The last shot ended.

Gunshots echoed over the cemetery.

All the soldiers turned around and led the team back.

Lin Hui walked up to the family members, slowly helped them up, and bent down sincerely: "I'm sorry, did I not take good care of them, it's all my fault!" ”

The woman got up from the ground and grabbed his arm tightly.

Lin Hui closed his eyes, if he could be beaten by them at this time, his heart would feel much better.

But the woman never moved, but asked seriously: "You... Is it his deputy head of the regiment? ”

Lin Hui opened his eyes and nodded vigorously.

The woman wiped her tears vigorously and squeezed out a smile at him with difficulty: "Our family Xiaowen wrote back before, saying that his deputy head is the best leader, and that it is his greatest happiness to meet such a good deputy head in this life." ”

"He also told me that he doesn't want to go back for the time being, he wants to stay in the army and follow you for a few more years."

"So, don't apologize, we should apologize to you, thank you for taking care of him all the time, my son has caused you trouble......"

As he spoke, tears began to flow down his face.

Another middle-aged man also grabbed Lin Hui's arm and said seriously: "Comrade Chief, don't say you're sorry. That kid in our family used to be a soldier. ”

"If you hadn't come and made him a non-commissioned officer, he would have come back to farm with me a long time ago."

"When he called me, he was always grateful to you, saying that you are the best soldier in the world, and that you are so kind to each of them."

"You can still bring so many people to see them off today, don't say anything, don't blame you...... It's fate! ”

He covered his face and wept silently, and the people behind him also burst into tears.

They held Lin Hui's arm hard, but Lin Hui couldn't hear the words anymore.

At this moment, Lin Hui's head was cloudy.

There was only tinnitus in my ears.

It was as if he had fallen into the sea, as if he had been cut off from the whole world.

I don't know how long it took, but the cemetery also became quiet.

Everyone is gone, and the sound of crying and crying is gone.

Lin Hui sat at the foot of the last step, staring blankly at the arched gate of the cemetery.

At this time, someone called out to him.

Lin Hui opened his mouth and turned his head blankly, it was Xu Qianshan.

Xu Qianshan was also looking at him, with a smile on his face: "What's the matter, are you still sad?" Tell me what is on your mind. ”

Lin Hui glanced at him, and then looked at the gate: "Uncle, a long time ago, I returned to the current regiment from the island, I thought I had found the meaning of being a soldier, but why is my brain getting more and more confused now?" ”

"Why do you want to be a soldier?"

"Is it to protect the family and the country, to protect the people I have never met, or to protect the brothers who eat in the same pot and fight together?"

He looked at Xu Qianshan sharply: "What does it mean to be a soldier?" Uncle, you have been a soldier for so many years, can you tell me? ”

Xu Qianshan looked at him and was stunned for a long time.

I wanted to speak several times, but when the words came to my lips, I didn't know how to speak.

He smiled bitterly and shook his head: "Uncle can't give you an answer." ”

Lin Hui looked at him in confusion.

Xu Qianshan also looked at him: "Every good soldier has his own understanding of being a soldier, and your heart is naturally the same, people are different, they have experienced different things, and their views are different." ”

He looked ahead: "If this gate is the gate of the army, every year many people come in and many people leave, whether they are gone or stay, they all have different understandings of being soldiers. ”

"It's up to you to figure it out, I can't impose my understanding on you, and you can't fit in."

Lin Hui was silent again.

Looking at the arch in front of me, my eyes were full of confusion.

After a long time, he muttered: "I understood the meaning of being a soldier before, that is, to be a good soldier, and when you wear this military uniform, you should be worthy of the status of a soldier." ”

"When you are a soldier, you should love it, and you should do your part well."

"Later, I thought that I could make my brothers stronger, better than other troops, no matter if everyone stood together, bragging or doing something else, our Tiger Regiment will always be the strongest one, and no one can compare to us."

"Later, I wanted to surpass my two older brothers, and even surpass my father."

He continued: "Haven't they been saying, how good soldiers they are, I couldn't refute it before, but now I'm just not convinced, I also wear this uniform, why am I worse than you?" ”

"I just have to surpass you, I just want to prove it to you!"

Xu Qianshan looked at him deeply, as if he was looking at the road he had traveled when he was young.

Lin Hui continued: "Later, extinguishing the mountain fire was out of the duty of our soldiers, because when you wear this military uniform, you must be worthy of this clothes!" ”

"But I have to stand in front of everyone, because I'm their commander, and if I want to fall, I should be the first to fall!"

"Since that day, my meaning of being a soldier has changed again."

"I will guard each and every one of my brothers, and I must not let them do anything, but now ......"

Lin Hui shed tears sadly: "I didn't protect them, watching them fall in front of me, I couldn't do anything, my faith was shattered!" ”

He looked at Xu Qianshan sharply: "Uncle, what is the meaning of being a soldier?" I can't even protect my own brother, am I still a good soldier? ”

Lin Hui was emotional, panting incessantly.

Xu Qianshan watched his sweat and tears fall together, and he couldn't help but feel a heartache in his heart.

It's not just the pain of the matter.

It is also a regret that his juniors have encountered ups and downs on the way forward.

He took a deep breath, patted him on the shoulder, and said, "Boy, maybe it's time for you to rest." ”

"In the special forces, some recruits kill people after the first mission, and his faith collapses, and he can't even pick up a gun, and he can't be a good soldier again, which requires a long period of psychological counseling."

"And you, you are an excellent commander, from the disbandment of your regiment to our southwest first, your heart is full of pride and self-confidence."

"But your soldier died in front of you, and that sense of powerlessness and guilt shattered your pride and self-confidence, just like the special forces who killed someone in the mission for the first time."

Xu Qianshan said earnestly: "You have a good rest for a while, go and take a good look at your thoughts, if not, tell me at any time, I will find the most professional psychological counseling." ”

Lin Hui looked at him stunned: "Is this going to give me a holiday?" ”

Xu Qianshan nodded: "You're too tired, go out for a walk, and go wherever you want." ”

"At the end of the world, you can go wherever you want, do whatever you want, meet whoever you want to meet, and take advantage of this time to do what you want to do."

"I'll give you a month, think about it, I'll be waiting for you here, and your soldiers are waiting for you here."

"I'll have good news for you the day you come back."

Lin Hui turned his head in a daze, and the voices and faces of the two warriors appeared in his mind again.

And the faces of the families.

How he wanted them to come back to life, how much he wanted their families to beat him up.

In this way, his heart may feel better.

So at this moment, no matter what kind of good news it is, it doesn't matter to him anymore.

Lin Hui took a deep breath, slowly stood up, and walked aimlessly towards the outside of the martyr's cemetery.

Xu Qianshan also stood up slowly, looked at his lonely back, and sighed softly: "Lin Hui, you still have to untie this knot yourself!" ”