Chen Yuanzhi lay on the bed, his hand resting on his eyes, and felt the hot temperature coming.

I used to go to the city library for self-study during the winter vacation, basically every day. I sit on the third floor by the north-facing window, so you can come to me when you want to study. ”

“..... Wouldn't that bother you? ”

"Trouble me? Worried about this before you even started? ”

"No, it's not. I just don't have confidence in myself. ”

She was afraid of disappointing him.

"Are you afraid I'll be disappointed?"

At that time, Chen Yuanzhi raised his head abruptly and looked at him in astonishment, "Why are you ......?"

Xu Linmiao looked at her, his eyes bent, "Because I'm like this too." ”

From the beginning, they approached each other because of the high co-frequency of their souls.

Chen Yuanzhi once said to her best friend of 12 years that she was never afraid of failure, and what was more unbearable than failure was the disappointed gaze cast by the people she cared about.

Sometimes she does not lack the courage to move forward and even break her bones, but she chooses to stop because of some secret and unspeakable fears.

It's just that before that, she didn't expect that even Xu Linmiao would have such a mood.

"Kiyoyuki, I think you're sure you're familiar with that feeling as well. We are always good at capturing details, always have a very strong intuition, and it is easy to see the essence of things at first glance. You once told me that you were very good at using this ability called ni in Jung's eight dimensions, this feeling like a sixth sense, but in fact I am the same. ”

"I said I wanted to help you because I knew the Kiyoyuki I knew, and if it was her, it wouldn't be in vain for me to help her."

"You don't have to worry too much. Why do you think you're going to let me down? I thought you'd surprise me out of the ordinary. ”

"I've never missed anyone in this regard."

.... Ah, that's bad.

Chen Yuanzhi pressed the position of her heart, she looked at the chandelier above her head, her eyes were scattered, the chandelier in front of her overlapped and blurred, and what remained unchanged was as bright as day.

Recalling that conversation over and over again in her mind, she felt a surge of strength in all her limbs.

The force was warm, like warm water flowing over the body, and the throbbing was strong and incomprehensible.

She hadn't felt like this in a long time.

Chen Yuanzhi understood what it meant to agree to Xu Linhao's invitation. That means acceptance, and there will be a very special person in her life so far, and she will have a very important friend. The meaning of this person does not need to be repeated, he may become her arm, or he may become her weakness.

After Chen Yuanzhi made a decision, she also looked back and thought about it repeatedly, and it was also during that time that she began to realize that she and Xu Linmiao had both similarities and differences. If it were her, she wouldn't have stepped forward to recognize her one day, let alone take the initiative to invite someone into her life so quickly.

Xu Linmiao and her are not exactly the same character, Chen Yuanzhi thinks that emotionally, he is more enthusiastic, more courageous and tolerant.

.....

The next day, Chen Yuanzhi soon found that the level ranking also came out after he arrived at the class.

There are about 1,500 people in Dongjiang Middle School's senior class this year, and Chen Yuanzhi's ranking in the last midterm exam was around 800.

This time, it's a little bit better, around 750.

Chen Yuanzhi looked at the rankings that slipped on the projection screen, and was surprised to find that in just one day, his mood had changed dramatically.

Yesterday, she looked at the class rankings on the screen, and felt that her whole heart was empty, as if she was in a desert with no people; And now she looks at the same unsatisfactory ranks, but she thinks that all this is not a big deal.

Is it because you have a partner who walks side by side?

"Fate?"

Chen Yuanzhi looked at it when he heard it, and found that it was Li Yulian who was calling himself, "Huh? What's wrong? ”

Li Yulian breathed a sigh of relief, "I see that you are motionless...... However, seeing your expression, I knew that I was thinking too much. ”

Chen Yuanzhi was stunned, "My expression ..... "Does she look happy?"

It's just that before Chen Yuanzhi could ask, Wu Mingxu stepped onto the podium, and in addition to the little bees, he also had a bag of snacks in his hand.

Chen Yuanzhi guessed what he was going to do with just one look.

