You don't have to look back to know that it's Huan Xuan. He's finally back.

Fu Yunwan stood in a daze, wanting to cry, but felt that there was no reason, this should be happy, how could he cry at this time.

When he came back, she no longer had to be frightened, she didn't have to wake up in the middle of the night, and when she heard the wind outside the window, she thought it was an officer and soldier who had come to arrest her.

As soon as the light dimmed, Huan Xuan walked over, he lowered his head and looked at her face: "You have lost weight." ”

Fu Yunwan saw his face. He had a long beard, not long, just a short layer of cyan mustache on his chin. He was wearing that brocade robe, which looked like he hadn't taken care of it for a long time, and the hem was wrinkled and a little curly, which dissipated the overly aggressive momentum on his body and added a little softness. He was so hot that the distance made her face feel hot, mixed with the smell of horses and grass, and he had been here for a long time.

couldn't say a word what should be said, Fu Yunwan trembled slightly, and looked up at him. He was so tall, his shoulders were so broad, like a mountain, he used to think that this room was quite big, but now it is suddenly so cramped that people can't help but shrink, and they want to hide, and they know that they can't hide, and they just think about what to say.

Huan Xuan was still looking at her. In this month, I always thought about it, worried that she would be found by Yuan Yuan, worried that she would not be used to the hardships in the mountains, and worried that she still had the idea of looking for a short time. I always think about it once or twice a day, and her appearance is very familiar in my mind, but when I see it now, I realize that it is not exactly the same as in my memory.

He lost a lot of weight, his eyes became bigger and bigger, and his chin became more and more pointed, like a fledgling that had lost shelter, trembling slightly in front of him. Involuntarily softened his voice: "It's okay, I'm back." ”

Fu Yunwan felt that his tone was a little like comforting a child, and suddenly remembered that this tone and speech were all Xie Zhan's habits, and the tears suddenly couldn't help it, and he turned his face away sharply.

Huan Xuan was in the twilight, and when he saw the light flashing in her eyes, he was crying. Why are you crying, it's been too hard these days, and you still think of Xie Zhan? There was something that had never been there before, and Huan Xuan couldn't think clearly, but he felt that the silence at this time was extremely strange, so he simply broke it: "I'll go see the Buddha." ”

Fu Yunwan hurriedly wiped away her tears: "Okay." ”

He stepped away, and she quickly realized that something was wrong, he had come all the way, how could he let him go alone? Hurriedly followed: "I'll take you there." ”

Huan Xuan stopped, making way for her to go first. It had snowed a few days ago, and it was cold in the mountains, and the snow had not melted, and it was spread out in a thin layer on the road, and she walked cautiously with her head down, and her wide hem dangled on her bast shoes, more and more like a fledgling, small, alone.

She is really sincere, the decay is all made of coarse linen, she can't bear the cold at all, and everyone else has to add some fur and silk wool in winter, but she doesn't add anything, just suffers like this. In front of her was the hall, and Huan Xuan hurriedly took two steps in front of her, blocking the cold wind coming through the hall.

Fu Yunwan raised his head and felt that he seemed to be familiar with the terrain here: "You, have you been here?" ”

"I've been here." He replied briefly.

Now he is leading the way in front, he no longer speaks, Fu Yunwan thought that he was really stupid when he asked just now, since he could arrange for her to come here, he must have been here before, and saw him looking into the distance with a heavy gaze, and the previous gentle look suddenly covered with a layer of coldness, which made her panic, I don't know if she said something wrong and made him unhappy.

The air was silent because of this, only the soles of the shoes stepped on the thin snow, making a small sound, the nunnery was not big, and soon they arrived at the Buddha Hall, Huan Xuan saluted the incense and turned around, and saw Fu Yunwan's frightened face.

The movement in his hand paused. He was born violently, and when he didn't speak, he was probably a little scary, which scared her, right? deliberately softened his tone: "Cold or not, do you want to put together a brazier?" ”

Fu Yunwan was stunned: "It's not cold." No. ”

How can it not be cold, the tips of the nose are red from the cold, the tips of the eyes are also, and the lips. Huan Xuan remembered the picture of the beauty he had seen somewhere, with white skin and red lips, rouge-like cheeks and eyes, he used to think that it was about the color of fat powder, but now that he saw her, he knew that some colors were all natural, and they didn't do anything with fat powder. Pick up the futon and set it for her: "Cushion, cold." ”

Fu Yunwan knelt down silently, and he caught a glimpse of the corners of his robe twitching, Huan Xuan knelt down at the other end, he turned his face, and exhaled a thin white vapor from his mouth as he spoke: "My mother is buried here." ”

Fu Yunwan reacted for a moment, only to realize that he should be explaining Fang Cai's sudden silence. He could see her uneasiness, he was very attentive, and he was completely different from his majestic appearance, which surprised and appreciated his thoughtfulness.

