Chen Yuqing looked cautiously at the Qing Dynasty.

Shen Huaishen continued: "You should remember that before I sent him to Mingyue Cliff, I also asked him if he would like to come, and he said 'yes'. ”

"He doesn't want to! I could see that he was afraid that you would be sad and angry, so he said 'yes'. Chen Yuqing said in a hoarse voice, "When you go up the mountain, he is reluctant to let go of your hand." How could he be willing? ”

Shen Huaishen closed his eyes: "Yes." You can see he's lying, so you ask him and he's not going to lie to you. ”

Chen Yuqing sat down with a stunned expression when he heard this, although he didn't directly refuse, but everyone understood that he agreed-he would ask Xie Yinxue.

Originally, Chen Yuqing wanted to postpone the day of the inquiry, but God refused to wait for him, and Xie Yinxue became more and more sick.

As a result, two days after the serious illness, Xie Yinxue suddenly got better and was able to get out of bed and walk around by herself.

On that day, the pear blossoms on the mountain behind the Mingyue Cliff were still in full bloom, and they looked as white as snow from a distance, as if it was a good omen.

Only Chen Yuqing understood that it was the day when his apprentice returned to the light.

He was in the house, and through the window, he saw the boy returning to the branch a pear blossom that was already destined to die in the dust, and listened to him, "Bloom a few more days, and don't be like me." ”

At that moment, Chen Yuqing couldn't say anything after preparing for several days.

So in the end, he only asked the boy: "Ah Xue, do you still want to see a real snow?" ”

The boy replied to him: "Yes." ”

Xie Yinxue didn't lie, Chen Yuqing could see that he was telling the truth - he just wanted to see a snow.

It's just that the boy is dying, and if he wants to see the snow, he must be able to survive until winter.

After returning to the house that night, Chen Yuqing leaned on the door panel and burst into tears: he had finally become a despicable person like Shen Huaishen. Shen Huaishen knew that Xie Yinxue was lying, but he insisted on believing it as the truth, and he knew that Xie Yinxue was not lying, but he insisted on believing it as another meaning, misinterpreting the young man's original intention.

The only thing he can make up for is to let all those in the know hide this memory, so that Xie Yinxue's life will not be so painful.

"You painted this woman, when I bought her, she was not surnamed Su, nor was she called Xunlan, but I remember her face, and I remember all the children's faces." The old housekeeper Shen Jiangcai folded the portrait and put it in a small furnace to burn it, "They didn't die for you, but we still gave the money to their parents as agreed, and then we didn't care about what happened to them, and that's not what we should do." ”

At the end, he asked Xie Yinxue again: "After everything that should be said, is there anything else you want to know?" ”

Xie Yinxue put on his cloak and looked up at the sky, but he was in the warm pavilion, and when he looked up, there were only layers of confinement blocking him, at this moment he was a little envious of Thirteen, and he was curious about how happy Thirteen Qingshan Mental Hospital should be when he looked at the sky and died.

"There's nothing more to know." Xie Yinxue stood up and said, "When Master left, the last word left for me was 'I'm sorry'. ”

"He's apologizing to me, such a nice guy, he said he's 'sorry' for me."

Xie Yinxue came to the Shen family's old mansion today, and what he wanted to ask about was not the past between Su Xunlan and himself at all, there was only one thing he wanted to understand from beginning to end-

"I finally know why he apologized to me."

Xie Yinxue lifted the wind curtain of the warm pavilion and walked into the wind and snow, the ice ballast hit his face, the sky was cold, and even the three low steps of the warm pavilion were as difficult as a mountain to climb in this tyrannical weather, just as Chen Yuqing said to him before he died:

"Ah Xue, Master is sorry for you, Master can only protect you here, the road ahead is difficult, you have to go by yourself."

It's a really tough road.

Xie Yinxue felt that she couldn't walk anymore.

He rolled down the steps, face down and slammed into the snow, his warm cloak floating up and down on his back like a heavy corpse cloth covering his body.

Liu Buhua was still in the car, and when he saw this, he couldn't sit still at all, and wanted to open the car door to help Xie Yinxue, but for some reason he couldn't open the door at all, even if the key was in his hand, he could only watch everything and he couldn't do anything.

The Shen family standing in front of the old mansion was also watching, but none of them moved, and none of them went to help Xie Yinxue.

The old housekeeper seemed to want to help, but Shen Qiujian also wanted to, so he couldn't move, so he had to hold Shen Qiujian first and persuade: "I'll go to help, don't go here, master." ”

"Uncle Seven has fallen like that! How can I survive?! ”

Shen Qiujian is young and strong, and the old housekeeper is old and frail, where can he be stopped? So it was quickly broken away by Shen Qiujian.