Wu Mingxu coughed a few times as always, opened his throat and said: "Tomorrow is the holiday, although because of the rush of time, the commendation meeting for the final exam, the school said that it will be delayed until the beginning of the next semester, but the commendation in our class can still be completed in this semester." This time, I still paid out of my own pocket, and in addition to the top ten, the first place in each subject was also rewarded. ”

"Then next, I'm going to read the list of the top ten in the class, and the students who read it come up to the stage to receive the award....."

Chen Yuanzhi turned his head and asked Li Yulian, "Is there a single subject ranking?" "She just saw the grade rankings, not the individual subject rankings.

Li Yulian, "Yes, did you bring your mobile phone?" The squad leader sent the document to the class group in the middle of the night last night. ”

Chen Yuanzhi didn't remember to look at his phone last night, "..... In this way, I went to bed early and didn't see it. ”

"Then first, the top ten students in the total class came to the stage to receive the award——"

"First place, Xie Jinhua."

Chen Yuanzhi turned his head to look, maybe it was because Xie Jinhua didn't have many friends in the class, or maybe everyone didn't expect her to replace Wen Wenxin to get the first place, the applause was not intense, Xie Jinhua came from that sparse applause, and his expression was calm.

Chen Yuanzhi looked at her, and it was difficult to take his eyes off.

Maybe others will think that this reaction is too indifferent, but Chen Yuanzhi can see it, it is determined.

Li Yulian: "Hey, isn't Wenxin actually the first?" ”

This should also be a confusion for most people.

Wen Wenxin's score in the first big exam was only the first in Chinese, but he was able to throw the second place with a total score of 30 points when there were people who held the first place in two individual subjects in the back, which shows how surprisingly high and average his scores in each subject are.

In high school, what everyone admires most is not the single subject god, but the fact that there is no lame in each subject and there is still a top-notch total score hexagonal warrior.

When Wu Mingxu gave the snacks to Xie Jinhua, he didn't forget to say a few words of praise, "Xie Jinhua has made great progress this time, and the ranking has entered the top 200!" I can often see her come to the classroom early for self-study, everyone must understand the truth that no hard work is a point of gain, good grades are not falling from the sky! ”

Li Yulian exclaimed: "Top 200 in the grade!? How did she suddenly become so powerful! Wen Xin didn't make it to the top 200 last time. ”

Chen Yuanzhi knew why: "She didn't fill in the answer sheet last time she took the physics exam. ”

When taking physics in the midterm exam, Chen Yuanzhi happened to be in the same exam room as Xie Jinhua. She sat in the last row, and after the exam, the student who sat at the end of each group was responsible for receiving the answer sheet.

When Chen Yuanzhi received the answer sheet, he found out that Xie Jinhua's multiple-choice questions were not painted.

Although I don't know what the reason is, ......

Chen Yuanzhi lowered his eyes and glanced at the file on his mobile phone that had just been opened, and the first line of the physics single subject was written with the name "Xie Jinhua".

- If Xie Jinhua had smeared the card in that exam, it might not be Wen Wenxin who scored first overall.

Li Yulian: "It turns out that she is the boss of our class!" Top 200 Yah.... Yuanzhi, do you think she will skip to the key class next semester? ”

The motto of Dongjiang Middle School is "Cultivating the Heart and Ambition, Emphasizing Virtue and Seeking Wisdom". While encouraging freedom, pioneering, innovation and all-round development, it also has a unique "competitive and incentive" school rules among many high schools in Chunshen City.

The most famous thing is the flexible promotion system.

Each semester, the key and regular classes are completely reshuffled, and all students are placed according to the average overall score of the major exams during the semester. The results of the big test are multiplied by the corresponding test weighting coefficient given at the end of each semester, and finally added to get the placement score.

Among them, the monthly examination and mid-term examination account for a relatively low proportion, often only 10% to 30%; The joint entrance examination between major universities and the final examination of the university will account for 30% to 50%.

Because there is no division of subjects at present, the key classes in the first stage of high school are not divided into physics and history, with a total of five classes and 250 students, of which the top 50 in the grade are compiled into the Yuanpei class in the next semester, that is, the Qingbei class in the mouth; The 51st to 250th students in the grade are organized into four innovation classes, which are considered to be sub-key classes.

