During the eight months between my mother's pregnancy and my birth; It seems to be dramatic, with ups and downs. It's like staying up in the hospital for a long night, and finally being able to wait for that long-lost ray of sunshine.

Early in the summer morning; It was early in the morning, and the street scene outside the hospital was gradually becoming clearer. The aunt watched the sleeping child in her hand and could wake up hungry anytime and anywhere; After saying goodbye to my mother and father, he picked me up and returned home from the mountain road. The mother in the hospital bed is not idle at the moment; Despite the night's torture, his face turned slightly pale, his whole body was weak, and he even had difficulty standing up; It was still with the support of his father that he could barely get up. But she had to go to the family planning office to give an explanation to the people in the group, so that other relatives would not be implicated. Seeing this, both her father and the doctor advised her to rest a little longer; But my mother just wanted to be able to get things done a moment sooner. After the payment is made in the hospital lobby; He and his father left in a hurry from the gate of the hospital, and his father wanted to step forward to help his mother; But he was pushed by his mother and refused. She just wants to show the people in the group and prove that she is not unusual; I have to say that my mother is really a strong person, and she can't even stand on her feet when she is in the hospital; Now I can walk alone as usual. If it weren't for the slightly pale complexion, it would be a little unnatural, and it really wouldn't look like a pregnant woman who had given birth. The hospital is not far from the family planning office; It's about a 10-minute walk away. Although the distance is not far, I am worried about my mother's health; My father followed my mother quietly. "When you get to the family planning office soon, you should go back to the store first, for fear that someone will make them suspicious when they see the two of us coming to the family planning office together." The mother did not look back, and her voice seemed weak. "That's not going to work, I don't even know if you're dumping it there." Hearing what his mother said, his father immediately retorted uneasily. "Don't worry, I'm not so easy to fall; You wait for more trouble like this, I'll go back to the eldest sister after I finish the matter, you go and get busy first! Looking at his mother's gradual and energetic steps, my father did not understand that she was really better; still deliberately pretended to reassure him, but he knew that he couldn't beat his mother every time; In the end, there can only be compromise. Arrive at an intersection where two people are separated in opposite directions; The father looked at the back of the fading away; After finally disappearing completely, there are still no problems; I was entangled but helpless, and I slowly rushed to the store in three steps.

At the door of the family planning office, my mother first wiped the sweat on her face; tidied up the crumpled lines of the jacket; After a brief inspection to make sure that there was no serious problem, he walked straight to the door of the hall. Maybe it's because of the early arrival; There wasn't a single figure in the hall. Mother didn't wait long, and went straight to the second floor by the stairs on the right side of the hall. Because it is the town's family planning office, it can directly manage the family planning situation of each village; It was also here that some of the village groups were notified of their actions, and they were finally brought here first. Up to the second floor, there is also a long corridor to the right of the staircase; The hallway is lined with staggered rooms. The door is nailed with the name of the work of each room; Walk straight inside and find a room with the words "Family Planning Population Screening Team" written on the door. Out of politeness, the mother knocked on the door first, but there was no response at first; It wasn't until my mother knocked on the door several times that there was no movement. "Enter!" After hearing the response inside; The mother pushed the door open. There was only a slightly emaciated young man in the office; Seeing someone coming in, he hurriedly straightened his messy hairstyle, rubbed his face with both hands to wake up; Apparently just woke up from sleep. Because of that time, it can be said that family planning was the strictest period; And it just so happened that there were not a few people who stole life at that time, so in order to deal with emergencies; will leave one person on the night shift. The man looked at his mother in front of him, cleared his throat slightly, and said, "What's the matter?" "I'm Dong Jiao, didn't you ask me to come to the Family Planning Office for a pregnancy test a few days ago? I'm doing it now, and if I don't check it out, don't mess with me and my relatives again. "Looking at the mother whose face is so difficult to see that she is about to collapse, as a professional who eats this bowl of rice, she can hide about seven or eight at a glance; Either forced delivery or artificial defeat. However, according to the team leader, even if he is born now, it is estimated that it will be difficult to live. "Dongjiao! It's the team leader who took us everywhere to find someone who didn't find it, you're really good at hiding. Alright, alright! What else is there to do with you like this, I really don't think I know anything? You go back to rest first, and when you come to your senses, you can talk! Indeed, no matter how deliberately my mother tried to hide it, her face could not be hidden. Since men are not dwelling on the matter of pregnancy tests; Only then did the mother slowly relax, and after making sure that her relatives would not be implicated, she briefly said goodbye and left the family planning office; My mother also secretly said in her heart: "I don't want to come here because of myself in this life." ”

On the other side, the aunt held the child and chose to return by mountain road in order to avoid suspicion; But seeing that he was about to get home, the child in his arms let out a cry of "hey~" again. She reached out and touched the child's buttocks, and found that there was no wet feeling, so she knew that she must be crying and hungry again, in order to find food for the child as soon as possible; The aunt quickened her pace. Although the mountain road is bumpy, the walking speed of the aunt who has been crawling on the mountain since childhood is not much slower than on the road. In a relatively long rush; The aunt returned to her own mountain, but she was not in a hurry to go back; Instead, he hurriedly carried the child to another family's house at the bottom of the mountain. The house of this family also looked wider than the surrounding families, and the house was divided into two floors, and only his family had painted white paint on the loess wall; Compared to other houses, it is also quite magnificent. I don't know what the male owner of this family is? It didn't matter if I asked my mother; I only know that the man's wife Jianying at that time had just given birth to a yellow flower girl and was confinement at home to recuperate. This is also what my aunt told me later when she chatted at a dinner table, and my aunt hurriedly walked in and called in a low and hurried voice: "Jianying! Jianying! Po at home; I'm sorry for you to help. "Hear the call; There was a response in the room. After a while, I saw a woman as thin as her aunt come out, wearing an apron and her long, slightly dry hair tied back in a tight ponytail; There are some irregular wrinkles on the dark face. Looking at He Jiao's hurried movements, he wondered: "Aunt He Jiao, what's the matter?" Jianying is sleeping with the child inside. "Akika! You take me to Jianying first, I want her to help. Listening to the aunt's eager tone, Qiu Xiang didn't ask the reason, and walked straight to Jianying's room with the aunt. The person who watched the mother-in-law bring in was an aunt; Jianying also looked dazed; But he immediately smiled politely and said: "He Jiao's milk (the fourth tone, the name of grandma)!" Come sit down and have a bowl of tea. "Don't eat the tea first, I'm sorry you can do me a favor." With the faint cry of the child in her hand, the aunt briefly stated the whole thing. Only then did the two of them realize why the aunt came in such a hurry, listening to the child crying all the way while hungry; Jianying didn't say a word, but the child unbuttoned his shirt and breastfed the child. The aunt looked at the child's sucking mouth, and the tight strings in her heart finally let go. "Two catties and three taels, it takes a lot of energy to raise such a small one!" Jianying, who was breastfeeding, looked at the little dot in his hand and couldn't help but say with pity. "Yes, it's a pity to throw it away; Let's just bring it back and take a look at it first. "After a full meal, the baby boy went to sleep contentedly; Jianying buttoned up her shirt and gently handed the child to her aunt. "I'm tired of you this time, so I'll go up first; Jianying Qiuju, if you have time, go to my place to play! "Why are you going back so soon, just sit and rest, have a bite to eat, and go." "No, Dong Jiao is almost home; I'll go back first, lest she can't see Maomaotou and be in a hurry. "After some politeness; The aunt said goodbye and rushed home.