He ran towards Xie Yinxue, but as soon as he stretched out his hands, he was covered by Xie Yinxue's cloak before he touched anyone: "Don't touch me!" ”

The young man's voice was hoarse and fierce in resistance.

When Shen Qiujian took off his cloak, he saw that the young man had already sat up, clean and clean, not a single snow plet was stained, and the heavy snow fell from the sky, stopping on the tips of his shoulders, but he did not touch the young man at all.

Shen Qiujian pursed her lips and squatted down, looked at Xie Yinxue at eye level, and said worriedly: "Seventh uncle, let me help you up." ”

"Shen Qiujian." The young man smiled and asked him with a brow of eyebrows, "How old are you this year?" ”

Shen Qiujian replied, "Twenty-seven." ”

Xie Yinxue smiled and coughed, covering her heart and said, "It's still so young, I really don't know what to say." Do you know how many years you have to live when you touch me? ”

"Do you know how Shen Huaishen, Shen Huaien, and Shen Huaimei died so early?"

"Do you know why I didn't enter the gate of the Shen family, and no one from the Shen family went to Mingyue Cliff to visit me?"

"Even Shen Huaishen didn't dare to come to see me. How dare you help me, how dare you touch me? Xie Yinxue raised her hand and vaguely traced Shen Qiujian's face, "So ignorant, who agreed to let you be the head of the family?" ”

"Uncle, Uncle En, and Aunt Mei all agree."

Shen Qiujian answered Xie Yinxue's question seriously: "I just want to help you up, Seventh Uncle, you work so hard, I have always wanted to say to you, you let us go." You do what you want and don't worry about us. I will take care of everyone in the Shen family, I assure you. ”

Xie Yinxue looked at Shen Qiujian quietly, not relieved by the young man's promise, but felt that Shen Huaishen really knew him too well, and he had to put him with him until he died.

Shen Qiujian is sincere and sincere, caring for every relative and family, and conscientious, his character is not ruthless enough, he will not weigh the pros and cons, and he is not suitable to be the head of the family. But Shen Huaishen still chose him, why?

Because Shen Qiujian was so stupid as to think that the Shen family would survive well without them, a member of the Qi Sect.

No, once all the people of the Shen family Qimen die, all the people of the Shen family will also die in this generation, and no one will be able to die well.

At that time, Shen Qiujian, who cares about his family and believes that he can protect his relatives, will watch all this happen, watch them die miserably, and find that no matter what kind of struggle he does, he is irreparable, there is nowhere to escape, from full of hope to collapse and despair, for him, this is a torture more painful than death.

And what about the Shen family members standing in front of the old mansion? They were also the same as Shen Qiujian, standing in the cold wind of the cold night, the snow fell all over their bodies, and no one avoided them, and when Shen Qiujian persuaded him to do what he wanted to do, no one refuted.

They believed in their family master, and they also felt sorry for Xie Yinxue's dedication to the Shen family.

Even if Xie Yinxue no longer has the surname "Shen", they are still a family connected by blood, they love every relative and family member deeply, no matter what choice Shen Qiujian or Xie Yinxue makes, they will obey.

Shen Huaishen knew Xie Yinxue, he knew that no matter how Xie Yinxue pretended and deceived himself, he would never be able to truly lose his lust and forgetfulness, no love or hate, and he couldn't watch these Shen family members die, so Shen Huaishen chose Shen Qiujian, who was only twenty-seven years old, to be the head of the Shen family - he knew that Xie Yinxue was willing to hold Shen Qiujian's beautiful and fragile hopes and ideals with both hands, and was reluctant to let it fall and shatter to the ground.

"That's nice......"

Xie Yinxue looked at the old mansion of the Shen family, at every inch of the wall of this mansion, at every corner of the eaves, and at this place where he once lived and muttered in a daze.

He once again rejected the old housekeeper and Shen Qiujian's arm that wanted to help him up, stood up alone with the hard and cold floor tiles, and took one last look at the old mansion and every relative in the old mansion, and then turned around and left without looking back: "Such a good home...... It's a pity it's not mine anymore. ”

Chapter 183

When I returned, it was already completely dark, but the snow had not stopped.

There was already a thin layer of ice on the road, causing the wheels to slip a little, Liu Buhua didn't dare to speed up, for fear of some accidents, he looked at the street lamps on the side of the road that were waving bright yellow lights, blowing the hot air conditioner in the car, but felt that this winter was really cold.

Especially for Xie Yinxue, only Mingyue Cliff is probably warm in this world, so Liu Buhua wants to take Xie Yinxue home quickly, but the weather is too uncooperative.

When he arrived at the foot of Mingyue Cliff Mountain, the snow was finally a little lighter, and Liu Buhua was about to drive back in one go, but Xie Yinxue suddenly asked him to stop.