Unlike ordinary schools, Dongjiang Middle School does not refer to the results of the semester's moral education rating and semester reward and punishment evaluation, and is completely determined according to the grades.

In the first semester of high school, there were no monthly exams, and the proportion of final exams was said to have reached 80 percent.

If the final weighting coefficient is indeed 80 percent, then Xie Jinhua, who was admitted to the top 200 in the final examination, is likely to be promoted to the innovation class next semester.

The people who can enter the innovation class in Dongjiang Middle School, which is full of masters, can be said to be among the best in the entire Chunshen City.

This is something that would make any person cheer, but Xie Jinhua just accepted the snack given by Wu Mingxu with a normal face, said thank you, and turned around to leave.

Wu Mingxu hurriedly called out to her, "Hey, wait, there is also a reward for the first place in a single subject." ”

There was a faint low laugh in the class.

"Second place, Dai Xu."

Chen Yuanzhi was a little surprised, she thought that the second place would be Wen Wenxin. Like last time, she once again set her sights on the boy who was walking on stage.

Chen Yuanzhi didn't notice many boys in this class, and his knowledge of Dai Xu was limited to male classmates who were very tall and had good grades - if there was anything special, it was that he barely had contact with girls.

Unlike Wei Fengyuan, Shu Jinze and others, Chen Yuanzhi had almost no impression of Dai Xu talking to girls, whether it was in physical education class, on the way to and from school, or in the class after class, there were only boys around him. He is not a class comedian like Wang Laojian, and I rarely see him talking and chatting loudly in my impression.

Like last time, Dai Xu politely bowed slightly before taking the snacks handed to him by the head teacher.

"Third place, Wen Wenxin."

Chen Yuanzhi glanced at Wen Wenxin's expression, she was obviously very concerned about the regression of her grades, and the smile on her face looked a little reluctant.

"Fourth place, Wei Fengyuan."

"Fifth place, Liang Shangying."

“.....”

The top ten have been announced one after another, and compared with the last big exam, almost all of them are about the same, rotating up and down in the top ten.

Chen Yuanzhi suddenly noticed something, paused, and almost at the same time, Li Yu Lianye invariably discovered: "Hey? Jiang Xinyu is not in the top ten..... And there is no one in the single subject. ”

Last time, Jiang Xinyu took the first place in a single subject in history, and ranked seventh in the class.

Chen Yuanzhi subconsciously raised her eyes to look at Jiang Xinyu's seat, her angle could only see Jiang Xinyu's side face, the short-haired girl looked down at the book, her low-hanging eyelashes covered her lower eyelids with a layer of deep black, she was indifferent, it seemed that the glory on the stage and the tide of the audience were not related to her.

Chen Yuanzhi narrowed his eyes, "...... Well, it's normal for grades to go up and down. ”

Li Yulian, "Could it be that the things that happened before the exam affected her......

Chen Yuanzhi didn't say anything more, she keenly felt that Jiang Xinyu had become different from before, but it was limited to that. She had no intention of exploring Jiang Xinyu's state of mind, she didn't care.

For her now, there are more things worth spending energy thinking about, waiting for her to decide.

"Then, I hope everyone can learn from these eleven outstanding students on the stage, and have the courage to compete with students with good grades, the college entrance examination is a competition! Don't waste time playing with your phone during the winter vacation, be sure to do your homework, don't copy it! ”

As school approached, the whole school building became boiling, the air was agitated, and an earthquake was wiping the strings, until the bell rang for the end of class, and the first note was played, and the dragging of tables and chairs and the instantaneous explosion of human voices were strung together into a carnival that shook the mountains.

The first long vacation of high school came at a sunset, and Chen Yuanzhi walked through the crowd and met Jiang Zhixu in the corridor at the door of the classroom.

Jiang Weaving's face was full of joy, "Winter vacation!! It's finally a holiday!! Xiaozhi, let's go drink milk tea later! ”

Chen Yuanzhi smiled, "Okay." ”

Jiang Zhixu was so excited that he tugged on Chen Yuanzhi's sleeve and said a bunch of words in pieces, which caused Chen Yuanzhi to laugh from time to time.