Sure enough, it didn't happen to my aunt; The mother really went home first, sat alone by the door, with an extremely ugly face, and refused to rest. "What are you doing here? I didn't sleep much last night, and your body can afford it? "Looking at the aunt who was holding the child and wanted to come and complain by herself; The mother's tightly knit brows finally relaxed, and she replied with a little difficulty: "I'm fine, I'll wait for you to come back and go to sleep; Sister, didn't you come back before me? Why did I kick home after that? "Looking at the persistent sister in front of me; The aunt didn't know whether it was distressed or funny, and handed the child to the mother; While telling her why; She knew that no mother wanted to hold this child more than that. After hearing that the child has a full meal; The mother didn't care about it, she didn't care about starving for so long, and she went into the room with the child in her arms and fell asleep. The mother said it was the deepest she had slept since she was pregnant; Snoring.

In our village, we like to call the younger children Xiao Mao Maotou; Ever since Dr. Yao saw me say it once, and even since people who have seen me later, they will call me Xiao Mao Maotou; Over time, my mother made this a shorter name for me: Maotou. At first, I didn't like this nickname, but as I grew older, I always felt an inexplicable sense of familiarity when someone called my nickname; Even when a friend teases me by a nickname, I don't recommend it at all.

In fact, when I was a child, my health was not very good, and even the convulsions that most babies often have, and I couldn't stand the toss on my small bones. Whenever I got sick, my mother would always take me to a local Chinese medicine pharmacy called Feng Qi Ma, a female Chinese medicine doctor, and use a needle to pick out the blood in the blood vessels. As for the female medicine doctor who saved my life several times, I don't remember my mother's surname, only that her name is Youfu. There was also an interesting conversation about this incident; It was also my experience of not dying again.

My mother said I was born a few days later; After a while, lactation promotion has gradually taken effect; Sitting in my room breastfeeding. Suddenly, I heard the black dog barking at the stone steps under the entrance of the drying field; The aunt, who was sitting outside the door and washing clothes by the wooden basin, stood up with some curiosity and looked at her, and then said with a happy face: "Yo! It's still Songliang; I said who it was! 今朝 (zhao; Hakka: Today) I have time to take a look at Dongjiao and Maotou. The hot head is sunburned; Hurry up and have a bowl of tea. "Although my father wore a straw hat and went out; But the scorching sun still made my father sweat hot. lifted the hem of his shirt and wiped the beads of sweat that blocked his vision; My father also smiled and said, "Yes, let's come to see my sister and brother-in-law!" "The mother who heard the movement in the room had just finished breastfeeding; I also slept contentedly after a full meal. After settling me, my mother got up and walked to my father outside the door; "Why do you have time to come up today, the store is not busy?" "It's not too busy; Let's take a look at everyone. "Maotou, I just fell asleep after feeding; Don't bother him now. The tone of their conversation was flat; There is no feeling of being a newlywed. The aunt poured a full bowl of water from the teapot and handed it to her father; Two stools were brought from the side of the door, motioning for them to sit down. After my father made a bowl of tea; With a long sigh, he said, "I have one more important thing to say today; This morning, my aunt's daughter is Xiao Fang, who is the director of the family planning office in the town; Call someone to tell me. said that they all knew about Maotou's birth, and someone went to the village to report that you were taking a child here; Tomorrow, the village will send someone to find Maotou and take it away with potion to kill him, let us hide it quickly. "I listened to my father; Her mother's natural brows slowly tightened, which made her nervous and confused. "Xiaofang? Didn't she want to arrest us before? Why are you so kind to help us now? "I don't know; Maybe my aunt explained to her? In fact, this question is still difficult to understand when I ask my mother; But it's still a crucial one. After a little silence; Looking up at the sky and thinking, the mother said, "Now you have someone to find Mao Ni; Let him report Fengfeng in the afternoon, aren't they going to come to Maotou tomorrow? We say that children are born too early and do not live, and the children in their hands are children brought by others. ”

Feng Feng is my cousin, who was born a few months before me; It just so happens that I haven't been weaned yet. His mother thought of bringing him to the rescue; After listening to his mother's statement, my father also felt that there was no better way at the moment; As my mother said, I went down the mountain and asked someone to invite Sibo and Fengfeng up. When the fourth uncle came up with the child to learn what happened, he also said very bluntly: "It's no problem!" As long as it can help! "To beware that they might make a surprise move in the middle of the night; simply arranged for the fourth uncle and Fengfeng to live at the aunt's house.

