Chapter 40: Stay Alive
"Live, live?!"
"Yes, start over, aim for this, and from now on, you have to work hard to live!"
I don't know if the three words 'live' are too deafening, or if the goal Zhou Zhongqing set for her is too contrary to her consistent wish, in short, the moment she heard his words, Bai Yueying was stunned for a long time and didn't come back to her senses.
"Yes...... Zhongqing, I'm just a ghost......"
It took a while for Bai Yueying to stumble out this fact, she was just a ghost with no heartbeat, no breath and no sense of existence, but it was undeniable that the moment she heard 'live', she also inexplicably had a heart beating and blood rushing, the feeling called being alive.
"What's wrong with the ghost, this can only mean that this is a state of existence for you, whether it is a human being, an animal, a plant, or a microorganism, there are always various forms of life on display, and you can't die in this state anyway, so why can't you live in this state?"
"But I seem to be ......"
Bai Yueying wanted to say that her existence was incompatible with this world, there was no connection, no real feeling, no past, no future, and existence was naturally meaningless, but the words were stuck in her mouth.
She suddenly remembered how she had changed in the past few days, who said there was no link? Zhou Zhongqing was standing beside her; Who says there's no real feeling? The ghost backpack was not in vain; Who said there is no past? The pamphlet around her neck is her past; Who says there is no future, no expectations? She hasn't eaten the fragrant meal at night, she hasn't finished reading the book, the garlic sprouts haven't been watered, and she hasn't done anything about squeezing toothpaste and drying clothes for him every day......
It can't be said that Zhou Zhongqing let her live, but that she has been doing this for a long time, and the experience is quite good.
In the past, she did not have any contact with this world, so she naturally hoped to leave this world and end this endless wandering.
And now when she quietly came back to her senses, Bai Yueying noticed that she had unconsciously made so many connections with this world.
These links constituted 'life', and she suddenly understood that 'life' corresponded to 'death', which meant that she would never see Zhou Zhongqing again, so her heart suddenly swelled with sadness.
Zhou Zhongqing didn't know what she was thinking, but she just saw her looking at him in a daze.
"Didn't you ask me a question yesterday, and you said we were friends."
Zhou Zhongqing looked at her and replied seriously: "Count me as a friend, I think I'm friends with you, and you are different from others, you are my only ghost friend." ”
"Well, you're my only human friend...... The only friend. Bai Yueying muttered.
"Yes, because you are my friend, I will not kill you, and because you are my friend, I will be sad that you die."
"You—Will you feel sorry for me......"
"Of course it will, I will be worried because you can't remember things, and I will be sad because of your death, in my opinion, two people meet and become friends, there is not much limited fate in life, not to mention that I am a human being, you are a ghost, this is more like a kind of divine revelation, it only happens in a moment of fate, fate sends us to each other, so that we who could not meet become friends, I want to help you, I just hope you can live well."
Zhou Zhongqing's true confession of his friend, Bai Yueying was stunned when he heard it.
She looked at him stunned, but there seemed to be thousands of emotions surging in her heart, so a splash appeared out of the corner of her eye, and then the splash turned into a teardrop the size of a bean, and her little mouth deflated, and she cried wow.
"Woo woo woo ......"
“……??”
Why don't you drop a little pearl if you don't agree?!
Zhou Zhongqing immediately panicked, he was most afraid of seeing others crying, and we didn't expect that Miss Ghost, who had always been so emotionally stable that only stupid, would cry!
I hurriedly pulled a tissue and tried to wipe her tears, but in a hurry, I forgot that she was a ghost, and I couldn't wipe it.
Bai Yueying cried and sobbed, the appearance of pear blossoms with rain was really pitiful to me.
Regardless of the image, he wiped a handful of fallen pearls with the back of his hand, crying like a little cat.
"Why are you crying?"
"Woo...... Zhongqing, you are so good...... Whining...... I want to cry at the thought that if I die, I'll never see you so good again......"
“……”
Good fellow, if you don't say it, I thought I was dead, and you were crying for me!
Seeing her crying happily, Zhou Zhongqing also let her, it is a good thing to have mood swings, whether it is happy or sad, the background of life is composed of all kinds of small emotions.
After all, life is a journey that will not leave any traces, the so-called meaning is just this short decades of experience, but the breeze on the river and the bright moon in the mountains, the sound of the ears, the color of the eyes, this is the whole meaning of life.
Probably finally came back to her senses from her dead brain supplement, and seeing that Zhou Zhongqing was still by her side, Miss Ghost snorted, wiped off the last drop of the little pearl with the back of her hand, and stopped crying.
She was already fair-skinned, but after crying, her little face looked puffy, and her big eyes were still a little hazy mist, seeing Zhou Zhongqing looking at her, the little girl was also ashamed, and turned around and didn't speak.
The afternoon gazebo breezed and she stood on the side of the light, until she finally turned back and burst into tears.
In fact, she smiled beautifully, like a white camellia blooming in the fields of early spring.
"I'm going to live well in the future!"
"Got it figured?"
"Uh-huh! For the sake of Zhongqing, I also want to live well! ”
“…… You don't have to be friends, just live for yourself. ”
Suddenly changed her belief in her existence, and it was two completely different target directions, Miss Ghost was still a little confused for a while, and she didn't know where her soul would go for a while.
"Zhongqing, what am I going to do after that?"
"For the time being, let's do as before, and then you can live with me, if you don't dislike it, just treat my house as your home."
Since she is a friend, even if she is just a stupid ghost, but after all, she is helpless, and it is a normal thing to take in a friend to live at home, but Miss Ghost looked a little ashamed when she heard this, and lowered her head with her fingers and whispered:
"Will it bother you?"
“…… Didn't you stay at my house for the past two days? ”
"A different ......"
Going to your house to help you work is the same as treating your house as my home.
"It's no different, Xiao Mang didn't wander around before, but now it's also a part of the family, so can you."
“……”
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