On the morning of the third day of the first lunar month, Gu Xuansu moved from his home to Mochou Lake to say goodbye.

Gu Xiu sent him off one way and dissuaded him again and again: "It's only the third day of the first month, and the New Year has not yet come out, so the eldest father can stay for a few more days, so that the grandchildren can do their filial piety." ”

Gu Xuansu looked at him: "If I don't take her away, do you still want to hide her as a stain, and you can't even see your own sisters?" ”

Gu Xiuzhi paused: "The Gu family's hundred-year-old clan, reputation is more important than life, even if the eldest father punishes him, his grandson has to do it." ”

Gu Xiuzhi looked out the window for a long time: "I'll take her away, I just hope that after a hundred years, you can take good care of her for the sake of being a fellow mother with her mother." ”

"Grandson doesn't dare!" Gu Xiuzhi was so anxious that he knelt down and kowtowed in the car, and apologized repeatedly, "It's all the grandson's unfilial piety, which makes the eldest father feel this way, and the grandson can only apologize with death!" ”

"I know you've got your problems." Gu Xuansu helped him up, "I will shelter her for one day, as for the future." ”

He was silent and didn't speak again, Gu Xiuzhi didn't know what to say, he heard the bell on Lao Niu's neck ringing one after another, and not far away was the misty water surface of Mochou Lake.

Fu Yunwan and Mrs. Tao sat in the back car, and the movement in front could not be heard. Mrs. Tao was afraid that she would be cold, so she packed a whole box of clothes for her to carry, and instructed her: "I came in a hurry, I didn't have time to make you new clothes, these are your sisters' clothes, they are all newly made and have never been put on the body, don't dislike it, just wear it." ”

She held her hand tightly, her hand was warm and soft, which made Fu Yunwan think of her mother, and her heart was ironed: "It's too late for me to be grateful, I just left in a hurry, and I didn't have the opportunity to thank my sisters in person." ”

Seeing the panic flashing in Mrs. Tao's eyes, she diverted the topic: "Your maternal great-grandfather lived a simple life, and he didn't care about food and clothing. ”

"Thank you, aunt." Fu Yun snuggled up to her in the evening, the mystery in his heart was getting bigger and bigger, and he couldn't help but test again, "When I go home next time, I will definitely thank my sisters for the gift of clothes in person." ”

"A few clothes are nothing, not used." Mrs. Tao turned her gaze away, "I've only been at home for a few days before leaving, and I'm really reluctant." ”

At this time, the mystery was solved, and Fu Yunwan was roughly sure that her uncle and aunt did not want her to meet with the sisters in the family.

Is it because of her life experience, or because of the incident with Huan Xuan? Fu Yunwan lowered his head, and remembered Gu Xuansu's words on the day of the Yuan Day, the Gu family has been saying to the outside world for so many years that your mother died of chastity.

That day, he also said a lot of customs and taboos in the Jiangdong family, maybe because of the difference between men and women, maybe because for her young great-granddaughter, there were many things that she couldn't bear to say too directly, but in the past few days, she turned over and over again, and roughly guessed the other half of Gu Xuansu's unspoken words.

The southerners attach great importance to women's chastity, and their mother was kidnapped back then, and they probably thought that it was necessary to keep her chastity to the death in order not to disgrace the family, but the mother gave birth to her without seeking death, and in their opinion, this kind of thing was to disgrace the family.

So the ones that my mother sent back were all sunk in the sea, so the Gu family kept saying to the outside that my mother had died of chastity.

But now, she's back. is a living person, a stain is placed here, how can it be hidden from outsiders? Because of her appearance, home

Everyone is afraid that they will be criticized, and the first ones to bear the brunt are her sisters.

Not only is the reputation of the girlfriend, but even the marriage will probably be blocked. So these days, my uncle and aunt never let her see anyone, except for the close branch of the family, and refused to let her come into contact with those sisters, they were trying to control the things she brought.

With a sour heart, Mrs. Tao on the side whispered to the precautions after the past, and this concern was clearly not false.

