"You weren't like this when you were a child," Gu Qingyan said, "I didn't see you so jealous." ”

Chu Shanye raised his eyebrows: "That's all pretended."

He knows that he is a very possessive person, and this possessiveness will seem a little "abnormal" in the eyes of most people.

In fact, at the beginning, he was a person who was afraid of being "abnormal", or afraid of being different from others, because in the educational ideas instilled by the Chu family's parents, being different from others was the biggest sin.

Even if he is adjusted now, the shadow left by his childhood is still not so easy to disappear, and he is becoming more and more adept at hiding his true emotions and thoughts.

Chu Shanye's possessiveness for people and things was extremely high when he was a child, even if he praised other classmates from a teacher who was good to him, it would make him angry, let alone suddenly snatch all Gu Qingyan's patient brothers from him.

At that time, he often had disputes with Chu Hao over some trivial matters, even if some disputes were provoked by the other party first, his parents would not stand on his side, and over time he got used to it, and he also learned to hide his possessiveness and never tell anyone.

"Xueba, this team is the team I said before that I talked about talking to others behind my girlfriend's back," Du Xingxian said with a serious face, "In addition to the city team, there are only two clubs in X City, HG and NGU, and their results are not good, and they can't compete with the NGU, so they have always been weird to us, you must ignore them." "

"They're the team of bad actors?"

Gu frowned: "The person who just talked to me is ......"

"It's HG's jungler," Du Xingxian looked disgusted when talking about this person, "He and I were in the NGU when I was in the academy, and the club wanted to sign him at the end of the day, but he didn't know what was going on and ran with HG, anyway, I haven't had much contact with him since then."

"The point is that this kid talks to a lot of people in the league."

Chu Shanye suddenly interrupted Du Xingxian's words, and there was a little more disgust in his tone: "Don't mention how many years ago." "Yes, yes, he's talked about a lot of boyfriends in the league."

Du Xingxian patted his head, as if Chu Shanye had just remembered when he said it, he snapped his fingers and said: "From the commentator to the player to the fan, I will change the object every month, seamlessly connect you know, you must not be blinded by his harmless face." "

Actually, they don't have to worry so much.

Gu Qingyan has just experienced a failed relationship, and he doesn't want to start a new one for the time being, and he has no interest in this HG jungler at all, but he just thinks that the other party's private life is good

Like a little too confused, he frowned and said, "Why are so many professional players not honest?"

"To borrow a sentence from Sister Yan Ling, the first commentator of our KPL, that is, men are virtuous."

After Du Xingxian finished speaking, he found that he seemed to have scolded himself and Chu Shanye, and hurriedly coughed twice, and made up for it: "It is the virtue of powerful and rich men."

The hot pot shouted to them, and Cheng Kai beckoned them upstairs to eat. Gu Qingyan and Chu Shanye fell behind the team, and Chu Shanye quietly pulled down his sleeve.

"What's wrong?" Gu Qingyan asked him.

"There are indeed some professional men who have this virtue, and they will fuck shamelessly, just scum," Chu Shanye said softly, "But I really didn't mess around, you have to believe me." ”

Gu Qingyan raised his eyebrows: "I didn't mention you again, what does it have to do with you?"

"I'm just ......"

Before Chu Shanye finished speaking, Du Xingxian shouted in front of Gu Qingyan to adjust the material. Gu Qingyan hurriedly followed, so that Chu Shanye couldn't say the second half of his sentence in time.

He squinted at the back in front of him and let out a helpless "tsk".

Gu Qingyan's predecessor is a scumbag, and he has an innate disgust and resistance to the two things of "splitting legs" and "cheating", he is just afraid that Gu Qingyan will resist some professional players while having a chaotic private life.

He has had a crush on someone for six or seven years, and now there is something new that makes him feel troubled, for fear of scaring people away again.

☆☆★

The little fat man's skills in eating are really unique, and this hot pot is indeed the most delicious one Gu Qingyan has ever eaten.

