjects that are worse than the last time, such as Chinese, and there are four wrong questions.

Among them, she put the most effort into mathematics, and the multiple-choice questions were only 2 points higher than the last exam.

The 2 points came from the last multiple-choice question, and she just hit one of the three correct answers, getting a two-fifths score for that question.

If it was my usual self, I would be very happy, and I would be lucky for this little luck.

However, the moment the multiple-choice score was changed, Chen Yuanzhi actually felt that these two points were so dazzling on the test paper, the red ink was deeply soaked through the fibers, and the deep red was like the open mouth of a beast that chose to devour people, and the sharp mockery that jumped out of her throat seemed to roar, penetrating her eardrums.

Chen Yuanzhi spent nearly a night figuring out the multiple-choice questions on the math test paper, and it took a long time to understand the reason why he was wrong.

Some questions are really not, and I don't know much about the answers after reading them;

Some questions are obviously done, but for some inexplicable reason, they always miscalculate the final number, or miss the key symbol;

Some of the questions are, she remembers that she has done similar questions, and she knows which knowledge point in the book she wants to test, but she just can't do it.

There was a sudden commotion outside the door, and Liang Shangying took the USB flash drive and walked onto the podium again, and his steps were brisk and pleasant.

Li Yulian's sharp eyes noticed, and she pulled Chen Yuanzhi's sleeve a little nervously, "Yuanzhi Yuanzhi!" You see!! ”

When Chen Yuanzhi looked over, Liang Shangying was already standing on the podium, looking at everyone with a smile.

She raised her voice and shouted, "The results of the final exam haven't been sorted out yet, but the class rankings are already available, do you want to see them?" ”

"Look!!"

"Hey, die early and live early."

Liang Shangying bent down excitedly to insert the USB flash drive: "OK!" Then I'll let it go! ”

The screen flickered for a moment, black letters on a white background were printed into everyone's eyes, scrolling down little by little with the slide of the mouse, and there was sometimes silence and sometimes whispering under the podium, and most people's eyes reflected the white light emitted from the screen, which was a dark tide of turbulent obscurity.

Someone suddenly asked in a loud voice, "Is there no score for this achievement?" ”

Liang Shangying replied casually, "Yes, these sub-subjects are all unassigned, and they are originally assigned." ”

A classmate whispered: "What if you don't assign points, as far as our school's own students take the exam, no matter how much they are assigned, at most they will be one or two points short, and what can they change." ”

"I haven't sorted out the rankings of individual subjects, alas, I really just look at a class rank......"

Everyone's discussion statement was clearly close to his ears, but Chen Yuanzhi looked at the screen, feeling that his ears exploded slightly for a moment, and then the whole person fell into endless darkness and silence.

...... 23rd place.

In this exam, she ranked 23rd in her class.

Li Yulian looked very excited, she took Chen Yuanzhi's hand, and said with starry eyes: "Oh my God, I seem to have improved a little!" Fate! You see, I'm three places better than last time! I was so touched by the fact that I had 120 points in English, and I thought I was hopeless when I made so many mistakes in the objective questions.

The buzzing in Chen Yuanzhi's ears stopped abruptly at the moment when it reached its peak.

She suddenly heard the voice of the outside world, she looked at Li Yulian's eyes, the corners of her mouth slowly pulled, and she struggled to pull it to a proper position, and then she heard herself say, "That's good, congratulations." ”

No, not at all.

She thought it was all terrible.

She has improved by four places, a little more than Li Yulian, but why can't she be as happy as Li Yulian at all?

Chen Yuanzhi lowered his head, his neck stiffened like an old-fashioned machine without lubrication, and his movements were sluggish.

Why? Why should she be so demanding of herself, if only she were easily satisfied, so that she could also cheer for her improvement by four places at the moment.

But she couldn't.

She looked at the number, and only felt that the hard work and night reading of the past month seemed to have turned into a bad joke.

Chen Yuanzhi looked at the screen and gradually became distracted.