Liu Buhua pulled up the handbrake, turned on the double flashing lights, looked at Xie Yinxue from the rearview mirror, and asked him, "What's wrong, godfather?" ”

The young man stared out the window, his eyes unblinking, his eyes reflecting the white snow outside, which at first glance seemed to be as white as snow.

Liu Buhua followed him and looked out of the car window, but he could only see the snow that looked extremely white in the night and under the street lamp.

At this time, Xie Yinxue opened her lips, pointed to the front right and said, "No, there is a convenience store over there, you go and buy a bottle of water for me and come back." ”

When Liu Buhua heard this, she immediately unbuckled her seat belt: "Okay." ”

"Wait......"

Xie Yinxue stopped him again, reached out and sorted out the scarf for him, and then said with a smile: "It's okay, so that you won't be cold when you go out." ”

Liu Buhua raised her eyes to look at Xie Yinxue's eyes, pursed her lips and lowered her voice: "Hmm." ”

Xie Yinxue urged him: "Go quickly." ”

Liu Buhua opened the car door, and walked straight to the front of the car, he felt that Xie Yinxue should have moved his hands and feet on his scarf, so he walked in the cold wind and snow day without being cold at all, warm as if he was still in the car, he kept walking forward like this, until he turned back and couldn't see the double flashing lights of the car, and after only the dense fog that could not be dispersed in his eyes, he squatted down and stopped on the side of the road, without the intention of buying water.

- Because there are no convenience stores here, and there is a whole box of mineral water in the trunk of the car, so there is no need to get out of the car to buy it.

Xie Yinxue's real purpose was just to get rid of him.

The young man is always like this, he can't talk about it, and Liu Buhua is used to it, after all, Xie Yinxue's problem was there before he came to Mingyue Cliff.

On the other hand, Xie Yinxue is also asking himself: Why can't he speak his words and be the same?

It was as if at this moment, he got out of the car and stood in front of Chen's mother with a thousand words that he wanted to confide, but he couldn't say a word when he opened his mouth.

On the contrary, Chen's mother asked him first with a smile: "Did you just come back from the Shen family?" Look at what you are wronged by. ”

"Hmm." Xie Yinxue lowered her eyelashes and tapped her head, looking more obedient than anyone else, "I also fell." ”

Hearing this, Chen's mother hurriedly asked, "Where did you fall, does it hurt?" Are there any injuries, show me the injuries. ”

In fact, the fall was very heavy, and he couldn't get up for a long time, but he wanted to say: "It doesn't hurt, I wear a lot of clothes." ”

"Then I'll be relieved." Chen's mother handed the food box in her hand to Xie Yinxue, "I stewed the chicken soup and always wanted to give it to you, but I couldn't go up the mountain, I went around here for a long time before I met you, the weather is very cold today, you quickly bring the soup back and drink it with a halberd to warm up." ”

However, Xie Yinxue refused to answer, he just shook his head stubbornly.

"You are good, listen to Chen's mother, you see that you don't wear a coat." Chen's mother raised her hand to pat the snow that fell on his shoulder for Xie Yinxue, "This snow has fallen on you." ”

The snow not only fell on Xie Yinxue's shoulders, but also fell between his eyebrows and hair, dyed his eyelashes white, and also dyed his pupils, but he couldn't stay on Chen's mother.

"I'm sorry......" Xie Yinxue apologized in a trembling voice, "I can't do ...... well"

"You've been doing well, but I'm leaving, and there's no way to stay and see you do better in the future." Mother Chen is still so gentle, like a mother, even the cruelest goodbye seems to be warm, "I don't want your master to wait for me for too long," you know that we will see each other again, that is, maybe I and your master don't know you at that time, but we will meet again after all, so Ah Xue, don't be sad." ”

Xie Yinxue closed her eyes, hugged Chen's mother's body without temperature and said with a smile: "Yes, I'm not sad, we will meet again." ”

Look, he's duplicitous again.

Obviously, what he wants to say is: But I don't want to wait that long, I am reluctant to let you go.

But when it comes to the mouth, it all changes to a different meaning, why is this?

Xie Yinxue still remembered that when he was not called Xie Yinxue, but Shen Qiulin, Shen Huaishen once asked him: "Ah Lin, are you willing to follow Master Yuqing to Mingyue Cliff?" There, you can live to be 100 years old, and live longer than your father. ”

He didn't know how long it would take to live to be a hundred years old, he only knew that Shen Huaishen's eyes were full of sorrow and pain when he looked at him, so he asked Shen Huaishen: "Dad, if I say I want to go, will you still be so sad?" ”

Shen Huaishen told him: "No." ”

Therefore, Xie Yinxue told the first lie in his life, he said: "Then I am willing to go." ”

As a result, he later found out that Shen Huaishen was also lying to him, so the "insincerity" was probably their family's genetic disease.