Gu Qingyan used to be busy studying and competing at school, and he cleared a list in his spare time, except for having dinner with his roommates, it had been a long time since he had a lively meal with so many people.

Several other people in NGU can eat spicy, but Chu Shanye is a non-spicy pot player, so Cheng Kai mercifully ordered a clear soup pot for him.

It's just that I don't know why, this hot pot restaurant seems to focus on a Sichuan authentic flavor, unlike other hot pot restaurants, the clear soup and spicy pot are divided in half, but a hole a little bigger than a fist is dug in the spicy pot as a clear soup pot.

When he saw this "poison pot", Chu Shanye was almost laughed at angrily. "We're not targeting anyone, I mean it's a big regret in life if this hot pot restaurant can't eat spicy."

Du Xingxian squeezed his eyebrows at Tong Ran and Song Ruxiu, and at the same time put all the vegetables and meat into the hot pot: "Come on, come on, catch more and love to fish!"

Chu Shanye silently moved his chopsticks to a position, stared at the small circle in the middle of the red oil and spicy pot, and sneered. Cheng Kai hurriedly warned him: "People with bad stomachs and bad hands are forbidden to eat spicy food."

The chili peppers in the base of this shop seem to be fried, and the flavor is overflowing with such a hot one. Gu Qingyan, a person who eats lunch a little more, smells hungry, not to mention this group of Internet addicted teenagers who started eating at half past eleven o'clock at noon and exercised for two hours in the afternoon.

Gu Qingyan scooped up two pieces of fat cow and put them on the plate, glanced at Cheng Kai, who was in full swing, and reached out to poke Chu Shanye under the table: "Hey."

Chu Shanye turned his head to look at him: "Huh?"

Gu Qingyan took advantage of the moment when Cheng Kai lowered his head, and threw the meat on the plate that was a little cooler into Chu Shanye's small bowl: "Eat."

The communication between the two is simple and fast, all relying on a single word, but they both understand each other and cooperate tacitly, which is smoother than the scene of stealing the dragon on the NGU.

Chu Shanye ate the two pieces of meat that Gu Qingyan smuggled into him, put the chopsticks back in place as if nothing had happened, glanced at Gu Qingyan quickly, and blinked his eyes slightly.

Meaning also.

Gu Qingyan thought for a moment, and then took advantage of people's inattention to steal a ball and threw it into his small bowl.

Chu Shanye is like a puppy waiting for the owner to feed, and he eats whatever the owner gives, even if it is the mushrooms and chrysanthemums that he didn't like the most before

Gu Qingyan was a little surprised: "You even eat shiitake mushrooms now?"

"People change," Chu Shanye said, "and eat everything when you're so hungry that you can't think." He coughed lightly and poked Gu Qingyan: "Hey, aren't you going to eat?"

"I'm not too hungry."

Gu Qingyan said and scooped up two more slices of meat, but did not give it to him directly, but soaked it in a bowl with clear water on the side. "Why do you want to do it?" Chu Shanye said, "Isn't this tasteless?" You have a bad stomach, just eat a little, you can't eat more. ”

Gu Qingyan seriously threw the meat that had been soaked without peppercorns and red oil into his bowl: "The clear soup pot will be opened in a while, you eat the clear soup honestly."

Chu Shanye was about to pretend to be pitiful and beg him, when he heard Cheng Kai say: "The two people who opened the small stove over there are almost there, don't think I can't see it."

Gu Qingyan's face was a little hot.

The feeling of being found out for doing bad things is not very good, and it gives him the illusion that he was named by the class teacher in middle and high school.

Chu Shanye accepted it when he saw it, and concentrated on picking up baby cabbage in the clear soup pot, and politely gave Gu Qingyan a few slices: "You have been busy for so long,

Eat some too. "

Gu Qingyan originally said that he was not used to eating a clear soup pot, but looking at the expectation in the other party's eyes, it was difficult to refuse, so he could only eat those few pieces of baby cabbage.