She suddenly realized that it would be such a painful thing to work hard but not reap the rewards it deserved.

Chen Yuanzhi is early and intelligent, with excellent perception, he has been the best among his peers since he was a child, and he is a small group of people who seem to be at ease no matter what he does.

She does not deny that she did study hard in junior high school, so she was admitted to Dongjiang Middle School, the top school in Chunshen, but she also knew that her hard work was nothing.

At that time, her class was the focus of their junior high school, and there were many students in the class who only slept five or six hours a day, worked on problems every time after class, and had to carry English word books to the bathroom. Chen Yuanzhi may have studied hard, but if she only worked hard, there were too many people in the class at that time who far surpassed her.

But in the end, only three people in that class, including her, were admitted to Dongjiang Middle School.

Chen Yuanzhi is very aware of what makes her superior to others, and she has always felt confident about it, and she even became complacent for a while.

But it all ended at this moment.

She realized that she also had things that she couldn't do even if she worked hard, and it turned out that in a group of strong people, she was just an ordinary and ordinary person.

Chen Yuanzhi suddenly remembered what Chen Wenwu had said to her, when she was in the second year of junior high school, she participated in many clubs in the two years of junior high school, and because of this, she neglected to study, which led to a lot of regression in her grades.

Chen Wenwu took her report card at that time and scolded her for a long time with hatred on his face, but Chen Yuanzhi always knew how to deal with his father, so he ignored it with a cold face and said nothing.

Seeing that she was indifferent, Chen Wenwu slowly stopped the topic, and finally said to Huang Ye in disappointment:

"I really don't know how she managed to do it without worrying at all. My colleague's daughter, that Ah Qiu, she cries every time her test scores regress, you see this is the reaction of a normal student! I don't need my parents to say that I know that I shouldn't get this score, and that's what I know! ”

Chen Yuanzhi was disdainful when she heard this, but now that she looks back on it, her heart is filled with a layer of long-overdue sadness.

She found that she seemed to be able to answer her father's questions at this moment.

She didn't care before, because she believed that she could get it if she worked hard, because she didn't really fight for it with all her might;

Those children who shed tears, not because they were worried and afraid, but because they were unwilling.

...... She finally understood the truth.

Chen Yuanzhi suddenly envied himself in junior high school.

The fearlessness of a newborn calf who is not afraid of tigers may seem ridiculous after years, but compared to the heart that is already dying, it seems so enviable.

This may be the first lesson when I grow up, and I find that I am not the darling of the world, and the lucky person who is treated preferentially is not a special person.

Among all living beings, it's just just a little er.

"Fate knows!"

Chen Yuanzhi raised his head, showing a trace of confusion on his face, until she met Li Yulian's gaze, Li Yulian blinked and looked at her, "What's wrong with you?" The score table of the main subject questions in the previous pass has come down, don't you read it? ”

Chen Yuanzhi took the piece of paper, looked at the numbers on it and said softly, "...... Well, look. ”

While opening the answer sheet, she comforted the injured villain in her heart:

It doesn't matter Chen Yuanzhi, if you don't work hard enough, then continue to work hard, what's so unsatisfactory?

Complaining about the world won't do you any good, you should calm down, carefully fill in the numbers on the paper in your hand on the score column of each question on the math answer sheet, and then do the problem again - it's not a big deal, if you lose, get up and move forward, there will always be a chance to win.

No big deal.

Chen Yuanzhi copied all the scores of the math questions to the corresponding positions on the answer sheet, and then began to redo the questions little by little against the test papers and answers.

She found that she only remembered the steps listed in the teacher's lecture, but she didn't know why she had written them down. When she wrote something she didn't understand, she began to regret that she didn't take notes in class, and now she forgot the teacher's explanation, and she can't even understand the answers.

One night, a whole night of self-study, Chen Yuanzhi sat in his seat without moving a single step, but a thin test paper in her hand was only six big questions and twelve small questions, and she only did less than half of it.

