On the day of Tangxijian's wedding, Zhu Qingwu still didn't go after all.

The ceremony of the emperor's wedding was extremely cumbersome, from Linxuan's order, Nacai, asking for names, to announcing the date, and greeting, it was busy for more than 20 days.

The day before the celebration, the palace was lit up and beaming.

The first three halls and the last three palaces in the palace are all set up with ribbons, and the big red double happiness word and auspicious language pattern can be seen. All the royal roads in the palace are covered with a red carpet. ①

On both sides of the road from Nalan Mansion to the palace, there are bright red street lamps and various colored lights. Even the palace maids and eunuchs in the palace changed into brightly colored clothes, and their joy spread throughout the entire imperial city. ②

Everyone is looking forward to this happy event.

Only Zhu Qingwu was still wearing the dark gray eunuch suit, holding a jar of wine in his arms, walking in the palace like a wandering spirit.

The palace walls are red, the carpet on the royal road is red, and the palace lights on both sides are also red.

Only a bit of ink that he seemed to have accidentally fallen into it, seemed so abrupt.

It was obviously so far away from the front hall, but Zhu Qingwu still seemed to be able to faintly hear the music coming from the front hall.

Zhu Qingwu stopped and listened for a moment, and then continued to walk forward.

Probably because of holding a jar of wine, today's stargazing platform is particularly difficult to climb.

Therefore, Zhu Qingwu climbed for a long time to reach the top.

This is a good place he found a few days ago, the view from the stargazing platform is wide, and he can see the scenery of the front hall when he looks down.

The sunset fell little by little, and the lanterns inside and outside the palace lit up together, stretching from the front hall to the Nalan Mansion outside the palace, mighty and mighty, like a long dragon.

He knew that at this time, Tang Xijian was sitting on the palace wearing a crown, and the envoy was welcoming the future queen into the palace at Nalan's house.

Soon they will perform the wedding ceremony, the court ceremony, and the celebration ceremony, until the big wedding is completed.

Thinking of this, Zhu Qingwu sat on the half-man-wide parapet of the stargazing platform with a smile and opened the wine beside him.

The day of great joy should be celebrated with wine.

The observatory is too high, and the wind blows on the side from time to time, but fortunately, it is early spring, so I don't feel cold.

The warm breeze was so comfortable that it made people want to close their eyes, and the wind was so gentle, a bit like the kiss that fell on his forehead when he was drunk many years ago.

It's such an unclear thing, but it just makes his heart move.

Thinking of this, Zhu Qingwu couldn't help but feel ridiculous, he had lived for so many years, but he was held in the hands of a teenager, and he fell step by step to this day.

But how did you get to where you are today? Zhu Qingwu couldn't figure it out, which step was wrong? He couldn't tell the difference.

If you can't think about it, you don't want to, anyway, it's already done now, what's the point of dwelling on these anymore?

Zhu Qingwu thought about it while drinking, his mind was very confused, and his thoughts were galloping like wild horses.

For a while, he thought that maybe he shouldn't have stayed in the Lijuni Palace in the first place, and for a while, he thought that he should have died in that car accident early, and he shouldn't have traveled through any time and space.

Sure enough, there is no such good thing as rebirth in the world, and he has not been happy for a single day in the eight years he has picked up.

But it seems that when he was still alive in the 21st century, he was not very happy.

It is no wonder that in the past, when the gods made mistakes, they were exiled to the world, and it turned out that the world was hell.

Not far away, the solemn and solemn music sounded, and Zhu Qingwu raised his head, and his eyes were already a little blurry.

But he could still vaguely see that it was Fengying's convoy that welcomed the queen into the palace.

Zhu Qingwu looked at the grand ceremony not far away with a smile, and held the wine in his arms to respect him from afar.

I wish them well in advance.

The wine in the jar became more and more difficult to drink, but Zhu Qingwu still forced himself to drink it.

He went to the wine store for a long time today, and this is already the best wine he has picked out.

I don't know what this wine is made of, it is spicy and pungent, and he coughs when he drinks it.

But after all, it was the wine of Tangxijian, and Zhu Qingwu reluctantly found a reason for it.

It's because of my poor health, and I can't blame the wine for this cough.

yes, his body does seem to be getting worse and worse.

Zhu Qingwu thought to himself, in the past, he was just cold and weak, but now he even struggles to open his eyes every day.

It's just that he has had too many illnesses over the years, so he doesn't know which one to blame.

Thinking of this, Zhu Qingwu thought of the time when he had just walked through.

It seems that all the bad fates have been since then, and if he hadn't wanted to escape, he wouldn't have been assigned to the Hinoki Palace later.

If you don't get assigned to the Lijunigong Palace, you won't be targeted, and you won't be punished for kneeling in summer and frostbite in winter.

In the eight years he has been away from the Hinoki Palace, he has been sick many times and has been injured many times.