Jiang Zhixu looked at Chen Yuanzhi, who was amused by an interesting thing she said, and suddenly said, "Xiaozhi seems to be different today and yesterday. ”

Chen Yuanzhi was stunned for a moment, ".... Is it? ”

Jiang Zhixu bent his eyes, "Yes, Xiao Zhi, you look a lot happier." Finally, it's no longer a preoccupied smile. ”

Jiang Zhixu is careful and delicate, and is good at capturing the emotional fluctuations of the people around him. She has always felt that Chen Yuanzhi is suppressing something in her heart.

She knew that Chen Yuanzhi had too high expectations and requirements for herself, so she put a lot of pressure on herself. Last night, this pressure broke through Chen Yuanzhi's control for the first time and was exposed in front of Jiang Zhixu, which also caused Jiang Zhixu to be more and more worried about Chen Yuanzhi's state.

But today, the moment Jiang Zhixu saw Chen Yuanzhi's smile, he knew that she was completely fine.

"I don't know what happened, but I feel so happy to see Xiao Zhi so happy."

Chen Yuanzhi smiled embarrassedly, "You say the same thing...... Do I look really happy? ”

Jiang Weaving nodded seriously, "Of course! ”

The two walked out of the school building holding hands, and the sunset light filled the girl's ankles. Chen Yuanzhi hesitated for a few seconds and said, "Xiaoxu, do you think I'm timid?" ”

Jiang Zhixu thought for a moment: "If it is usual, Xiao Zhi is of course a very courageous person, you are always so decisive, and smart, smart, and very capable." ”

"But Xiao Zhi, you are indeed a coward emotionally."

Chen Yuanzhi: "Why do you say that? ”

"Because you're afraid of a new relationship."

Chen Yuanzhi argued, "I'm not afraid, I just think too much sometimes." And I don't think there's anyone who deserves me to take the initiative to build a relationship with them. ”

Jiang Zhixu was helpless, "Yes, yes, I know, Xiaozhi, you and I slowly became good friends at that time, and you thought it through." ”

The two girls walk out of the school holding hands, and the sunset sweeps away the last fallen leaves of the school, and a month later, in early spring, new leaf buds will emerge on the branches, perhaps just in time for the break.

Chen Yuanzhi opened the molten core on the way back and sent a message to the person: "Happy winter vacation." ”

They also quickly replied: "Happy winter vacation." ”

“…… But Xiaozhi, what are you thinking about? ”

"It's so easy to make friends, it's just that you want to get closer to that person, to release kindness to him, and then the two of you slowly get closer."

Chen Yuanzhi looked at the other party's reply in seconds, and his fingers hung in the air for a long time before he fell, "Are you home?" ”

Xu Linmao: "No. With a large group of classmates, I was getting ready for dinner. ”

Chen Yuanzhi remembered that this person seemed to be very popular, "Oh, the popularity is so good." ”

Xu Linmiao replied after a while, "Are you alone now?" ”

Chen Yuanzhi, "Well, I'm going to go home." ”

Xu Linmao: "Well......"

Chen Yuanzhi: "What's wrong?" ”

Xu Linhao was typing for a long time before he sent out a new message: "I'm thinking, this restaurant is very good, I can suggest that the president hold another club activity next semester, and then order this takeaway." ”

“…… Xiaozhi, you are afraid. You are afraid that the feelings you have paid will be betrayed, that your efforts to manage the relationship will be wasted, and that you will make a hasty choice that will end miserably and waste your time; You are also worried that the relationship will bring an element of emotional instability to you, that the person will have too much influence over you, and that you are afraid that you will lose control. ”

"You are not wrong in the first place, how can caution be a bad thing? It's just that in the process of watching and considering, you unconsciously become less brave and a little hesitant. ”

Chen Yuanzhi looked at the message he replied to, and couldn't help but smile, "You like to eat so much?" ”