Early the next morning; Genius is bright, in order not to cause anything unusual. The fourth uncle still went down the mountain early according to yesterday's arrangement and went to the village to find someone to play cards; Just like he usually did when he was fine. lest the people in the group come up the mountain to see Si Bo, it will be difficult to explain. Although the sun in the morning is not so strong; But it's also very scorching. Just in case, my mother fed me milk early; The surroundings are as calm and natural as ever. It didn't take long for the dogs of several families down the hill to bark incessantly, breaking the quiet environment. The big black sound of the aunt's house also barked, and at that time, there were actually few families at the foot of the mountain where the aunt lived, and they all looked down and didn't look up from house to house; After a long time, even dogs remember the faces of the people around them, and if they are not particularly unfamiliar faces, they will not bark incessantly. The mother suddenly became alert, and hurriedly beckoned the father, and said quickly: "You hurry up and take your hair to Jinfeng's grandmother to hide; Be quick, come back before they come up, and don't let them see it. "After listening to my mother's words, my father also felt that time was pressing, and walked quickly into the room, picked me up, and ran up the mountain; Jin Feng's grandmother is Jianying's grandmother; It's not far from my aunt's house, but the location is relatively remote, and most people don't go there. The father ran non-stop all the way, and soon arrived at Jinfeng's grandmother's house. looked at the dazed Jinfeng milk; My father didn't have time to explain much, but simply stated it; I asked Grandma Jin Feng to hide me, and don't say anything about anyone. Then he hurried back.

As my mother expected; It was the people from the family planning office in the village who came, and it seems that what the messenger said was true; Thanks to my father's quick pace, he was able to get back home before they came. Seeing this, the mother looked at them with a look of grief. This time, it was not Sha Ash who was in the lead, but another inch-headed man with a slightly thin body and a hunchback. When he came up, he walked up to his mother like a ruffian and first looked at the child in his mother's arms, but he saw that the child's figure did not look like the premature baby mentioned in the group; He pretended to be okay and looked elsewhere. "What else are you doing here? My kids are gone, what else are you looking for? Mother said in a tone of great sorrow. Gone? A few days ago, someone reported that you were hiding here with children; It's gone today? The inch-headed man asked in surprise. Can't I help bring other people's children? You're going to catch it too, right? The mother changed her tone and said strongly. Okay~ I won't fight with you, if you don't hand it over, I'll bring someone to find it yourself; If you find that person, you will really be gone, and you will have to pay a fine. "Mother didn't pay attention to them, and they couldn't see me even if they looked around the place. The inch-headed man beckoned back; The four or five people who accompanied him went in and searched around; I made every place where I could hide people, but I didn't find any traces. "Yay~" The inch-headed man sighed and thought, "What the hell? Yesterday I said that I was here with children; How could I not find it? Or is it really gone? Impossible! "After a round of rummaging, I saw that there was still no result; The inch-headed man motioned to the younger brother who was accompanying him to stop, put his upper body in front of his mother, and said with a slight threat: "I know that you are hiding somewhere else, you don't hand it over; We'll wait here to see if your kid is hungry or if we're hungry. "Looking at the inch-headed man who is lying on the wooden chair and not leaving; My mother also knew that the worst in her heart had happened. Because of this turn of events; But the closest I've ever faced death.

I thought they were just pretending; After a while, you'll give up. Who knows, just wait from morning to evening; When they arrive at the restaurant at noon, they can still resist looking at the food on the table. But when it was time for dinner, the smell of hot dishes on the table hit their noses; But he could only "watch from a distance and not blasphemous", so he had to keep swallowing saliva. If this group of people had just come here as guests, the aunt would have invited them to dinner a long time ago; All are welcome. But they just want to do things so desperately, so naturally they are not welcomed. And the mother also hoped that they would go back to have a full meal, after all, how long this group of people had been carrying here; I'm going to have to be hungry for longer. When my mother was tormented in her heart, I didn't know if God helped; The inch-headed man finally stood up and said weakly, "Forget it! Don't wait, then the day; The awesome little imp cubs are going to starve to death! Let's go, go back and report! Then he waved his hand and beckoned the people who accompanied him to leave. I told you a long time ago that I didn't want to make myself here. The mother put on a face and said angrily. The inch-headed man didn't care about his mother, his hungry eyes were shining now, and he still had the energy to fight here.

Looking at the backs of the group gradually moving away, the mother stood at the entrance of the drying field and watched them completely disappear at the intersection of the mountain; Then he hurriedly beckoned his father to run up the mountain together. Although my mother was sitting in confinement at this time, she was running with all her strength and was no slower than my father; I wish I could fly to the mountains, after all, I would know if I was okay a second earlier. The mountain road was bumpy, and my mother almost slipped several times; Her father was behind her and kept running. Ten minutes away, it took my father and mother a little more than half the time to arrive. Looking at the golden phoenix milk at the door, it was difficult to sit still; Looking left and right, my mother's heart suddenly pinched. "Golden Phoenix Milk! How is my child? The mother couldn't wait to run to the golden phoenix and shouted loudly. Seeing the arrival of the two, Jin Feng's grandmother seemed to be relieved, but she showed a guilty expression. "Dongjiao! Loose and bright! The child was in the house, crying very much at noon; I didn't cry in the afternoon! I smoked the phoenix just now! Listening to the description of Jin Feng's milk, the father and mother were shocked all at once; Realizing that the matter was serious, he hurriedly rushed into the house to check the situation. I only saw my little body twitching from time to time, my body should be normal red, but this will start to turn yellow. Seeing that I was dying, my father was already stunned; My mother seemed very calm at this time, picked me up and shouted to my father, "Hurry up and go, go to Fengqi Mom." After seeing that his mother didn't finish speaking, he didn't stop for a moment and ran out, and his father hurriedly followed behind. At that time, our family was relatively poor, and there was no transportation; Basically on foot. My mother said that she didn't think about anything at that time, and she just ran with her life. Because the speed was too fast, I lost a shoe in the middle of the road; It was his father who picked it up for him in the back.