Chu Shanye ate his own food with peace of mind, with a somewhat nostalgic smile in his eyes.

When he was a child, he was naughty, and he was especially easy to poke out of the basket, and every time he caused trouble to Chu's father, he would beat him, and then shut him out of the door to write a review, kneeling on the ground to write. At that time, he was less than 10 years old, and he had just recognized the whole word, and he was asked to write a review of four or five hundred words.

If it is useful to write a review, no child will be beaten.

At the beginning, Chu Shanye was very stubborn, and he didn't accept softness and didn't bow his head. The Chu family's parents did not discipline and accompany him enough, and he had no feelings for these two so-called parents, and always worked with them.

But how can a child be able to beat an adult?

Later, the punitive measures were escalated, from kneeling outside to write a review to not only writing a review, but also not eating until it was finished.

Chu Shanye could accept kneeling to write a review, but at that time, it was the time when the child was growing up, and he was so hungry that his stomach hurt as much as a fire without eating, so he had to turn around and knock on the door of the Gu family opposite.

The Gu family was eating at the time, and although Gu's mother took pity on the child for not eating, she was not easy to interfere with other people's methods of disciplining the child, so she could only provide Chu Shanye with a place to sit and write a review.

Chu Shanye sat down and moved to Gu Qingyan's chair, looked up at Gu Qingyan pitifully, stretched out his hand and tugged at the cuffs, but he didn't dare to ask for food, for fear that he would not do well and let the family drive him to kneel in the corridor.

Gu Qingyan was soft-hearted, and quietly pretended that he didn't notice the bear child pulling his sleeve next to him, but when his parents were not paying attention, he quickly tore off a piece of steamed bun and stuffed it to Chu Shanye.

Chu Shanye ate the steamed bun like a jujube, looked at him with a blank eye, he dragged another piece of steamed bread, and stuffed some other vegetables with him, as if he was feeding a puppy that slipped under his dining table.

Later, after eating so many times and walking through so many places, Chu Shanye no longer seemed to be able to find the taste of those steamed buns at that time.

"Captain, did you get him the ticket for the top student?"

Du Xingxian came to the two of them at some point, and his voice interrupted his memories: "The tickets for our weekend exhibition match are sold out, have you said hello to the External Propaganda Department?"

KPL has always sold tickets for entertainment events with star players, and it can be sold out in about ten seconds after the ticket platform is launched, and there will be ticket sellers who resell at high prices on a certain fish, adding 300 plus 500 to sell as soon as they open their mouths.

"And outside

The Propaganda Department said. ”

Chu Shanye glanced at the people around him: "But it doesn't matter, even if you don't say it, the place reserved for the family in the first row can be given to him." Gu Qingyan was originally concentrating on eating, when the phrase "family" fell in his ears, and his heart felt like it had been scratched. Chu Shanye seems to like the word "family" very much, he said it many times when he was in love with Chu Hao, and he has said it many times now. "Hey Captain, I haven't seen your parents watch the game for so long," Du Xingxian suddenly asked, "Are they so busy?" Chu Shanye's expression on his face froze, and he said vaguely: "My family doesn't support it."

As soon as he said this, Du Xingxian understood.

Although the current era is very open, and everyone seems to be able to accept everything, in fact, there are still many people who are prejudiced against "e-sports", thinking that this is just something for children to play around, how can it be on the hall of elegance? Therefore, some players come out to play with their families behind their backs, and only when they make a name for themselves dare to tell their parents what they have done outside for so many years like returning home.

Du Xingxian thought that Chu Shanye's family simply didn't let him play games: "It's okay, captain, your head is easy to use, even if you don't play games and do anything else, you can do it well, they must know it." "

"They weren't happy with what I did."