I also remembered that Gu Xuansu personally went to pick her up on Chinese New Year's Eve, and took her on a trip on Yuan Ri, he was everyone in the world, almost everyone in the city knew about it, and he took her away this experience, clearly to tell the world that he recognized this great-granddaughter. Fu Yunwan slightly realized the contradiction and helplessness, and heard Mrs. Tao ask her in a low voice: "Suisui, I heard that you and Xie Zhan were engaged in the north, what do you say now?" ”

Fu Yunwan's heart jumped, those questions that he deliberately delayed and didn't dare to think about suddenly appeared in front of him, and he didn't know what to do, so he said after a while: "He is very sick, I came back this time to find a doctor and cure his illness." ”

Xie Zhan's serious illness was because he was afraid of affecting the morale of the army, and he only said that it was a cold before, but Mrs. Tao was suddenly a little surprised when she heard it, and asked, "What is the disease?" ”

Fu Yunwan didn't know if he could say it, and said vaguely: "He didn't say it in detail." ”

"I'll ask your uncle if he knows a good doctor, and you can ask your great-grandfather," Mrs. Tao thought with concern, "I remember in a trance that he had an old friend who was very skilled in medicine, but I hadn't heard him mention it for many years, and I didn't know if that person was alive." ”

Saying that, Fu Yunwan's heart once again ignited hope. This time I came back because of Xie Zhan's illness, and it was said that there were only ten years left, but if there was a clever doctor who could cure him...... Encouraged and confused, if she can be cured, then, what should she do?

For a while, a thousand thoughts came together, and I didn't know what to do, the car slowed down a little bit, and Mochou Lake was here.

"Niece," Lady Tao held her hand tightly, "take good care of yourself, and tell your aunt if you have anything." ”

Fu Yunwan, "Thank you, aunt." ”

It was almost noon when everything was placed, and Gu Xuansu personally led the way and led her to look around.

In addition to the residence, there is also a garden on the side of the lake, which is where Gu Xuansu often goes to stroll with his friends on weekdays. The residence is separated from the inside and outside, the inner courtyard is where Gu Xuansu lives, and the outer courtyard is where the disciples who practice history together and serve him on weekdays live, and now that she is here, Gu Xuansu will clean up a cross-courtyard next to her courtyard, and Mrs. Tao left two maids and a mother-in-law, who are cleaning up and placing items neatly.

"Let's go, follow me to the study." Gu Xuansu led her to the study in the inner courtyard.

The huge house, full of books, the bookcase is more than a zhang long, facing the big window, the light is bright, Gu Xuansu pointed to the stacked books on the case: "This is the final draft of the first volume of the Southern History." ”

He also pointed to the shelf: "These are manuscripts left over from several compilations. ”

Fu Yunwan looked closer, these waste drafts were more than ten times more than ten times the final draft, revised, added and deleted over and over again, densely written with words, which made people feel respectful.

Gu Xuansu pointed to another stack of papers on the bookcase: "This is the second volume being compiled. ”

In the room full of ink-scented books, Fu Yunwan looked greedily and touched it. When I was a child, my mother said that in my mother's three or four

When she was a year old, her great-grandfather had already begun to compile the history of the South, and now she is almost sixteen years old, and she has only compiled one volume.

"This is the residence of the disciples, and over there is the library." Gu Xuansu led her out of the inner courtyard and pointed to the houses on the east side of the outer courtyard.

Fu Yunwan followed him into the library, and his eyes were densely packed with bookshelves, with labels on the shelves and serial numbers, densely placed with all kinds of books and loose pages of paper, and various labels indicating the type and serial number, and the highest part of the bookshelf was two people high, thinking that it was for easy access, and there were several ladders on the side.

Gu Xuansu introduced her one by one: "This room is filled with local chronicles. ”

"This room is a collection of information from the palace and the prefectures."

"This house is a collection of information from the people."

"This room is a chronology of the events of my dynasty to the present."

With so many books, it is dizzying, and my heart is full of admiration and shock. Gu Xuansu took down a stack of volumes: "In addition to compilation, the most trivial thing is the selection of historical materials. Thousands of materials have been collected, and it is necessary to distinguish the authenticity one by one, select and classify, and then select the ones that can be entered into history, this matter is now done by my disciples, they came over on the eighth day of the first month, and then you can follow them to learn and see, and accumulate some experience. As for how to choose, Suisui, you see. ”

Fu Yunwan hurriedly approached, and saw Gu Xuansu open one of the volumes, pointed to one of them and said: "This copy is the holy decree of the New Year's amnesty, although it is tight, but the emperor has issued hundreds of holy decrees in a year, and the New Year's amnesty is a custom, so it has no value in history and must be discarded." But this one. ”

He took off the hem and flipped it over the outermost scroll: "This is this Huaisi victory."