It wasn't until the bell rang for the end of the evening self-study that Chen Yuanzhi was agitated by the sound of the bell, and his train of thought was interrupted again.

The students rushed out with their school bags on their backs, and even though many of them only found out about their final exam results today, it did not stop them from having smiles on their faces and bright joy.

"Xiaozhi?"

Chen Yuanzhi turned his head, Jiang Zhixu was wearing long black hair today, with a white pure linen backpack, and his temperament looked more and more gentle and homely.

Jiang Zhixu said with a smile: "Xiaozhi, it's all evening self-study, are you still studying?" ”

"How's it going, are you leaving? Or do you have to wait for you? ”

Chen Yuanzhi's gaze slowly moved to Jiang Zhixu, and his reaction was a little sluggish: "...... No. I can go, let's go. ”

Usually Jiang Zhixu and Chen Yuanzhi always chat about something when they walk on the road, and the topic is always jumping.

But this time, Chen Yuanzhi didn't take the initiative to say a word, she lowered her head slightly, and the two of them walked the avenue of the school once and for a rare time, and the road was full of students talking together, crowded but lively.

Jiang Zhixu walked forward and said some trivial things: "There are a lot of people in the leave bar tonight, I feel that most of our class have asked for leave, and I guess I plan not to come to school from tomorrow......

"I really want to take a leave of absence...... But my parents probably wouldn't agree. Hey, forget it, let's wait a little longer, I've been locked up in school for two days, and it's not too bad for half a day. ”

Jiang Zhixu talked for a long time, but he didn't hear Chen Yuanzhi's reply, and turned his head to look at her with some confusion, "Little Zhi......"

The girl next to her lowered her head, her black hair covered her eyes, and a drop of water suddenly fell.

Jiang Zhixu's footsteps stopped abruptly.

Chen Yuanzhi's footsteps also stopped, but she still didn't raise her head.

Jiang Zhixu's voice was very soft, and the joy and lightness on that face receded like a tide, leaving only traces of worry, "Xiaozhi, you ....."

Jiang Zhixu seemed to want to say something, but he only got up and didn't say anything again.

Chen Yuanzhi raised his hand and gently wiped his eyes, then slowly raised his head and looked at Jiang Zhixu, "Why did you stop?" ”

Chen Yuanzhi still looked as calm as usual, and her expression was also faint, but it was a pity that the slightly reddened corners of her eyes and a slightly hoarse voice betrayed her.

"Keep walking. I was thinking about something else, I didn't hear clearly, where did you go......"

Jiang Zhixu reached out and grabbed Chen Yuanzhi's hand, shook it gently, and didn't say a word.

Chen Yuanzhi understood that Jiang Zhixu was comforting her in a way that she felt would not hurt her the most - Jiang Zhixu knew her so well that she could see all her strength and reluctance to show weakness.

Chen Yuanzhi was indeed defeated just now, after working hard day and night for a month, after obtaining a result that did not meet expectations and did not match her own efforts - her already shaky heart, in the repeated torment of not being able to understand and solve the math problems on the test paper all night, finally smashed to the ground in the noise and crowd of people representing joy all the way this night.

But the next moment she collapsed, she staggered to her feet.

She wiped away her tears, as if she had never been defeated, and had never shed tears because things had backfired.

She was so proud that she couldn't even see her own weakness.

Jiang Zhixu held Chen Yuanzhi's hand tightly, she pursed her lips, frowned, and said softly in her voice for a long time: "Xiaozhi...... It's okay. It's good after this night, and it will definitely get better and better in the future. ”

Chen Yuanzhi let Jiang Zhixu pull her, and after a while, she slowly shook Jiang Zhixu's hand back, the corners of her mouth were raised, and it seemed that in less than a minute, her emotions had been controlled, "I know...... Thank you, little catkins. ”

After parting at the intersection, Chen Yuanzhi walked all the way along the avenue in the direction of the school gate and turned into the gymnasium on the side of the road.