Chu Shanye was stunned after saying this, and then laughed self-deprecatingly: "Forget it, when I didn't say it, it's just that the relationship with my family is not very good." "

Gu frowned lightly, and said with a rare reproach: "Du Xingxian." ”

Du Xingxian saw that his face was not good-looking, so he felt as if he had said the wrong thing, thinking that Cheng Kai was no longer a child, no one had the intention of taking the initiative to mention Chu Shanye's family, and then gave himself a slap: "Oh, captain, look at me here, don't be difficult."

I'll slap myself again...... I'm me, I'm what, all the lines on the road for the next training match are for you to eat, don't be sad, okay? I really didn't mean to.

Usually he seems to be the person on the team who likes to make jokes about others, but in fact, his mind is also very delicate, and he is not as big as he seems to be.

Chu Shanye knew that he didn't mean it, so he sneered, stretched out his hand and rubbed a small curly hair on his head: I don't blame you, eat your food.

As soon as he finished speaking, the phone that was upside down on the desktop shook.

Take a call.

He glanced at the caller ID, put it down and got up to leave the box.

The hot pot restaurant was full of people, and the noisy laughter and noise didn't seem to have anything to do with him at this time. He coldly watched the happiness of other people's family reunions, and slowly walked through the white mist hall

Outside the store, the phone was answered before the caller's patience ran out.

The male voice on the other end of the phone was low: "Why did you answer the phone?"

Chu Shanye tilted his head to clamp the phone, took out a cigarette from his pocket and lit it, and said vaguely: "I haven't seen this number for a long time, I thought it was a scam call.

The caller was silent for a while, and when he spoke again, there was a little anger in his voice: Chu Shanye, your wings are stiff, how did you talk to your father?

Oh, you're my dad, huh?

Chu Shanye looked up at the sky where the red sun was falling, his eyes showed a little irritability, but his tone was still stubborn: "Thank you for the reminder, I almost said that uncle is good.

Chu Shanye!

Father Chu was completely angry by his two words: "Why do you still look like you're not big or small?" Chu Shanye exhaled a puff of smoke and didn't speak, waiting for the other party to scold him.

"You've been like this since you were a child, you never listen to what your parents say, you don't take the road your parents have planned for you, you have to play that game, and I'm embarrassed to say what you're doing when the neighbor asks!

Father Chu said so many words in a row, his breathing became short, and he coughed and wheezed a few times.

But Chu Shanye didn't show any concern, almost indifferently waiting for the other party to ease up and continue to scold him.

"Can't you learn from your brother?" Father Chu said, "Do you think Chu Hao has a serious spirit? Your brother is about to be Baoyan X is older, this is the matter of honoring the ancestors, and your parents will only have a light on their faces when they mention it to others. When you graduate from graduate school and go to work in a public enterprise, you don't know how many people envy you for the rest of your life, you can't play games for a lifetime, you know?

Chu Shanye suddenly spoke, interrupting his father's tirade: "Do you have anything else to do when you call me besides praising your eldest son?

Father Chu was interrupted a little suddenly, and after a stalk, he didn't have a good breath and said: "Your mother is pregnant, go home for a meal on the weekend."

Exercise.

Chu Shanye was not angry after listening to his father's speech for so long before, and he couldn't help but scold at this time: "What did you say?"

It seemed that Father Chu was also a little embarrassed to say this, but he still repeated: "Your mother is pregnant, go home for dinner on the weekend, and don't look at how long she hasn't come back."

"Are you two sick?" Chu Shanye laughed angrily, "How old is my mother? I'm an advanced maternal age, how did I get here? Isn't it also an unwanted pregnancy? Neither of you can be separated from each other

The wall family of three manages me a lot, and now I'm embarrassed to blame me for this and blame me for that?

He took a deep breath and felt that his hand holding the cigarette was trembling: "If you don't want a child, don't give birth to a fucking child, I beg you, if you can't control the lower half of your body, get out of the ligation, don't toss my mother and don't toss the child, I really can't afford to buy a condom and still want to do it, love me to give you a box, okay?" You wait, I'll place my order now.