The amnesty decree issued by His Majesty is not customary, and the Northern Expedition is the first major event in recent years, so this article can be entered into history. However, the amnesty decree is only one of the measures to celebrate after the Northern Expedition, and it is not an important matter in the Northern Expedition, so there is no need to write in detail, just mention it slightly. ”

His kind Nanyin said unhurriedly with a soothing tone, Fu Yunwan was fascinated by it, and felt that he understood a little, but many of them were still vague, and couldn't help but ask: "Great Ancestor, can I take a look here first?" ”

Comparing the final draft with the discarded manuscript, there should be a lot of experience.

"Look." Gu Xuansu had a smile in his eyes, "Look and think more, and you will have a count when you write it yourself in the future." ”

On this day, Fu Yunwan stayed in the study until late at night, and when he returned to the room to rest, his mind was full of words, holy decrees, chronology, Fang Zhi, countless shining names in the court, and countless major events related to the world, and those ordinary women suddenly appeared.

Wu E, He Ying, the fourth aunt, and the nameless woman who was sold as a vegetable outside the inn. Great-ancestor said that only those who have historical value can be left, these people are nameless, born silently, and died silently, these people, if viewed from the perspective of historians, do they have the value of survival?

But what my mother wrote was also these ordinary women, and she also had a fire in her heart, wanting to write down these ordinary women, they should not be forgotten.

But are these contradictory to what the great-grandfather said?

With doubts in his heart, he never fell asleep all night, and when the morning dawned, he hurriedly freshened up and asked Gu Xuansu for advice, and as soon as he arrived at the gate of the main courtyard, he heard the sound of talking inside, as if there were many people, Fu Yunwan didn't dare to go in, and hid by the door to see, the courtyard was all over

It was a man wearing a Confucian scarf, ranging from forty or fifty years old to a teenager, who was saluting Gu Xuansu wave after wave, and it turned out that those disciples had heard that Gu Xuansu had returned to other industries, and they were all rushing back.

Fu Yunwan didn't dare to disturb, and when she wanted to avoid it, Gu Xuansu had already seen her, and called her with a smile: "Come in." ”

Fu Yunwan hesitated for a moment, lowered his head and walked in. No one looked at her, the Confucian scholars valued etiquette, and they always did not squint at the ladies of other families, but she could still feel the scrutiny and scrutiny that were almost invisible, which made people's hearts suddenly tighten. Walking steadily to Gu Xuansu's side: "Great ancestor." ”

"This is my great-granddaughter." Gu Xuansu slowly looked around, "In the future, she will follow me to edit, she is just getting started, and there are still many things she doesn't understand, if you have spare energy, you can also point her out." ”

The neat answer in front of the hall, all the disciples agreed together, Fu Yunwan breathed a sigh of relief, and bowed, and when he looked up, he saw a man in his early twenties in the back row frowning, staring at her sharply, and quickly turned away.

"You go to the inner study to read first," Gu Xuansu instructed, "I'll talk to you when I'm done arranging this here." ”

Fu Yunwan withdrew, walked a few steps, only to feel that the invisible gaze was like a knife, still staring behind him, and couldn't help but look back with a slight sideways face, the man was staring at her, and when his eyes touched, he immediately turned away again.

Who is it? is so young, she shouldn't be a disciple, she is a disciple, why do you look at her like this?

On this day, Gu Xuansu was busy dealing with the previous affairs, and he never had time to see her, so Fu Yunwan compared the first volume of the finalized Southern History with those waste manuscripts in the inner study, studied and figured it out repeatedly, and when he was in a trance, the boy outside came to report: "Little lady, Xie Langjun asks to see." ”

Xie Zhan is here. When Fu Yunwan hurriedly went out, Xie Zhan was alone and walked from the front of the hall.

I haven't seen him for two days, and his description seems to have cleared up a little, and his brows are pressed, even when he walks, he seems to have something on his mind. Fu Yunwan suddenly forgot about other things, and hurriedly greeted him: "My great-ancestor seems to have an old friend with excellent medical skills, can you talk about your condition now?" If I can, I'll ask my great-grandfather later. ”

Xie Zhan looked down at her, her eyes reflected his appearance, it was such pure concern. My heart was ironed to the extreme. Although these days are resting, but just after the war, peace talks have been completed, thousands of things are waiting to be dealt with, he has not rested for a day, every day in the palace to discuss matters, but at this time is not compared to the wartime, wartime Jingyuanhe gave him great autonomy, the leading Zhenzuo general Liu Dun and the overseer Zhang Kang are all loyal and humble people, everyone works together, all just to subdue the lost land, save the people, although it is difficult to fight, but because of a passion, it is the most difficult time to feel happy.

