The night was low, the sky was dark, there were no stars or moon, except for the cold wind that blew slowly in the night, which blew away a little of her wine.

Her face was buried in the shadows, and after a long time, she whispered, "You know what? In fact, I deceived him, I didn't tell him my true identity, I did something wrong but I willfully blamed him for deceiving me and losing me. ”

At this point, she burst into tears again, but continued, "If I had told him who I was, maybe it wouldn't have turned out like this. I used to think that if he was with me because of who I was, it wasn't what I wanted, but ... ”

She shook her head and wept as she wiped it away, but it flowed out more, as if it was uncontrollable, "But, I, I've figured it out now, and I regret it." I often thought that if he had known who I was, he would have been with me. I'm still me, he's still him, what's so bad? Identity is identity, identity is inherently usable, something is better than nothing, why was I so stupid in the first place, why can't I see this clearly? I always thought that they wouldn't be pure to me if they knew my identity, so they deliberately concealed their identity and didn't say anything, why am I so stupid?! ”

She buried her head between her legs, and the more she talked, the more sad she became, and the more she spoke, the more she wanted to cry, "Now everything is irreparable, and there is no way to make it up." Why is this happening? Why is this so? Everything is my fault, my fault! ”

At this moment, she just wanted to find someone to talk to, no matter who that person was. Maybe Nalan Xuyan is not her friend, but now only Nalan Xuyan is by her side, and only Nalan Xuyan can understand what she is saying.

Her words were a little messy, but Nalan Xuyan understood it. He leaned against the door, half-hid his eyes, and said softly: "You are not wrong, even if you confess your identity to him from the beginning, he will not choose you." ”

Hearing this, Nalan Feng Ember raised his head and looked at Nalan Xuyan in puzzlement, seeing that he was unusually at the moment, and he was a little different from the past.

She actually thought he would laugh at her, but he didn't, not only did he not have it, but it was very weird. She asked, "Why?" Am I not worthy of him? ”

Nalan Xuyan shook his head and said: "No, you are worthy, but your identities are always on opposite sides, you are the prince emperor, the rightful heir of the country, she is the younger brother of the imperial concubine, and she is the same party who seeks the dynasty to usurp the throne, one mountain does not tolerate two tigers, you and the imperial concubine can only leave one of the two, he chooses you, he has to give up his sister and his family, he chooses Lu Yanran may be able to compete with you, so, even if Du Yuze knows your identity, compared with the two, he will still choose the Lu family, choose to marry Lu Yanran, and you, Even if it is not abandoned, it will be in a more awkward position in this matter. ”

Nalan Xuyan didn't continue, Nalan Feng Ember nodded and said, "I understand. ”

The wind of the winter night made her more and more sober, and the wine had dissipated, leaving her only bitter with the sobriety left behind. only snorted softly, and mocked: "I thought my identity was very important, although my identity can change the color of the world, but I can't keep a man, hehe, it's ridiculous, it turns out that I'm nothing, and I overestimate myself so ridiculously." ”

Nalan Xuyan sat behind her, looking at her side face slightly distracted, at this moment she was not disguised, and her hair had not been combed for a few days, and she was scattered behind her indiscriminately, a little more depressed and a little lazy.

But even if she is like this, she is just as beautiful in this dark and moonless night, his voice unconsciously became gentle, and he said softly: "Don't be presumptuous, your identity is very important, but it is not the bargaining chip that the Du family needs most at the moment." ”