Chu Shanye did what he said, and directly cut Ele.me to buy medicine and gave a few boxes of family planning supplies to the family, all models and flavors, and the main package is satisfactory to you.

Father Chu didn't expect him to be so straightforward, and he didn't even think to scold him for a while, so he quickly calmed down when he heard the other side, and said coldly: "I play a game on the weekend, don't go back to eat, you two and Chu Hao can eat." After buying the set, remember to give it a good review. ”

As he spoke, he hung up the phone, and took a puff of his cigarette as he slammed his phone on the ground, only to notice a worried gaze fall on him.

Chu Shanye raised his eyes and followed his gaze, and saw Gu Qingyan standing not far away looking at him.

He paused, hurriedly snuffed out the cigarette on the trash can next to him, and stumbled: Scared, did it scare you? Gu Qingyan shook his head and slowly approached him, but he ducked back and stood in the shadow cast by the eaves.

"Don't come so close," he whispered, "it smells of smoke, don't smoke you."

Before, Gu Qingyan thought that he would smoke a lot, but after getting along with him for a long time in the past few days, he found that Chu Shanye only seemed to smoke when his mood was extremely fluctuating.

Like now.

He didn't have to guess, he knew that the call was from the Chu family's parents when he saw the other party's stressed look.

In Gu Qingyan's impression, Rao's mother, who has a strong desire to control the education of children, also has a lot of complaints when she mentions her neighbors, and the implication is that if you can't manage the child, don't give birth, otherwise the child will be raised crookedly, and the family will suffer.

Gu Qingyan rarely agrees with her mother's thoughts, but this point is consistent with her opinion.

It was because he saw that Chu Shanye had no food to eat when he came home from school, and no one gave him the parent-teacher meeting, that he was so partial to this younger brother since he was a child.

It's okay, it's not smoked, it's all hot pot flavor. Gu Qingyan smiled at him: "I can't smell it."

Chu Shanye originally wanted to say a few witty words to pass this incident, but after seeing his smile, his nose suddenly became sour, and his eyes swelled a little uncomfortable.

He lowered his eyes, not wanting people to see his emotions, so he pretended to be relaxed and said, "Why did you run out?" It seems that this hot pot is not delicious, and Du Xingxian is small

The fat man is false propaganda again.

"It's not that it's not delicious, it's ......"

It seemed that saying such things made Gu Qingyan very embarrassed, he hesitated for a moment, but he still said it a little uncomfortably: There is no one to eat with me, so I don't want to eat.

Chu Shanye looked up at him suddenly, his usually sharp eyes full of confusion: "What do you mean?" Gu Qingyan looked at him with a lost puppy and was a little annoyed. When he was sultry before, he opened his mouth to open his mouth, why didn't he understand when it was his turn to take the initiative?

"I mean, I'm here for you."

After Gu Qingyan finished saying this, his face was as hot as if he was about to burn, and he said angrily: "I see that your face is wrong, I'm worried about you, okay?

Chu Shanye looked at him like this, thinking of the rabbit that Du Xingxian kept in the dormitory, and he was also so angry when he was amused.

He suddenly stretched out his hand to Gu Qingyan, as if he wanted to ask for a hug with someone, but when his hand was halfway out, he stopped and hung down a little uncomfortably.

"I'm fine, but I had another fight with my dad," he said, "and I've had a fight before, so you don't have to worry."

Gu Qingyan is not so easy to deceive.

In fact, the father and son of the Chu family quarreled for more than a day or two, but in most cases, it was the unilateral output of the Chu father, and Chu Shanye was responsible for being a green seed from beginning to end, and many times he was proud to say a word.

But Chu Shanye's mood fluctuated very much just now, and it was the first time Gu Qingyan saw him so angry.

It's fine, it's just ......

Chu Shanye wiped his face, and his tone trembled a little: "My mother is pregnant again, and I think it's a little ridiculous to hear my dad mean that he doesn't want to fight and wants to give birth.