Huan Xuan looked out the door, the twilight had completely sunk, and the night in the mountains always came very quickly. I remember that after dealing with my mother's funeral a few years ago, the sky was also in the blink of an eye, and suddenly fell into the night. "She's always wanted to be a monk."

Fu Yunwan felt that he shouldn't ask, but he looked at her, as if waiting for her to ask, and she couldn't help but ask: "Why?" ”

He looked outside for a long time and didn't speak, and just when she thought he wouldn't answer, he opened his mouth: "It's too hard to live, the family doesn't recognize her, the people outside scold her, and you have to work hard to feed me, a bastard." ”

Fu Yunwan's heart jumped suddenly. Feeling stabbed by the word mongrel, it inspired a strong and sympathetic emotion: "It's not your fault." It's not our fault what our background is. ”

Huan Xuan turned his eyes to look at her, a little surprised, and vaguely felt that this was what she would say. He'd seen her sharp, and she wasn't the kind of person who was completely weak and submissive.

"It's not your mother's fault." Fu Yunwan lowered her head, her emotions suddenly became intense, and her voice trembled, "And my mother." ”

Huan Xuan saw her lowered eyelashes, what was she thinking, her mother? Her mother must have loved her very much and tried very hard to protect her, in this troubled world, it is not easy to have such a pair of clean and soft eyes. "What is written in your mother's manuscript?"

"Everywhere she's been, who's been there." Fu Yunwan looked up at him, a little surprised that he would ask about this.

However, in my heart, it seems that a gap has suddenly opened. Except for Xie Zhan, no one has ever talked to her about the things her mother wrote, the words she hid in her heart, and her unique memories. "Almost all women. My mother used to follow my eldest father to compile history when she was at home, and she said that all the people who wrote history were men, and no one had ever written about the women in the troubled times, and she wanted to write. ”

Huan Xuan's eyes flashed in front of him for a moment, the faces of many women, frightened, sad, and numb, and when he wanted to think about it, he couldn't think it clearly. It's the woman he's seen in all these years. People in troubled times are miserable, and women are especially miserable, his mother, her mother, those women who have been kidnapped, bullied and insulted, and even women who have been eaten as food. "It's remarkable."

Choked in his throat, Fu Yunwan nodded vigorously: "Yes." ”

"You can also write." Huan Xuan looked at the dusty Buddha hall. She should spend her days here, the coffin was rubbing with a warm glow. But people can't always indulge in the past all their lives, if she has other sustenance, she should be able to live a better life.

"I, I can't do it," Fu Yunwan was ashamed, "I don't have enough knowledge to write well." ”

"Try it." He said.

She tried, but she couldn't write as clean and beautiful words as her mother, and besides, her mother had traveled so many places and seen so many people and things, but her world was just a mansion of the Fu family. Fu Yunwan lowered her head, remembering that Xie Zhan also encouraged her to try, after her mother died, he had been teaching her to read, and said that he would take her out to travel in the future, and he had seen and heard widely, but now, everything has come to naught.

Huan Xuan was waiting for her to answer, but she never answered, and her eyes gradually became wet again. It's obviously good. Her mind is really hard to guess, if only Xie Zhan was still here, Xie Zhan must know why. But if Xie Zhan was still there, she shouldn't be so sad.

For a while, Huan Xuan got up and went out, the mountains were vast at night, and the farthest was Kun Yu Peak, the fake tomb he chose for Xie Zhan: "There is Kun Yu Peak." ”

"Where?" Fu Yunwan's whole mind was attracted at once, and he couldn't help but get up. Knowing that the burial was fake, Xie Zhan's bones would be quietly sent back to Jiangdong, but at the moment, he was still worried and looked in the direction he was pointing.