Xu Linhao, "This is Jiangsu and Zhejiang cuisine, I remember you said that you prefer Jiangsu and Zhejiang cuisine in your Chinese food." Moreover, the expenses for club activities can be reimbursed, and white prostitutes are happier to eat. ”

Chen Yuanzhi really couldn't hold back this time, "I didn't expect you to have calculated well, so treacherous." ”

Xu Linmiao was unceremoniously: "Fifty steps and a hundred steps of laughter?" ”

Chen Yuanzhi admitted that she was also very moved: "I was discovered by you." ”

“…… I'm afraid you'll miss out on what you want. I know that for you, nothing is necessary, and whoever you lose will live well, Xiaozhi is such a tenacious and independent person. ”

"I know that once you really miss it, you will lie to yourself, you will tell yourself that you don't really want this person, it doesn't make a difference if you get it or not, this is your healing medicine, and it is also a hypnosis for self-healing."

Chen Yuanzhi looked at the phone screen, his eyelashes trembled, and finally sent the message: "Will you go to the library tomorrow?" ”

Xu Linmiao replied succinctly: "Go." ”

Chen Yuanzhi: "..... Then I'll go too. ”

Xu Linmao: "Okay. ”

After a while, he sent another sentence: "Remember to bring all the teaching materials." ”

The corners of Chen Yuanzhi's mouth turned up slightly, and the rhythm of finger clicks became brisk, "How can there be a feeling that the teacher is telling the students before the make-up class." ”

Xu Linmiao sent a sentence: "Isn't it?" ”

"I'm ready to be a teacher, don't say you're not ready to be a student."

“...... Sometimes impulsiveness is not a bad thing at all, if you have a relationship that you particularly want to start, you might as well put aside your assumptions about the future and possible crises and quarrels, reduce your guesswork and consider the profit and loss, and start trying first, right? ”

"Getting along with people is a run-in in itself, like two hedgehogs repeatedly adjusting, slowly finding a hugging posture that will not stab each other. No matter how suitable people are, there will be times when they are red-faced and red-faced, and they will also make each other sad and cry; No matter how inappropriate the person is, there must have been a moment that moved you or made you laugh. It is in this process that we slowly draw closer to each other and become more intimate and important people to each other. ”

Chen Yuanzhi sent an emoji: "Understood. ”

When the subway arrived, Chen Yuanzhi put his mobile phone in his pocket, it was the time after school, and the familiar school uniform backs appeared on the escalator from time to time, most of them walked together, Chen Yuanzhi was alone in it, looking at a pair of girls holding hands not far away, and the voice about Jiang Weaving in his mind was slowly clear.

"Xiaozhi, I want to say, don't be afraid of getting hurt, it's not shameful to be hurt, the person who gets hurt in the relationship is not a fool, let alone a poor unlucky guy. Or on the contrary, how remarkable are those who are able to have the courage to start again the next time and re-devote their sincerity to each other every time they are injured. ”

Chen Yuanzhi thought silently.

Well.

It's really not that hard to take that step.

......

Early in the morning, Chen Yuanzhi came to the city library with his schoolbag on his back.

Just after the winter vacation, the circle of friends is full of photos and videos posted by classmates last night shopping, taking pictures, eating and playing around, and the comment area has also become lively.

The elevator arrival prompt sounded, Chen Yuanzhi turned off his mobile phone and walked out of the elevator door.

The windows on the north side of the third floor are all double seats, and at eight o'clock in the morning on the first day of the holiday, the crowd is sparse, and Chen Yuanzhi saw Xu Linhao at a glance.

Xu Linmiao rarely wears glasses, the gold-rimmed frame stands on the high bridge of his nose, his slightly long hair and eyelashes are gently lowered, he wears a sweater, and his slender fingers pinch the pen and move it gently, which is completely different from the upright and refreshing school uniform he wore at school, Xu Linhao looks completely casual and relaxed at this time.

The white light outside the window poured down, and he looked like a big cat lazily sunbathing.

The big cat sensed her gaze keenly and turned her head.

He looked at Chen Yuanzhi who came over, Danfeng's eyes curved slightly, and he chuckled:

"Here we are."