"How old are you and don't know how to use a condom? They asked the kid if he would like to come. If this child is born, will he be left alone like me, and when he grows up and has his own thoughts, he will be accused of 'going the wrong way'?"

His voice was calm at first, and the more he spoke, the more excited he became, and at the end there was even a hint of imperceptible choking in his voice.

The setting sun completely sets behind the city's high-rise buildings, leaving only an orange-red sunset.

Chu Shanye's hand holding on to the wall seemed to be very strong, and the back of his hand was stretched with beating green tendons.

After he finished speaking, there was silence between the two.

"I'm sorry, it's me who is too emotional," Chu Shanye said softly after calming his emotions for a while, in fact, I am

Want to know what I am in this home, or is this not my home at all, I have been an orphan from beginning to end, and I don't deserve a family or a home, right? I

Gu Qingyan suddenly interrupted him and stretched out his hand to him: "Do you want to hug it?"

Chu Shan was stunned: "What?"

"Would you like a hug?"

Gu Qingyan repeated the question a little awkwardly, and coughed lightly: "I just think you seem to need a hug." Chu Shanye pursed his lips and looked at him, blinked for a while, and gently took a step forward.

Gu Qingyan hugged him, hugged this younger brother, who was already much taller and stronger than himself, in his arms, and patted him on the shoulder: "If you are sad, you can cry.

Chu Shanye leaned on his shoulder, and laughed low when he heard the words: "I have nothing to cry about."

"Do you want me to walk with you?" Gu Qingyan asked him, "Tell them not to go back, I'll walk outside with you?" Chu Shanye lay in his arms for a while, nodded and agreed.

The two walked out into the street from the side door of the hot pot restaurant, when the nightlife of X City had just begun, and many office workers changed into light clothes to hang out on the snack street, and the fireworks and noisy voices dispelled the silence of nightfall.

"Where are we going?" Gu Qingyan asked him.

Chu Shanye was half a step behind him, and stepped on his shadow intently: "Walk back to your school."

Yes?

Gu Qingyan was stunned for a moment, crying and laughing: "There are seven kilometers."

"Then walk seven kilometers," Chu Shanye said, "Let's go, let's walk for a while."

As he spoke, he quietly stretched out his hand and touched the tips of Gu Qingyan's shadow slightly, making his originally low mood a lot happier. "Is that what you're going to do?" Gu Qingyan said, "Just walk, don't go shopping?"

Chu Shanye glanced at the stalls on the side of the road: "If you want to shop, you can shop."

But in fact, these stalls are similar to the night market at the entrance of X, and there is nothing to visit. Gu Qingyan was a little bored after looking at two or three stalls, so he continued to walk forward with Chu Shanye intently.

Gu Qingyan rarely walked aimlessly like this. In the past, he cherished his time, either rushing to the classroom or the library, thinking that it was a shame to waste time.

But now it seems that wasting time with Chu Shanye is not a very bad thing. Thinking so, he quietly turned around and saw the fool behind him who was holding hands with his shadow.

Chu Shanye didn't notice his small movements

was noticed by someone, and he was playing with Gu Qingyan's shadow wholeheartedly, but his fingertips suddenly touched a touch of softness, and then he was gently hooked.

He raised his eyes suddenly, and could only see the tips of Gu Qingyan's reddened ears.

"Don't look down, look up at the road, be careful of hitting the pillar," Gu Qingyan's voice was clearly a little panicked, but his tone was still pretending to be calm, "I'm afraid that you will get lost, let go after crossing this section of the road." ”

Chu Shanye chuckled lightly and didn't poke him: "Well, good."

"Actually, don't be so pessimistic, you still have a family," while waiting for the red light, Gu Qingyan suddenly looked into his eyes with a solemn expression, "In your future competition, can the family seats in the front row be reserved for me?" I'll go to every show. ”