Chapter 418: Confusion (10)

Depression Spring: Confusion (Varu Alan)

(10) Tears welled up

I don't know why I feel like I'm out of love every spring. Listening to a love song repeatedly, tears welled up......

I'm a person who sheds tears easily. Xuemei said: I don't know you yet, but I know that you love to cry. It was the first time I watched a movie in the school's cinema, and the film was called "The Peacock Princess", which was a Dai-style film starring Tang Guoqiang and Li Xiuming. Xuemei felt that the shooting was beautiful, and she was intoxicated, and the mother and daughter next to her were crying and blowing their noses. Because she turned around to look at it so many times, she remembered how we looked like mother and daughter.

Later, I became a classmate, and naturally I often used it as a joke: I have to cry when I read myths and stories, hahaha......

There were a lot of boys there when I was talking, and it was very strange and coke-like. Only Zu Quan said: Tears are detoxifying, it doesn't matter......

I don't cry because I want to get rid of the toxin, I want to stop crying, but the tears are not up to me. I had to listen to a love song over and over again until the spring passed and my tears dried up. In this spring, I listened to Yu Tongfei's "Passing By". When I heard my husband, I would sing inexplicably:

When love comes, who can say that I am reluctant to be lonely-

When love is gone, who can say that I don't feel lost-

When love burns, who can say that I don't feel happy-

When love becomes silent, who can say that I live a very free and easy life-

People who are disgusted by listening to a song too much will sing it, and if they can sing it, they will naturally think it is good. Every year, I will listen to a song by heart, and this problem is left over from writing "For You" when I was in the south more than ten years ago, and listening to Tai Zhengxiao's "Nine Hundred and Ninety-Nine Roses".

Maybe I need to use someone else's melody as the rhyme for my poems. Every year, it's a song sung by a male solo, and I don't know why I cried after listening to this male and female duet "Passing Shoulders" this year.

Once upon a time, after spring, I gave up poetry and music, I didn't know what was popular, and no other tune would enter my ears. Until the next spring was replaced by another song.

But last autumn was very different, and I seemed to be drawn to a kind of heavenly music. It reminds me of a lot of past events and writes a story that seems to be continuous. Actually, I can't tell the difference between memories and imaginations. I was also surprised when the vague names represented people who didn't even mention their names actually appeared, but I pretended to be calm.

Until...... It wasn't until Aunt Lu told me that she was trying to make the call based on my URL and my account name, because she remembered the year of birth I said.

She also said that the reason why she talked to me that year was not because I won the provincial first prize independently, but that night...... She was practicing under a tree in the courtyard of that guest house (a simple qigong "shaking hand") and saw me and a boy walk to a chair by the pond and sit down, and under the light of the only bright light in the whole courtyard, the two of us seemed to be a good match and had a good conversation...... It seems that after kissing, they quickly went their separate ways......

Aunt Lu said that she checked that the boy was from the same university as me and did the same radio and television work in the same area, and she thought she would continue to date. The four-word name she said never appeared in my diary, nor in my memory.

I thought it was the kind of little boy who couldn't help himself after listening to my fallacy, and was so embarrassed that he never saw each other again!

However, I heard that name twice from Ah Ping's mouth in the next month, it seems that he is still a poet, and he is very famous for writing poems in school, so he should be a senior student, otherwise how could he still be in the talk of alumni 20 years later?