I've written before, "There's nothing more like a look to make you feel the difference between the material and the spiritual."

But when I write this, I have not experienced death, but from a literary point of view, I am exploring the unreachable distance between the cold material world of March, such as flowers, wet sneakers, and the remains of dead people, and the human spiritual world.

Recently, I've gained a deeper understanding of what I've written before.

Half a month ago, I took a day off, saying that I was sending the elderly at home to a hospital in Guangzhou for medical treatment.

In fact, when I was treated in my hometown hospital, I had already been diagnosed with advanced lung cancer, and I just didn't give up when I went to the hospital in Guangzhou, and I just wanted to see if there was a chance.

The rhetoric of the doctors at Guangyi Cancer Hospital is almost the same as that in my hometown.

At the age of 93, and at an advanced stage, surgery is not possible.

Chemoradiotherapy is also impossible.

The pain of chemotherapy and radiotherapy is unbearable even for young people, let alone people in their nineties.

I didn't prescribe a single pill.

The doctor in Guangzhou, who is not as secretive as the doctor in his hometown, took a look at the case and said, "Lung cancer is in the advanced stage, and the gods are difficult to cure."

After all, who went to Guangzhou from all over the province or South China to see a doctor, which one didn't have a bad look at the hospital at home and went to the big hospital with the last glimmer of hope...... In fact, at this point, most of them are unsaved.

The doctors of Guangyi Cancer Hospital saw it very thoroughly and said bluntly: When you are a child or grandchild, don't think about how to treat them as much as possible, it is to be filial to the elderly. At his age, let him live his last days in peace, don't take him to run here and there, and do a good job of hospice care to call filial piety.

Ten days after returning home from Guangzhou, the old man was gone.

From the detection of advanced lung cancer to his death, it was only two months.

Because of his age, we have no way to treat him, we can only watch him leave, which is a kind of powerless pain; And because he was old, his body couldn't carry it for too long, so he left without suffering much pain, which was a blessing in misfortune.

During the funeral, I stayed in the mourning hall for one night.

Grandpa's face was surrounded by a circle of flowers, all of which were delicate and fresh.

It's a pity that there is no beauty.

The body temperature was cold, the lips were dark red, and the sunken eye sockets could no longer be filled.

This is what a life looks like when it is gone......

The three hours in the funeral home also made people sigh in their hearts.

A fire, a box of ashes.

The transition from organic to inorganic condensed ninety-three years of life.

In the rising flames, a man just vanished, erased from the world along with his joys and sorrows, leaving no possibility of meeting again.

To be honest, I don't feel particularly sad, I just have a feeling of powerlessness.

What will happen to the old man at this age, he has more or less hinted at himself in his heart over the years, and he is quietly ready to face it.

Things do happen, and all that can be done is acceptance.

Maybe there will be a little bit of insight.

When you are older, you will begin to experience life and death, and you will understand this truth: in this world, except for your own body, everything is outside the body.

So, guys, take care of your young and healthy body, it's the only thing you've ever had, isn't it?

……

Start resuming updates today.

But I don't think I have any code words for the next period of time.,So this main plot will advance with fate.,Write more daily.,Forget where the plot is written.。