The amplitude and frequency of my convulsions became more and more severe on the way; My mother ran with her life, and finally brought me to Fengqi Mom's shop alive; The shop is small and remote, and it is full of cabinets full of drawers. "Doctor of the Atmosphere! Look at my child; This way I hugged it and smoked it very much! "I saw a crazy woman rushing into her shop, as if she was holding something? But the seriousness of the situation can be seen in the behavior of the women. Feng Qi's mother hurriedly put down the medicinal herbs in her hand and said, "Put it on the table and let me take a look." "Mother gently laid me down on the table in front of the counter and opened the clothes that were wrapped around me; I saw that I was convulsing, and my whole body was much more yellow than when I was in the mountains. "Oh no! Not only frightened, but also yellow; Hurry up and report to the lamp; I'll give him the medicine first. After that, Feng Qi's mother went to rummage through the drawers on the cabinet to get the medicinal herbs to be used; I asked my daughter to quickly put these medicines into a casserole to cook according to the steps she instructed, and then quickly took a thin needle to help me slowly pick out the blocked blood in the blood vessels one by one. Because my skin was translucent at the time; The blood vessels can also be seen more clearly. Although it is convenient to handle; But the body was too fragile, and it took a while of tossing to relieve his breath. With the sound of crying, the hearts of everyone present finally relaxed. "Cry, cry, cry! If you cry, you can do it. Feng Qi Ma sighed lightly; Said softly. Not to mention, I was really hungry at the time; And my mother also said that when I was a child, I was a very good eater, and I was not a picky eater; To what extent? Even the Chinese medicine that my father drank with stomach pain, the pain that even adults couldn't resist at that time, I was able to take a few spoonfuls without any waves. Don't look at such a big bowl of Chinese medicine; Under the feeding of my mother, I drank it with a mini spoon of medicinal powder from my mother, and drank it spoonful by spoonful. I don't know how I did it at the time, but it's easy to do it now. The effect of this medicine is really good; It didn't take long for my complexion to look much better, and I soaked urine in my clothes and fell asleep peacefully; looked at today's protagonist now as if it was none of his business, and thought of today's shocking process; I can't make my father and mother smile bitterly.

Later, when I returned to my aunt's house; In fact, it didn't last long. When asked the reason, it came back to a dream of his mother one night; According to her, she was also at her aunt's house in her dream, and she dreamed of her aunt's deceased mother and brother; I was cooking soybean milk on a fire in the kitchen, and whispered that I was going to throw me into the pot and cook a piece. When I dreamed of this, my mother had been awakened by what they were saying, so that my mother did not sleep that night, but waited until morning; Early in the morning, I asked someone to call my father to pack up my things, and my aunt watched my mother act so eagerly; Puzzled, he asked, "It's good to live here, what are you doing today?" I have to go back. "Mother is naturally not good at telling the truth; Just found a casual reason, and after repeatedly thanking him, he returned home with his father. The distance between my aunt's house and my house is the farthest among most relatives' houses; I remember walking for more than an hour with my cousins and cousins when I was a child, not to mention that my parents had to carry their belongings. By the time I got home, it was from early morning to noon. My house was located in a relatively high part of the town at that time, because it was relatively close to the town hall; So there's a lot of light around it. My father and mother were buying a resettlement house; One building has five floors; My family lives on the fifth floor. The layout of the house is not large, with two bedrooms, one living room, one kitchen and one bathroom; But at the time, it was passable. Because of the area; A lot of things are carved out of the wall, such as cabinets and places to put out the kettle. The second bedroom has a balcony outside; That is, the area of some secondary bedrooms is castrated, so it will not be very large. Standing on the balcony, facing the endless mountains; Under the reflection of the sun; The dazzling of the blue. In my hometown, as long as you look at the end of the sight, there are mountains, as if you are surrounded by mountains; That's why we got the name of the town because of its characteristics. It can be said that "the side of the ridge is a peak, and the height is different." ”

Back home; After a simple tidying up, my mother asked my father to go to school and call my brother and Mengqiao to come back for dinner; I came back from buying some vegetables, and because of me, my brother would go to my grandmother's place for dinner with Mengqiao; Now that my mother has returned, I thought that I would make it easier for my grandmother without bothering her. Brother Qiao is also a poor-born person; When he was very young, his father liked to fight and kill in society, and often did not leave the house. Then I didn't know what I did and was arrested and put in prison, when my grandmother received a notice from the police station; It's just for the family to deal with the aftermath. Until now, no one in our family knows how this uncle died, so that when everyone rushed to the police station, they didn't even see the body. In the end, Brother Qiao's mother also chose to leave Brother Qiao and her eldest daughter Haiyan and remarry into another family, so that Brother Qiao and Sister Yan both grew up with their grandmother and grandfather; When I was a child, I was bullied because I was short, but who can I say it to? Sometimes I really feel sorry for him; Without his parents, it is not easy for him to grow up without taking the wrong path. But I would still be sneered at by my family at every turn, and even my father would be ridiculed when he had nothing to do; Whenever I heard his unbridled mouth, I would stop him, but my father was a relatively one-sided person and only looked down on the rich; And forgetfulness, or what you say, he doesn't listen at all. After a few repeated conversations, I thought it would be just a matter of stopping.

The school was not far from our home, when I was born; My brother is in the third grade of primary school, and Brother Qiao is in the second grade; Looking at the two skinny children wearing red scarves, the mother's eyes were full of distress; I thought that I had neither been a good mother nor a responsible sister. With his father, who was born as a chef, a few home-cooked dishes are naturally handy for him; Returning to the kitchen is like coming home; It doesn't take much effort to make a table of delicacies. At the dinner table, facing the long-lost delicacy; The children ate and even the questions asked by their mothers were answered with a chirp. The mother was also amused and distressed when she looked at it; Didn't bother them either. Instead, my father said to my mother with a sad face: "The business in the store is getting worse and worse, and now it is starting to lose money; I'm not going to do it, you can help me ask where I want people to do things. "I have been married to my father for so long, and my mother can't say that she knows the roots; But she still knows what kind of person her father is. So I didn't do anything to dissuade him, but simply replied: "Let me ask!" Then I happened to hear that a distant relative needed a chef to open a restaurant, and he was also interested in his father's appetite; Although it was in the county seat at that time and it was far away from home, my father still chose to go; After all, there is still a family to feed.