So much so that after a long illness, he became a doctor, and sometimes he could grab a few pairs of medicines for himself to see the disease.

He still remembers that one winter, the Ministry of Internal Affairs "forgot" about the charcoal fire in the Hinoki Palace.

Zhu Qingwu came to steal in the middle of the night, but was discovered.

The eunuch, the chief administrator of the Internal Affairs Office, poured a basin of cold water on his head and made him stand in the snow.

In the end, it was Yuzhu who sent a message to Tang Xijian to save him.

On the way back, Tang Xijian took off his clothes and gave them to him.

But Zhu Qingwu was still shivering with cold, even if he poured ginger soup, he still had a serious illness.

In those days, he did his homework in his room after school every day.

Zhu Qingwu saw that his fingers were red from the cold, and he could barely hold the pen, so he wanted to persuade him not to write.

However, Tang Xijian suddenly turned his back to him and said, "One day, ......"

"What?" Zhu Qingwu didn't hear clearly.

Tang Xijian shook his head, continued to bow his head and write his homework, and did not say any more.

But when he got up today, Zhu Qingwu felt that what he should have wanted to say at that time was, "One day, we won't live like this again?" ”

Or, "One day, I'll make them pay?" ”

Or "one day, I won't let them hurt you again?" ”

No, it shouldn't be the last sentence.

After all, he is the one who hurts himself the most now.

Zhu Qingwu smiled and put away his thoughts, he didn't understand what was the point of thinking about it now?

But what else could he think about?

Everyone was moving forward, but he stopped where he was.

Perhaps, from the time his mother abandoned him under that plane tree a long, long time ago, he was destined to always be one step behind the others.

He was trapped under that plane tree for three days, and he didn't get out for a long time for the rest of his life.

But now that I think about it, Zhu Qingwu didn't hate her.

He knew that it was not easy for his mother to pull him alone, and it was normal for him to give up in front of his stepfather.

He has always been considerate of others.

Just like now, he still understands Tang Xixi.

With such a bad start, it is not easy for him to ascend to the throne now.

That position is a thorn all the way, and he has to be more ruthless than others.

He will marry a woman worthy of him, stabilize the country, and bring him help.

And this has nothing to do with yourself.

He's just a little eunuch.

In the past, they relied on each other when they left the juniper palace, but now the hall stream sits on the rivers and mountains, and they no longer need his company.

No, I don't need him anymore.

That's right, Zhu Qingwu leaned against the wall next to him and took a sip of wine with a smile, "Tang Xijian, I don't want you anymore." ”

After saying this, he suddenly became extremely tired as if he had been drained of all his strength, and he had to hold the wine in his arms hard so that it did not fall.

Zhu Qingwu raised his head, and the sky had darkened for some time.

The indigo sky was full of stars, one by one, like broken diamonds falling all over the sky.

It's a night scene that he rarely sees in the 21st century, so he always likes to look at the stars when he first arrives.

At that time, Yuzhu was still a little puzzled and asked him, "What is so beautiful about the stars?" ”

Zhu Qingwu said: "Because there will be fewer and fewer stars in the sky in the future, I won't be able to see it."

"How so?" Yuzhu asked puzzledly, "My mother said that when people die, they will become relatives of stars in the sky and protect the earth, and people will die every day, so there will be more and more stars in the sky." ”

"That's what my mother said." Little Bean said, sat down and watched with him.

"Brother Zhu, do you think we will really become stars after we die?"

Zhu Qingwu didn't want to destroy the small vision in their hearts, so he replied affirmatively: "Yes."

"Then when I die, I will become a star shining on you, there are few things from the Hinoki Palace, and there are not enough candles, so that you don't need to carry a lantern when you go out at night, and if you miss me, look up at me."

Zhu Qingwu was angry and funny, "What stupid things to say, I am older than you, and if I want to die, I will die first, and I will follow you when the time comes." ”

"Don't!" Yuzhu immediately replied, "I wish my brother you are so good, I will be sad if you die." ”

"I'm sad when you're dead."

"Then you just look up at me."

Zhu Qingwu couldn't cry or laugh, "Come on, let's bypass this topic, don't look at the stars." ”

"That is, what dies or not, we all have to live well." Little Beans said on the side.

"Hmm." Zhu Qingwu also said, "We all have to live well." ”

In the past, Zhu Qingwu never believed in these strange powers.

But now he believes.

He rubbed his eyes and looked up at the stars in the sky, trying to find out, which one is Yuzhu or Xiaodouzi?

The two of them are so lively, they must be the two brightest.

But I don't know if it's because of drinking too much, all the stars have become blurred, and he can't find it.

So you can only wave at all the stars, and it will be regarded as a farewell.

The ceremonies in the front hall are coming to an end.

The wine in the jar was empty at some point.

Zhu Qingwu put down the empty wine jar and slowly stood up against the wall next to him.

The wind was strong, and they ran past him in droves, making his robes rattle.

