At first, Xie Yinxue didn't realize that this was a hospital, until he realized that the miserable white walls around him were inexplicably familiar, much like the place where he used to stay before he went to Mingyue Cliff, so Xie Yinxue immediately turned his head sideways, looked at a window on the left, and then unsurprisingly looked at a pair of snow eyes covered with hoarfrost.

Yukime's owner was wearing a light blue hospital gown, his arms folded on the edge of the window, his head tilted slightly to the right, and he opened his lips and asked in a childish childish voice, "Will I die?" ”

At first glance, this question seems to be asking Xie Yinxue.

But Xie Yinxue could be sure that the snow-eyed child was not asking him.

After all, he knew the kid.

His name is Shen Qiulin, and he is his childhood self when he did not change his name.

So in the next second, another voice replied firmly: "Yes." ”

However, the owner of the voice is not Xie Yinxue, it is also innocent and naïve, like a paintbrush stained with ink and paint, the moment it sounds, it will draw the past in front of Xie Yinxue's eyes-

"I got this disease and died within a year."

The gray-haired little ghost stretched out a finger and swore to Shen Qiulin by the window: "You have also had this disease for a year, and you will definitely die soon." ”

Shen Qiulin straightened his head and stretched out a finger to the little ghost in the shade outside the window of the ward: "But my father said that I can live to be at least a hundred years old." ”

The little ghost looked disdainful, patted his chest and said as a passerby: "Before I died, my parents coaxed me like this." ”

Shen Qiulin: "......"

"Die quickly, I'm so bored by myself." This time it was the turn of the little ghost to tilt his head, he held his chin and said unlucky things, but there was no viciousness on his face, it was all innocent and innocent who didn't know the world, "You can play games with me when you die." ”

Hearing this, Shen Qiulin sighed with a look that was extremely inconsistent with his age: "I can play games with you even if I don't die, but I can't accompany you when I die." ”

The little ghost was puzzled: "Why?" ”

"I'm going to see my mom because I'm dead." Shen Qiulin said, "My mother is also dead. ”

After speaking, Shen Qiulin stretched out his hand and opened the window wider: "It's bright outside, do you want to come in and watch TV with me?" ”

"Yes, yes, yes!"

The little ghost happily floated into the house, and Xie Yinxue also opened the window once and followed the little ghost into the ward. The two children were lying side by side on the bed, staring at the TV, Xie Yinxue picked the sofa and sat down, staring at the door.

- He was waiting for two old people he hadn't seen for a long time.

One of them did not arrive, the voice came first, his voice was hoarse, full of tiredness and pain: "I really can't do anything anymore......"

Immediately after, someone comforted him in an elegant and gentle voice: "I know, Huai Shen, don't worry. ”

Xie Yinxue listened to their voices, couldn't help but lower her eyelashes, and when she opened it again, the door also opened, and two tall figures stood at the door together, one was clear and thin, and the other was immortal.

The man with a young face and a few gray hairs on his temples had a few gray hairs early with red eyes, but he forced a smile when he saw the child in a light blue hospital gown on the bed.

He probably didn't smile often, he smiled reluctantly, and his smile was stiff and unnatural, but his tone was extremely gentle: "Ah Lin, this is your seventh uncle, Master Yuqing." ”

As he spoke, he walked to the side of the bed and probed Shen Qiulin's forehead, and after confirming that he didn't have a fever, he touched the top of his hair again: "Is there anything uncomfortable today?" ”

"No, Dad." Shen Qiulin raised his head and finished replying to the man's words, before he shrank into the man's arms and looked at another man in a cyan coat, and called obediently, "Master Yuqing." ”

"It's okay to call Uncle Seven."

Chen Yuqing bent his lips, his gaze gently swept over the other side of the hospital bed, and asked with a smile, "Is Ah Lin watching TV with his friends?" ”

When Shen Qiulin opened the door and entered the house, a pair of snow eyes returned to a black color, and after listening to the words of the man in the green coat, he blinked in surprise.

Shen Huaishen hugged Shen Qiulin and whispered, "Ah Lin, show Uncle Seven that it's okay." ”

Shen Qiulin let out an "oh", blinked again, and in the next second, the pupils in his eye sockets were like paint, and suddenly turned into a crystal white like snow.