Father is gone; The family was even more pitiful, because they couldn't receive money from their father for a long time. Even for a long time; My mother and brother spent their meals on noodles and a little soy sauce. My mother is a good drinker, and she usually doesn't have any food to drink, so she directly soak the dried plum vegetables she brought from her grandmother's house in boiling water and eat them as snacks. My brother is also sensible and pitiful, and he never complains about such conditions. Every time I came back from school, my mother would sometimes take care of me or do other things, and my brother would help cook the noodles in the pot. Every time I received a small salary from my father; My mother would always take out a dollar and ask my brother to buy two starchy sausages to eat with noodles. Every time my brother heard that he could buy ham sausages to eat, he would jump up and down with joy. When I first heard my mother talk about it, I was also shocked; Until I write now, my nose will be a little sour; I wonder if my brother would have lived a happier life without my birth. I also asked him how he felt when he first saw me. He said he was just smirking happily and had no other thoughts. This made me feel even more indebted to him, so after I entered the society and gained something; As far as I can, I will choose to help him for free. Sometimes my friends ask me suspiciously; I would just smile and say, "He's my brother." ”

Because when you are born, your hands are not fully developed; The fingers are still connected together, and they are in the shape of a fist, and they can't be opened. My mother massaged my hands every day, helped me slowly open them, and carved the flesh between my fingers with the thread of the sewn clothes. By about two or three months after I was born; The mother decided to go for sterilization. After this experience; My mother didn't want to repeat the mistakes of the past, so she went to the police station on the way back to help me get a household registration; The police station checked that it was a smuggler, but the child had been born for so long, and the mother had to pay a fine of several thousand yuan. At that time, the family failed because of continuous entrepreneurship; The family doesn't have much savings anymore. The money my father sent back from outside could barely support the family; In the end, I had to take out the money from my family for emergencies and pay a fine. At that time, the family was really poor and there was nothing left. But when I was young, I was a sick seedling; When I was ten months old, I suddenly had a torrential downpour in the middle of the night. My mother was worried that I would repeat the mistakes of the past, so she wrapped me up with a question to answer; I didn't bother to change my clothes and went to the hospital. I stayed in the hospital for about ten days and didn't get better; My mother also kept watch over me all night and didn't close my eyes. Because the family didn't have much savings at that time, the money for medical treatment was borrowed from my aunt; I just learned about it while chatting while borrowing money, so I gave my mother a Chinese medicine prescription and asked her to prescribe the herbs according to the prescription and boil it so that I could drink it a few more times. Don't say it, my uncle is really a man with a way; I don't know where he got the prescription, and the hospital hasn't been looking at the disease for a while; I was really cured by his prescription. He was also a literate man at the time, and he gave me my name; At least my father was raving when he heard the name.

The cause of loose bones at birth, not even walking until the age of four; Even when you sit, you immediately fall to the side. But I can talk relatively early, and I will call my father when I turn one year old. The people around me looked at me as I was almost four years old and couldn't sit steadily, and they all said that I might have hypochondriasis; How do you know that on the 10th day of the first month of the first month of the year when I was four years old, I suddenly stood up on my own. My father and mother were so surprised and delighted at that moment, and even now I think it's incredible; Sometimes I wonder if those brothers and sisters really can't stand me as a sick man, and they help me up; It's a good thing anyway. But the bad thing is that it won't be long before I can walk; My grandfather, who loved us, also left us. During this period, my father started many businesses but still ended in vain, and after returning from distant relatives, I heard my two uncles say that they would harvest winter bamboo shoots and resell them to make money; It just so happened that the two uncles were digging winter bamboo shoots and preparing to sell them. It's okay, if you have money, you must turn it! My father soon quit his job as a chef and came back to resell winter bamboo shoots, but later he made a lonely fortune because he didn't know the market. I'm thinking about getting back to my old ways; So I raised money everywhere and opened a restaurant, but I didn't work long and saw that the restaurant that had not yet opened was profitable, and in the end, it was not enough; Later, it returned to the distribution of bamboo shoots, but there was still no improvement. In the end, he took his mother and two of them to do small work for others, mowing bamboo and cutting rice; There is nothing wrong with cutting rice, after all, my mother grew up doing this. It is not a simple job to drag a bamboo five or six meters long with thigh-thick roots down the mountain from the mountain, but it takes a whole day; This is a time for my father to be out of breath for two or three trips, let alone my mother, who is already thin. But in order to make ends meet, he has to pay off the debts he has previously owed, and he has no choice but to do so; In my mother's recollections, I learned that the bamboo root had to be dragged on the shoulder; When going down the mountain, you should stabilize your speed and not be too anxious, otherwise you will easily fall, but the pressure on your shoulders and the friction back and forth in the bamboo towing will cause damage to your shoulders. Therefore, you need to make a thick cotton cloth to pad your shoulders and use it as a basic protective gear, but you will still get hurt after a long time; At its worst, the whole piece of skin on the shoulder where the mother was carrying the bamboo was worn off; The entire shoulder is blood-red. Occasionally, when I went back to my parents' house, I didn't say anything after being inadvertently seen by my grandparents; Just wiped tears with distressed eyes. In that patriarchal era, daughters' parents would treat them very harshly at home; But who wouldn't feel distressed if they were wronged outside? Maybe my grandfather thinks that the most regrettable thing he has done in his life is to marry his mother to his father.