"There." Huan Xuan looked back at her, she walked quickly to the door, holding on to the door frame and looking at her. It was too dark at night to see clearly, and besides, he was so much taller than her, what he could see, she might not be able to see. Turning back and taking a few steps closer to her, he leaned down and lowered his head, simulating her gaze, "Over there, the highest mountain." ”

The tip of the nose smelled the distant aroma of sandalwood, and there was a trace of unfamiliar and soft aroma, and the wisps were sent over. Huan Xuan lowered her eyes, she was eager, and leaned forward again. The threshold is not very high, she is inside, he is outside, and a few strands of long hair are scattered from her sideburns at some point, touching the emanation of his sideburns, sticking and hooking. Huan Xuan took a few steps back abruptly.

For a moment, he was impetuous, and he couldn't tell what the reason was, but when he saw her look up ignorantly, he asked him, "What's wrong?" ”

"Nothing." Huan declared his mind.

Maybe it's because I haven't seen her for too long, so I'm not used to it. And it was indeed very late, and the cold soaked up, and her lips began to turn white: "It's not early, I'll send you back." ”

Fu Yunwan hadn't found any one that was Kunyufeng, and wanted to ask again, but he had come all the way back, he must have been very tired, and she couldn't just take care of herself. In the end, he nodded: "Okay." ”

He led the way in front with a lantern, Fu Yunwan followed behind, he walked a little fast, she had to follow hard to keep up, he didn't speak for a long time, she didn't dare to say, the night was very quiet, only the soles of his shoes stepped on the snow, and the sound of the cycle repeatedly.

Not far away is a whitewashed wall in the backyard, arrived. Huan Xuan hurriedly stopped, and the people behind him hurriedly stopped, and for a moment the distance was very close, and he smelled the faint, strange and soft fragrance again.

Her aroma.

The mood is fluttering for a moment, and then relaxed. There is no weird feeling that makes Fang Cai uneasy, just now he really hasn't seen her for too long, and he is not used to it.

Turning around and handing her the lantern, "Go back." I'm leaving. ”

The handle still had the temperature of his palm, and he walked fast, Fu Yun didn't have time to say goodbye late, and watched him walk through the courtyard to the hall, and suddenly turned around.

Fu Yunwan subconsciously chased out a step: "General." ”

"You still live here these days, close to Kunyu Peak, and I will send you back to the city after the Buddha is buried." Huan Xuan stood in the shadow of the hall, looking at her haloed face under the candlelight, and once again confirmed that Fang Cai's strange feeling was just accidental, "I live at the bottom of the mountain, and I have something to ask Duan Xiang to call me." ”

The night wind squeezed the snow between the branches, and swished into his clothes, he waved his hand and turned to leave, Fu Yunwan tightened his neckline, and suddenly remembered that there was no house under the mountain on the way up, where did he live? "General!"

He walked away, probably not heard, so he didn't look back. Fu Yunwan looked at it abruptly, there was no house under the mountain, it was cold and snowy, how could he live?

"The general has set up a tent at the foot of the mountain," Duan Xiang on the side explained, "The general said that he came here, and the whereabouts of the lady could not be hidden, so he has been guarding the bottom of the mountain for the past few days, so as to take care of the lady." ”

Fu Yunwan was stunned, he couldn't see Huan Xuan's figure anymore, he rushed back all the way, he should have gone back to the city to rest, but because of her, he had to stay in the wilderness. She owes him so much, how can she pay it back?

Huan Xuan walked quickly down the mountain, and saw the empty white shadow on the side of the road, which was the Tallinn of the nunnery.

Mother's bones are buried here, facing the Buddha hall, and the sound of confession will always come in the morning and evening, and I don't know if she is satisfied under the nine springs.

He doesn't remember much about his mother. Maybe it's because he was too young when his mother died, or maybe it's because those memories are not pleasant.

Mother would beat him and scold him, and when she hated it, the broom had been interrupted a few times, she hated Mu Wan, hated the Huan family, hated those southerners who embarrassed her everywhere, and hated him. But she kept him all the time, and would rather starve herself to death than save food rations for him.

People are really weird. Huan Xuan thought of Fu Yunwan, her mother seemed to love her purely, and her eyes knew at a glance that they were only those who had been cared for wholeheartedly. But in such troubled times, such a clean and fragile person is too easy to be destroyed.

Subconsciously looking back at the mountain, there was a flash of thought, I couldn't grasp it for a while, and I saw several lights in the nunnery going on, and I didn't know which one was her light.

This kind of feeling of worrying about his stomach has never been felt in his life.