Chen Yuqing looked at these eyes and squatted on his knees, looked at Shen Qiulin at eye level, and sighed in surprise: "Tianzi is heroic and knowledgeable, he has such a special talent, no wonder ......"

Shen Huaishen's voice was even hoarse: "So I'd rather he ...... A lifetime of mediocrity, even if it is a lifetime of mediocrity. ”

"It's too hard."

Chen Yuqing sighed and got up, he knew that Shen Qiulin was smart and precocious, and it was best not to say some things in front of him, so he only nodded to Shen Huaishen and said euphemistically: "You can make a good decision." ”

Saying that, let Shen Huaishen make a decision, but Shen Huaishen squatted in front of Shen Qiulin, gently held his shoulder and asked, "Ah Lin, do you remember what your father told you before, can you live to be a hundred years old?" ”

Shen Qiulin looked at his red eyes and said, "I remember, Dad." ”

"So, what about you...... Are you willing to follow Master Yuqing to Mingyue Cliff? You can live to be 100 years old there...... Lived longer than Dad. ”

Shen Huaishen can't coax children, he can't laugh and he has to be reluctant, he doesn't know how distorted the expression on his face is, it's more like crying than laughing, and he speaks intermittently in just a few words.

"Your dad looks very sad."

The little ghost muttered behind Shen Qiulin's back: "When I died, my parents had this expression on their faces. ”

"I've been talking to them and telling them not to be upset, I'm not crying, and they don't cry."

The imp's voice fell: "But I'm dead, and they can't hear me." ”

Xie Yinxue still remembers what she thought at the time.

He thought that while he was not dead, while Shen Huaishen could still hear his voice, he had to hurry up and let Shen Huaishen not be sad, so he saw Shen Qiulin and asked Shen Huaishen: "Dad, if I say I am willing to go, will you still be so sad?" ”

Shen Huaishen is not a good father.

He lied: "No. ”

Shen Qiulin, who was still young, learned badly with him, and also told the first lie in his life, he said: "Then I am willing to go." ”

But in fact, at that time, Shen Qiulin felt that it didn't matter if he didn't live to be a hundred years old, he just didn't want Shen Huaishen to be so sad.

As a result, he was obviously still alive, but Shen Huaishen didn't seem to be able to hear his voice, crying as if he was also dead.

At that time, Shen Qiulin was three years old, but he had seen Shen Huaishen cry like this several times.

For example, on the day he received the call to notify her of the death, Shen Huaishen cried like this, he rushed over overnight and sent her on the last journey without sleep.

Later, when Xie Yinxue, who had not changed his name and was still called "Shen Qiulin", was diagnosed with high-risk stage 4 neuroblastoma, he cried again.

To this day, Xie Yinxue can't tell who is more unfortunate among the three members of their family.

He also didn't know whether the lone star fate of his six relatives who had no relationship and punished relatives and friends began at the moment when he entered the Xuanmen, or from the day he was born.

Xie Yinxue sometimes thinks that it should be the latter.

He followed Shen Qiulin, Shen Huaishen and Chen Yuqing out of the ward.

Outside the ward is not the corridor of the hospital, it is a road with no end in sight, Shen Qiulin, Shen Huaishen and Chen Yuqing are walking faster and faster on this road, Xie Yinxue also sped up, but he couldn't catch up with them.

He was alone, walking alone, and he didn't know how long the years had passed on the way.

The gray fog in front of Xie Yinxue's eyes became thicker, but Chen Yuqing's soft sigh suddenly came from behind him: "The mountains are high and the waters are long, there will always be a day when we meet again." ”

Shen Huaishen's old voice followed: "There is no need to meet again." ”

Xie Yinxue suddenly stopped and turned around, but like looking in a mirror, what she saw was still an empty and lonely long road.