I don't know if you will believe the first seven return home; On the seventh night after death, people go home to take one last look. If it is hearsay, I will not believe it; But I'm the one who has been through it. In the countryside, it is said that children should not go out to play at night; It is said that children have too little yang energy, and they will encounter unclean things. Since it can be spread, it is not groundless. Until now, it is a child who has yin and yang eyes. According to the mother; At that time, my grandfather had just been buried, and that day was the seventh day of my grandfather's first year; The family invited a bunch of people dressed as Taoist priests to do it, and they also brought suona and gongs with them; It looks pretty professional. Just watch them sing and dance with the sound of suona; Actually, I don't know what they sing. There are many frescoes hanging on the walls, and most of the contents of the frescoes are horrific after all; It's all a different way of death for Hades to try some people who have done bad things in the yang world to go to hell and be executed, because it's too bloody, I won't go into too much detail, and those who have seen it also understand. Until the afternoon after the novelty has passed; The sleepy worm crawled on my nerves, so I went to bed and fell asleep without telling my mother. My mother told me what happened after that; said that it was about eight or nine o'clock in the evening, only to hear me in the room wake up and call there: "Mom! Grandpa is back! Mother! When my mother heard this, she hurried over and watched me sit on the bed in good spirits; It's not at all like talking nonsense after falling asleep. So he came over and hugged him and bent over and said, "Phew! Hey, who is not shocked! Bah! Give me back the horror! "My mother was afraid that I would be scared out of my soul when I saw something bad, so she hurriedly helped me call my soul back. Then he tilted his head and said, "Uncle! This is your grandson, don't hack him. "It sounds incredible to me so far. But I believe that even if he comes back, he will not come to harm me; Just wanted to look at me, but I just woke up and took a look.

Because my father and mother had to do small jobs, I would usually leave me to my grandmother's care. Only when my brother is on summer vacation will he pick it up and let him take care of it. When I was a child, I didn't feel easy; My father and mother started crying not long after they left, and my brother was not a very coaxing character; After all, he was also a schoolboy at the time, so he let me cry all the time; After crying for a while, I forgot the reason why I was crying, and then I played my own game. I remember once he said that when he was sleeping with me in his arms, I was still comfortable with a soak of urine in his pants in my sleep; After that, he was reluctant to hug me. Mothers would prepare meals before going out; Then put the retort in the pot to keep warm, and then my brother may find it more troublesome; So just put the retort on the ground and let me figure it out myself. At that time, I had just learned to walk; It's hard to get an iron rice spoon, let alone put the rice in a bowl; It can be said that half a bowl of rice is on the spoon, and half a bowl of rice is scattered around the wooden retort. My brother couldn't take care of all these things, and every time my mother came back to see such a messy scene; The first few times I will patiently explain to my brother, it can be seen that the more fruitless the times; I got used to it. Stay every day until I'm tired of entertaining myself; I would go to the dining table and pull a table to the window, and when I dragged it, the stool legs rubbed against the floor to make a creaking sound, which would make my brother frizzy every time; But I don't bother to say it. Then I trembled and climbed onto the stool, half of my body lying out of the window, looking forward to it. Our family's old house was in an alley on the side of the road, with a long walkway when we came in from the intersection. Every time I watched my father and mother walk down that aisle when they were finished, I would shout with joy, "Daddy! Mom! "The toes are slightly strained on the stool, and the feet are completely free and the body is fully supported in front of the windowsill. It's a natural pleasure for me; But it frightened the father and mother downstairs. Although they were very tired after a busy day, every time they saw me do this, my mother would shout with relief and worry: "Don't lie so high, hurry down!" Mom will be back later, Meixing! Hurry up and take my brother in, and I'm going to fall off later. Then my brother would reluctantly come out of the room and carry me off the windowsill. My father and mother would count my brother down, and this scene was repeated almost every day; Everyone is used to it.

used to say that if you give birth to a second child, the eldest will not kiss her; Although there are a lot fewer now, it is not naturally indispensable in my house. Actually, my mother wasn't so partial; It's my father, no matter what happened before my brother and me, and it was up to me to be controversial; My father would always hold my brother accountable. I remember a few common sentences: "Are you the elder brother who doesn't know how to let the younger brother go?" "If your brother wants this, you will give it to him, and when he is so old, he still grabs things from his brother." These words; When it rings in my ears now, it only makes me feel more ashamed of my brother. When I was a child, my brother loved to watch martial arts movies, and I loved cartoons at that time. It just so happened that my father's weather forecast and news broadcast also started at this time. Naturally, my father is not good at grabbing TV with us; But because I couldn't snatch my brother and was making trouble, my father struck while the iron was hot and snatched my brother's TV remote control; watched the CCTV he was familiar with with peace of mind. At this time, even though I was still crying, when I was really noisy, I would say impatiently: "Don't be noisy! I'll show you after watching the news broadcast. "I didn't know that my favorite cartoon happened to collide with the news broadcast. Hearing this provocative reassurance, I cried even louder; Sometimes my mother couldn't stand the crying in the kitchen, and she would come out and try to get my father to compromise. But my father really stood up to the noise and refused to leave after reading the last news, and said with a disgusted face before leaving: "Good nag! Take it and quarrel here for one night. "Then I finally got control of the TV; But because my favorite cartoon has ended, I can only pretend to be aggrieved and watch the cartoons of other hours; In fact, at that time, I felt that the whole world was the same as mine. That's how our family is; The same thing happens to the same people in the same place at the same time; It repeats itself almost every day, but no one changes it.

By the time I was five years old; It was the first time I walked into the academy as a member. At that time, the kindergarten was not divided into large classes, middle classes, and small classes, that is, kindergarten for one year; Preschool for one year, after which you can go to elementary school. In fact, I was quite happy the day before I signed up; The thought that I could go to the same school as my brother and have so many peers around; The only thing that made me think wrong was that my parents wouldn't stay with me in school. On the day of school, when my mother took me into the classroom, I was shocked by the image that caught my eye; Children all over the ground were lying on the ground, crying, and tossing and turning back and forth irregularly. What overwhelmed me even more was that they didn't have parents around them; At this time, I looked at my mother with a pleading face and did not speak, and my mother also sensed my meaning, leaned over and bent over my ear and whispered: "Maotou is so brave, surely he is not afraid of it?" Maotou is the bravest child, and your mother will pick you up at noon! Seeing this, the teacher next to him also kindly agreed. How did I know this teacher at that time; I was scared when I saw a stranger come up and try to pull me away, and my mother said don't talk to strangers! But in order to set off their praise; I still replied forcefully: "I am brave! When my mother heard me say this, she immediately praised me and said, "Yes! Hairy head is the best! The bravest! "I didn't know I was choked up by then. When my mother slowly let go of my hand and walked out of the classroom, I couldn't hold it anymore; Collapsed and sat on the ground crying. I still remember that day vividly; Every child in the classroom was crying all morning, and the two teachers couldn't be appeased, so they couldn't take care of the class. I was really tired from crying, so I stopped to look at the little fat man sitting next to me. He sensed that I was looking at him; He stopped crying and looked at me, and we looked at each other without speaking; Maybe halftime was enough; The little fat man continued to play with great enthusiasm. Then how could I lose to him; Definitely to cover his voice. Then our cries grew louder and louder; It may be that the tears have been dried up, and it is only thunder and rain in that light. At that time, there was another thing that is still a little embarrassing and profound when I think about it! I don't know if it's panic and nervousness or if I drank too much water in the morning; Crying and crying, there is a urge to urinate. But because I don't know the teacher well, I'm embarrassed to speak; It's just holding back. As my bladder distended, so did my crying; When people cry, they will naturally use the breath of the upper abdomen; All some musicians will sing high notes; Imitate the principle of a child's crying to ensure that your high pitch can go up steadily. But I'm certainly not so natural now; I'm afraid that the sluice gate will burst open if I accidentally do it.