The dark gray robe was attached to him, empty.

Zhu Qingwu looked away and looked at the farther rivers and mountains, and suddenly felt a little regretful.

He has been trapped here all his life, and he has never had the opportunity to appreciate the rivers and mountains here.

In fact, he has always wanted to go to the south of the Yangtze River to see the small bridges and flowing water, and he also wants to go to the desert to see the sunset and lonely smoke.

However, there was no chance.

He couldn't get out of the palace in his life, just like he couldn't get out of the plane tree for so many years.

He was so tired.

Whether in the previous life or in this life, he always cares about others first.

Now that there is no one to worry about him, he can finally think about it for himself.

Zhu Qingwu raised his head and looked at the stars in the sky one last time.

This time he finally saw the two brightest ones.

Zhu Qingwu smiled, and now he didn't even have any regrets.

The wine just now came to his head, so he was not afraid, but he felt that the whole person was light, as if he could fly away with the wind.

He took a step forward, and the ball of his foot was halfway into the air.

The surrounding wind blew more rapidly, but Zhu Qingwu didn't feel cold, but felt very comfortable.

He spread his arms as if he had broken free from all restraints.

Everything in front of him was gradually disappearing, and he seemed to return to his mother's body, but at this moment, he heard a voice full of horror, "Ah Wu." ”

Zhu Qingwu turned around and opened his eyes slightly drunk.

He thought he had drunk too much, and an apparition appeared in front of him.

Otherwise, how could Tang Xijian appear here?

He was still wearing a red wedding dress, holding a red jade bottle in his hand, and was trying to approach him while saying something to him.

However, Zhu Qingwu couldn't hear clearly, or didn't want to hear clearly.

It's nothing more than the danger from above, come down, come back to me or something.

But he didn't want to go back.

Zhu Qingwu took another step back, and then successfully saw Tang Xijian being nailed to the spot in an instant, his eyes were cracked, and his eyes were full of horror.

Zhu Qingwu didn't seem to have seen him look like this for a long time.

He suddenly felt something funny.

I don't know if he will leave any shadow on him if he falls from here for a while?

After all, they have been together for eight years, and Zhu Qingwu still can't bear it after all.

So he kindly said to him with the shape of his lips, "Go back." ”

However, Tang Xijian didn't listen, just looked at him for a moment, and shouted, "Ah Wu! ”

Zhu Qingwu still remembers the scene when Tang Xijian asked his name for the first time.

At that time, he was covered in injuries for some reason and was thrown in the Lijuni Palace.

Zhu Qingwu used all his savings at that time to change the medicine for him, and took good care of him to make him better.

The first thing he said when he woke up was, "What's your name?" ”

"My name is Zhu Qingwu, blessed Zhu, Qingqing's Qing, Wutong's Wu."

The child lying on the bed thought for a while, and suddenly said, "Then I will call you Ah Wu."

At that time, Zhu Qingwu had not yet adapted to the way of being humble and humble in the palace, saying that he was impolite.

The boy didn't argue with him, just stubbornly screamed.

One call is eight years.

Later, Zhu Qingwu realized that according to the rules of Da Liang, it turned out that it was actually himself who was rude.

But now, it seems that he no longer needs to follow the rules of Da Liang.

So he shook his head at Tang Xijian, "It's not Ah Wu. ”

He is not a cat or a dog, he is not a slave, he is Zhu Qingwu.

"My name is Zhu Qingwu."

After Zhu Qingwu finished speaking, he smiled at him, and finally said what he had always wanted to say.

"Tang Xixi, I don't want you anymore."

Tang Xijian looked at him, seemed to realize, couldn't care about anything anymore, and hurriedly ran towards him.

However, it was still a step too late.

He was like a fallen leaf, and he was blown down by the wind.

It is said that before people die, there will be a marquee to look back on this life.

However, after Zhu Qingwu closed his eyes, only a scene from many years ago appeared in front of him.

It was the third year he had been here, and they had survived another long winter, finally spring.

When the birds crow, green is sprinkled all over the world.

At that time, the flowers were in full bloom and the breeze was warm.

Zhu Qingwu was also idle, so he tied a kite and found a place where no one went on weekdays to play with them.

Tang Xijian, who was already fifteen years old, thought it was too naïve to fly a kite, so he just sat next to him and watched.

Zhu Qingwu knew that he was afraid that he would lose his identity, so he took Xiaodouzi and Yuzhu and put them up.

However, before it could be released, the kite got stuck on a nearby branch.

Zhu Qingwu didn't know how to climb trees, and when he was at a loss, he saw that the young man who was still thinking of flying kites just now rolled up his sleeves and climbed up in a few clicks.

Zhu Qingwu was startled, and hurriedly shouted loudly: "Be careful!"

Before he could finish speaking, he saw that the boy had reached out and got the kite.

Then she turned around and was smiling at him.