At night, only the bathroom at the end of the corridor was lit up, and the miserable white light was like paint painting the walls, Chen Yuanzhi entered the toilet and glanced at himself in the mirror.

She looked at the person in the mirror in a daze, only to feel that her eyes had already been blown dry by the cold wind, and there were no tears at all.

……

Chen Yuanzhi stayed in the toilet of the gymnasium for a long time, and by the time she walked out, there were not many people on the avenue.

Most of the students left the school early, and at the other end of the school road, only a few hard-working students were left to carry the night towards the school gate.

Chen Yuanzhi walked out of the school gate, there were no more bicycles left in the carport where the bicycles were parked, and someone was standing alone outside the carport around the corner, as if looking for his car.

Although he has absorbed a little stable energy from his friends, Chen Yuanzhi's mood at this moment is still not good, and he has no intention of observing the people and things around him.

As Chen Yuanzhi walked, he looked at his shadow, and the questions that he couldn't solve tonight and the scores that he accidentally lost on the test paper came to mind.

What went wrong? How to learn? How hard you work?

This time, she still didn't get many points on the application questions, does it mean that she should withdraw her attention from the application problems and increase the training of multiple choice questions?

How can I improve my efficiency in doing questions......

- Sure enough, she's still too useless.

The tears that had been controlled surged up again, Chen Yuanzhi closed his eyes, and raised his hand to wipe away his tears while breathing slowly-

"Chen Yuanzhi."

The head seemed to be pressed the pause button, and it was frozen with a "click".

Before Chen Yuanzhi turned around, a shadow appeared beside him.

Chen Yuanzhi didn't want to look up, but Xu Linmiao looked down at her with the light on his back, and bent down slightly, with a broken rope pendant in his palm.

"Your stuff ...... dropped"

Xu Linmiao seemed to see something, and his voice disappeared suddenly.

The atmosphere suddenly became awkward.

Chen Yuanzhi has always felt very embarrassed to expose his weakness and incompetence, but at this moment, this mood has climbed to an unprecedented peak, and a steady stream of by-products called shame have instantly emerged.

She snatched the pendant from Xu Linmiao's hand at once, said "thank you" in a hoarse voice, and was about to move forward.

Xu Linmiao stood in place and slowly lowered his hand.

He looked at Chen Yuanzhi's back and fled, and suddenly shouted out the name:

"Kiyoyuki."

The two words like a fixing spell, two simple words, instantly made Chen Yuanzhi stop and didn't move.

Clear.

This is the name that Chen Yuanzhi gave himself in the molten nucleus.

The name has its origin, however, she never told it to any of her friends and never used it anywhere else.

- Someone who would know the name, she could only think of one.

Chen Yuanzhi froze in place for a while, as if he had just understood what had happened, and turned his head in disbelief.

Her eyes were slightly red, her hot and wet black eyelashes did not tremble, her pupils shrank, and she looked at Xu Linmiao standing behind her with a good glance - that kind of almost distracted stunned was mixed with an unconcealable consternation, and a brief blank left by the sudden impact of information.

And the moment Xu Linmiao saw those eyes, he saw the hazy mist in her eyes.

The sparkle in his eyes flickered for a moment, and when the words were spoken again, his tone had already softened, and the stream flowed through the canyon in Chen Yuanzhi's heart, and once again rushed into the monstrous waves:

"—Kiyoyuki."

……

After a long, long time, Chen Yuanzhi already had the life he wanted.

She lay on the couch and remembered the night, the street lights were particularly dim, the shops on the street were closed, and the light along the road was scarce.

When that person appeared in front of her, she realized that it was not the lamp that happened to break all the way that night, and not all the bad luck followed—on the contrary, the stars of that night were so bright that they were like silver-white jewels sleeping in the distant heavenly river.

Some of the lights are so dazzling that there is always a dark night to pass before they come.

All the encounters that have long been destined in the dark are full of vague splendor.

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