But it is still no match for the urging of time; So much so that I had stopped crying, frowning and gritting my teeth so that I could concentrate on the gate. "No more!" The feeling of being on the spot made these three words immediately appear in my mind. With a burst of crying, I was relieved that the floodgates were opened at the same time. Soon this mighty "flood" spread around, and the little fat man looked at the yellow liquid that slowly spread; Hurriedly stopped crying and ran to the side, and the people around him reacted immediately. The crying slowly turned into a sigh, which was noticed by the teacher on the other side, who was comforting the other children. Hurriedly ran over and helped me up; Watching my soaked pants and crumbling cries first led me to a quieter place outside the classroom, and didn't get angry and blame me; She hunched her waist and said kindly: "Maotou! If you want to pee, you have to tell the teacher, and the teacher will take you to the toilet! I didn't answer at the time; Just thinking in my heart "Nonsense! If I dare to tell you, I still need to pee on my body. "When the teacher saw that I was silent, he didn't say much; Just standing outside with me waiting for the end of school, another teacher covered the classroom with water first; Then use a mop to help me clean up the scene. I don't know how long it took; I quieted down. Because it was summer, my pants were almost half dried by the sun reflected on me, and I remember that before the school bell rang, many parents were standing at the door of the classroom waiting to pick up their children; The mother was also mixed in with the crowd. The moment I saw my mother, the aggrieved emotions suddenly gushed out. Although there was no crying; His eyes were also full of tears. Looking at my soaked pants, my mother probably understood what was going on; Because he knows my character very well. In order to take care of my little self-esteem and not be complained about by other parents in person; With the teacher's permission, my mother picked me up early. Although my pants were completely wet, my mother didn't dislike them; Leaning down and letting me into my arms. Seeing that my emotions were slowly calming down, my mother also tentatively asked, "I am embarrassed to make friends with my teachers and classmates when I went to school for the first time today?" I didn't answer my mother, I just turned my head and put my arms around her neck.

Back home; Seeing this, my father wanted to educate him, but was stopped by my mother's sudden speech. They took me straight to the bathroom, took a new shower, and put me in clean clothes. When it's just the two of us alone; Only then did my mother say earnestly: "You should make more friends with other classmates in school, and everyone will have fun together!" If you want to go to the toilet, go and tell the teacher, don't be afraid; Teachers are also good friends of everyone! Maotou is the bravest and most powerful, huh, right? "Listen to the praise of the teachings; I listened more or less, but I just nodded vigorously. Came to school again in the afternoon; Looking at the back of my mother's departure, I was ready to cry for a while; But I saw the little fat man next to me in the morning. I thought he would laugh at my shameful behavior in the morning; Unexpectedly, he walked straight towards me, took my hand to the block box in the corner of the classroom, and played with the blocks. We didn't speak; Just open your mouth and gesture when you compare the bricks to each other when you put the blocks together into an animal. It didn't take long for me to forget about my mother. When I was a child, I was a very shy person, and I generally didn't take the initiative to find others; But if someone gives me face, I'll go around it right away. The little fat man later became my best friend in kindergarten, and every time I went to the toilet, I didn't dare to ask the teacher, but he took the initiative to say that we both wanted to go to the toilet; Then we would go together, but several times he didn't look like he was going to the bathroom. I have forgotten his name; I haven't seen him since kindergarten, so maybe he went to elementary school in the county seat after that. Time flies; I hope he's doing well.

At that time, my brother and I didn't have a completely alongside each other when we watched TV. At that time, there was a new Japanese anime called "Naruto", which my brother and I would watch every day at noon; I obviously can't fully understand the content like he does, but as long as it's a cartoon, I like it. It is precisely because of the launch of this anime that it caused a wave of Hokage in our village; It also made me eat the first time I remembered that the beef roast from my mother was actually a thin branch on a bamboo, and after the leaves were removed, it was used as a tool by the farmers who herded the cattle. But I didn't know that it was the smart parent who actually set the precedent of using cow roast to beat children; It is said that it will not hurt the muscles and bones when it is burned with cow, and it can also make the child remember it. In fact, this anime didn't air for long at that time; But the commissary at the entrance of our elementary school is very good at listening to the style, and the shopkeeper himself definitely doesn't look at it. Because the commissary was a humble little house; There was no name either, and the owner was a woman who looked to be in her thirties and forties; Someone called her mother-in-law a long time ago, and there were many people who called her, and we also called her mother-in-law's shop directly, but the pronunciation was bobo, the first was the third tone, and the second was the second tone.