Chen Yuqing's voice changed direction, returned to the front, and asked from behind Xie Yinxue's ear: "Ah Lin, do you see, is there someone behind you?" ”

Xie Yinxue didn't look back, he looked at the road behind him, opened his lips and said in a hoarse voice: "Master, I see no one behind me." ”

Chen Yuqing sighed again: "Since there is no one, you have received a 'lonely' life, and since then the lone star has been killed, and he will die alone." ”

"Therefore, in the future, you can no longer be called 'Shen Qiulin'."

"Master, what should I call me?"

Chapter 270

People are not born with a name or a surname.

However, the name is the first thing that the world has, the only thing that belongs to him.

It's so special.

Therefore, people in the world tend to be cautious when choosing a name.

And the name "Shen Qiulin" used by Xie Yinxue is derived from a poem.

The first sentence of this poem, "If life is only as first seen, what is the autumn wind and sad painting fan" is familiar to the world, but Shen Huaishen loves the "Lishan language in the later film" and "half a night, tears and rain and rain will never complain." Two sentences.

So he named his beloved son born to his wife in late autumn: Qiu Lin.

The implication is that I and Jun Zeng have sworn that we will never leave, even if we finally make a decisive parting, we will have no regrets or complaints.

Who knew that between his reconciliation and forgetfulness, he finally responded to these two sentences - after this farewell, there will be no goodbye for a long time.

"On the day you went to Mingyue Cliff, I calculated a hexagram for you."

Xie Yinxue followed Chen Yuqing's voice and turned her body again, and looked back to see that the originally foggy long road in front of her had turned into a familiar pavilion, and there were two people sitting opposite each other in the pavilion.

Chen Yuqing looked at the three copper coins on the low table in the middle, and said softly: "This hexagram is the earth fire Ming Yi hexagram." This hexagram enters the earth on the day, and the light is injured, which is the appearance of the setting sun, and it is a fierce hexagram. ”

It is also the sunset scene full of warm sunset when Xie Yinxue was sent to Mingyue Cliff by Shen Huaishen.

Chen Yuqing put away the copper coins on the table, dipped his index finger in the tea, and wrote three words on the low table: "The evil hexagram is unlucky, the master will rename you, call it 'Xie Yinxue'." ”

"Changing your surname to 'Xie' is to ask you to thank your parents for their kindness, and to call it 'Yin Xue', so that you always remember Yin Xue's heart and don't leave traces."

The black-haired and snow-eyed child on the other side of the low table lowered his eyebrows when he heard this, his eyes fixed on the new name, and after a while, he slowly raised his head and promised Chen Yuqing: "Okay, Master." ”

It can be seen that the child is so well-behaved and obedient, but Chen Yuqing's face is not happy, the pupils in his eyes are sparkling, and a little melancholy appears, like looking at the black-haired child in front of him, and like looking at his own reflection in those snowy eyes.

"Feihong stepped on the snow, the snow has marks, Hongfei has no traces, regardless of things......" he muttered softly, reaching out and touching the top of the child's hair in front of him, "Master hopes you can do it." ”

Xie Yinxue asked him, "Master, what if I can't do it?" ”

Chen Yuqing was silent for a long time, and at the end, he turned his back to Xie Yinxue and gave three words: "...... If you can't do it, you will mislead others and yourself, hurt others, hurt yourself, and harm others and yourself. ”

But Xie Yinxue is young after all, no matter how early he is, he can't deeply understand the weight of the three words, he only knows how to memorize Chen Yuqing's words in his heart, and every winter, he walks repeatedly in the snow, learning to break his desires and forget his feelings - starting from being a rebellious and indifferent unfilial son.

He would rather run all the way back to the hospital to see that little ghost than see Shen Huaishen again.

The little ghost in the hospital huddled under the shade of the tree with his legs in his arms, and he was not very interested in seeing him coming, and called him with a pair of dark eyes: "Ah Lin, are you coming to see me?" ”

"I'm not called 'Ah Lin' anymore." Xie Yinxue sat beside him, "I changed my name, you can call me 'Ah Xue'." ”

The imp boasted, "Oh, like your eyes, it's nice." ”

"Thank you." Xie Yinxue thanked him first before answering his question, "I did come to see you." ”

"Thank you." The little ghost also thanked him, and then said, "I saw my parents in the hospital today." ”