My mother died when I was born, my mother gave birth to me and died, my grandmother said that I was unlucky, I was a broom star, my mother was killed by me, because my mother had already given birth to two children when she gave birth to me, if I was kept, I don't know who would be killed in the future, so I tried to give me away, but I inquired about many villages around, in that era of lack of food and clothing, a girl film is destined to not be sent.

I had no milk to eat, I was so hungry that I cried, and my grandmother was angry, so she asked my father to throw me away, and my father threw me into a hole on the side of the mountain road that was washed out by the water during the rainstorm.

Grandpa came back from digging potatoes in the field, and heard the faint cry of a child in the hole, and grandpa went down with a shovel to see that it was a child whose face was purple from the autumn wind, and grandpa jumped down and took off his patched coat and wrapped me, picked me up and put it in his basket with artichokes and carried me back.

When my grandmother saw that I had been carried back by my grandfather, she was very angry, but she didn't dare to speak. When my grandfather knew that I was her granddaughter and that I had been thrown by his own son, he shouted and scolded his son for creating evil, and made a rule that whoever dared to throw me in the future would break someone's leg.

In this way, I lay in my grandfather's arms, drinking the batter that my grandfather used to make pots of tea for me on the brazier every day, and grew up day by day.

Grandma and her two aunts are very angry, grandpa has not hugged his male grandchildren for so many years, but he is so concerned about a girl who loses money and a broom star.

Later, the family was separated, the two uncles took their aunts and cousins to live alone, I lived with my two brothers, my father and my grandparents, my grandmother didn't like me as always, and often scolded me for being a loser of Xuanfan, and called my baby amiable to the two brothers, even if the brothers made mistakes, my grandmother never beat and scolded them, so that my brother also followed my grandmother and felt that I was the broom star who killed my mother, losing money, and often secretly beating and scolding me when my grandfather was not at home.

I have been trying to please people since I was in elementary school, I have been able to help my grandmother since I was three or four years old, and when I was not yet on the stove, I would step on a small bench to cook soup and simple meals for the whole family, and my grandfather would sometimes give me a few pieces of candy, and I would quickly and quietly stuff them into my two brothers so that they would not hate me so much.

I remember when I was six years old, I looked at my two brothers who were hungry every day, and wanted to give my brothers a full meal, so I secretly ran to the kiln, took out a clay pot that my grandmother hid under the rags, and followed my grandmother's example, scooped out the white noodles in the jar, put them on the board, scooped water from the bucket and began to mix the noodles, but the water poured too much, so I went to the jar to scoop the noodles, and the result was too many noodles, so I tossed back and forth until the end, a jar of noodles was scooped out by me, and the noodles were not reconciled.

Just when I was desperate and didn't know what to do, the eldest brother came in, he ran to call grandma as soon as he saw it, grandma was in a hurry, scolded and came in and found the rope in the yard without saying anything, tied a dead knot at one end of the rope, and beat me with a dead knot with the rope, the eldest brother said on the side Who made you hurt people, grandma beat more and more, until she couldn't move, cursed a few words out of breath and sat on the bench in the yard to rest, the eldest brother beat grandma's back, I couldn't hear what to say.

I sat on the ground, and I was thin and short compared to my peers, but I couldn't stand up after being frightened by this beating.

The eldest brother and the second brother complained to the grandfather as soon as he entered the house, saying that I had poured all the white noodles I had on the board.

Grandpa didn't say anything, he carried me to the kang, undressed me, boiled a hot towel in a brazier and dressed my wound, I saw my grandfather crying, my grandfather was not very good at that time, he often coughed, he couldn't stop coughing for a long time, and he was wheezing badly.

I lay on the kang and watched my grandfather's gray beard move around, my grandfather's hair was also white, his face was full of wrinkles, long-term work and long-term wind and sun, grandpa's skin was very dark and rough, and there was plateau red on his face, grandpa's gray eyebrows were very long, and his eyes were not as big and energetic as before, they became cloudy, my grandfather was old, and my eyes were blurred.