School ends at noon one day; My brother changed his usual attitude and ran back happily. When I entered the door, I came to me and told me a secret; It was rare to see how enthusiastic he was for me, and I must have followed him into the room after his ass. Seeing him cover my ears with his hands, he blocked the other mouth with his mouth and whispered, "My mother-in-law's shop approved Naruto's forehead guard to sell it, it's very handsome!" It's only sold for five dollars. "Many people who have watched this anime should know that it is the ninja in it who wears something similar to a headscarf on his head. Although the workmanship looks a little rough and rudimentary; But at least that's the thing. I heard my brother say that; I already like to play all kinds of powerful characters in anime, and I look at him with an incredible face; I wish I could bring him to my forehead right now to show off. After discovering that your words have begun to bear fruit; My brother increased his horsepower. "I bought that one and wore it like Naruto in Naruto! When I came back, I saw that several had already been sold; It's almost sold out in the afternoon. "Sold out?" These words suddenly appeared in my heart, and this is worth it; Hurriedly ran out to find his father, who had recently returned from work, and squeezed on top of him with a pleading voice, humming and not speaking. "Huh, what? Say whatever you want! Father finally couldn't stand my sudden move and asked impatiently. Give me five bucks, I'm going to buy a Naruto toy. "What toy costs five dollars?" Father asked in surprise. Then I described to him in detail the appearance and origin of the forehead guard; And from time to time to interject a few sentences, how good and cost-effective this thing is. My father probably didn't listen, but he was a little overwhelmed by my soft and hard words and demeanor. Seeing that his father was about to compromise and take out his wallet from his pocket, my mother heard the wind at some point; He came out of the kitchen and said, "Don't buy it for him!" A toy costs five dollars, and it is thrown away after two days of playing; He bought it for him as soon as he made a fuss, and he got it into a habit in the future. Hearing my mother say this, my father also felt that it seemed to be so reasonable. And he took out his hand which was in his pocket; No matter how coquettish and crying I was, my mother even helped my father stabilize his determination at this time by serving food from the kitchen.

Seeing that I tried my best and still didn't shake my father in the slightest, I didn't pretend to be anything; He got up from the ground and walked up to his father and muttered, "If you don't give me money, I'll steal the money and buy it myself." "Actually, now that I think about it, I don't know why I said hello to my father first. Hear me say that; The father smiled bitterly: "Steal! If you steal money and come back, you will be beaten and sent to the police station. I didn't continue to argue with my father, I just snorted playfully and walked back to my room. It wasn't until my mother beckoned me to start the meal that I sat at the dining table and even thought about what it would look like when I put on my forehead guard when I was eating; I simply ate the small half bowl in three or two clicks, and immediately left the table and went to the room. Rubbing his father and mother chatting for idle days, he quietly walked behind the door of the room; Because my father used to put the loose money he found every time he bought something in a cross-bag on the hook behind the bedroom door, this subtle act naturally couldn't escape my eyes. I tiptoed to unzip my satchel, and there were a lot of change in it of different sizes; Coins and banknotes are available. But there are only two five-dollar bills, which may be the first time to sit on this kind of stealing chickens and dogs; It's a little nervous. I didn't even think about pulling a five-dollar bill out of my bag, zipping it up, and deliberately lingering in the room for a while; Seeing that his father and mother didn't notice the abnormality, they quickly ran out of the door and prepared to go downstairs, and they didn't forget to throw out a sentence: "I'll go to school!" "When my mother saw that I was in such a hurry, she wanted to stop me and wait for her to go with her. Why don't I have to wait, if I wait, my forehead will be all on someone else's forehead. You call me stupid, right? I also know to look at the wind in the room first. But to say I'm smart, right? I didn't take so much change in my bag, but I took the smallest amount of five-dollar bills; I was running so fast, I was reluctant to go to school every time I used to go; Seeing that I was so abnormal, my father gradually realized whether this child had really stolen money; Originally, my father thought I was saying this on purpose because I was angry. Take the satchel and open it, yes? It's really five dollars less, and a good boy really dares to steal so much money to buy something. At that time, toys generally said that it was about five cents a dollar, and the meat at that time was only seven or eight yuan a catty. After confirming that I had stolen the money, my mother went out to chase me without even bothering to wash the bowl. But the speed in my mood at that time was something my mother could catch up with.

ran all the way to my mother-in-law's shop; As my brother said, there isn't much left to protect my forehead. I can't reach it when it hangs on a relatively high wall; I can only call my mother-in-law for help. My mother-in-law came over and looked at the sudden need to buy such an expensive thing, and she was afraid that I was too small to understand the amount of money, so she explained to me, "You want to buy this?" This one is very expensive. When she saw me nodding and pulling out five dollars from my pocket, my mother-in-law was even more surprised. Because she and my mom knew each other before, and she knew that my mom would definitely not give me that much money; So he asked, "Your mother gave you this money?" Do you buy this and your mother knows? "How dare I tell the truth, I can nod my head vigorously no matter what she asks." This thing will not be sold to you; Wait a minute, your mom is going to come to you, and if you want to buy something, pick something for five cents. Then my mother-in-law said that she would not sell me the forehead protector, and she saw that the more it dragged on, the more dangerous it became; Thinking about my mother, maybe it was just behind. I had to go to the counter and casually take a bag of spicy noodles and drop five yuan and ran into the school, because I didn't understand the definition of finding money at that time, I only knew how to pay the money with one hand and take the goods with the other.

Not long after I entered the school on my front foot, my mother ran to my mother-in-law's shop out of breath; After some inquiry, I learned about it. The mother thanked her mother-in-law and took back the remaining four dollars and five cents; The enraged mother tore off a cow burner from the broom head in her mother-in-law's shop, where we used to make a number of long thin bamboo branches. Pull out one casually and it's beef roast. On the way home from school; My mother didn't say a word about stealing money today, and I mistakenly thought they didn't find out. As a result, as soon as I got home, my mother pulled out the cow roast hidden behind the door, and without saying a word, came up and beat me on the ass and legs; After a few lashes, the sour feeling immediately spread all over the body, and the whipped ones jumped up and cried with their feet. But my mother didn't mean to stop, and after a few hits, she would ask me if I still dare? The father chimed in: "Well played! I thought you weren't that bold; Dare to steal money at such a young age. "How dare I be strong at that time; I could only cry and shake my head, and I didn't dare to block it with my hands; Where there is resistance, there is sin. Even the brother on the side was stunned; Eighty percent of it evokes the picture of déjà vu in his childhood. After that, I didn't dare to steal money from my bag for a long time. is also submissive in front of his mother; From then on, my mother would always hang the cow burn on a wooden frame high in the living room to deter her. This became the beginning of my childhood nightmare.