But now that he is back in the court, there are no external worries, and the inner filth is exposed. Each has its own plans, each for its own interests, and what to do next, it has been discussed day after day, and it has never been decided.

He and Liu Dun and Zhang Kangli advocated recuperation, and slowly figured it out, Jing Jia and his faction advocated tearing up the peace treaty, taking advantage of the victory to pursue, and charging additional taxes for military expenses.

However, when I saw her, I could put it aside for a while. Such a safe place independent of the world can only be given to him. Xie Zhan looked down at her, and his voice was unconsciously warm to the extreme: "Suisui, are you okay these days?" ”

"I'm fine," Fu Yunwan had something in his heart and was anxious, "Can you talk about your illness?" ”

made Xie Zhan suddenly feel different. In the past, she was gentle and gentle, and rarely had such eagerness, but now she frowned slightly, and leaned forward, as if as soon as he answered, she immediately went away to do something. made him suddenly think of Huan Xuan, he is this kind of urgent person who has something to do in a moment.

There was a hint of amazement in the joy, and Xie Zhan said: "It can be said that the war is over, and there is no need to hide it." Suisui, I'll go with you to see the old man. ”

"Okay." Fu Yunwan breathed a sigh of relief and led him to the outer courtyard, "My great-ancestor's disciples have all returned, and he is in front at this time. ”

Xie Zhan followed behind her, feeling that she was extremely eager at this time, eager to heal him? Or is she anxious to heal him so that she doesn't have to be trapped for this matter anymore, and she doesn't have to stay in Koto anymore?

My heart turned back and forth, looking at her familiar figure, but I felt like I was through a layer of fog, hazy and couldn't see clearly.

If he had had this kind of doubt, he would have asked her, but now he doesn't know how to ask. It's like a broken cup and plate, which seems to be intact, and on closer inspection, you can always find traces of repair in hidden places.

With an empty heart, Xie Zhan followed her to the outer courtyard, Gu Xuansu was not in the study, so he went to the library to find it, the door of the Mingzhao Hall where the disciples usually cultivated books was hidden, and the words inside came clearly into the ears.

Fu Yunwan heard his name:

"I saw it on the first day, and the ancestor took the Fu girl to play outside."

"I heard that her biological father is a vulgar northerner, how can such a person follow the master to practice?"

"The Gu family has been famous for hundreds of years, how can they take in such a woman who confuses their bloodline?"

Fu Yunwan stood still. In addition to the heat on his face, in addition to the shame, there is a kind of injustice surging, more than ever.

I suddenly remembered that night in the nunnery a few months ago, she said to Huan under the lamp, this is not your fault, what your background is, it is not our fault.

Yes, it was never their fault what their origin was. How many people like her in this world should bear shame for the rest of their lives, be looked down upon for the rest of their lives, and can only hide in dark corners just because they are bullied and given birth to children?

"Suisui," hearing Xie Zhan call her in a low voice, Fu Yunwan raised his eyes, and a pair of eyes on his pale face were amazingly bright, "It's not your fault." ”

Fu Yunwan looked at Huan Xuan that night from his eyes. Under the lamp of the nunnery, they talked about each other's mothers, about their lives, and that was how he looked at her. He didn't speak at the time, but she understood that he was thinking the same thing as she was.

Birth is not a mistake, and it is not even a mistake to lose one's chastity and dignity in this troubled world, and to live desperately. Fu Yunwan let out a deep breath: "I know." ”

Turning to leave: "Maybe the great-grandfather is somewhere else, let's look for it again." ”

In the half-hidden hall, another voice came:

"What surprised me the most was her mother, the women of the Gu family were all knowledgeable and knowledgeable, and when Mr. Gu's daughter was seriously ill, she would rather die than see a male doctor, how could there be someone like Fu's mother? Not only did the kidnappers refuse to keep the festival of chastity and death, but they gave birth to the northerners, which is simply a shame! ”

There was a buzz in his head, and before he could react, Fu Yunwan had already pushed open the door and walked in.!